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Encouraging independent thoughts in others is not a task i advocate at all
People see you and they see a difficult lifestyle
One which they may not accept fully
Of course people will always have their hang-ups it is easy to hide them
Safe to say illusion takes over their own personal reality
Safe to say empowerment gets snuffed out early on
I am always amazed at everywhere i bring my presence too
The ability for others to conform to the said reality present in front of them
I am the type to resist most of whats out there and see the illusion in most things
However if the ideology fits it is an assumption that i would fit well
I sort of develop a detached kinship with the ideology
It is weird to have an internet identity
Even weirder is to have somebody claiming to have the exact same name as you and a somewhat similar outlook however trivial it may seem to me, i see it as illusion of sort
Shaun A. Delage meets the same but one is from the Midwest or something of the USA
My first inclination is to accept the individual of what they are presenting
After much thought i seriously begin to ponder what effect i may have on somebody with the same name virtually and in reality
Of course me being a pretty out there gay man and such would brings some issues to the surface
I ponder the notion that somebody from a foreign country has the same name as me
My first thoughts are to end many of the things i write
Another is the obsessive psychotic side of the individual which was made apparent
Another is the safety in the border
I am seriously weirded out by this concept
The odds are like one in one billion for this to happen but i don’t doubt its authenticity
Knowing when i google somebody and have ten variations of the same person come up
I just felt i had an uber unique name of sorts
It is a difficult and crazy notion to ponder and i somewhat feel that he has obsessively taken me on as a piece of his personae when this is by pure notion an insane fluke of sorts that we both have to come to terms with
Of course the internet is always open to speculation
The person could be an agent of the matrix sent to deceive me and lead me into a more victimized mindset where i believe i am actually inflicting virtual harm on somebody blessed with the same namesake
In some ways i wish we got along good enough to marry, now that is a funny notion to ponder
Shaun Allen Delage do you take Shaun Allen Delage to be your husband
Nobody can actually say they communicate with a namesake like self
It just makes me think of how we relate to others how they relate to us
That our perception of things however beautiful may be sickening to somebody looking from the outside
Or that if you are of a paradoxical divine energy and you meets somebody equally paradoxical of negative energy there is nothing you can say or do that will make them feel a sensitivity for your soul or better yet your level of suffering
Just like most of those i relate too even the supposed intelligence positions
I am left feeling that i can articulate my feelings sometimes all too very well in comparison
I am also left with the implosion of thought that i feel when i am unable to relate to people at times
That they out of necessity ask for further clarification
I look about the world for love
I see in some places – a hint
Just recently i saw it in somebody online
Just the most beautiful man to come into focus
Of course all i can do is cross my fingers
Better myself so i can offer him something better than any other being on the planet can offer
People say love takes time, i beg to differ. Sometimes you know in an instant
It is those that let everything drag on and on that start to fault find and finally out of frustration for so much time passing they give in and just marry the bastard lol
This isn’t love
Love is looking into somebody’s smiling eyes and knowing you want to just lick their whole face
Run your hand thru their hair and just cuddle for hours holding each other
Love is burning the food you set out to cook then going back starting again and making a splendid meal you both can enjoy but with a bit of laughter
Love is, looking at the guy and thinking i don’t want anybody else on earth but this man
Love is also resisting those that move into your path like pawns to try and break your true union up
Love is characterization of a spectrum of emotions
Love has no rules
Love can stop trauma
Love can halt all pain
Love is essential
Or you just end up giving up...and giving in out of disappointment
To love somebody ....you must be invited by them
If u are judged not worthy
It may never find you
It is like disgracing your spirit guides and animals while on earth
If your power animal or angel gets offended because you seriously hurt them
You may only get intervention in extreme cases
And there are many levels
I am proud of those that guide me, not only to everlasting enlightenment
I can simply see my greater self looking down on me
What i will become in 250 years
And he loves me for my choices and my dedication
I ask my guides to find me and what i get is a supreme satisfying delight
I get a snail in a shell
It is very nice just a bit sticky
This one could fly super fast
It took me to a college where i met with a large giant
I sat near him talking of my home planet and what things bothered me and what things were good to eat etc we both laughed i would say he was about 9”0 but he was very nice
Of course if i would have screamed at him or hit him he would have vanished in an instant
On a human level it was nice to connect
The snail came by and took me to an open arena
Some guy came up to me and said you are a thief you sicken me
I said back to him frankly i despise what you just said, i am an ex thief lol
And well my days of high finance and petty crime over
You forgot a few things too, like bank fraudster, man eater , and cock watcher
Then i lowered my smile and said i hold the stigmatic wounds of those i aim to protect
And if you have a problem with it you should kill me on the spot
I said i just wanted to have gay sex with colton harris moore lol
He vanished and about 15 people or so a bit shaded out surrounded me with a light coming from their feet
I felt a confidence in seeming universality overtaking earthbound sins of the flesh
The snail came by and took me to an eastern European country
We were at a train station there was an older man and my boyfriend who was like beautiful European guy with shaved head almost to the skin and a featured face sort of alien but he was hot i love men from this part of the world YUM
Anyways the dad paid our ticket for a 12 hour train ride out of the country and he was even helping with my bags and his bags
We were escaping something, perhaps a war, or persecution for being gay
I said oh i’ll forget my bags and the dad said no i have it here for you i will carry it on
And he helped us onto the train
And it left and we could see the dad waving at us as we took off
This train manifested itself as a common skytrain in British Columbia
Probably ok but 12 hours wow
About 10 min after everyone was doing their own thing
I looked at my lover and looked deep into his eyes and lowered my brow a bit
Understood my love at that moment for him
I understood that we just escaped something brutal
I put my hand down his face and with my fingers stroked his cheek
Swallowed and leant in slowly and met his lips and with our eyes open
I stared into his beautiful eyes and thought only one thing with a tear sliding down my face
“I Love You”
- Shaun A. Delage

