Taking in Life -

Self of nature,
Self of rhythm,
Self of future,
Self of epitome,
Self of stature,
Being of multiplicity.
One of the greatest romantic, confessional poets of the new millennium.
Community of one.
Community of seven.
Beings of twelve,
Trials of eleven,
Hatred of five,
and the tests of twenty.
Seclusion of seventeen.
Infusion of zero.
Amusement of fifty, Craziness of nine.
Occasional enlightenment of one.
Beings that inhabit your soul, will call out.
Beings that see you as a super imposed reality, will mock.
But who knows what deals they have made?
Those beings that would lock away the masses and throw away the key.
They wear a red sash and call people names without thinking.
They speak out of ignorance.
But mainly out of jurisdictional law.
One would assume that the beings are only in the many.
But the beings inhabit quite so few.
That if we could see them in a room.
Without the guards and the locks, and without the uniform to impose.
But never mind the fact that spilled blood was soaked on their sash and robes.
That hearts were rubbed on the very clothes they wear.
While they sentence you to a few years to be raped and abused.
The most vulnerable in society. It is sickening to think of, but to me...
They would not matter very much.

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JeffyTrix -

Entering the matrix without understanding the matrix,
People placed around you in a more knowing impression.
Nothing to be feared, just something to be cautious of.
I see myself in him at age twenty yet haven’t aged a day.
Now age wise I am an old dinosaur to him,
funny people see us together and imagine us to be in high school.
Preppy meets ray ban.
I want to show him, my ways, my theories, my being.
yet a lot holds me back.
I know he only wants to be enlightened, to not feel lonely when surrounded by people.
More-so to be set free from an internal prison,
people with chaotic looks around you making you feel horrible.
Looking in his eyes I see enlightenment.
I don’t want to freak him out, but I understand why were both here.
Why we both met however odd it was to me... it was beautiful, to him... it was digital.
hoping to find the best of them all,
in some ways I am perfect for him,
in others I could never be.
In some ways I could do whatever I could to make him happy.
But something he needs to understand.
Which many don’t ‘innerstand’ is the need to temper materialistic desires.
Many people cover their own internal pain with beautiful shining things.
It is best to live simply I am sure he understands.
The thoughts surround me of who he will be in five years.
The thoughts enter my soul of what I can make him into.
The thoughts enter my being of what he can teach me.
What he will make me into most of all.
I imagine myself combing his hair, cutting his fingernails, making him dinner, pouring his glass of water, brushing
his teeth for him.
I imagine washing his arms in the bathtub holding him in my arms.
The gazebo by the ocean with fifteen foot, fabric like, flags blowing in the wind.
Slipping the ring on his finger, him slipping one on mine.
Understanding that there is a bond between us.
Being with somebody that is unloving doesn’t work for us, this being I see before me.
An old soul, we have hooked up before.
Both in youth’s bodies.
In some ways he has it better together than I do.
In other ways I am pretty OK too.
I think of us, then I get a pang of worry like what could I offer him.
I only know this, with love anything is possible
I could achieve anything.
I could do anything.
I could be anybody.
I could be with him; of course he has to want it.
I want it.
We both have to be confident.
In some ways I have evolved massively since age twenty in other ways... I am still twenty years old!
I just know....if he was to be with me.
He would never have to cook a day in his life.
I would make it my goal to make sure he doesn’t have to work another day as well.
Love takes time.
Trust takes time.
Bond takes time.
Union takes time.
Enlightenment takes time, but it is everlasting.
Saves the very nature of our being from imploding and self destructing.
I look in his eyes and see much.
I am sure he is aware of me on some level, much will be made apparent.
The choice lies with his soul.
I read through his blogs and imagine.
Some twisted man threesome covered in cake and chocolate.
My mind is pervy.
I am happy not wasting my time on people that don’t matter.
I’m happy making sure I am the most calm person in the world.
So he looks forward to seeing me again and again.
Because that is all he wants is another boy that understands his struggles

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metric life -

I can’t say much that will change his life forever,
but I can be there to offer the most beautiful soul on the planet.
The only true nature of love.
I only trust my guidance from above.
Wanting us both to be mostly free of.
I walk over to him and hand him a kid glove.
He looks at me wondering if it fits and says kind of.
I asked him if I am something to be proud of,
that the world sees me something to be rid of.
Or that my voice is something the matrix is sick of.
I want to slip on his hand a pervy suede glove.
Wondering what is in his mind and what he'll think of.
Naturally figuring out what he will conceive of.
Touching his fingers through the hand and glove.
Never wanting to see the end of.
His beauty enters my soul like true love.
The very being is just the epitome of cute love.
The workings of the boy that will just be the most awesome being to enter my sphere.
I have so much to learn from him. Will he let me?
With each other anything is possible.
Two books finished submitted to publishers with a sense of self, theories collide.
Youthful energetic vibe.
I want to be his bride.
Only to wonder past years why I cried.
Just wanting love to glide.
My nature to guide.
We can just hug and hug and simply hide.
Figuring out naturally born pride.
Weird glances from people knowing they spied.
Watching us walk hand in hand with a confident stride.
Our hands interlaced and completely tied, seeing his face.
I look at the bright side.
Mostly for twenty six years this has been denied,
Soaring through the sky almost paraglide.
Looking somewhat at myself inside.
Watching him hug me by low tide.
Not wanting to lead him away or misguide.
Stroking his long bangs from the north side.
By a tree, outside.
Looking for him wanting to provide.
Smiling I can simply look around needing to take pride.
We can go worldwide, stateside, love tribe.
Just wanting to walk alongside.
Hold his hand, bring him outside.
Showing him that a human can exist without Jekyll and Hyde.
Soaring past the earthen plane great divide.
Just not wanting to be apart and lay to the side.
Scaling cliffs in a love filled with mountain pride.
Wandering the country nationwide.
Careful wanting to stand beside him either side.
Side by side, by the rising tide

