2012 itself serves as a reciprocating naturally recurring curse
So for the earliest time you hear of 2012 that is where it all begins with you
Coming to terms with our inherent apocalyptic state seems to be the going elusive fate
While many believe our cultural icon as being the 2012 state this era was not easily given to us
They needed something to help our youth and all alike attach to a basis of identity
This phenomena serves as a catalyst for growth within all genres of society and helps people come to terms with their given identity, somewhat
See for me personally everything i inhabit to me at this point articulates beauty because i am in the know of where my life is heading and this is at least some direction. But to most people my life degrades into a worthless pit of human depravity
To me i wanted to look into my past as a key for my future in my meditations and rightfully so my past has some secrets. It would seem the proper basis to live and a methodology to living exists with how comfortable you are amidst an apocalyptic setting.
Whether you have everything you need, are warm enough, well fed, taken care of.
Much of humanity is in a hell state and it is no wonder that much of the impoverished broadcast this energy to the greater populace to toil over.
While we may appear as having everything the west struggles quite a bit amidst this apocalyptic times
They don’t want to say given the state of affairs the world is in melt down mode signalling the end of the world but that will come with every passing second even up into the year 3000
What a week it has been, going from a monk thing again into my world which in itself is fine and dandy considering i have no real troubles to concern myself with. Just the thought of being a monk took over my mind for a few days and it gave me some serious distress.
I know now, my purpose is to be with somebody...Who that person is, i will let the universe decide.
Until that time, i wait patiently giving myself everything i need to stay alive and sane until that point.
I am struggling with alot lately and it is not really much to struggle over. I mean i have been coming to terms with the fact that i have two life long disabilities and maybe this isn’t the case for 99% of my waking life
Which the whole notion seems paradoxical
I am awaiting my masters certificate that i studied up for and if all goes well i am going to do the PHD thing in a few months. While most people base it as a silly diploma i see more meaning in the distinctions now that i have had some time to ponder the luciferian and reptilian centers of thought in our part of the world.
I really struggle with the fact that we don’t offer any type of free university in the west
And this messes with most people craving knowledge. Because who in their right minds wants to be indebted $30,000 for a few years of school. This is where many of those around us sit and they don’t want to relay how unhappy they are with the prospect of using their newfound slavery to pay off their debt.
I have always entertained the thoughts that if they ever decide to cut my disability assistance or whatever it would be time to look into other modes of being including monastic life and the various realms around that like serving or assisting monastics.
But, I think they would have a tough time justifying cutting my assistance so i am left with an even more perplexing notion of how to spend my time. Because in this lays the greatest drama. Most people just get frustrated not having anything to do or anybody to relate to
Thankfully i have many methods to keep me busy these days including reading the thousands of books from the resistance so i keep evolving past everyone in my country with love .....and my art, editing my book which is on the 3rd edit and other things like keeping my internet life up to speed and some down time in the virtual world i hang out in etc
While the richer classes of people look down on those with less than $5000 a month to spend and the people that rule over us having massive wealth at their disposal
I find comfort that i am meant to live an existence on a priests wage and live the life of a monastic and reverend of the church of techno
Now i don’t want any illustrious title i just want the church to spread in the minds and hearts of those it wishes to guide.
i have met a few quackpots this past week or two and balancing myself out amidst their intention and their vibration proves troubling but it can be done.
i have met a few quackpots this past week or two and balancing myself out amidst their intention and their vibration proves troubling but it can be done.
So in a sense coming to terms with the nature of existence is a troubling one but not one i see myself ignoring. Because i am too busy....god i am worth more than that
And why come here slaving for god knows how long and then you never figure out the essence of your being but only perpetuate its ignorance even further....
Not a place i want to be in !!
I ask my guides to show me the way and what i get is a nice delight i get a nice iguana
It took me to a huge hotel room and one big huge room was my room and there were a few other rooms it was a dimensional hotel and the guy i was with was really hot...he says sorry i couldn’t afford anything else and i laughed and said this will do
he had a cattle prod and he was trying to cattleprod people we were with and the one guy said “if you cattle prod me, i will get you when your sleeping” and then he came after me and i said if you cattle prod me you aren’t gonna get any luvin and i went in and licked his lips and French kissed the bastard for over five minutes
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Riding the cosmos
In a church that basis itself in the astral
Trying to find the building of the church in so much haze
Trying to navigate the astral hell worlds proves troubling
Trying to find my own enlightenment amidst the altered humans
Wanting to discover more outside myself that what is within
The universe is expansive mates
- Shaun A. Delage
