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Finding my own souls path amidst a life of trauma and enlightenment proves challenging

Part of me doesn’t want to forget the past and then other parts of me wants to leave it behind

Some of my more illustrious nature proves to be challenging to let go of

I cant simply move on with universal insight unless i put some of the world of my own to rest and just move on and in someways how could i articulate universal wisdom without having an aura of universalism to me

I am going to be studying for my masters degree in religion and another doctorate and if all goes well i am going to order the PHD and these are all readily available on Universal Life Church’s website..just with the more advanced degrees there is studying and exams and such ...

And anybody may become ordained and like me ask for further instruction that will aid others but also aid a resume as well

Essentially battling my inner demons with my captivation piece which is now going to lay in a simple link on the site

When one is severely injured by the system and by others you grow an attachment to the trauma essentially

What i haven’t faced is the possibility that it was all my own doing mixed with other peoples influence which only adds to the attachment

When one lives a profoundly traumatic life, you grow obsessed with the fact that the system is there to stack the odds against you further

When it is wiser to embrace the love of the system and remind oneself that sometimes the illusion persists in the thoughtforms of other people around you and it can only be perpetuated by those around you. Without them you are simply in a dark room all alone.

So battling the captivation of my own life and the bittersweet challenges that come into my life and i have taken the middle ground.

I understand the need to share my own mistakes with younger and older people alike and show that one can evolve past it all and work to better themselves around a plethora of beauty mixed with bits of illusion

I am one year and a few months past my breakup... yet i miss my old life profoundly...part of me wants another chance with my ex but part of me just wants to move on and forget it –it is the same thing i am going through listing and relisting my captivation piece.

Life was easier for me with him, life was so fantasy and illusion and in a way i had no idea how much everything was ok for me until i lost it all.

I thank him though for keeping me alive for 8 years that seemed to fly by.

Some of me wants another chance but a bit more evolved but other pieces of me remember how pained i was in the breakup and i think these attachments are complete madness lol

He wants me to take a university level English course on his dollar which i find funny and a bit amusing lol he is the type of person that would share his income and go hungry for a week rather than keep it to himself.

I remember that i am an artist and a dreamer and i have much more to offer somebody if that should come up...I think back to the wiccan psychics words “You two just need time”

Its not like i am never wanting to see him again, frankly being friends is better than lovers

But i look forward into the future and to most it is mind numbing anxiety and i as well can relate to that concept

I lose myself in editing my book some days and understand now that it is written i have years and years of building on what i do have to produce a final result a published novel that outshines any ivy leaguer muhaha

I have years left of refining my articulation in the body of the novel and fine tuning it before i can submit it to a publisher and not many people i know of can write an entire 68 chapter novel in less than a year hehe only meh

But it gives me something to believe in other than illusion, i read through the rough draft and am amazed how it came together so quickly in a year and i know i don’t really have a plot much like fear and loathing in las vegas just a surrealist adventure that is gonna make some people read it or eventually *crosses fingers* see the movie and say holy fuck, my consciousness is altered !

It is funny being a very sound writer yet with no actual skill at writing i mean specifically grammar and punctuation which anybody can tell reading through my blog haha BLECK to punctuation Bleck to grammar

So for me writing is only accentuated with this blog and being able to articulate trauma and universalism and ascension amidst a world of illusion, pain and love

The reason to keep captivation somewhat public is , it is a work of performance art , one i could be sued over but i am willing to take that risk. But i also have the inherent belief that others have essentially had some influence over my trauma

Coming from a very introverted mind these days, i only have my madness to retreat to. This never used to be the case however in my rave days i had thousands of friends , in fact it was tough to keep up with them all but i found some relations naturally imploded in totality and these days most of my intimate conversing rests with the impersonal and safest method being the internet and virtuosity

I am sure thats the case for alot of people an introvert haven so to speak, of madness!

But don’t forget creativity and beauty as well

What the world has in store for me i will never know but it is tough to be in a soul that is afraid to explore and i don’t know what i am afraid of, its not like everyone keeps a steak knife in their sock waiting to feast on you lol

Gradually i have been coming out of my shell and it is tough but i feel people can sense the depth of emotion in me. That troubles me but moreso they sense an incredibly profound spirit and they don’t completely know how to define that feeling.