Shaun Soule - Mj's alias

(from some random blog and post-not mine)
come on guys i think this is significant by that pint everybody would know Mj was gong to the hospital i dont think they would use a fake name to check the most famous man in the world in with ..come on medical staff are gonna work that bit quicker and that bit harder when they know they have the king of pop on their hands !!!and soule shaun????? its hardly your average joe bloggs name is it I dont think thats the type of name that would roll of your tongue if you wanted cover name nerrrr THIS IS ONE OF THE BIGGEST CLUES SO FAR INFACT ITS HUGE SHAMONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE THIS IS IT IT THISSSSSSSSSSSSSS ISSSSSSSSSSSSSSS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SIGNIFICANT

shining sensibility

amidst the CloNed ReaLity
a SpAciAL ExisTencE
forgetting what was taught
wanting to forget about the poets life
encourage me to be the best
encourage those around me to have faith in my flaws
the socieTal divide goEs one thoUsand waYs
i am always at a cross section between many
intuitive in the divide yet faith in evolution
one being
one soul
one faith
in evolving nature
feeling my warmth
smelling the divine
yet cast into an oceanic bliss state
the waves roll up casually
ever present
i am sure of one thing
things used to be easier in your simple existence
now the name of the game is to bombard you with complexities in every moment
perhaps a curse to those that choose to live a more urban lifestyle
the slower modes feel we are somewhat lost or sinful
i search the beach for pieces of meh but all i see are
old dirty feathers
bits of paper
filthy spoons
a wet piece of pant leg
a bottle cap
some frazzled cigarette filters
bits of plastic
how exactly could i reside on this beach
well my ever present soul is here in the moment
beauty is the ocean and ships passing amidst the garbage washed up on shore
so there i am trying to find bits of humanity
seeing a cause and believing in it
only to have an opposing argument put forth
now who or what to believe
a being in resistance to the enemy
when the enemy resides within
a fictitious organisation setup to make you believe that there is more going on
i await my second cruise through the oceans of the pacific northwest
a more deeper involvement
travel to a foreign country
last time was Zaandam and now is oosterdam
the ritzy ship will welcome me and i will snack till my hearts content !!!
perhaps catch a flick or a show or get a head massage or have a drink on the deck
i cant wait to jog on their treadmill !!! never done that b4
i am in love with the prospect of being wealthy for just one night
encouraging genius level paranoia
characteristic and a commonality of any virtual entity
sitting amidst pure opulence
sipping an espresso in a simple brew town
dreaming of whats next
what is next is the final 7 KM of my 14KM bike ride
normally i don’t meet anybody so is fun on my own lol
i see so much of me – my being- my personality in older people, in animals, in art
the dog stops to look at me with enlightened eyes and bliss state and of course i let it lick my hand
i figure my writing is scattered and intrinsic but i attain to capture it in an in the moment philosophy
something i can type into the address bar in 5 years and think to myself
and read my own words in disbelief that i would think this way or imagine this notion or dream of that
freezing to death with the odd super cloud i think to ,myself i should have worn heavier clothes
in a way i like showing off my new trimmer physique
one that you get after one solid year of chaotically hard and intense workouts
hard boring work at best lol
but it is worth the sacrifice of time
now i am here able to pull off a slim fit shirt and jogging shorts
showing a nicely defined jock type legs and a nice compact package
as the wind hits my clothes
now i know why i fixate on the odd uber cyclists outfit
gliding by on a $7000 road bike
in bright red skin tight form fitting cycling spandex
its cause he stands at the crosslight showing off a massive hardon
oh hes not hard
ok well
definitely worth gawking at
*lick*
I ask my guide to show me the way
And what i get is a nice Labrador retriever dawg
Happy look, smiling face , enlightened eyes
Black spots on a white body – very cute
It took me to a pen of sorts i was helping animals that were resisting everything
I was taking care of them feeding them and cleaning after them
I was taking care of a hamster and a bird and they both got loose !!
Scurrying trying to find them again i saw my dog and i hopped on and it took me to
A cruiseship terminal i was waiting in line to get on when a guy started terrorizing the entrance
Going all nutz screaming and pulling things apart and being a weirdo he was about to pull his own eyes and fingernails out
But he was basically trying to get on and it was a life or death situation
He ran past security
And another beside him drew his gun and went after him
They were carrying him away when he wrestled the gun away and pointed it at his own head then somebody grabbed it away
And threw it and it landed with a big clunk on the ground
Then the guy made a bolting motion for it
So a lady threw the gun again near some staff
Meanwhile people were running for cover (me included)
As i ran to duck behind a plant i could see my lab dog sitting there smiling
And i laughed
It took me next to a motel where i caught myself urinating on a carpet in my suite
Basically i zipped up and the owner came in and gave me a key and asked me to cook for people there at the motel i declined because i looked around it was pretty grungy and gross
Wanting to find my way home i gathered all my stuff and went out a back entrance where i will not be seen and i walked down the street and saw a lady and asked her if she was a hologram and she replied that the only reality you should concern yourself is your in the moment reality and you will find all the answers you need

Amazing most splendid theory
Of corrupted self amidst theory
Or self inclined to theory
Or being of natural symbiance to theory
Self amids trauma yet trauma exists only within
Having faith in a higher power which only comes from within
Being gracious amidst the people that will gladly see you fall
I find many others have faithful interludes with independence
Beauty and love
Amidst madness and chaos
The only love entwined
The only beings are worth being here in the now
The only ones to be are you
The only ones to concern oneself are those that exist
The ones that matter are you and those you know
Nobody else matters
Glorification of the self and independence is the only route to enlightenment
- Shaun A. Delage