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try to spie -


The being that involves me enlightens me.
Stopping in one self to see outer self, requires skill.
Being adept to the true nature of the cause of this madness.
Makes one insane.
But more-so those that have the power to hand out titles.
Are even more insane.
To be in oneself while attempting to halt the infractions on our citizens which goes against the treatment of
prisoners and animals takes a skill.
Because in here you are never human.
You’re only you.
Which you don’t even know what that is.
So how could you accept being given a role, which you don’t even understand.
It is my own faith and becoming that your soul be set free amongst millions.
Because your only soul.
It is the eventual enlightenment of the entire galaxy, and you will be loved for your sacrifice.
To the better good the higher path.
No matter how tough the path is.
Or how many stones cut your hand when you fall.
The haunting souls who reside here yet never die.
The ones I’m in love with need my touch.
Far too precious to lose their lives.
I do the work of insanity to save them.
I can’t believe how many men I will meet on the other side.
Oh my god one boyfriend is not enough, I will have millions.
Going to be hard to keep up but I will manage.
Safety of the feline embrace.
The most divine of all creatures.

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Physical chinese -

The theory of the system is what you make of it.
If you let the system capture the essence of your capitalist craving then you are nothing,
Nothing but spit!
The selfless desire to be something is really nothing if you don’t have any money.
What the heck does the system relay when you’re not given the fruits of slavery.
You are simply a slime covered insect in the grand scheme of things.

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Squirrel Pamper

I took a bit of time to read through this ministry and look back on several years ago and I have to say that my writing style and my eloquence has developed.

It is tough in this world to find your place when your whole brain chemistry is totally fried from multitudes of rave drugs. I feel in some ways that the rave scene really wronged me in a sense, but mirroring the real world being a part of rave culture brings its own plethora of decisions and choices.

I think the world is filled with thousands of people that were irreparably harmed by the rave scene of the 1990’s and the elixirs the chemists cooked up for us. But the other end of the spectrum is that it allowed people that were marginalized and pretty effin weird to come together in a community and dance the night away.

I find quite some comfort in techno still to this day and the parties have not stopped since I started raving but being separated from the rave scene since 2002 you tend to wonder what they are like.

Most people grow out of them, most people get a corporate job and move on, worrying about their kids or mortgage and have no time to party anymore.

I would go to bigger parties in Vancouver and like people were having a seizure every hour at those raves, Vietnamese gang shootings high on coke etc

But the Victoria rave scene was more intimate and everyone knew each other. It was a huge challenge in my life to go from living within a rave community to being outcast on my own will and going from hundreds of friends to living a life of isolation.

Honestly I truly have no regrets however I would have lived my life differently had I had the choice too

I would have respected people more, but that is a choice that is not given to you when you have serious chemical combinations in your mind. It turned into a very dangerous scene in the last year, with drug dealing, people that looked like skeletons, meth and coke parties at dealers houses, and me almost going off on a round the world yacht trip with an insane coke head transvestite lol

It’s like almost to quantify it all seems a pretty big task, I think my friends currently just say “you have had a lot happen to you” lol

I wish so much for my life to have been different, different choices etc

In some way I would have liked a more normal existence not such an indigo upbringing, but my own personal story is one of adversity and compassion, only simply that I could live through such trauma and not inflict it on others is a godsend.

In a way this virtual ministry completes my needs for ego gratification, but it also helps shape who I am artistically and professionally. When I go to the bank and explain that I am a reverend, I can do it with pride because I have worked very hard and very diligently to explain all sorts of spectrums from this reality.

In a way the party has continued every night for me, with endless techno streams out there and the beat keeps going on, and techno does heal and forgive.

This blog or virtual ministry still provides a rave in a site for those that want random trippiness.

I don’t want peoples pity or scorn, I just want my writing to be able to help others on their path.

Compassion

Solitude

Tekno

Forgiveness

PeaCe

Love

Unity

Respect

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TuCK DuCK

To anybody that has a mortgage, or credit card debt or student loan you feel helpless, you have no control but to send your money to the powers that be so that you can live another day without harassment from creditors

I have just recently become debt free and it is a blessing but not many can come into my situation it literally takes an act of god to be able to solve some peoples issues with money.

I think this is how they get most of us on board with the system is they just hand you that credit increase when it’s most opportune but they don’t tell you what the end result interest will be –if they did nobody would accept it haha

Well things are pretty fruitful on my end of the globe but I live in a very very insane world, people that only in a minor sense keep up with current events can see the race riots and ebola stuff going out of hand and I have to say the only things keeping me sane are my relative solitude, meditation, stability and love from my family.

Also I strongly believe at least two hours of tekno keeps the evil away and then imagine this, going straight into silence helps immensely in meditation

My book is tinkering along I am coming up with more sound ideas to market it in the coming months, and marketing it in the virtual world of second life where it was inspired has led me nowhere however I believe some of the skills of the virtual world have led me to have some transferrable skills that I use in real life including shaping the ego

Many will notice I have placed my manifesto back on the site, I did this for personal reasons, I believe it is who I am and has shaped who I have come to be, while I am not a person that believes in crime, or drug use anymore for example I believe strongly that some of the obscure events in my life have better shaped my character far better actually a million times better than any rich person will ever achieve

The manifesto is not me, currently. However it has some reflections artistically of where I have come from and how I can better serve people that flock to the Church of Techno looking for inspiration, advice and entertainment. I strongly believe that by suffering through adverse situations and being able to learn from them instead of burying them and feeling ashamed to talk about them only helps me be a better spiritual advisor and a better role model.

I have found great disgust in alternative cliques per se looking for intellect in abstract forms of the internet and have only found people that are and always will be unenlightened, distrusting, bigoted and hateful.

