With the rave scene there is beauty and there is some great
suffering involved, in a scene that involves one sole key and that being music,
in my time in the rave scene I met some very interesting people that wouldn’t
do any sort of drug but what I fell into was a world rife with not only using
one drug but a dozen and parties that consisted solely of dealers.
In a music scene that promotes drug use there will always be
suffering of course, but essentially it is a greater reflection of society when
you are stuck doing drugs when nobody else is looking. A truly free and open
society would have decriminalized and legalized drug use long ago.
When people are doing massive amounts of drugs at a party
and multiply it by ten parties and you have people that can only do drugs to
listen to music, socialize and have sex etc. You meet them at a regular time and
you don’t even recognize them.
People are so blitzed they can be depressed as hell one
minute and then grinding with several muscle boys by the speakers the next. I
never really got to see many pitfalls of the rave scene but these things take
decades to notice.
What I mean is that you don’t notice the negative aspects of
doing massive amounts of drugs until ten years later when you are arrested
under the mental health act for having a fried brain, or you begin to realize
that you are permafried or you have issues such as severe nausea for having
inhaled quite a bit of party drugs.
What you do notice is people constantly fiending for more
drugs, gangs that take over the distribution, relationships torn apart because
one person was just caught making out with several people while the other was
getting water.
Truth is I have no idea where I would be without the rave
scene, I tend to think I would have a regular job, not be nocturnal, not live
with serious disabilities and worry about things like mortgages and a condo or
something
But my path is my own, and I have to say if I had another go
around, I would do it just not doing meth, shrooms, xtacy, GHB, coke, acid etc
thousands of times. In reality my drug use started a few years before I was
going to raves wandering around town on a hit of acid sorta deal, and when your
brain is still developing at about age 13-15 and you are feeding it tons of
stuff that flood the brain with various types of responses being dopamine, serotonin,
synaptic function and misfire etc it either makes you into a bizarre sort of
genius or you get totally permafried and can’t even really function in the most
basic of forms in society.
But these things have been plaguing us since we found
psychadellics as cave people hahaha so to point the finger at the rave scene solely would be a travesty because the music is one of very few that doesn’t
program you endlessly with codes from the illuminati and to be able to forget
your life for one night seems to be the greatest benefit.
However I remember staring out at thousands of people in an
all loving all powerful scene and thinking how inherently lonely and broken I
was, not knowing where I was going to go the next day, not knowing how I will
afford the next party and keeping up with all the madness was tiring
Only now when I have retired from the scene am I able to
reflect on all the strongpoints and pitfalls of it all, I am generally
considered a raver still, being nocturnal and listening to tekno at least 6
hours a night and being happy all the time, truth is, I didn’t get to see many
pitfalls of the rave scene, the scene took care of me, and forgave me when I
made mistakes, it put me on a path of PLUR and put me on a path of techno and
for that I am eternally grateful !
-Shaun A. Delage
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