courage fixation

Wisdom essentially is a quality that is inherent to those that seek it
You cannot be wise while not seeking out the wiser qualities of living
Essentially life for each individual is somewhat paradoxical
While many apart of the community or genre or class of people
May be attaining a common goal
The individual will always have their own set of beliefs and encouragement
Life is such a process that essentially you may be required to adapt somewhat
But also remember what exactly it is that your here to do
While many would assume that the life of a person is chaotic
I always live a detached life from my own being
Some days are never spent in knowledge of my past or future or choices
Other days its all i can dwell in
Such a feeling when your seeking liberation from your own self
Yet knowing full well by the complexities of your being
Liberation may never actually exist in your lifetime
It may have a shadow like effect over a plethora of relations or commonalities in your lifespan
Essentially what anybody is looking for is full enlightenment
And that means liberation from your suffering state
Liberation from sickness
Liberation from financial worries
Liberation from virtual imprisonment
Liberation from secret law bound cults that exist on earth
While maintaining that it is easier to escape them rather than live with them
The coexistant reality would pervade but one would always be trying to get the other to meld with them and be apart of the community
Many older generations and wiser that were faced with the choices to surrender oneself to fixing the issues of the individual
While maintaining that by being apart of a community that professes this it would seem an elusive notion to be apart of a community that mystifies it and locks it away under secret lock and key with the threat of death to anybody that is not apart of their ideology to partake or even investigate the use of the mindset to avert disaster so to speak
Where the single greatest fear of the organization would be the warfare on the mindset of the people that run it. Of course paradoxical notations ring up again where the community which is not defined
Now one black square could be a rapist yet the other one after the white square could be working to fix the personal trauma that the one before it in succession has made
Mind you this would present any investigator with a virtual dilemma how could one catagorize an undefined and ever evolving ideology
The only real enemy is that of the collective mindset really where the individual is seen as a flawed state
The independent thinker could always turn the table on this mindset that reveals itself to be essentially perfect
That no being has addressed them in totality no being has ever tried, people all around the world pick away endlessly but never get to the real meat of the situation
By defining characteristic values of a mason we would come to an understanding of the genre of people that are attracted to the ideology
Since membership is open to all alien races that attest to the thought of fighting for the commonality rather than the individual that no actual human being by virtue may attend and much will be done to reverse the process of your own races mode of thinking
Because it is seen as flawed or distasteful in the eyes of the cult
Any being that allays to the fact of hidden knowledge or secrets yet readily proposes several thousand theories is something of sort to be distrusted a hateful bigoted sexist and homophobic ideology
One would walk close to a master mason as say i oppose this and their response would be what exactly are you opposing
Of course one could say...and then list off a thousand strange theories that were purposely fed to the masses so they never figure out the essential quality of the cult
Which is main ideals entrust that they will do anything to uphold the evolving nature of the earth and its citizens which were cursed long long ago into basing their life in a set of circumstances that is mostly illusion and scattered to fill a sub base of reality so that their lifetime may appear somewhat fruitful and enjoyable
I did not wake up one day saying i am going to theorize and be one of the only vocal oppositions to masonry in time now. Some days i have to remind myself that this being i speak to is of by chance a secret enemy and i am reminded when people start talking in hypothetical’s and subliminal’s that i am not the one that is in a sickened state
That i am and always will be an enemy of masonry and every other institution surrounding it
That even people around me are aligned somewhat with the system of ideology but also working to aid me to better understand my in the moment faculty of choice in resisting being apart of this madness
Because once you are declared an enemy – all sights will be focused on you
And it is tough to resist peoples minds
Especially when you feel your the only one out of billions that dare speak up about this chaos
And will defend your basis with your own life
Still gives one a liberated empowerment
I ask my guides to show me the way and what i get is a nice delight
I get a common barn hen , now i love these creatures generally friendly and beautiful in creation
I was outside looking for comfort type food and came across a restaurant that cooks your food in a bowl that is a mini stove oven
I had a conversation to a guy about drag queens
He said he got eaten out by one at a party in full drag
I told him that is kind of scary you should not be saying this out loud LOL
The hen hopped by and took me to a radio station where a guy wona contest and it was on the air he won a beach trip
The girl that was telling him he won the trip seemed to connect with the guys disappointment
The guy said the trip was off the beaten path so to speak and he wanted something better
The hen took me to a mall where outside i met up with a rave crowd and a raver cutie girl said that all beings should be released from the matrix and that was her only wish
In the mall i was doing stuff and noticed my right arm was all dreadlocks
A hippy customer service person was doing another girls dreads as well
So i was in a mall that was run by hippies and ravers
This reminded me that there are hippies that are aware of what happened to me with this hippy cult and there are masons working to correct the horror in the world by others but also using the craft to teach lessons they are sickened by the use of the ideology with sadistic desires and are working to help people heal
Ravers are not alone in the galaxy so to speak
The hen took me to the ministry of health
Many dignitaries where around and they were there leaving some function
I looked in the mirror and i looked asian
It was really shocking lol

Timeless theories of self
Thoughts of more beings on earth
Feelings of only the few
Thoughts of many
Timeless sense of being
Thoughts of one
Feelings of desire
Thoughts of chaos
Timeless desire of independence
Thoughts if intrigue
feelings of elusive reality
- Shaun A. Delage

Gays Guardians of the Gates

To All My Kin On The Path,
Here Is A Very Interesting Perspective/ Interview Of An Indengenous Shaman Of The Dogon.
Please Read On:

Gays: Guardians of the Gates
An Interview with Malidoma Somé

Copyright © 1993 by Bert H. Hoff
also credits to 'wyzdom' on the resistance 2010 site for sharing this and essentially saving me from a negative situation, virtually.


This article appeared in the September, 1993 issue of M.E.N. Magazine.


Malidoma Somé recognizes that he learned more through his initiation as a Dagara tribesman than from his PhDs from the Sorbonne and Brandeis University. His name means "be friendly to strangers," and he is charged by his elders of the Dagara tribe of Burkina Faso (east of Nigeria and north of Ghana) with bringing the wisdom of his tribe to the West. His book Ritual: Power, Healing and Community (reviewed in this issue) is highly praised by Michael Meade, Robert Bly and Robert Moore. If you were not fortunate enough to catch his reading at the Elliott Bay Bookstore last August, you can find out more about him through the book and tape reviews in this issue.

During one of the Conflict Hours at the Mendocino Men’s Conference Malidoma spoke eloquently on indigenous people’s views of gay men. He kindly agreed to elaborate on his views as he sat with me among the redwoods of Mendocino.


Bert: At Conflict Hour you told us that your culture honors gays as having a higher vibrational level that enabled them to be guardians of the gateways to the spirit world. You suggested that our Western view limits itself by focusing only on their sexual role. Can you elaborate for our readers?

Malidoma: I don’t know how to put it in terms that are clear enough for an audience that, I think needs as much understanding of this gender issue as people in this country do. But at least among the Dagara people, gender has very little to do with anatomy. It is purely energetic. In that context, a male who is physically male can vibrate female energy, and vice versa. That is where the real gender is. Anatomic differences are simply there to determine who contributes what for the continuity of the tribe. It does not mean, necessarily, that there is a kind of line that divides people on that basis. And this is something that also touches on what has become known here as the "gay" or "homosexual" issue. Again, in the culture that I come from, this is not the issue. These people are looked on, essentially, as people. The whole notion of "gay" does not exist in the indigenous world. That does not mean that there are not people there who feel the way that certain people feel in this culture, that has led to them being referred to as "gay."

The reason why I’m saying there are no such people is because the gay person is very well integrated into the community, with the functions that delete this whole sexual differentiation of him or her. The gay person is looked at primarily as a "gatekeeper." The Earth is looked at, from my tribal perspective, as a very, very delicate machine or consciousness, with high vibrational points, which certain people must be guardians of in order for the tribe to keep its continuity with the gods and with the spirits that dwell there. Spirits of this world and spirits of the other worlds. Any person who is at this link between this world and the other world experiences a state of vibrational consciousness which is far higher, and far different, from the one that a normal person would experience. This is what makes a gay person gay. This kind of function is not one that society votes for certain people to fulfill. It is one that people are said to decide on prior to being born. You decide that you will be a gatekeeper before you are born. And it is that decision that provides you with the equipment (Malidoma gestures by circling waist area with hands) that you bring into this world. So when you arrive here you begin to vibrate in a way that Elders can detect as meaning that you are connected with a gateway somewhere. Then they watch you grow, and they watch you act and react, and sooner or later they will follow you to the gateway that you are connected with.