So I hope to attain to be an avenue where people can understand what it is like to grow up from an insane rave scene of the 1990’s clubkid scene and live through it without addiction or being thrown in jail because thankfully meditation found me when I was most suffering and the Buddha found me, personally and gave me a gift that is unfathomable –being able to unite to your mysterious self and a method of looking within, a method of relaxation and I swear I would have gone nuts by now because I have had aprox 4200 days in solitude and up at night currently since teenage hood

What most people miss with popular culture is that 99% of the situations, stories, songs, shows, movies, and scenarios are all contrived by initiated sellouts who basically will label anybody that opposes them a terrorist and we have so much illusion playing out now I have not tried to grasp it however I believe it strengthens your position in life to keep up with the illusion but we have many many people that are not striving for enlightenment or intellect

I believe once you start bettering yourself you start out on a path of love and forgiveness and are able to live life with dignity and class that even the higher ups currently cannot achieve

I feel strongly that through Vipassana and Buddhist practices I am able to achieve a sense of understanding/innerstanding that most can only achieve through multitudes of lives!

Care for yourself this holiday season, and tune out and meditate, you never know what transferrable skills you will learn from it.

-Shaun A. Delage   

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LeZZie BaRk

There is an equation in all of this irrefutable madness, and that is that it keeps on going perpetually. I am always highly suspicious when somebody brings up history, because I strongly believe the earth and its time and reality have been fractalized countless times, so we end up with a pseudo reality in which to live.

What makes me suspicious? Well the simple causality that most of our governers or leaders per se are secret society initiates with some sort of understanding how this reality is operating, and with that understanding you would know that we are somewhat adjudicated by a higher universal power, the infinite, but also that you look at society how it is structured currently and you understand that we are under a sort of negative hypnosis, a concurrent reality that masks itself and literally parades itself as the normal way of reality.

I hardly think in the realm of the infinite, that we would have to pay tax, pay rent, eat, slave, undergo health difficulties and deal with things such as poverty, rape, murder, and war.

There is a lot of good to this middle way reality however there is quite a bit of evil as well, and we are so organized that only a select few professionz with the above mentioned initiates gets to concern themselves with the mysteries of humanity, the rest are fed mainstream media and video games and nobody thinks to themselves about the people in the jobs such as a paramedic that has saved a heart attack patient, somebody with an impaled lung, and an amputee all in one day.

I am not too concerned with worldly events lately simply because I am not permitted to travel freely like most people, mostly due to finances and other obligations but unless you are in the Ukraine or Africa or China, currently there is no way to garner any sense of the truth, likewise, nazi Germany, 9-11 or bikini atoll for example.

It is not a position based out of ignorance it is simply an intellectual hypothesis for living your life with a sense of independence from the structure. The system is very aware of things happening presently but works to halt all sense of presence in the present moment for its inhabitants on earth.

Most people are trapped in a nether region of no time and space, simply entertaining themselves and that is the greatest illusion being played, it is ironic too that most of our reality shows and such are taped up to a year prior.

There is a literal psychotic obsession with fine tuning your thought form, and it comes with news stories of cancers –CANCERS – CANCERS !! and it goes on to about 50,000 of these typical stories a year when you factor in things like diseases, vitamins, carbs. Etc. I’m sorry in the days of our grandparents they did not worry about carbs or proteins they called it…..FOOD!

They have literally made it so that each person on earth is a terrified, self policing, self medicating, hypnotized and part of a flock. Almost ready to point out any sort of fray from normalcy in the spectrum.

I have run into this countless times online, with trolls and such just policing an unregulated wild west being the internet, and what do we have to fall back on? Well billions of words of legalese that runs the world and runs the internet rampant with subjects such as copyrights and hindering creativity to the point that people don’t really ‘create’ anything anymore, they simply regurgitate things over and over that are based within the confines of normalized American societal structure. Any sort of grey area in art is generally shut down quite quickly or any sense of creative will is usually silenced with threats of copyright infringement or lawsuit.

The only ones permitted to bring new and glorious inventions digitally are individuals that are aligned with the secret society apparatus, because what we have currently going on is a set path, and it is a set path into the future, and any sort of anomaly would threaten the system as a whole.

This is one reason why I went against the grain so to speak as an internet activist, blowing wide open the structure used to enslave me, and I continue to advocate for the freedom of marginalized beings, because nobody else can understand what it is like to be a drug addict, a thief, or a prostitute, simply because people have lived such privileged lives away from any sort of issues a matrix warrior goes through.  They lack the comprehension of such darkness along with the compassion to work with their nature to understand the madness and help others escape this cycle we are all on.

There are quite a few anomalies working in the present now, but it is a tough issue because they have their own lives challenges to deal with along with understanding that they are attacking the very idea of the future, and working to change it to their benefit.

-Shaun A. Delage

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SuZeTTe the SpidER

When you view this place as a temporary refuge you can find comfort in your existence, same goes with yourself, your human body, it is a temporary vessel.

There is a lot of illusion in life, and for those that can find comfort and solace amidst the madness have conquered the impossible.

So much can be learned from your intellect by how much compassion you hold in your heart, sadly enough usually compassion only comes from a multitude of suffering. When one does not witness a personal miracle even once in their life this is caused by karma of course, but for one to even overlook a simple miracle such as a cold crisp cup of pure clean water, or a nice home cooked hearty meal is simply a travesty.

Each person is different, each individual is a causality of one, each being has a new gift to give the world, and our world has gotten used to catagorizing people into genres and subcultures.

I was told recently that I should start marketing my ebook by cold calling people. I thought to myself for a few minutes, well that isn’t very conducive to my situation because I am nocturnal and the only time I have to call is in the early morning and I would feel pretty apocalyptic lol

So I thought to myself, how could I go about this, and two things rang out as a possibility, to market myself in world in second life because my target markets are there, and to market myself via post card with a snazzy book cover to people that would be keen on seeing my ebook and I think the possibilities are endless. I always thought I would want to stay away from a traditional literary aspect haha imagine that for a book lol

I find living out here in the forest I am more in line with the divine thoughtform, it is not as easily shaded by tons of electromagnetic energies like in the city, and finally some peace and quiet. It is rare to even find a car go by in a few weeks time haha

It’s funny because you have the ability to naturally recharge even on a quantum level = ten years of adversity gets melted away in a year out in the forest surrounded by natural elements.

