chillez and flippiz

Lately i have been struggling with my own humanity

But also dealing with the fact that nobody i deal with on a daily basis has any qualities that i seek to admire which is humanity

The loving solace for compassion for intuition and directly relating to intelligence

I have been seeking this quality in all those i deal with

Sometimes i feel those that come into contact with me are simply visual programs meant to instil normalcy on an otherwise mundane life.

I mean most of my life is spent on my own with zero human involvement

Then when i am graced with the presence of somebody with these qualities it is a gift

Many don’t understand this until they are halfway through their lives, that this actually matters to them.

The youthful spirits go through life happy and content with simple pleasantries and preprogrammed responses to everything you say

You really never know the inner workings of the system unless you isolate yourself from the system and then slowly immerse yourself in the culture to see how well you fit in.

To say that everyone i know is illusion is an understatement

Because you are taught to believe in the formalities of life including bloodline and friends etc

But there is one quotient that is not taken into retrospection that is the cellular structure completely regenerates every few years. Hardly the same mother or brother or sister you know after a few years actually quite the opposite they have regenerated completely.

This illusion has been going on for quite some time, mind you there is love in familiarity and without our most familiar relations most of us would be forgotten and destitute

But there is a methodology that allows you to not be influenced so heavily by these programs and the people as associated through them through familiarity

When you look at the world in the eyes of somebody that truly cares you have a world that is left alone in the judgements of man and beyond

The world it would seem would take comfort in you doing nothing

But of course

It gives more energy to the world to protect other citizens from harm

We are so heavily guided by these fear programs be it sick people or the homeless programs like the train man in the matrix

They instil fear in us to conform.

Who wants to be wearing some clothes from 10 years ago covered in grime and urine with dirty fingernails and long unkempt greasy hair and only four teeth in the front row

Nobody does, who in their right mind would choose this.

This is why you must constantly protect where your being lead and where you are being directed

Mind you going nowhere is way better than a downward spiral

People place so many limitations on their growth living in an attention deficit induced society

We are only subscribed to believe that we need to do approximately 20-30 things a day to be something to show merit for our actions.

People have this idea of fame and what it entails and this is a funny concept to me because anybody famous (99%) are known Satanists and have sold their soul for the pursuits of wealth and beauty

And mind you wealth and beauty are amazing goals. They just have to be done with the right intent and the right people around you.

Then you have teenage idols like the preteen Satanist Justin bieber being paraded around in an omnisexual celebrity that attaches to all genres of society

But this person serves as a reminder for the elite to many middle aged men that this preteen can make 1000 times more money than you and you will never be welcome.

Then you throw in the feminine glance of the al sharek man pleasing boy slave and we have a little argument for the ancient culture of man and teen love which goes way back to pagan ritual which in turn goes back to the male home world, male star system.

It is true that they start them out young and there is no doubt in my mind this young guy was groomed through a life of trauma and physical and sexual abuse and this continues with his announcement as one of the sovereign princes of freemasonry where the illusions of the world are lifted for you as a singular soul while the rest of the world suffers along in the worst recession. This essentially is the glorification of masonry and the glorification of the singular self as opposed to betterment of a group of beings or the entire human race

Mind you I would guilty of hoarding a few dollars and maybe sipping too much champagne on my around the world cruise but my decisions with wealth would be directive of growth and forecasted for my own growth but i would also bring things like the Church of techno to a new enlightenment while perpetuating further thoughtforms like the Resistance. I would also make all of my relations comfortable and all my disciples as well.

But this is not how the monarch mind works. It takes Years upon years to break out of the programming and i am probably not even safe given the amount of neuro torture i went through.