Now, gay people have children. Because they’re fertile, just like normal people. How I got to know that they were gay was because on arriving in this country and seeing the serious issues surrounding gay people, I began to wonder it does not exist in my own country. When I asked one of them, who tad taken me to the threshold of the Otherworld, whether he feels sexual attraction towards another man, he jumped back and said, "How do you know that?!" He said, "This is our business as gatekeepers." And, yet he had a wife and children -- no problem, you see.

So to then limit gay people to simple sexual orientation is really the worst harm that can be done to a person. That all he or she is is a sexual person. And, personally, because of the fact that my knowledge of indigenous medicine, ritual, comes from gatekeepers, it’s hard for me to take this position that gay people are the negative breed of a society. No! In a society that is profoundly dysfunctional, what happens is that peoples’ life purposes are taken away, and what is left is this kind of sexual orientation which, in turn, is disturbing to the very society that created it.

I think this is again victimization by a Christian establishment that is looking at a gay person as a disempowered person, a person who has lost his job from birth onward, and now society just wants to fire him out of life. This is not justice. It’s not justice. It is a terrible harm done to an energy that could save the world, that could save us. If, today, we are suffering from a gradual ecological waste, this is simply because the gatekeepers have been fired from their job. They have been fired! They have nothing to do! And because they have been fired, we accuse them for not doing anything. This is not fair!

Let us look at the earth differently, and we will find out gradually that these people that are bothering us today are going to start taking their posts. They know what their job is. You just have to get near them, to feel that they don’t vibrate the same way. They are not of this world. They come from the Otherworld, and they were sent here to keep the gates open to the Otherworld, because if the gates are shut, this is when the earth, Mother Earth, will shake -- because it has no more reason to be alive, it will shake itself, and we will be in deep trouble.

Bert: Christianity has separated spirit from body and spirit from Earth. And earlier you talked to us about Christianity suppressing your culture. So there’s a suggestion here that suppression of homosexuality would be the way for the Christians to shut down the gateways, shut down the spirit, and shut down our connection with the Earth.

Malidoma: Yes! That’s right! Christianity stresses postponing living on earth, as of we are only here to pack up our baggage and prepare for a life somewhere else "out there." Jesus Christ is right here, man! And of course anyone else who knows more, who knows better, will be suppressed.

And you start with the gatekeepers. You take the gatekeeper and you confuse his mind. You threaten him and you throw him in the middle of nowhere. Then nobody knows where the gate is. As soon as you lose the whereabouts of the gate, then you have a culture going downhill. What keeps a village together is a handful of "gays and lesbians," as they call them in the modern world. In my village, lesbians are called witches, and gay men are known as the gatekeepers. These are the two only known secret societies. These are the only groups that will get together as a separate group and go out into the woods secretly to do whatever they do. And if they find you during their yearly symposium, they have the right to kill you.

Unless they go out on their yearly symposium, the village cannot be granted another year of life. They have to go out to do what they do, in order for the village to feel safe enough to live the way it has lived before. This is why, to me, we’re playing with our lives.

Bert: So our culture may not be granted another year of life.

Malidoma: That’s right! Every year it feels like the number of years that this culture is entitled to live is getting smaller. So God only knows how close to the chasm this culture is. This constantly- reiterated discomfort and hatred for the gay person is again another indication that every year we might as well be prepared for the apocalyptic moment when the stars start to fall to the earth.

You see, unless there is somebody who constantly monitors the mechanism that opens the door from this world to the Otherworld, what happens is that something can happen to one of the doors and it closes up. When all the doors are closed, this earth runs out of its own orbit and the solar system collapses into itself. And because this system is linked to other systems, they too start to fall into a whirlpool. And the cataclysm would be amazing!

Ask the Dogon, they will tell you that. The Dogon. They’re a tribe that understands this so well, it’s amazing, mind-boggling. And it is a tribe that knows astrology like no other tribe that I have encountered. And the great astrologers of the Dogon are gay. They are gay. There is a dull planet that, in its orbit, is directly above the Dogon village every 58 years. Who knows that, but the gay people.

I mean, I’m not just trying to make gay people look fine. This is the truth, man! I’m trying to save my ass!

Why is it that, everywhere else in the world, gay people are a blessing, and in the modern world they are a curse? It is self-evident. The modern world was built by Christianity. They have taken the gods out of the earth sent them to heaven, wherever that is. And everyone who aspires to the gods must then negotiate with Christianity, so that the real priests and priestesses are out of a job. This is the worst thing that can happen to a culture that calls itself modern.

Bert: That theme came up earlier with you and Martín, the Mayan shaman here, that if a modern society wants to shut down another culture they will go out and kill the keepers of the ritual.

Malidoma: Oh, yes! Because they know that this is where the life-pulse of the culture is. This is where the engine room of the tribe is. So if you go and bomb that place, then the whole mechanism shuts down. That’s pretty much what’s at work in the third world, and what has happened here with the Native American culture. And the thing about it is that humans are going to be begetting gatekeepers, no matter what. This is the chance that we’ve got. So maybe that means that sooner or later we’re going to wake up to the horror of our own errors, and we’re going to reconsecrate our chosen people so that they can do their priestly work as they should. Otherwise, I just don’t understand. I just don’t understand. My position about it is not so much that gays be just forgiven. That’s just tokenism. But that they serve as an example of the wrong, or the illness, that modernity has brought to us, and that we use that to begin working at healing ourselves and our society from the bottom up. That way, by the time we reach a certain level, all the gatekeepers are going to find their positions again. We cannot tell them where the gates are. They know. If we start to heal ourselves, they will remember. It will kick in. But as long as we continue in arrogance, in egotism, in God-knows-what form of violence on ourselves, no, there’s that veil of confusion that’s going to continue to prevail, and as a result it’s going to prevent great things from happening. That’s all I can say about that.

cohabitation of 5

The guides that grace my invisible presence
My spirit guardian – always the one i can trust- gives me tips of where to go
An older lady – always observing and laughing as well – warns me about people
A naked sexual guy- Always there for every erotic moment- omg he is one pervy dude
A pinstripe suit guy – divine right to rule sorta deal, reporting about me at all times
My power animal-higher self- a secondary being to truly aid my existence that is above all beings