We have a small spider that sits in the window in between outside and inside, she can go in between both worlds and enjoy heat and cold, and she has her own condo nestled in the bathroom window and I have some Buddhas and crystals up in the window so she is a spiritual spider we lovingly named suzette

Come to think of it mostly every animal we see gets the name suzette or suze or susan lol

My compassion does not overlook these creatures, I think about them constantly, how tough life must be in nature, living in a den or sleeping under a tree, outside and in the cold, but perhaps they are fine.

I strongly believe in the power of the future and the power of the unknown, which is why I have such a devotion to psychics putting you on the right path or entering a hospital lottery at $100 a ticket, because chances are, that you never know what can happen to you in the future.

I just have seen lots of people in the last few years that have done nothing with their lives but mull along, and if I am given the chance to elevate my dreams beyond comprehension like by winning a million or even 50k or a trip or whatever then I will take it, even if it means just a singular chance, cause you never know.

Which is why I love contesting and my books possibility. I have the power to dream, and pretty much I hate to say it but my criminal aspect of my teenage hood taught me to believe in the unknown and in mystery.

You never know where you will find enlightenment and ascension so keep looking until your last day.

-Shaun A. Delage

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CounTess CaTaRaCT

It’s funny, I have had a lot of time to contemplate this past week but no discourses for a bit, I have tried to post videos I am watching so people can be up to speed with things that are in the obscure, a video recently said the Christ was most likely a paranoid schizophrenic haha try telling the world that, it is brutally funny because our whole society is built on this one man, seemingly…..and his delusions of grandeur. I have had some profound meditations this past while and synchronicities that lead me to believe that I am on the right path, and that everything is going as it should be.

So much psyops lately in the mainstream it is unbelievable and you only notice these things when you catch glimpses of what the mainstream is up to like I do, I don’t have a television so I am not hypnotized into that realm, and people would ask ‘what do you do’ I respond, LIVE !!!! hahaha

I think much of these psychological operations are millennia old and tiring operations that go from decade to decade to keep people from finding themselves so they keep coming back time and time again to undergo another prison sentence until they get it.

I have asked myself why was I born where I was and not in some slum or war torn country and I think it has to do with good deeds, and I keep doing them onward as I go so I have full faith that the next life will be opportunistic –however part of me doesn’t want to live another life as a being, I would like to evolve to more higher realms rather than the vulgarity I have witnessed here. I kind of wonder sometimes about all of us being soul harnessed here and imprisoned in this reality and some of us are royalty and celebrities on other planets but our soul was kidnapped and brought here to live out a life of slavery for a few elites, people call my way of life, the way I see past this existence socialism or whatever but I think of a few things when I think of enlightenment, I see meditation as an essential quality in life to constantly bring your nature to the present moment and present second, because everything is in the present, all history and all future, you can shape your destiny and the future destiny of earth and beyond, but what our society is lacking is the people that can say that this is possible

So essentially we have soul fragments all over trapped in illusion never discovering who they really are or asking the right questions, or revolting against an unkind and uncaring society to be in.

Suffering is immense but also beauty is immense as well, and not many people can recognize the beauty in mystery like helping others, or animals that don’t speak our language, and I strongly believe that if your role is to assist others in their very paradoxical life of suffering and sadness that it is amazing that you yourself can bring light and power and beauty into their existence –because there isn’t much of us around.

It’s funny because right now I am thinking of purpose, and I have written about 12 chapters into my third book and it takes so much of my energy to finish another chapter yet I can pen out dozens of these blogposts or discourses in the meantime.

I have not yet figured out why some on earth seemingly get handed a wonderful existence why those that possess the qualities I align with are meant to live destitute and sick in lives of seeming illusion.

I think it has to do with the way the earth is structured and only so many are permitted from each personality type and galaxy and it seems what is rampant is this reptilian hybridic hive mind people that are not very intelligent, vain, materialist, opinionated and obsessed with triviality that have all the power in this dimension.

Our media is vulgar and every 2 minutes there is advertising, GREAT enough time to pee and get a cracker, then back to it. Our movies are not very complex and it really takes some hunting to find something actually agreeable, our shows are rife with hidden messages, coded theory, hypotheticals, and programming. Our social media is filled with people adept at making others feel miserable about themselves, our school system, in fact if you do survive it per se, and not end up like one of the beings I speak of above is a rarity, it is filled with abusers, and weirdos and a virtual prison system for the young.

Our religions are based on books penned seemingly thousands of years ago based on some hippy and talks of realms above the clouds and an old vengeful god that will send you to hell if you touch your anus, or pleasure yourself… god give me a break ! The major religions on the planet will either behead you, suck the blood from an infant circumcision or abuse young ripe preteens and scar them for life.

No wonder we are all heading the way we are, our fundamentals are a tad bit flawed, then on top of it we have, slavery, addictions, sickness, poverty, psyops –on a daily basis!

I have never taken my role in society lightly, I try to shed some normalcy on an otherwise insane place to grow up and live, but I don’t have all the answers, and never will.

I guess in a sense somebody that helps you live another few hours, or have faith in another few days is divine intervention in such darkness.

Look within, tune out, connect with crystals, many years older than you, heal yourself, be kind to all beings and look forward to another day, correcting the last.

-Shaun A. Delage

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Tempura Tempura

xmas address:

I went through a bit of the 2012 paranoia myself, a while back, and I meditated on it and thought basically two things, society is too vulnerable to collapse and we are too indebted to the masters for this all to end.

Many civilizations had the threat of apocalypse thrown at them and the mayans were a very cunning society because they did solar rituals when they knew there would be an eclipse and told their followers that only they knew how to bring the sun back.

Much like why trust a culture from thousands of years ago, why trust religions that carry the same lineage, personally I think somebody in the present would have most of the answers rather than somebody that supposedly lived thousands of years ago.

We are at a stage now of awakening and growth and time to tap into your creative centers and live life to the fullest, we have lived through the end of the world a few times since 1990 and we have lived through y2k etc.