I know this because i am a monarch programmed slave. To the best of my efforts i am unable to escape my programming so i just live with it in my own world. Most people in my position would kill themselves or become an alcoholic

Me i am surrounded by lower level minders (who probably don’t even know they are minding me)

 I am unable to escape them nor my situation due to finances and other things like safety and all that

You can imagine how cut off from the world you would be after having almost zero involvement for ten years employment wise or with anything else, it really places me into a fringe category where i am meant to go my own path, essentially this is what i have always wanted and in my talents i find something to be known for...but those are in development – nobody could even begin to fathom how well my book will be received if the other steps are taken care of quickly  

So i just live with the programming and wait patiently and i subvert most attempts to program me. hold on wow just took a second to research monarch slaves and came to the choice to forward my captivation piece to TMZ

I am not expecting much just maybe these butchers to be named but like the hague, the RCMP, The liberal party of Canada and the new democrat party of Canada, & CBC news etc

I am almost expecting this to be kept silent

For those that are unaware (captivation piece-bttm of this blog) I was employed by the shows Dark angel and Higher ground where Jessica alba and hayden Christensen (monarch slaves) Where i as a more detested form of slave committed crimes on their movie sets where i was left alone only to be hunted down at a nazi bakery and arranged to be given HIV through the master controller White knight mason of vancouver  through my Siamese twin

Believe me i have attempted to bring those to justice in a world where justice is for the rich so in that i become a perpetual art icon

I am not sworn to oppose i am here to work with the system and if you are here to bring hurt and pain to others you will be brought to justice. Be it with karma, or catacylism

I live in such an entertaining world when people just say suck it up and be a man

I am not able to move on without addressing this trauma in my life and there is dozens of events

Since therapy is being withheld I am left with no other route but to choose enlightenment as an ascended master

Can you imagine i thought i had nothing to write about this time lol it has been a week off or so I needed a 4:20 break- that stuff is awesome for recycling negativity in ones life.

I ask my guide to show me the way and what i get is a nice surprise i get a nice poodle it took me first to a house full of people and we were going to play truth or dare and a girl wanted to kiss me and i was like oh whatever this is truth or dare big deal just kizz me

Next i was in a country house with a stack of cash and was planning on leaving the country and i was climbing a brick wall to look over the horizon and a bug flew on my hand and i tried to blow it off and then i just shooed it off. I don’t think it was going to sting i just don’t like bugs on me, perhaps was curious who knows.

Watching the intune ones operate on a new level of encouragement

Working with the actual classy ones

Who know nothing of money

Only a felinic gaze

Lifelong attitudes of self and seemingly finite theories to being alive

The only calm i see is love and beauty

And its in you

-          Shaun A. Delage

newest rave art more coming

faithful life

Surfing the internet lately and reading surfing the tao

It is pretty nice book i mean i like those conspiracy books that have it all in one book, kinda condense everything

I have been meeting my share of internet lunatics lately i dunno if it is the moon or what but i am also in a trance about my online world and i sometime have no idea how much or how little the person on the attack has read about me or stalked up on, and rightfully so a blog provides a stalkers paradise

But i am not worried about that. There are far worse things to worry about and since i like to surround myself in beauty i kind of wonder about those that choose to attack or stalk somebody like me

While never fortunate to place oneself in a victimized category that is where i reside alot of my life, and i know i have many blockages to success

But this can all be fixed and i have faith- usually the only thing that fixes these blockages is intent

Which i find comforting you can pay people to do it for you or wave incense on yourself or you can use the power of intent to aid you in discovering your nature and path some more

I have really been pondering this 2012 phenomena lately and it is interesting to watch the cycle in myself and there are some in the conspiracy world that get extremely paranoid when you bring up the subject and then you have some that it doesn’t bother them so much

I have always held fast to the ideal that you deal with it when it comes, anything that is broadcasted to you via media or perception is meant to instil fear for the future and believe me if the choice came between total destruction of the species and ascension or another 50 years on this earth

Sadly enough many people would choose to sit here and slave away

Most are fearful of a painful death and this is something i have in a sense went through and many people go through this pain daily in hospitals and a newfound enlightenment may take fold because you realise that there is much more to life when your life is threatened or you almost lose it

That simply keeping yourself alive and happy for one more day is a gift and the actual meaning of life

While never healthy to view yourself as the next Christ or the next god i say please do it is empowering

Not many people are blessed with the experiences i have been through and sadly enough this is where most of my jealous stalkers or obsessed ones come into view.