There have always been five around me at all times
It is comforting when i watch television i know i am not the only one there, safe to say they all sort of developed a kinship on how to relate to each other however i find the Masonic guy to be in direct opposition to the other four but he has been given the divine right to rule complex based on the system we inhabit His reporting nature has not only allowed me to get away with ALOT but he has also made me pay sadistically for my crimes. I don’t attest to having special powers or attesting to seeing things.
There is safety in me saying i live a normal life but i know deep down inside that i will never have a normal life it is easy to say i am eccentric – most don’t understand what exactly i have been through and many will never get it – i kind of look at myself as a spacial fixation rather than an imposing reality
I know deep inside that i am different than most – i see myself as having a soul that is so fargone it is un- retrievable- Safe to say i view myself as a walking war crime.
Not only because i see myself this way but this is what i am viewed as by the establishment
I went to a foreign country and lit of my own suicide bomb not understanding what it was for or what happened. I am a suicide bomber. Every place i go – there is observation
Every communication i have is observed and reported on
I have never seen an intelligence tail but these days it is done by satellites and not actual beings anyway
Much safer to say instead of ignoring the fact that my technology is also tracked from the computer to the cell to the email even teevee etc
It is not based out of an obsessive need to report supposed crimes but mainly done for research purposes
Simply the illusion is is that your problems are nothing compared to most out there or that nobody is watching you your paranoid
Haha what a funny notion i wish i was left alone – in some ways i am
There was one time i was going through some backways in Vancouver i came across a path and trail between two buildings i could see a red light from above however faint
I walked between the path and right around the corner two detectives showed their badges and asked what i was doing there i said i was coming between the buildings
The one detective i asked for further identification and he opened his wallet only to almost scatter about ten pieces of identification and cards at my feet
Amusing i thought smiling
While he bent down to pick up his scattered cards the other one was asking me questions which i answered then they let me go
As i left they were just staring at me walking away in disbelief
I could tell that i was not on their observation to the level i am currently but it was amusing that they would include on their report a supernatural occurance that was essentially unexplainable
It was the way the cards were strewn about and neatly thrown on the ground and the sound it all made as well and the shocked looks of both officers that completed the whole situation
I know now my every movement must be recorded because of several things that have happened
Every single envisionment in my life is observed even down to what i eat or drink
It is a basis for identifying future anomaly’s But also in a better notion to protect those that i come into contact with
Moreso because i am seen as a suicide bomber i also have the suicide touch as they would relay that by shaking a masons hand they are put to death because my handshake is stronger and i am technically by definition the prince of all masons.
That those i shake hands with are never seen again in this realm and it is a total yikes factor
I don’t know if i actually put people to their death or if they are killed for coming into contact with my energy or if they kill themselves i haven’t figured it out but what i do know is there is no evidence to prove me wrong at this point so it is a genuine basis of factual simulated game theory
Now this along with many rifts in my character would force an individual to have a more negative viewpoint of the self. Yes to some degree i have a hatred for all i have involved myself in
But without that and without my essence and the lessons i have learnt and one singular event with an off choice and i would not be here in the same capacity writing as i do
Why do i hate the masons so much ?
I don’t hate anything – there is not one ounce of hatred in my soul- what i align myself spiritually with is the fact that i was a very very high level mason in a previous incarnation and possibly not even of this dimension. So i am aware on some level of their secrets when i get a trigger to my illness
Usually being codewords in relation to masonry like pillar, brother, master, check, etc
Or i actually see a visual clue in some ways it triggers the symptoms of my illness
I know what to look for along with many others who are aware
I cant ignore my meeting with a person on my captivation piece and what it made me think about my consciousness and how i have been through many many experiences that are unexplainable and unattainable by most
So for one to say
I am just gay or i am just a raver or i am a vegetarian seems a bit trivial to me
I have been made aware of situational programming that occurs everywhere i go
Basically in every public forum their is a Heiarchy of intellectual form mostly it is beings that subscribe to analyzing me or being close to me and that other beings just cower away. Mainly it is done for psychic warfare to basically read my mind to have the illusion of what i will do next- but othertimes i see this happening everywhere i go. The pawns move out of the way and scatter while the knight, queen or king move in. All the while these beings are fully aware of who outranks them and this is safe to say happens everywhere there is a public entity gathering.
But it also attaches them to figuring out the validity of my secrets i possess and actually enables them to trigger my innermost demonic thoughts that everyone holds. Moreso to trigger that system of mental breakdown that is inherent in most beings so they continue going through life believing their life is something to be wasted or a self that is seen as unworthy of living
I think of the over 500 raves i went too
The level of dimensional and ritual magic
The acid, the ketamine, the dmt, the mushrooms, the xtacy, the meth, the coke, the ghb, the pot
I think of how i would have quite a few of those a night
Sometimes up to 5 caps of xtacy in one night
To say my soul is unretrievable is a bit cruel because it resides with me and protects me
Safe to say i will always be different and people sense that in me
That i am a more evolved being
Nobody really knows of my status as a monarch programmed sex slave until recently
Nobody can understand what that is like
I only know i was groomed for one purpose, and that is superstardom
In some ways i don’t want it to happen, but in others i know it will happen and it is happening all around me currently
Those with knowledge of the timeline come back to see me in the present and observe and laugh about how silly i look without all the cash and without all the bling etc
I just know that when my time is up to rule and make an impression that i will only do it with loving grace that i will only do it out of evolution and enlightenment
That i am a being that matters, that my problems are real and they do matter to those that want to interject
That i hold the keys to thousands upon thousands of beings being set free from captivity
That it is me solely that they are here to meet and see
I just don’t want the same things to happen to me such as other monarch programmed beings
I scan the boy bieber currently and all i can see is him in a hotel room surrounded by 12 or 13 drunken bankers doing ritual sex i think it is sick to put a child through this but it is the formation of the ego based celebrity mindset and that he was sold in the monarch capital of the world
I was fortunate enough to have never met my fate at an early age because it would have been a horror story
I know now that if the time comes and i have my following that i will lead those souls to everlasting and complete enlightenment and a pure bliss state
Not only because i attach to being a guru but what exactly is a guru and how does one become a guru
Is the most pressing of questions
Well, they need a following #1 –mostly of those that are trapped and need a way out
#2 they need to be individual – not willing to subscribe to the status quo even under the threat of death
#3 they need to offer philosophy or mysticism
#4 they have to have proven supernatural powers
#5 Many gurus have sexual deviance attached to their character early on
#6 They need to have an identifiable ideology
#7 They need to know the answers
#8 they need to be dimensional
#9 they need knowledge of where they actually come from
#10 they need people that will defend their lives
#11 They need to be ordained as such
#12 they need to go thru an initiation that no other being is welcomed too
#13 they need to be constantly in contact with other beings and intelligences
#14 they must be the living entity of which they proclaim as a reality
#15 many are stigmatic or display the wounds of those they profess to protect
#16 they must have many enemies
#17 they must be of divine incarnation
#18 they must be evolved past every living inhabitant of the earth excluding other gurus
#19 They are powerful and unique and can bend reality in their favour