It will be an eventful year and now Hillary Clinton wants to run for president in 2016 and she wants to be the first woman president, just the same old lineage of people that are propped up by the culture of finance, and this is characteristic of a society that has failed drastically, for a country with trillions of debt there would be no way to pay off the trillions because there is only billions in circulation so a constant debt slavery. There are a few people on the planet with enough wealth to solve the worlds problems, but they sit on top of their piles of cash and do nothing.

I don’t think the monarchy of England will be worth much in the future the way they are going, they sit atop vast continents of wealth only to further enchain their society more, with things like cutbacks and a surveillance society. If I was king I would have used 75% of the income I have to alleviate my countries suffering and be known as the greatest king to have ever lived, I would setup bread lines and meal carts everywhere in the city, become full partner in hundreds of thousands of businesses, give money upfront for startup costs of small businesses, allow my subjects to smoke marijuana and live a free life, support people by providing training in the trades and sciences if that is the persons faculty. If only.

Now we are at xmas and soon to be 2013 so we are at a beginning of a new adventure, time to clear out the last millennia of heartache and move onto the next millennia, with self driving cars, internet glasses, robotic superhumans…

Just wanted to offer a small discourse and wish everyone a happy holidays

Thanks for your support

Shaun A. Delage

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tater tot

The world and its pains, I cant help but ponder Michael Alig’s release date, sometime in 2016 and the striking similarities between his murder case and that of Magnotta’s…they both cut somebody to pieces and this is the desperation of the system around us and its pressures, essentially one cannot be fully blamed for their actions when most of us are lead around by unseen forces for sometimes decades at a time or be it with luciferian forces or whatever …mainly most of us are lead around by ritual, because we have too, we have families that need us, debts that need to be paid, people to feed, and nobody wants to be homeless

It is true that the United states has the most poverty for being the wealthiest nation and by far the most racist and bigoted nation by far, of course we have things being rumored like a total systemic collapse in about 5 months and nobody knows what will happen, if there are kind old thousands years old greys landing to take care of us and nurture us, or if the kill switch will be hit rendering technology useless or if the time will just tick by and nada nothing, same old vibe same old sphere

In a way I don’t want to believe in a systemic collapse, but it would be almost divine if it did happen and we were returned to our ancient roots, and I wonder about divinity constantly and where was divinity in the case of these two gay men, or perhaps the young girl that was left to fend for herself in the rainforest her entire life…Perhaps divinity is an illusion of sorts or a plethora of illusion instituted by the worlds faiths but I only need to look at what I type here for example, or the force that keeps me breathing or my heart beating to understand the true nature of the possibility of god(s)

Or you look around at the material nature of our planet or the infrastructure and understand that we may be in a luciferian domain, if there was a god, they would never make us slave endlessly just to survive and make it. In more ancient cultures doing nothing meant you were living, this tiring need to be doing something with your life… out here in rural life I am left alone in peace and just meditate like a monk and maybe that is my purpose in life…I have accomplished quite a bit in the last few years, enough to last a lifetime…done 1500 pieces of art – have 334 for sale, wrote two novels, done a masters degree, became ordained.

It is only in western society that we have the need to judge others to tiring ends, those that don’t fit the mould and are not propping up the luciferian ethic in any way are judged quite harshly, and how I feel sometimes, when a 20 year old has a $10,000 credit limit and I am 30 and don’t even have a credit card.

This is by choice however, when I paid it off I handed it back-I was pleased to be rid of it in entirety and people look at me like I am an elephant for wanting a $500 credit limit. Now since I handed it back nobody will even grant me that amount in credit so it seems like I am somewhat of an exile.

I am just thankful that I don’t have to be in prison for my actions, because the luciferian master had its hold over my life for almost a decade after some crimes, sex work and a sort of ritual with her majesty but really living life in freedom without having your freedom taken away brutally seems to be the only thing going at the moment.

So many are suffering around the world this very moment and so many beings are trapped here and imprisoned by gravity in this dimension. I believe strongly in parallel realities given my interdimensional travel and dream state so I know that the waking world is somewhat of an illusion and the dreamworld can be construed as somewhat of a reality or vice versa depending on how you see it.

The world can be pain after pain and most are so hopelessly dependent on the system to survive they are almost taxed wondering what will happen in 5 months, here we have older people so dependent on medications, when they see the sites online devoted to 2012, many want to commit suicide, or the obese 700 lb person that is frightened because they cant even walk around the block, or the people so needing employment they are one cheque away from being on the street, or the countless people so traumatized by the system that they need to really muster up enough courage to live day by day

It is a rather unkind system that plays tricks on us and promotes this cruelty in our daily lives, by forcing us to work tiring and exhausting slavery just to survive while the super rich ride around in 12 car motorcades, or just simply waving the possibility of a total systemic collapse in our face has enough people in tears and in fear, just the disregard for poverty and those that lack motivation, it almost seems like its bound to happen and bound not to happen so were at an impasse

I can tell you with one of the only Canadian political manifestos published I may be the first to go, but also may be the first to get a commodore position in the new world order, because I had guts to name the people responsible for my trauma state

We have the future were  gearing up for, and nobody can really tell what the future looks like or holds, it may be a one world government with freedoms, it may be restrictive policies amidst a utopian paradise, it may be to have you work in a communist or socialist environment where people are picked up from the homes and driven to work duty but maybe that is what we need

Part of me being so accepting with the future is basically my dependence on alternative media for a well founded viewpoint of the world. David Icke and Alex Jones, illuminatimatrix are perhaps some of the most racist and homophobic sites I have encountered and this troubles me, because if they are the enlightenment that they broadcast- being able to pronounce the queen a reptoid or reptis or being able to bullhorn the sauris bilderburgers then why cant they have the guts to accept shining sexuality as a gift from the divine, no matter where you look straight people hate gay people and vice versa and this has been going on since the last reset

They will never eradicate sexuality because even animals are gay and lesbian and bisexual

So for some beings to openly preach enlightenment and not even hold enlightenment in their souls is a paradox. Truth is most people without power don’t hate each other, they accept their neighbours and loved ones as just living it out with them side by side in the fight

It must be terrifying to be living in this time, and I know because I am here, the astral world is rife with horrors and there are beings so dark and disgusting that is where they rest torturing us while we sleep and we have literally no control over it, depending if you’re on the god of dreams good side or bad, it seems like I have literally proven myself as an astral warrior in thousands of scenarios laid out before my brain while I sleep yet somehow I cant get it right, I am in line with being an astral thief still, and I have not been able to eradicate this side of me, which makes me think that I have been hardwired to be in my current existence as is, as a karmically unfortunate being that has killed a whole village in my roman or greek time life.