But i chose to be in the public forum so this is something i need to deal with when it comes and not really broadcast it on others

I tend to look at universalism as a staying point because i welcome my other selves to guide me around the universe and i know there are many others of me because they host me in my astral travels nightly.

My own inherent humanity seems somewhat of a struggle at times but when you have techno meditation some awesome books that cover everything from Maitreya to secret oaths

I also find the conspiracy crowd to be extremely intimate which at times i find comfort in, because while 90% of people find disgust in who i am as a person and my captivation piece and my role in the world i really fascinate about 10% and they belong to me, my family. The people that understand me and care about the progression of my soul.

Which many of our closest relations could care less of

This is also the beauty of the internet

You are able to find alike people all over the world to be friends with and nurture

Where in other generations this was a rarity on par with a cosmic orgasm lol

every living being on earth has their piece of the puzzle please embrace yours and your inherent enlightenment - you dont need to materialize things to prove your enlightened.

me personally i am confident that i will find 'him' online, whenever the timing is right for ascension we will materialize as a force that can change the world.

This is my own power of christ and i am a christened one because of my inherent suffering, when my own family believes that my wounds are illusion and nothing to worry about

i know i have something.
I like many people have attained enlightenment through the use of illegal substances but as always there is the double edged sword not only that but through the power of intent and manifestation i have been able to become enlightened in my own regard a few times over thanks to a plethora of situational occurances ....while my enlightenment may be taken away at any point with one wrong choice it is also something to be embraced and what an enlightened being craves the most usually is to be around those of his own kind, other enlightened beings.

-          Shaun A. Delage

cattle talk

2012 itself serves as a reciprocating naturally recurring curse

So for the earliest time you hear of 2012 that is where it all begins with you

Coming to terms with our inherent apocalyptic state seems to be the going elusive fate

While many believe our cultural icon as being the 2012 state this era was not easily given to us

They needed something to help our youth and all alike attach to a basis of identity

This phenomena serves as a catalyst for growth within all genres of society and helps people come to terms with their given identity, somewhat

See for me personally everything i inhabit to me at this point articulates beauty because i am in the know of where my life is heading and this is at least some direction. But to most people my life degrades into a worthless pit of human depravity

To me i wanted to look into my past as a key for my future in my meditations and rightfully so my past has some secrets. It would seem the proper basis to live and a methodology to living exists with how comfortable you are amidst an apocalyptic setting.

Whether you have everything you need, are warm enough, well fed, taken care of.

Much of humanity is in a hell state and it is no wonder that much of the impoverished broadcast this energy to the greater populace to toil over.

While we may appear as having everything the west struggles quite a bit amidst this apocalyptic times

They don’t want to say given the state of affairs the world is in melt down mode signalling the end of the world but that will come with every passing second even up into the year 3000

What a week it has been, going from a monk thing again into my world which in itself is fine and dandy considering i have no real troubles to concern myself with. Just the thought of being a monk took over my mind for a few days and it gave me some serious distress.

I know now, my purpose is to be with somebody...Who that person is, i will let the universe decide.

Until that time, i wait patiently giving myself everything i need to stay alive and sane until that point.

I am struggling with alot lately and it is not really much to struggle over. I mean i have been coming to terms with the fact that i have two life long disabilities and maybe this isn’t the case for 99% of my waking life

Which the whole notion seems paradoxical

I am awaiting my masters certificate that i studied up for and if all goes well i am going to do the PHD thing in a few months. While most people base it as a silly diploma i see more meaning in the distinctions now that i have had some time to ponder the luciferian and reptilian centers of thought in our part of the world.

I really struggle with the fact that we don’t offer any type of free university in the west

And this messes with most people craving knowledge. Because who in their right minds wants to be indebted $30,000 for a few years of school. This is where many of those around us sit and they don’t want to relay how unhappy they are with the prospect of using their newfound slavery to pay off their debt.