I don’t even know what is so profound, to some i am simply a trash being haha to others i am a lower god boy being and to others i am just strange

Maybe they just sense my weirdness and this makes me think i don’t need my every pain and torture out visible in the front of the blog for all to see

People can sense it.

I look out at people and sense my inner turmoil is not relatively unique

That most people are obtaining profound levels of enlightenment

I only need to look at my own illness and the definition of, “schizophrenia- to see things out of touch with reality”  and  i think to myself this is the only lifelong illness i would love to have haha

So people are going through their own pseudo processor code of trauma vs enlightenment and nasty karma

Part of me see’s the people racing by and i don’t want the world to pass me by either but i am reminded of the old adage “slow and steady wins the race”

So i rest with levels of excitement and love for the future because what else is left ? nothing  i want to take pride in other than excitement and love.

I call on my guides to show me the way and what i get is a scary surprise i get an alligator  it took me to a cruiseship  for teens and they had cool food cool people and wandered around different cafes and some lady shared like a blueberry crumble with me which was nice of her cause it came to about $100 but when she went to eat it she ate it in one gulp and gave me a few crumbs which i happily accepted and there was a woman putting food on her breast at the check out counter and she was rubbing it on her nipple

Next the alligator took me  to a school i saw a fight to the death people were getting brutally slaughtered and hurt one guy sliced into another guys head it was pretty gross but this was a movie or a show of realism and i walked outside sick to my stomach and found a group of kids out front and told them none of what they see is real and then i caught a bus through the streets and i went to a street and went to a shop and was trying on some rings on each finger i wanted at least fifteen per hand

Chillen and flippen

But wanting to chill and trip

Yet wandering through chill yet slick

And finding my way past flipping and chill

Where the world will you find me

And where in the world will i show up next

Only funny to imagine the possibilities

-Shaun A. Delage  

matt king (virtual crush from early 2010 -out of mui life for good but not forgotten)

Virtual gallery (dimensional sight)

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Attempting to theorize as to the true workings of the universe takes a soul that is generally uncaring of the trials of man in fact rightfully so you would need a soul with the utmost compassion.

A sort of involuntary reflex into causality would make one investigate further as to the true nature of enlightenment and the situations that bring men and women to their true fate

One would wonder rightfully so why some beings would attract a massive level of negativity and others attract a certain sense of wealth and prestige while some have no problem meshing with society and others have serious motivational troubles.

It is easy to blame it all on karma, but one would not put their faith in karma if karma has harmed them in any way and would actually work to destroy any theological belief in karma that exists in their own mind...picturing it as some angry bloodsoaked wheel that keeps turning and turning only favouring those that help it’s profit margin a little bit more.

And what is enlightenment for many it is finding your spiritual purpose and to most it is simply getting a cheque in the mail you didn’t expect for others it is laying your eyes on somebody that is pleasing and for a moment kissing them in your mind. Or looking over in the street and seeing a dogs face and enjoying the happy look and smiling. Others it is eating some chicken and prawn Singaporean noodles.

Nobody really grasps the omni present nature of enlightenment or an enlightened birth. Some may assume it is birth into a royal body or a birth into that of a guru or a fortunate place in life. Rightfully so.

The true nature of enlightenment rests with each decision and how much you support others with your smile and your faith and your nature

While some may appear as angry little worker bee’s others just stick out and can calm a room down in an instant and just broadcast an aura of healing and life

Theories abound as to what the nature of causality persists of and what the nature of people and what the nature of enlightenment is and the only thing you have available to most is some seemingly unimportant decisions and methods to a relatively boring life, because not many people have to make decisions for the good of the state or for the good of the people

Many don’t understand that their being here is literally propping your being and allowing it to live more powerfully elsewhere and some don’t understand that your being in its present state is always in a state of illusion built into a body of refinement (if you should so seek refinement)

So it is in ones nature to look inward and introspect or you just become another person that has two arms and two legs and a head and a nose...you just look like everyone else.