safer illusion

What essentially anybody is looking for is a basis of quantifyable measurement
To attach to a theory outside of evolution would seem comforting to most
It is safe to say there is only a handful of people wanting to evolve on the planet
It is much easier to attach to a ritualistic mindframe and hold onto that ritual day in day out because it offers solace for a human being and a measurement of validity
Meanwhile the system you live in throws massive arguable viewpoints to you to be analyzed
You are expected to take a point of view and sit comfortably on that view, defending it to the point of exhaustion
Evolving souls are ever catastrophic and mind you most involved in our own present realm of existence could not handle the madness of evolution
Evolution and an evolving mind is so wrapped in theories and laughter and pure bliss
Nobody could expect to live that life
When one seeks enlightenment they are seeking their soul to evolve
Almost everyone you speak to thinks of enlightenment as being able to move objects, pick a star from the sky and make you blow it back out. Mostly everyone looks at enlightenment as a 700 lb man sitting on a rock making your every wish come true
When in fact enlightenment is everywhere
It can be found in each moment
It can be found in each pair of eyes you see
Evolving as the world goes with it
Evolution is never easy, sometimes negativity comes up
Madness, sadness, death, sickness etc
Of course it is ok to ignore that and move on with your life but sometimes it needs to be addressed as well, which is something that a daily ritual cannot keep up with so you are forced in a way to experience what very few manage to partake in
It is much easier to go through your day with relative familiarity, perhaps shake up your schedule a bit with a different meal and knowing full well how much your cheque is going to be when you get it at the end of the week. Figuring out what your going to buy with your income, making a list in your head of chores you need to do etc
To ponder an existential reality based in constant evolving nature is considered illness
Because it is a fine line to discover where the path may lead you so to speak
Plus throw in outside incursions and you have yourself quite the mess to try and ponder
The madness of the beings the madness of the soul
The everpresent ability to record the time space realm
Much of our day is sent from one point to another never stopping to write about or photograph what we see.
It generally evolves into a blur of reality that we see as existence but after some time passed there is no actual solid or verifyable proof that it even existed
Mind you the time war continues
But most will not allay to you the past and future is happening currently while you look at this very word
And will repeat until you are given retirement from thought
Not only that but every past moment is playing out in some realm of reality currently along with future choices and your future most beautiful self.
So many find it easy to exist in a spacial self that is easily understood by how much we weigh what we put in our hair how much we look like something
You identify so much with this self you identify and place all of your intuition on the being you reside in
Much safer to assume that the life you lead is relative elusive based reality
I call it elusive based reality because it is a reality that plays out yet remains somewhat elusive mostly
You can make a current moment choice and never fully understanding it until much later on
Those that specialize in a field have much more to rely on They have the instructions they were told to rely on and they have the forecasted knowledge to be able to carry through their decisions with courage and confidence.
In some ways it would be more of an existence to have a life like that
For me i see people of the more hybridic mindset they walk around and talk to other beings of their own kind. While addressing those with independence or individualistic viewpoints with a certain level of hostility
It would be comforting to be in that role for me personally, i would have less to ponder, would not be in abyss of dimensional distortion and i would have confidence knowing i could have a nice car and take care of a family if need be. If all else fails i would just open my code book and relate to my succession
Inconsiderable amounts of beings just seriously attach to what is given to them without any hint of resistance – it is odd to think of
It is like somebody handing you a green grapefruit and saying this is good, this is yummy and you will enjoy it.
You open it up and it tastes like rotten, and never understood why you ate the fruit to begin with
It is mostly a way to enliven the spirit with evolution that is a carefree and selfless commonality with all things around them
It is unique to be able to identify with being a shadow being or an oddity of nature or unique
Many would love to be able to throw off the tie and fancy clothes for some rave pants
They just would never be understood wearing the clothes nor would they feel like themselves
For so much to happen currently you need to understand what is inhabiting the body
And this you may never come to completely understand until the very last moment of your existence
Are you ready to defend that individual until that time?
That is the ultimate and most pressing question.

- Shaun A. Delage

chipped and slacker style

Infusion of idealism and imaginable life placement
Safe to say life entrancement
But what is not to say of theories so inclined
Not yet to a story
But another that validates being alive
No matter what theory you hold you are welcome to co exist with others
That once picked up on ur a threat
The people usually dart off and observe from the distance
Of course it is nice to okay well enjoy your life and your drama because
That is so beneath meh
Just for one day one wishes one could be a cat and escape all of this madness at once
Safer to say an elusive ever present hyper dimensional gateway simulation incorporated
It is a bit on the odd side of where you will end up versus when you struck whos attentions span
Ghostly like apparition on another dimension all together and it investigated by those that can see into paranormal studies per se it is difficult to identify or quantify in our terms
That perhaps they see you as a nuisance or something to study when the incursions actually happen
I ask a guide to come find me and it is a bright tropical fish it is more like a power tropics entity
It took me to a city fuck i had to get to a bus station super quick i was willing to do anything so i quickly traded some larger diamonds for smaller ones
Trying to make a connection or something and in a panic i asked a guy ona bike and said i should catch that bus so i got on like an almost double decker with lace white seats i got on with 75 cents to spare and thanking the guy on the bike.

So to go on i am a Prisoner of war not only for an ideology... but proven and traceable flaws of existence that have happened that the system is essentially scared of.
One being... not acting ages ago, which could have and should have been done to stave of some of the disaster one in a country of freedoms and protections could the citizenry be seen as so disposable
But those not informed into an area of scientific quantifiable skills It is simply not an area that your welcome and about 90% of the beings you meet are into this hidden world and realm and will do anything possible to uphold the ideology
An internet identity that cannot be confused with that of a person but is also a few other levels of compromise
Most older beings have exhausted their purpose so they attach to a life with purpose that is ever evolving then target the younger incarnations of improvising surveillance a form of psy ops but more because the being is perceived as a receptor for most thoughts and can actually process information around them
That is why it is important to expel the negative energy that gets attached to you through various means mainly when expelling a toxin or a liquid etc think to yourself i am releasing negative energy attached to my being – and my greater spiritual self
Because those adept and taking you for a ride so to speak excel in attaching things to you and will attach endless entities and energies to your being it is important to learn how to release these from yourself you just look younger you feel better you feel happier you feel lighter and more bubbly !!!
...........
But why stop there why not involve yourself with worldy affairs like the richest diamond and oil deposits on earth which not only the dutch lay claim too but are second in line to the throne so to speak
It would appear that something happened all together on a dimensional level up there but nobody dares say a word but meh
One of the greatest abilities of the writer is to catch a common in the moment philosophy and fly with it no matter what- to suppress illusion and to go with your own instinct the age old adage “no time like the present” seems to provide relief to the writer but also in capturing an ideology and putting it into print it allows the author to become immortal, essentially. Perhaps something i share may be illusion, delusion, madness, truth, surreal, vivid, etc but at least it is captured and put into essence rather than spoken of and then dismissed.
- Shaun A. Delage