I have always entertained the thoughts that if they ever decide to cut my disability assistance or whatever it would be time to look into other modes of being including monastic life and the various realms around that like serving or assisting monastics.

But, I think they would have a tough time justifying cutting my assistance so i am left with an even more perplexing notion of how to spend my time. Because in this lays the greatest drama. Most people just get frustrated not having anything to do or anybody to relate to

Thankfully i have many methods to keep me busy these days including reading the thousands of books from the resistance so i keep evolving past everyone in my country with love .....and my art, editing my book which is on the 3^rd edit and other things like keeping my internet life up to speed and some down time in the virtual world i hang out in etc

While the richer classes of people look down on those with less than $5000 a month to spend and the people that rule over us having massive wealth at their disposal

I find comfort that i am meant to live an existence on a priests wage and live the life of a monastic and reverend of the church of techno

Now i don’t want any illustrious title i just want the church to spread in the minds and hearts of those it wishes to guide.
i have met a few quackpots this past week or two and balancing myself out amidst their intention and their vibration proves troubling but it can be done.

So in a sense coming to terms with the nature of existence is a troubling one but not one i see myself ignoring. Because i am too busy....god i am worth more than that

And why come here slaving for god knows how long and then you never figure out the essence of your being but only perpetuate its ignorance even further....

Not a place i want to be in !!

I ask my guides to show me the way and what i get is a nice delight i get a nice iguana

It took me  to a huge hotel room and one big huge room was my room and there were a few other rooms it was a dimensional hotel and the guy i was with was really hot...he says sorry i couldn’t afford anything else and i laughed and said this will do

he had a cattle prod and he was trying to cattleprod people we were with and the one guy said “if you cattle prod me, i will get you when your sleeping” and then he came after me and i said if you cattle prod me you aren’t gonna get any luvin and i went in and licked his lips and French kissed the bastard for over five minutes

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Riding the cosmos

In a church that basis itself in the astral

Trying to find the building of the church in so much haze

Trying to navigate the astral hell worlds proves troubling

Trying to find my own enlightenment amidst the altered humans

Wanting to discover more outside myself that what is within

The universe is expansive mates

-          Shaun A. Delage 

possum hugz (graphic-frat twist)

I have been dealing with some perplexing subliminal suggestion lately that keeps coming up in my mind.

It directly relates to my captivation piece and the hidden mysteries of time and my own life path.

So i thought let me turn this into a discourse.

It all started when i was 15 and i met a heroin addicted millionaire that was due to take me to south America and panama costa rica etc on his yacht

Long story short i ‘found’ about $15,000 in US bills on the yacht and took about $10,000

He then kicked me off the yacht two days before we were to set sail and he garbage bagged all the new clothes i bought and every item i had and i pocketed my passport and he threw $3 in change to me and gave me a ride to the skytrain station

On the way he said i would be “shot in the back”

Fast forward about 5 years and i meet this mysterious master mason in his penthouse tower who introduced me to my Siamese twin Jason who was infected (shot in the back) with HIV and he tried desperately to wave the ultimate in gay temptation in my face.  He was having his brain worked on too.

I don’t know what was destined to happen according to Masonic prophecy but it is the nature of the Masonic curse on me. It is known that i have rescued more people from the depths of Masonic clutches than an entire planet can be counted.

Anyways the master grandpa and my twin were arguing over who infected whos computer etc
now fastforward about till about one month ago where i met this mysterious wiccan Buddhist and it takes a miracle for me to leave the house and the internet with the nature of my agoraphobic self.

(i am working on it btw lol)
anyways so this wiccan was subliminally planting the “infected” codewords into my psyche and they didn’t work very well. This wiccan also had something wrong with his head and brain. I couldn’t quite understand what i was doing in this beyond cute guys bed meditating but oh well lol

These people i am dealing with are not even human i believe

The nature of the curse on me is immense that is why i stick to myself and chill and probably the best method to existence

I am planning on going to a Masonic gay club in a few days with some marijuana just to see what happens. I am kind of curious lol  we will only see.