The actual placement of being able to live an appropriate life usually mostly relates to a certain level of class and inherited class and the refinement that comes with it. You are not born here to continuously cause hatred on others and pain

You are here to learn lessons like me and like your neighbour and mixed in with very long interludes of seeming boredom

Many struggle with humanity like i do, having the odd thought of wanting to give up, and then i think to myself well i have come this far why give up now and then i also think to myself when i look in the mirror – i am sorta considered pretty cute so why give up haha- (would be  a waste to just kill the self and have a face like this just become dead)

It is easy to get overrun with these thoughts into a time of complete misery and then soon enough it develops into more thoughts of negativity and perplexing causality from those thoughts

Thankfully we have the renewal of the days and renewal of the sleep cycle

You could imagine my distress waking up and finding it is dark, 3 am and not a soul for miles. I tend to wonder about what type of a life i have chosen for myself and this makes me wonder about what other people are doing as well and i think some days it would be nice to have a normal life.

In some ways it would be much better for me not living such an isolated lifestyle from humanity but at other times i guess i was just born to write a book and get up at 3 am and have some cereal and toast the inherent weirdness of having no sunshine to greet you

Lately i have been in this Buddhist monk thing, and i have realised i know nothing about Buddhism and i picture myself in a little hut in the forest covered in snow in -5 weather with a sawdust toilet and think to myself what type of person would choose to live this life?

Not only that but it does give me comfort with my own life, that my seeming simplicity is living rather luxuriously so i take faith in my life at the very least and embrace it to the fullest realms of thought

That is why i have decided that some masons i know are relatively nice people, but troubling more is we live in a neuro linguistic society and simple health difficulties are cast onto the populace through these people that speak the potion in their words...i just have to have faith that there are good masons out there and not everyone is holding a knife wanting to eat my leg

I know it sounds silly but that is what i has been threatened to me, so i am like hmmmm ok i kind of enjoy my leg so i guess i should work with all ends of the spectrum rather than complete opposition, since it is my leg and all

This is why the cult is built on secrecy above all else because why would you hate what you don’t understand and paradoxically the situations placed over us by masons could rightfully inherit some merits as well so we have a tiny paradox of fate and future

My captivation piece is now off the church i don’t know how to deal with this one at the moment

I will ask the enlightened ones for assistance in this matter

path becoming

Essentially what anybody wants to find is devotion in their path and devotion in their future

My simple blog on blogger may not seem like much but in losing it i have discovered how many people actually rely on me as a being for universal oversight and insight and how much i rely on the blog as a system for articulating my sphere of thought because not only is it therapeutic it is my purpose in life

I don’t believe i am working on becoming enlightened i believe i am already there and to many including the elites and those that have to work very hard doing what they do they don’t understand that while i am on my last incarnation on earth they have to work towards the next 30 or so of finding their groove

While me finding my path has been paradoxically painful and while only the most enlightened find realms of association such as the resistance and universal life church as keys to their enlightenment and their future i also argue one simple fact of my own life is that i have awakened with the help of many that relay their own code of conduct to me and that is that i am the sole entity of my enlightenment

It does not rest with an ascended master or somebody that slaps you on the back it rests with my own brain in my own head in my own skull now what i mean by this is, that you come into the world relatively alone and leave alone why would you bring an ascended master with you through the birth canal again it doesnt make sense but also to argue the opposing point further you are helped along by people and essentially helped into the world and helped out by healing hands but essentially that is it, you shouldnt put all your faith in outside influences however the worlds trauma state may make you believe otherwise..

While i attach to many modes of enlightenment and one does not rest with being in the intellectual prowress of thinking i mean the learned impression of being the natural mode of thinking in our current existence which is the the most rewarded and that is the analytical mindset

Much of society does not understand the artistic mindset until they meet one that defies all realms of thought and works in the hidden realms of communication which is unknown to the analytical mindset

While meeting an anomaly is inherently distasteful in life one comes to understand with time that meeting the person essentially provides them with massive levels of protection and guidance from unseen realms

While i state in my own paranoid fixations that i am introduced to many wiccans lately and i should rightfully be paranoid in meeting such beings i don’t hold any harsh feelings towards wicca or wiccan beings and i understand that i may be the product of one of the most powerful spells in existence...i see it simply as this. that the individual wanted to meet the most beautiful soul in existence on earth currently and they got their wish and no matter how much they despise the anomaly for making them see parts of themselves they dont want to face there is a simple notion that the anomaly heals in unseen astral realms and offers to guide and protect in other spacial existencez..But i also see this as a gifted healer to be able to guide one lost soul into their calling. I saw and felt comfortable seeing one of the most striking beings in my city and felt a solace for my existence and essentially finding a path to walk on. I felt after speaking that i did not have the courage to go into buddhism and be a buddhist monk, that i essentially have my calling out here in the system.
While nice to meet a friend on the path and nervously converse about life. I have the want to hold somebody like him and for them to hold me and tell me it will all be ok.