sunset style

sunset tripp

holland

The dutch government pamphlet on political asylum states that anybody may ask for asylum based on a few conditions regarding the treatment of their body in their home country
If the person is being tortured
If the person is being persecuted for their political and religious beliefs
If they are being threatened, starved, ,mutilated
My war is non existent because i choose not to fight the war
I hold a non violent non reactionary state
I don’t attest to anger or negativity
I will never understand the torture ensued on me
Whether or not the kingdom of the Netherlands chooses to accept me is out of my hands
I just know that if i continue here as things are going
I am at risk to harm and to losing my life
And to being further mutilated and tortured beyond belief
In a seemingly caring society one would assume there would be greater help for a being like me
That seems freedom and release from prison in the seeming most free country within the realm of psychological operations
I have collected evidence and will attest to it at a war crimes tribunal based on my own witness accounts under the threat of perjury as well as willing to submit for psychological evaluation and also lie detector tests and any other further information and testing needed to verify the validity of my complaints
My lifetime consists of 28 years of torture minus 7 years with my beautiful ex partner
But there is no way i can continue here in Canada with the paradoxical situation i am in even on a federal and north American level of hatred being a gay man, and a universalist, an ex elite sex worker and a gay man
One would assume that being in Canada i could never be persecuted like in a nazi death camp but the reality is essentially real
I hold no vengeance i will gladly move on with my life with the ability to heal from this torture and mindgames but there is nothing left for me here
They continue to torture me through neuro linguistics and threats and everywhere i go to asking for help slams the door in my face including hospitals and agencies
I recently went to the BCID office where they told me i could not get my entitlement added to my identification and the house of saud representatives explained to me that no being has entitlement in british Columbia
I assure those that i have unlocked this greater conspiracy on my being
I only look to move onward and upward
I petition the kingdom of the Netherlands to accept my urgent appeal for political asylum because i am being persecuted for my beliefs against secretive enemies
I also petition the hague war crime criminal court to release Colton Harris- Moore to the netherlands based on merit that the youth will be subject to torture and rape including psychological torture inclusive of a very devastating life.
This individual will not be sold on the open market and it is attested to on this day.

- Shaun A. Delage

inhabit gamez

Inclusion into a being that inhabits fourty selves
Rather than the usual one that most perceive
Often the person is situated in a self that is keen to the empowerment

Of the culture of ultimate and perpetual entitlement
Not only an egotistical basis for need
But one meant on the cold hard truth that
The answers do in fact find you when they are sought
That much work goes into exploring the illusion placed on individual souls
That all beings be released from captivity no matter what their seeming spiritual incursion on the individual or on the community as a whole
That no matter what role they play in the moment they be afforded the opportunity of discovery on a path that is simply existence and nothing more

That all beings have the power to heal and to learn the right from their wrongs in any association even if the directive or form of directive is not made clear in the present time
That all beings inherit the values and the commonality of association with the spiritual evolution they are involved in
That all beings no matter how insane is perceived to be a war in todays society and is one of the greatest weapons known to exist much earlier than the sixties where they began to map the human psychological state
They still have not completed the research but however have found some interesting commonalities of traits that may be used as warfare of the independent mind
To keep it in a collapsed state and continue on with painful intrigue of the spirit
One being in all essence is all it takes with common and creative thought to entrance this belief on the rest of society
Where not just one but many people will be shown the only story that matters in relation to them
Since each observation is inherently unique one would assume the path includes encouragement of the sole basis of inclusion
For the huge chaos theory taking place has not other method but collapse
Hybridic minds hold on for decades and centuries of enlightenment while appearing as youthful entities common traits include the constant sale of the entity under contractual obligation the primary system cannot be made apparent for a period no longer that and beyond that under layers upon layers of secrecy and rules. policy etc

The beings that are here charged with your protection would still have the audacity to point a sign that says “Swearing will not be tolerated, nor shouting or threats of violence”
We all know this is a private contract you agree to when you enter the grounds of the Saudi royal family
The colour coded response and font used will allay a certain trademark that much like things in society
We are told that if you don’t understand what is plain in your face we don’t have any more words for you
The whole argumentative state of the state versus the people
With advanced hyper dimensional entities controlling every issue known to man with no specialization other than that of the generality of employment which could only be describe as unique in character and spirit and always evolving
Which is why even those that must send you away saddened and hurt will understand also that they have to witness you in this state
And i am not saying that they are not in any way hurtful that they be made to witness this behavioural trait in present time they are simply unaware of present time reality and have no association to the installation of a basis for identity in the present moment
Meanwhile once every trade route is established on earth including complete world domination every crime syndicate will have their enterprise attached to your outlook and not simply u as an individual because by virtue of existence you are never a person under the law

You are an entity
A traveller
That may be imprisoned at any time
That may be killed off at any time
And glorified
That you are something of no basis to individual spirit
No matter how much you resist the temptation to rebel
The rebellion could never take place unless first instilled into the minds that created it
- Shaun A. Delage