Not many people have lead lives to welcome the illustrious cult into their vision.

They try to by their network of operatives to either trap me into masonry or infect me with sex diseases by carriers or entrap me via criminality which none has worked and safe to say the illusion will continue to layer on day by day that goes on in my life and this curse is not really of human intent it is by luciferian intent.

So i am meant to traverse the cosmos with this curse but what aids me is my stigmatic representation of my own pain. Literally carved into my wrists is the compass and square on both wrists to serve as a reminder of my own struggle.

Almost losing my life and being saved the very last moment from an arterial bloodletting in the Masonic jurisdiction of EVERGREEN STATE COLLEGE. I am elevated to one of the most important and influential people in my country let alone the world.

There is great conspiracy to keep me poor and nobody to understand me completely and there is great warfare to keep my story “wrapped up” and this i find some level of disgust for the power systems in place.

People are illusion, countries are illusion. My self is somewhat illusion. They are illusion. Everything is illusion. Life is illusion. So why give into more illusion.

They have attempted to brand me with such titles as schizophrenic and psychotic and other titles as an excuse to keep me literally addicted to neuro toxins that inhibit a frequency that is not of this world.

My medication risperidone. Is not of this world. They give it to prisoners and such and would cost somebody about $300 a month to eat this pill in the USA and my subsequent hospitalizations would have cost around the mark of about $45,000 to $75,000

What i did get is a mysterious and formal diagnosis just before the financial chaos hit

After that point you literally have to make a miracle to get any sort of help financially

There is a massive culling of people taking place in the form of poverty and aids and such while we sit sipping a chai latte so to not take any personal responsibility seems trivial

Well the powers that be choose (like in my city) to let the police state continue unhindered allowing police officers to brutally attack people in the streets with no hope of criminal prosecution

We are in a lawless and fictitious land after the 9-11 stuff and into the 2012

better yet just call it 9-11/2012

The truth of the matter is after the terrorism laws put in place your either with the Satanists or your with the humans (the brutal truth)

You perpetuate death and poverty and sex crimes or you perpetuate love and compassion and life

It is your choice

Mind you people sit comfortably in the middleground and sadly this is where most sit in society

Not one person can exude an extreme being of kindness and compassion like me the self titled compassionate Buddha. It is ironic that as a Buddha, the literal embodiment of humanities suffering or at least my own genres of being. I cannot even become a Buddhist monk because there is so many rules.

Ahhhh performance art. Beautiful.

So I say, welcome your path and your hidden abilities with full on love and sacrifice and know that if you must give up your life for the fight of humanity you will be greatly rewarded believe me.

I know this in my path and my several twins have tried to cause me alot of inner suffering but thankfully in my last lives, i saved the lives of planets of people and defeated this agenda several times. 

So did i by accident infect somebody with HIV that looks like me? perhaps but not really my karma to deal with is it....perhaps the vengeance from an entity from the other side who knows ...heck of alot for one person to deal with ....all i can say is....

Love is the only path.

compadre envision

Navigating the 2012 cosmos seems to be a challenge considering the ‘cusp’ of 2012 is already here sort of like the beams of a flashlight we are already on the outer edge of the beam

Most give into paranoia but i choose to give into enlightenment

While it is always nice to prepare and i advocate collecting things that you can use to barter for things like shelter or food in case you require it it is always nice to be prepared for any emergency

Me personally i am going to stock up on things like candles and matches and lighters and water and other things like sewing kits over the next two years since it is better to be prepared rather than left with the intent to cut some persons throat over a can of soup. I mean sad to say but if you were prepared you could easily trade a few matchsticks and if they had a few more cans you could trade them a candle

At least then the person could make some hot tea and read a book rather than be alone in the dark in their thoughts

While my paranoia is substantial i believe strongly that there are other entities coming and an oversight that is going to turn everything around for us. Because mother earth is mad at the power structures that have abused her Not her citizens. She will do everything to protect her citizens but will also do everything she can to stop herself from being killed off slowly

Because our earth does have a cancer and it is spreading. But there are natural cures. Having faith for the future is one thing

And i know i base alot of my life on the Vancouver psychic oracles words but it is a good thing to place your belief in things you don’t understand.