But i don’t fear and i keep going because i have faith in the divine instruction and essentially i have received much good merit from wiccans and much good instruction and protection and love and guidance much more than i have received from the catholic church which hates me for wanting to French kiss another man with the tongue in front of a nazi pope so i hold much sway and much love that i may too guide a wiccan soul into their own earth based enlightenment

While finality may pervade thought i also argue that i am available to show them the universal oversight watching over earth based governance and earth based sin based guidance where universal wisdom eventually as a causality supercedes all earth based or idol based worship

I must appear as some silly kid on first impression but you peel away the layers with time and with eventual occurance and after a few meetings i tend to warm up but by then they figure out they have met their match and run at 100km an hour

I don’t fear the world because there is nothing in the world to fear i don’t essentially fear earthbased worship because i know even if the circumstance proves to be magically altruistic, that universal oversight... if you place your faith there may develop into a keener sight

And i hold steadfast that essentially there are those that share their enlightenment with many realms some speak it some show it through acting some show it through their work or some teach.... others.....write and that is where god and the creator and essentially Buddha and all of the idols rest with me is through my keyboard and my hands because they are divine instruments that were built out of extreme brutal torture as explained in the Crucifixion but i was essentially tied to a chair and not a cross and carried through the public realm at evergreen state college in Olympia with my wounds

And here i rest with the ability to relay divine instruction afforded by my own birthright and my own causality of enlightenment through the brutal suffering of a singular karmically sensitive soul and while the easy argument may be that i brought it all on myself due to karma i say that is quite silly that there would be no outside influence or outside luciferian degrees that can work into beings like a vapour

Enough injuries are being sustained on vulnerable gay youth as young as 14 because people like governance and religion are causing them to hurt themselves

Its time to wake up the world and release those from the trauma state that request it and deserve it

I call on my guide to show me the way and what i got was a nice surprise a female beige puma First the puma took me

To a cab ride in the middle of nowhere with some nasty long hair guy and he drove me out to middle of nowhere and we stopped in country and two guys on bikes drove by and the cab driver hit him with a stick and he drove me into a gas station where i was pulling out money and the gas station attendant was talking about a visual acuity program is the mainstream and then i was thinking about what exactly is the form of currency on other dimensions and 100%  of the train of thought rests with sex and sex parts over forms of currency

This cab driver was kind of gross like a hippy long hair guy but he drove me out to middle of nowhere and then wanted more cash when we got to the gas station but essentially allowed me further travel on the transportation grid because the second you stop travelling in the hitchhikers guide to the galaxy realm you lose your enlightenment so cruise ships, horses, walking, cars cabs here i come

I was trying to get a ride to a party in the middle of a forest and finally couldn’t find it after my toll was massive to get to wherever i hated going that far with such a weirdo

Next the puma took me to

Was undergoing a search at customs and it was brutal it was a cavity search one guy was having fun with a fireglove in the distance i guess i had to go farther past a border   

Next a guy kicked off half of my ex cats tail it was tough to see her tail laying on the ground

Next i went to a hospital i was being chased through security going through alot of rooms looking around for people to save and things to observe and people to catch in the act of nazi atrocities taking place in the moment not only that but putting a stop to the medical fetishists as well

Next i went to a ritzy hotel and a maid was cleaning after a party there was marijuana everywhere and she was helping me clean in a beyond 5 star place to live she was making me a mimosa afterward and another guy was there and he was laughing at how dirty the suite was !

Next i arrived at a stargate mall corridor there was security it was haldron collider type setup i was running from people in a huge tunnel and i found a little party and i walked in and people were dressed alot more ritzy than were used to in this dimension i mean it was layered on techno raver fabrics beyond any catwalk we have seen but if your not invited to the party how would you ever know?