I am changing my life for the better and am happy that I am not able to carry pain or sickness from the astral nature, but in a way when you dive into a pool of moss and mildew and you wake up almost heaving it has transferred itself into your reality

I am changing my being for the better and this divine nature has inspired me because it is very shy and never wants to be seen, but it is in forms of sexuality or a good meal, or some kindness, or a smile somebody gives you. The satanist forces want to be noticed and are in everywhere you can possibly imagine in egotist pursuit. I am not here to play a game so to speak but to keep surviving until the very end, when that will be in 2070 when I pass away or in 2012 from nuclear radiation or 2012 or whatever that is not up to me to decide or perhaps I did choose when I depart, I may never know the answers or it may never be comprehensible until that day when I take my last breath but until then I am going to stay on divinity’s side as an ordained minister of god and divine creativity, the power that keeps you seeing, breathing, thinking and being creative. For what else is there? Evil? I think not, !!

-          An enlightened beings purpose is to help others that are in bondage and suffering and to also give energy and tools to alleviate suffering rather than putting the person down more paths of suffering.

-          Shaun A. Delage      

Kat Dander

I cant help but ponder my last living situation and the misery I was going through living with family and a monarch situation where I was endlessly programmed at will

Lately I have been discovering affection, for smaller animals and insects but also my lover

It is a strange feeling having somebody reach across the couch and stroke the back of your head

My life has been void of affection and even as a youngin that affection between family was put in a bizarre sexual context what I would have given for my mother to kiss my forehead or my cheek

To love another it seems, takes some skill….
many are searching out meanings of love or a lover and have no idea what they are getting themselves involved in

My last relationship was void of most affection my upbringing was void of that as well

To actually love another unconditionally is the greatest skill of a human being

I look at my new beautiful and shining baby faced man and I just melt

I told him tonight I won the male lottery finding him haha

Real love takes hard work and takes a kind soul otherwise you will just attract another person like yourself.

Many months ago I felt my life was hopeless and without meaning

I remember going to the beach at 4 am and broke down crying – I didn’t know why love has not found me and why I was stuck in an abode where my life didn’t matter

I was going to jump in the water because I felt I had nothing to exist for and I asked divine nature to please send me somebody that would love me, unconditionally and for my entire life

Now I cant promise how things will turn out but he has the exact qualities I have been seeking in somebody –posting hundreds of craigslist and plenty of fish ads and I finally found him on the website and it was a confusing initial few weeks

I loved him so much and connected tantrically and I wanted him to be mine so I moved in then a few days passed and I cruelly packed my things and moved out and back to a place where I was unloved and not respected

Well the weekends away did help and I finally decided to move back in a few weeks ago

Now I have a shining man close to my age that I love and adore and same goes his attitude towards me and this is what I was looking for – a non materialist, kind, compassionate, smart, cute bloke to call mine

When it hit I walked away from it all and have begun to forgive myself for moving out but change is difficult on any person – thankfully I can move anywhere in my province and still keep my income, something not many people with commitments can do.

Rural existence is beautiful and exactly my original programming and I enjoy living in the peace and quiet of the furest when in the city everything is constantly blaring at you a mile a minute

One of the things that I struggled with was dependency on another – I mean as far as driving or whatever and I couldn’t for the life of me be dependent on another and I struggled with this for quite some time but there is a profound level of respect when you give over your needs to another

Time ticks by and I think of that morning on the beach or my self inflicted suicide attempt and I think how horrible of a world this can be to people and I think about constantly what if? What if I succeeded on my attempt on my life- where would I be right now? Prolly floating away in the astral world

But the Buddhists believe a human birth is very fortunate and takes thousands of years and I see us all here and in this immaculate movie playing out- nobody knows how it’s going to turn out

I can’t help but wonder as well how exactly I am being positioned for 2012

 Without the protection and guidance of my lover I would be still in my taxing living arrangement with family and the constant nattering

I believe those in rural situations will be able to survive in a systemic collapse easily. But those in cities and metropolis’s will struggle and now is not the time to head for the caves god no lol

I have not been a firm believer in 2012 but it is always nice to be prepared

And I cant think of what would happen in a systemic collapse, the light and power go off, internet shuts down, businesses shut their doors, gas prices rise to a $100 a litre

Nobody imagines this, but this is something they have been using as a tool of oppression for many many centuries – the threat of apocalypse be it with the threat of an occupying force or whatever this has been used against us since Egyptian or roman times.

So best to be prepared yet not very paranoid

Blessings blogbuddies

-          Shaun A. Delage

deer paw

Riding the 2012 wave seems to be perplexing

In the moment universalism takes hold over an earthbound body of the flesh and what is life but a trauma state and an apocalypse state

Many people don’t understand what it is like to live through fascism or a corporate structure and here we have it

It is all around us, this corporate Masonic fascist dictatorship

Many involved in universalism don’t understand completely how ensnared they are by the system and much of this is quite silly in comparison to the rest of the world

Me I tend to look at my own history to judge the future so I remain antisocial, chill and pretty to myself

What calms me personally is meditation and other avenues that help release some of the negativity

Other times it is my dimensional travel that in a sense cures my waking state and helps me to believe I have a vehicle to travel in other than in this reality we all are imprisoned by

To be out of touch with reality is brutal because most just think about their work from 9-5 and Monday to Friday then look forward to the weekend

What if every day was a weekend for you lol

This is my life, tend to have about 14 or so hours to fill in my day so I tend to work on my books quite a bit and then do reading catch up on business in second life.