I believe i will have a long life...so no worries about 2012 lol

I also believe i will have ALOT of power and authority as well and this may be something ranging from governing an entire planet when my homeworld comes looking for me and my friends or it may be something simple as being the leader of an art movement or the church of techno

But i believe in it

Not many people believe in anything anymore and this is a quality that should be never taken for granted

Many people don’t understand the true nature of suffering and that is disbelief in higher sanctity

Not saying join a cult or get a bible no but just simply believe that there is higher beings at work all around you so why worry

People fear death as well it is crazy and this is perpetuated all around and it should not be looked at as a finality oh hell no it should be looked at as growth when you wake up in your real self in your throne room of your vast palace overlooking the lush green tropics and waterfalls thinking about this earth self and realised you woke from a fractalized dreamstate of 80 or so years.

Most people are in an internal hell state so they only perpetuate that hell state on others in their vibration. That is why it is essential to always strive to raise your vibration.

I am in no way advocating starving yourself or taking anything to ease the pain

I am advocating always treating every situation diplomatically and with karma in focus even if your not a believer in karma, like me. To always do that which is right and to look forward rather than backward.

Some would say this is the wrong time to start an art movement LOL

I say it is the right time.

TRUE art will flourish in times like this because art itself provides a visual medication to those that need it. I guess my art could be characterized as schizophrenic or psychiatric art lol

But at least it is different and at least it is something.

I have been really battling alot this past week it has been a wild ride

Just yesterday i went thru my Buddhist monk thing again.....i am glad i get somewhat psychotic over the monastic life rather than walking through town with a knife threatening people.

So it makes even me laugh and i wonder what birken forest monastery must think of me. This is the second time i have asked them to be a monk and this time they said that first time visitors are limited to a stay of 10 days. So that settles it for me really.

While i am attached to the ideals of being a monk, i have figured out that i am a monk already after speaking with reverend kai. We are digital resistance monks of the church of techno.

Already leading a life antithetical to the mainstream and enlightened without capitalism and also a life of renunciation amidst so much vast luxury.

I feel it is a test though for us to really come to terms with true suffering and the plights of individual struggle so that when we do come into vast amounts of wealth we will be taken care of. We will make the right choice. We will rule over our dominions, with compassion and love. Not the mindset that rules over us with cruelty presently.

Mind you, i personally am healing from alot and i know that my own struggle will aid others in finding their enlightenment and this i find my faith for a higher self and a higher spirit

I know now that i am not fit to be a Buddhist monk. I mean why put yourself into so much struggle? It doesn’t make much sense to me to be so masochistic but it seems right in the moment to alleviate suffering.

So in that regard it is best to navigate this culture of 2012 with ease and when the major chaos happens you can calm yourself and otherz down to the point of respectable decisions made with dignity and a level of class because you see yourself way down the road as opposed to just simply the present moment awareness. And even water isn’t needed – it is simply a luxury so why stress over stuff like that. Just have faith.

While fine not to be overtly paranoid about things it is nice to be a tad on the prepared side. At least for a week until mostly and hopefully everything solves itself.

I don’t think your directive should be with believing in chaos i mean there are many fail safe systems in place in case chaos hits and in no way should you think if you are being corralled into safe zones that your going to be held and gassed

I want to tell you that the system has love for you and your neighbours and is not enthusiastically looking to slaughter you the first chance it gets. Contrary to the mainstream ideology.

I have to say that things will be rougher in places like Africa or china than here in the west and with a billion in your country it is going to be a literal butcher shop.  I only see growth and evolution and i don’t believe that the whole thing is going to collapse. I believe many of the systems we are used to like telephone and internet etc will stay stable for .us.here anyway.

Fortunately you are born in this time of ascension and if it means losing your human body believe that there is more out there. I believe we are very fortunate to be born in the west. It is a divine birthright. It is just sad that some of those in power over us have abused that power to the expense of vulnerable societies, mother earth and essentially you.