direCtiVe PhiloSophY

The gurus , the prophets the superstars
One of the greatest weapons the elite controller mindset has at their disposal
To eradicate resistance in individuals is the basis of exploratory sexual relations most of us undertake as a minor You have some romantic encounters as early as six years old
Most of the time they feed the luciferian mindset while registered and logged to make a basis for control and blackmail later on life.
In some ways this is also done in realms of sexuality as well
Each encounter as a toddler, youth or teenager creates a process rift in the mind
It enables you to traumatically attach to what is considered a sin in todays western culture
Mind you all beings should be free to explore themselves as soon as they feel fit and with whom they choose in no way am i advocating what is illegal
But i have always walked the path of a guru and i understand exactly the process used to imprison the greatest minds on earth, that being said i advocate on behalf of those that cant speak for themselves and also those that are unable to articulate it as well
I advocate on behalf of Michael Jackson, i advocate on behalf of the sri sai baba, i advocate on behalf of catholic priests accused of crimes
The only reason being is i can see the satanic illusion behind it all
The process of resisting what is being displayed to you and choosing another route of freedom only to be met hostility and lies and trauma
I as a younger gay man was accused of being a sexual deviant as young as before being a teenager
In western culture any talks of sexual activity or anything even on the playground is cause for damnation in the eyes of administrators and also parents friends of parents
It is easy to be labelled a sexual deviant as young as 8 years old when it is not bad to talk about sex
It is not a negative thing to explore yourself sexually
It is not a crime to pursue another teenager and nervously go at it
But the mind that creates this also attaches to them from early ages
Some of the people charged with upholding the illusion are in fact sexual deviants
There are two edges of the spectrum one being that is sheltered from all sexual activity by protective parents until later on in teenage hood
And then you have the sadistic types that are adults in childs bodies that go around setting children free from a young age and then when they actually mature into an adult they use that deviance to enhance their control over others and who knows what they do in their spare time i don’t even care
It all comes down to the perverse preying on the traumatized mind
While saying they are a supposed angel on earth yet they go around hurting others and bringing up the confusion of early sexual encounters to further stigmatize and give the subject further isolating feelings thinking they are odd or a deviant sexually when in fact you look around and about 95% of us have had sexual activity before age 15
Most in power use this against us while partaking in the same acts even into adult hood knowing that a younger minded being can be further traumatized into believing they are evil
This sexual torture is used against you at every opportunity available by seeming random people that use the words and subliminals and the coded response that was given to the situation
You don’t understand why they just said the sentence backwards and you move on and a few hours later you go into the depths of depression and sadness and have a drink and are literally possessed with intoxication and feelings of hopelessness and despair
These experiences not only subjectively benefited the institutional pedophile satanic mindset but in a world with no time the experience keeps repeating and is happening currently and is being used against you to submit further to torture and slavery and to do that to others as well
It is this mindset that further believes it has power over you to some degree meanwhile because my actions are wholesome on an apparent level and your just a sickened tortured soul so to speak
Whenever i go in front of people with the alien mind and the power mind i always lock into them and i can literally hear some power words associated with my character that comes up in their own mind it is quite amusing that they think of me that way which is why it is important to keep your guard up when dealing with any being that is attached to the cloned collective mind and has further given up the keys to their soul and essentially become a hybridic international entity
It is important to learn how to close your aura and this can be done in several ways
Imagine a changing room mirrors surrounding your being shining outward so the beings that look at you are really seeing themselves so say 4 or 5 of those rectangular mirrors surrounding your body
Or the jedi crossing the wrists over each other while sitting is casual enough
Or also imagine a rock or a tiny spaceship zooming around your body a few times to close your aura zoom zoooom lol
Or the simplest and my most favourite is to say to yourself when your feeling somewhat that people are drawn to you and literally feeding from you is to repeat to yourself 3 times “i close my aura and my spirit nobody can hear me i am closed to the world my thoughts are my own i am my own being”
Of course you can make up your own protective statement
It is funny once you do any of these the being feeding will generally walk away or start ignoring you or become angry and do a deep breath and move on as if nothing has happened
There is much info on the net of energy vampirism and many of them do not know what exactly they are doing
Anyways back to my discourse
The institutional mind tends to throw that psychological torture back on the person as soon as they feel the need to do something enlightening in their lives it is the cheapest and easiest tool available
Countless times i have heard oh this guru like children or this singer did this or this catholic priest did this you think to yourself that is sick right and then the next assumption that is thrown by the mindset is that they are a gay man and they prey on children
How many lesbian pedophile priests and gurus preying on children have you heard of
It is being done by incarnates that are not actually a male entity but an entity that defines itself as a fraternal brother when in fact they are a fraternal sister
They use it to attack the most vulnerable and they use it at their whim at anybody that threatens the system or attempts to set groups of people free with their tender loving nature
And they will pull out all the cards, actually bringing witnesses in, that tell complete lies
They will flash pictures they will say things that are obviously one sided
It is the war on independence
When in fact our society literally breeds and feeds the pedophile mindset
Nude babies constantly on television and documentaries – toddlers running in pampers , cutie pie jingles that are another language that plays upside down in your mind, adults that look like babies, but seemingly ok when shown by them right
Glorifying pubescence for example the bieber phenoenae currently taking place people are literally fixated on the sexuality of pubescence through secret means in media and through association but will never speak of it
They literally throw it in the face of married men because that is what the men of the planet are used to on their home world (without women) is dating other men and teenagers
When a half nude shot of a 17 year old comes on the screen while your sitting with your wife you get a bit aroused and this is easily read by your supposed life partner to further enchain you into a lifetime of slavery and solitude of the mind and spirit when in fact thinking these thoughts is completely normal
Acting on them of course is another story not one i advocate or even searching on but what i am saying is that it is time they stopped using the oldest trick in the book on those that are most traumatized
I KNOW the path of the guru i have walked the steps i know what my fraternal brother mr. Jackson EXACTLY went through to chain his spirit up and i am the only waking person on earth that can attest to this. I know what the sickened beings that control us have at their arsenal and when i am finished with them they will have NOTHING LEFT
We will be free – we will be set free from captivity
And i am not the sole individual i am one of many so it is best to argue many points of view but i know you will be drawn to my words because i think of the most divine and i am courageous for being your guide here and now and i believe in you
It is odd how these sadistic minds would use that same torture back on you when they involve themselves in this legally sanctioned fun at most lodges their excuse is that well this is a 700 year old being in a 14 year olds body so it is okay.
This is fitting of a cruel 5 star psychological thriller but this is my society and yours as well
Most that are in power over us see us all this way which is quite the impression to have over those you rule over while maintaining their own secret and legally sanctioned adult child worship rituals that take place to further terrorize the minds that are already tortured

I ask my guides to find me and what i get is a fantastic delight
It is a black swan and mind you the shining soul of the swan is beautiful white but usually the opposite is true when it comes to shading of the soul
I was in the middle of a field
There was a detective in the field searching it for evidence of my rape and torture
While i was in tears searching for some sort of solace in the mind of the establishment
I could hardly swallow because my throat was so bruised and they made me eat these weird vegetables that looked like a large seed with a bit of a greenery on them
Literally choking them down i had to drink water to was them down but my throat was the size of a grain of rice
These veggies were effin weird
And i moved my foot and their was like a giant bug about the size of a tennis ball it had a harder edge shell and looked much like a cockroach
I tried to step on it but it scurried away
My swan flew me to an empty apartment
I had just moved in i guess
I has food and drinks set up on a game board that was like a graph many intersecting lines but moreso like a tracing board rather than a chess set
I moved it and two huge orange and beige insects were trying to attack the food and terrorizing
They are freaky being the size of a hand
I will never let one sting me again
I hate those things
The swan flew by again
But it only took me down to the lobby to pay rent where the lady said that mr. Jacksons process included turning white so he could be included into the men that wear white robes and cones on their head and masks to cover the true identity
So he was untouchable and could never leave but could never speak of the pain he held in his soul.

Theorizing of inclusion of mind
Tranced into belief of spectrum
Yet mindful of the process of protection
Those that see you and i are nothing in a sense
Until i look at them and fully see their soul
The elemental is never beyond touch
But moreso those that govern have only
One shaded self
No spectrum
No elemental
My world is run on mystery
And revealing the greater war on humanity
And independent thought
Why my beautiful soul remains here to witness this
Is made apparent each day i live
Only to live a life with purpose
A life of humane treatment and dignity
A life of calm retractive thought
A life of solitude and bliss
In the eternal wisdom of the enlightened ones
And may you attach yourself
And feel their living energy for the natural and loving progression
Of your beautiful and meaningful soul
- Shaun A. Delage