TV and meditation occupies the rest of my time

I look back and think how lucky I am to be on government assistance because when I first came on it they refused me twice to even advocate on my behalf

Later on after a few more hospitalizations They finally said “we will advocate on your behalf”

Perhaps they just wanted me out of their hair since I hated being incarcerated and confined under the auspices of the mental health act

The hospital that opened this door for me, I broke their front window of the hospital,  set fire to my papers (from the white house) on my bed and flooded my room and ran outside barefoot

I was locked up further under code red and finally after a few more weeks of the hospitalization they said we will do everything in our power to help you shaun

And maybe that is what most people need, but we live in such a restrictive society that you need to have various doctors certify you and fill out an almost 30 page form then they accept or deny you

Thankfully I was accepted so this will mean permanent disability for life

I look back on my past and wonder about my manifesto, perhaps if it is a carefully contrived illusion or embellishment ....

Maybe to some people it can be misconstrued as lies or whatever but I have always worked within the realms of the truth, while my own being just tells me heck your not a monarch slave in MK ultra you were just a common street prostitute or classified escort

But the people I met in the process, the violence incurred and the trauma that happened not only make me a trauma abuse asset but also a monarch slave because essentially I have been programmed by some very elite people to do my work

Perhaps a sleeper monarch who knows

Most of the days (trickle on by) and nothing happens then one day I will meet somebody then they will talk in riddles or do a weird handshake and I almost have to remind myself of my own opposition to the trauma state

Life is perplexing yes, but when you view yourself as the only one that resists there is various philosophical arguments to be had

I have never wanted to use this blog as a  method to bash people or whatever

I have always wanted to have an air of enlightenment and get the story told of monarch slavery because it is the leading avenue of trauma in the west and one we adore to the fullest realms possible

Not a very illustrious position to hold however

So where does my future rest ?

That is up to divinity.

-Shaun A. Delage

slave state

I asked the tarot cards what would happen if I should join masonry and the cards revealed that I would undergo financial and material changes, then I asked what is masonry and the cards revealed Heartache and loss.

Something I don’t want to be apart of essentially is heartache and loss. In a constantly ever evolving paradigm they constantly adjust to the trauma state while its members are continuously propped up in a never ending game of cat and mouse with the system using advanced sciences to achieve their total global domination

A total global domination freemasonry has, with everything from the Vatican and the crown being charted by the upper echelons of the cults then you have politics mastered by bilderburg and councils and to go back a bit mostly everything imaginable is owned in totality by the Vatican and the crown everything from major hospitals to the porn circuit

Then you have the lowest most vulgar bottom of the barrel cultists which essentially are the cattle of the cults in the masonry lodges and very very few are privy to higher levels of information and sciences only there in the highest realms of cultist mindset do people just belong to things they don’t understand

Me personally I have never wanted to be a financed corporate entity because essentially once you sell out your meant to live a life of total slavery constantly working to repay the financiers that you belong to and they have projects that could fill a palace to be done

Almost every ounce of everything we envision or intake is somewhat of this financed corporate entities essentially every bit of information we take in is pseudo psychological operations and kind of funny because without this level of stimulation many of us would give up

Pretty much every ounce of media, movies, games, and news is all financed for specific personality types, which is why some of us will watch shows that no others will watch

Everything is recorded these days from your emails to your calls to the shows you watch and everything you see and do in the sen5es

Me I always want to be the one that doesn’t do what everyone else is doing, and everyone else either seems to be a common poor working man common stock or your preferred stock financed corporate entity removed from it all because you are inflicting trauma on others and fulfilling the lowest most vulgar realms of luciferian consciousness

Pretty much everything you think is observed in some form as well by the all powerful realms and interpreted so that you too may become something of nature that will achieve an outcome that is favourable to your programming

Only very very few whom are targeted by these monsters make it out alive or unitiated and you can see why me personally I struggle with the concept of these secret cults when they permeate so much of existence

I just always want to be the one that makes it without these checkerboard floors following me around or gross old perverts talking in riddles I don’t understand. But in little ways people are helped along by these cultists and corporations so you cant really escape them in singular lives

I mean your either unable to perceive them in totality because your simply just another worker bee or you are stalked continuously by them and they will never leave you alone because you oppose them and about 98% of people stalked by these cults through media and other forms of reality never escape them and simply just give up and join them, if you cant beat em join em.

Who wants to live on a monks wage when you can have a gold card with an endless bank account I am even reclusive and I still can escape this checkerboard floor, it is literally in 100% of everything in my reality with subtle subliminal suggestion propped up continuously through a state of affairs that some would call grim and essentially this is what is happening is that there is a financed global meltdown so multitudes will go over to the various factions and submit their soul for this type of hidden sciences

I can see where some are trapped, in a confusing array of addictions and debt that they cannot control so essentially they do the devils work which is unfortunate

They may think they are free building underground cities to run too when in fact the real solace may come with a death while on the surface so that you may return to your proper dimension or reality and live an existence that is timeless and without having to sell the nature of your soul

I always laugh when I see the checkerboard floor everywhere because these people literally sold out for pennies when they are unaware of the actual worth of the soul which is fifty five billion dollars, not the price of being an actor in 10 movies and getting fame and a tidbit of fortune or having your own property company

Pretty much most of the sellouts sold out for sometimes less than a quarter of what the soul is actually worth so you can see the collective wealth forecast and the actual systemology behind the financiers spending sometimes ten times that amount to finance each soul being brought over to the dark side so to speak

I don’t pretend to know the answers or allay that I know it all I just feel I have a Ph.D in conspiracy at this point given what I have been shown and the private psychic consultations I have had. SO I am able to operate as a living Buddha that wants no part in the system and is willing to embark on a lifetime of solace and introversion to achieve enlightenment, but what is enlightenment if you cant share it with others.