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I ask my guides to show me the way and what i get is a nice surprise i get a nice fly

The insect took me first to a city and i was supposed to leave town and i found out that some guy i was with was cheating on me so i packed everything i needed to leave and i was really sad it was quite an experience to go through dimensionally i was packing marijuana and apples and while i was packing he was cheating on me and i saw him on video making out with somebody and i thought that sucks so i was due to go start my life over in another city bye bye jerk lol he had a flawless look tho blondie with cute face i was sad to see him go......men......... thats all i have to say

Next the fly took me to another city and a whole bunch of people were looking for me, and i had made my captivation piece fully public and it caused a full on rift in the time space thing because everyone was worried about me and i was just kinda doing my own thing, sitting pretty and being a perpetual stud I was battling the forces of the people in it

Next the fly was helping me travel with a group of people and we were in a store looking at bright clothing in a rave store and it was like my rave store in second life but in Real life and they had things like raver pants and multicoloured lunchboxes and incense and this was just the intro to the store totally raverz stylez !

Next the fly took me to a bookstore and i was trying to cash a book on various hidden knowledge and i found a spell book and looked at it and was glancing at the spells but didn’t want to dabble in that stuff lol

Next i went to a condo and there was a party with a bunch of guys and they said they were all going swimming and they were going to get massages so i left them and left my ex to party with them and so i walked down the huge street a huge ski hill and i hitched a ride with somebody and they said seattle is going to rain but i figured i was in the northwest USA in another dimension and we got out in a parking place and had to pay somebody to get out of there for parking or driving i am unsure and navigating the cities seems to be a real challenge for me considering i go into a new one every night but it is beautiful to understand you are in another dimension and another matrix and another world altogether.

Waking life as opposed to sleeping soundly

When you are asleep there are those up to guide you

And when they are asleep you guide them

This is the nature of reality and the nature of love and existence

Without ultimate love and ultimate compassion

We are just like “them”-cruel torturous humans with no love.

They are going to really run when the guidance lands on our planet to take over

They are no match for them

Bye bye ::)

-          Shaun A. Delage     

exalted beauty-reposted

Living across from a military base and in my introverted life i have come to an understanding after 28 years that my path may include a monastic life.

I have come to terms with this decision lately and rightfully so i feel it is a somewhat stressful choice to leave the householder life on a path of literal homelessness

There is a few things i like in society like being around those i love, some of the tasty things to eat, a few things to buy but i have realised that after having 3 ebook readers and all of them die on me that society is somewhat of an illusion and its toys as well to keep us distracted

See i don’t see myself as enlightened what i see as enlightened is my path. My path has helped me to understand a bit more about myself and the mindset against me.

What is holding me back from being a monk?

Well my medication and diagnosis is #1 and this should not hinder me

My credit card is another thing

And my cell phone contract

LoL

Then i have the looming thoughts of no sexual activity

And no snacking and no hair

And my mind races

I am just supremely uncomfortable with life at this point

And considering what is available and what is being offered

I look at it as this , there is two choices for me, death and enlightenment

And i definitely don’t want to die

See i am thankful that i live in a province that has ordination available.

I don’t want to dabble in illusion anymore or be around people that generally have no care for me or to even communicate

I long to be around people of my own kind.

Now this brings up some interesting points in my head of my own self come 2012

I wonder why my own self is being positioned in a Buddhist monastery just before 2012

And i think well it is me, and by that point i hope to attain full ordination because there is a period of a year or two of training

I also want to see the world. Buddhist monks get to travel haha they get to take the odd trip here and there and i think that would be cool to go to a Buddhist country

I also want to attain enlightenment but also start aiding my own path of karma by being in complete service to others for the remainder of my life.

I feel i have taken so much and really taken a beating karmically and i feel my own personal salvation may come from a lifetime in service to others that i may be essentially released from coming here again and again.

I guess in a way i would like to evolved to a buddhic plane or an enlightened place rather than this place

There are so many rules to becoming a monk it makes me wonder

I have always struggled with the words of my psychic i saw back in year 2002

“You will have ALOT of power and authority”

So i fiendishly enter these hospital lotteries like an animal trying to win a million or two with my hundred dollars and bam to this day nothing has happened

But recently i have began to understand the concept a bit more

That, power and authority can come without money

And this makes me wonder – because only i can come to the decision of I WANT TO BE A MONK

Nobody can tie me up and throw on some makeshift robes and say you are a monk

Plus there is stuff like if i was to be a monk it is pretty hard to see where i would be with some direction and guidance from truly enlightened beings in say 5 years or 10 or even 20

By the time i am a 50 year old monk i could be running the place and that would seem pretty trivial to what i was going through currently

See with me, i have no other path. Believe me i have tried many options

And the only path here is just collecting money for god knows how long lol and spending what little i do have on the odd 420 joint or making sure i have enough to eat for the month

My life doesn’t make sense to me

I have ALWAYS wanted to be a monk since going to vipsassana meditation, paradoxically they are listed on my captivation piece ...oh how funny it would be to go back there and meditate with them as a full on monk lol

There is a hidden community that has left the householder life

See who wants to get up at 5am and not eat dinner and shave their head

Not really many people but when it is your life you would learn to adapt

So it is with great honour that i announce my plan to become a monk in the thai forest tradition at sitavana Buddhist monastery in Kamloops on april 5^th 2011

I feel i have helped articulate as much as i can in as little time i can to at least start the process of intellectual thought going and i have provided a history to my being in digital form so it may aid others in their path

The church of techno will always be alive

**************UPDATE = i am not becoming a monk after all but this posting relays my in the moment impressions of the situation so i have decided to repost on the blog

-          Shaun A. Delage 

walking while

The Hollywood industrial complex has become a literal thrift store from many of the Hollywood actors and actresses being prescreened via ultra expensive porn videos into the cult of Hollywood. No wonder Hollywood and its neighbouring genre of film are so close to each other yet so romantically divorced.

It seems for most of the Masonic elite this has become just another legality. Oh yeah, me, I am a  film star.  But Hollywood as it seems is the Masonic playground of Satanists, and this is brutal. Those that think vegas is inherently evil should think again about the terrible magic and harm that Hollywood inflicts on the populace.

I know this because one of several death warrants issued on me from the two movies i was on well one was a show and there was another one called Hayley wagner star but nothing happened on that set just smoked weed with a guy with a leading role lol Robbie bensen was the director on that one, fun times.

Anyways it seems the best thing to do in the endtimes is secure your placement within the public domain so you as well do not get slaughtered in the mass culling and it is believed that they will get you. That no mindset outsmarts them and their skill.

The best thing for anybody to do is to attach close by to people that are smarter than them and ask for their advice, guidance and protection. Because you can use all the allies you can get if your entire program is being reset or slowly disintegrating

Also it is in your best interests to gain your growth from those that are more karmically fortunate than you. So you may observe exactly what rewards are placed over one individually karmically.

Just don’t place your faith in those that don’t have the progression of your soul in mind.

It will be odd to see this shift in consciousness because it is being built on the frustrations of millennium warriors everywhere. This is what the powers that be are scared of, is basically the paranoia running the world... it is a cocaine induced paranoia unable to equate a purchase over $200 on its mainframe.

The truly enlightened souls that work to attain true qualities of humanity will inherit the earth, it will be almost as if their motivation was taken away in ritual and darkened sacrifice. No government wants to relay what hidden rituals their workers are involved in keeping you housed and contained.

This blog itself could alter somebody perhaps 100 a week very fortunate because what is it but a blog on enlightenment and in this is purpose.

Discourses remain in enlightened dialogue and keep building on the last. So that the readership is better equipped to traverse the cosmos come 2012. This will be a difficult time, to master but if you have the desire to live over things like suicide cults and toxins and wars and starvation you will have the ultimate want to live the need to live. To embrace life essentially.