I always aimed to do things on my own terms, and maybe this is where I am heading but in a world under seeming rules, policies and directives, not to mention countries and legalities that have been charted thousands of times over in dimensions of the exact same self similar repeating circumstances and I just say enough, my ten thousand other selves may be initiated sellouts but the buck stops here

I will hold out until I am murdered or get very very old and frail, but essentially I will be stalked by this cult my entire life. I just want to chart where I go after this place and I can see the desperation of the system because time is against all of us, but it would be funny for the whole dimension to collapse just because of me, and essentially in each singular consciousness that is what is happening

Ever residual action is made apparent in world affairs and I am ready for what is about to happen but essentially each individual has to have faith in the divine essence

Essentially god is a freemason, so is Buddha there are things playing out we have no idea what the hell is really going on

What is there a war on but individuality, creativity, cat people, real souls, compassion, artists, slackers, poets, anarchists, club kids, happiness, beauty haha get my drift?

SO the only thing you can be true to is your own existence and your own philosophy and not give into the illusions of cults and lies and being lead into avenues you have no idea about

once you are on their blacklist there is no turning back, they will make you pay once won over for the rest of your existence

just be happy you have no part in any of it .

-          Shaun A. Delage 

raspy meow

The world itself is a carefully scripted illusion and those that resist the programming are vilified in a sense for being abnormal or odd when in fact they offer great beauty to the world in the form of performance art

Me personally I was labeled with titles such as paranoid, loner, schizo, and thief long ago among many other titles in people eyes I am deserving of the treatment that has been given to me

To me in essence I was figuring out my role in society and at this point am rather defeated by the process but I keep going what else is there left and in a sense if you choose to give up your life here you can go into the other far more evil realities judged and owned by the freemasons in totality

Ironic when you see the whole solar system charted by lunatics that have sold their souls but that is what has happened essentially

The world is riddled with a world of sellouts and nobody willing to take control over the nature, protection and guidance over their souls future so they see the subliminals and the checkerboard floors everywhere and they simply take the next steps to literally become a sell out and this is unfortunate

What is sad is that these newer incarnations don’t believe in themselves enough to go through life’s issues and dilemma’s

What is even sadder is that they would submit themselves to hazing rituals and things like soul swapping and soul harnessing and black magic not to mention possession by powerful Masonic entities. Even now as I type this the word program capitalizes Masonic on me without any control. Oh the elite nature of this cult in the shadows

People like me are vilified because we are offered the chance and continuously turn it down, and will live in abject poverty rather than sell out and the system doesn’t get it

But I think about what I have been shown about cannibalist greek oath life taking ceremonies, black magic, incest, blood ritual, hazing and mutilation and I think haha I don’t want any part in it

I believe once you sell out as well you give up the rights to individuality and your able to be medically tortured legally because you essentially give up your citizenship in any earthbound country and submit to a dominion that has control over 70,000 planets or so in the hell realm, that is unseen

Of course you will be given great power wealth and prestige because you never really thought to measure the actual gravity of the souls worth

In essence a soul is far more valuable than what is broadcasted in the mainstream

A soul is worth fifty five billion dollars, that is human body, marrow, cells and brain capacity including wealth forecast and the hidden nature of the soul

Which is why the supreme deceiver would spend an equal amount financing bringing over your soul to the cults of earth because not many people are shown the true value of the soul nor are the newer incarnations made aware of exactly what is at stake thanks to my visions of the lower hell worlds as the world famous church of techno occultist

I don’t believe my dreams are simply hypotheticals but rather a complex array of hypotheticals and psychic insight, pre cognitive dreams and not to mention powerful astral vision

And when your shown this stuff without having to sell the nature of your soul you believe in what is at stake and you believe in yourself even more

Most of all you understand the hell realms and the people trapped there and you’re better off to set people free every night you go into those places because they are deserving of your kindness but also your hidden esoteric nature in the ability to set souls free from the lower worlds essentially making them aware that they are imprisoned there and have the choice to ascend, with a loving kiss or blowjob for example haha I am pervy in the astral worlds

But so many people are unable to see them because they have disgraced their animal guides or offended them through their actions and the animal guides are simply there to keep them in check rather than offer any level of ascension, enlightenment or evolution.

When you start honoring your spirituality and your inherent divine birth that is when you are rewarded in small ways for the attention broadcasted at the realms of spirituality

In essence ones purpose may seem quite sad on earth simply on welfare typing novels and running a blog and offering advice to all those that ask but your presence alone is enough to keep people from giving up because you offer divine instruction

Divinity is constantly evolving but is just damned tired trying to keep up with the level of luciferian intrigue

Satanist mindset far outnumbers divinity 1,000,000,000 to 1 that is one billion to one

Can you see why the luciferian ethic is promoted in the mainstream in 99% of everything you see, subtly of course because that is the instruction and legalities that were worked out between Satanist consciousness and divine consciousness

Essentially to allow the individual to chart the nature of their soul and the future of their soul

There is some VERY VERY powerful subliminals and entrapment that is used to ensnare your soul so be aware

What you have to be aware of is that the warfare against you far outnumbers you yes but you are far more powerful than you could ever imagine

Being a poor almost monk from Canada may seem like a sad existence when the material nature of the world is flaunted around  you left and right

But be proud that you can guide yourself and chart your destiny

Be proud that you wont be harnessed into a lower world like most of these sellouts are trapped in

Be proud that you lived off just enough to stay alive and that you understand the workings of the world

Mostly everyone needs to sellout in some small way to make it but most of all have a balance choose the middle ground and keep ascending dammit

I have submitted my name to Jo rowling known as JK rowling through her publisher essentially opening myself up to divine instruction on behalf of a far more powerful and superior writer. In such a defeating process one would think now that I have completed a rough draft and almost done the second novel that you can simply become famous, but it isn’t that easy, you need agents and expensive editing and instruction,

Essentially what she realizes now that she has many millions is that she is equal to every being on earth

Not above, not below…

Keep learning and keep evolving keep loving and smiling

Really it is the only things we have left now

-          Shaun A. Delage