Trying to find a path

When a path is already laid

A guru is already made

One guru wants to be noticed

But the path may not ascend that way

The path may be more mysterious programming

Essentially what is guru without a crowd

Observing the teachings

-          Shaun a. delage

some tunez to help soak in the ascension :)

liquid mind (click and read) you look cuter !!

tilapia fishdance (apple slices)

T^h^E church of techno is back

I am really trying to pick up the pieces of my virtual life from my last deletion craze and really understanding the nature of my own psychic impulses

I feel in some way that the matrix was not amused with my blog and the church in its present state and i needed a rebirthing or a reawakening so to speak

Now i stress here and now that any post underneath this one is technically illusion moreso because of how i feel in the moment

That my own inherent literary enlightenment exists as a causality to the future basis of the church

Most postings under this are relatively paranoid and dabbling in my own mental illness but that is what people love, essentially is somebody that thinks out of the box and differently for a change rather than the hum drumb of 9-5 life

Who really by their own choice wants to read the rantings of a paranoid schizophrenic but you know some people recognize the actual other world sphere of the discourses and cast away the rants of a madman while my hiatus from the church of techno was 4 days long i went into a deep depression and it was difficult to come out of it but what i needed was to meet a gifted and profound healer that literally rescued me from the depths of despair regarding much of my life being cast upside down

So i have decided to continue with my life calling and that is the CHURCH OF TECHNO i have been really dealing with my own karma lately and having the trauma document captivation posted or not i dont want to list it but sometimes i just keep doing it for some reason i guess i have been hurt by the world and essentially it is me....i feel though it is my life and i am welcome to share it

Like Madonna met a man on a horse that rescued her from her own turmoil i have met mine

He comes in the form of a sexy Jordanian lol when i first laid eyes on him i saw probably the most striking man in the entire world but after speaking with him i know he doesn’t have the time to devote to me that i need to be healed in a sense and our first meeting i think was a bit draining on both ends lol we were excited to meet each other and probably two of the most profoundly amazing spirits to come into contact with each other in my city, i believe

While i wish that he could be my husband and i just know that isn’t going to be the case since you don’t just meet somebody and say hey wanna get married haha

I have also found my devotion and it lays here on this blog in universal theory and an actual mapped out belief system of philosophy

What guides me and keeps me going is understanding that i can affect change in young peoples lives being a 28 year old guy with a skill in enunciation and literary craft

Now i wholeheartedly believe that i cant sit here and oppose freemasonry and all the other hidden realms of society i have to learn to work with it

I am going to make some gradual steps back into my virtual life again and it is going to take some time since a literal A-bomb went off psychically in my virtual world, i cant figure out if i got too close to something or angered too many people but i know i am on a BRAND new path for 2011 and a new direction and a new mode of life

I want to embrace all those that stuck with me and the 46 people that came back last week to see the blog and i am sure i lost a few with this latest virtual panic but i am here to stay in a more karmically obvious position

I am here to grow and make my mistakes as you are and in some ways it is nice for some people to realise that another being thinks like them and can act somewhat of their oneness nature and their being interlined with a fate that is familiar in life with oneness

I may see myself as a simple guy with mental illness or i may see myself as an enlightened being with universal wisdom and divinity in my soul and perhaps my lessons are here to be shared by you as well

So we will see what direction the church of techno is going to take 

my novel is complete and i am up to about 3/4's of the way through in my initial edit and then gonna re-evaluate the novel and possibly take further distance instruction on form and theory of literature to place myself in a more fortunate position literary wise then the next step is finding an editor and then a literary agent and then a publisher 

And i hope you stick with me cause i am back and ready to articulate some more universal theory for the NEW YEAR

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I ask my guide to show me the way and what i get is a fun surprise i get a nice ant and it took me to an airport where i was given a nice tambourine set but looked more like a child toy with a tambourine on it i threw it down a staircase and the guy said it was hitlers then the guy said why did you do that why did you throw the tambourine set down the stairs i gave it to you as a gift and the toy said on it san fran bay area hitlers. To tell you the truth the toy freaked me out that is why i threw it down the stairs
Next the ant took me to a queer as folk episode where i walked up to justin and brian in Babylon club and said were reworking the matrix for the 7^th and 8^th version. And then i walked around the strange city in a drunken stupor from the club
Next the ant took me to a small apartment where i was signing a contract on a wall going into biz and splitting the profits with somebody and they were into me cause i had a powerful frame lol
Next i arrived in a moterhome where somebody was passing a dish of money around with folded up bills i picked a $10 bill if you caught that bill you took the ferry and if you got the $20 bill you flew.
Next the ant took me to an old building where i was wandering in a wheelchair it was an ancient building from the 1920’s i was getting off on the 2^nd floor but wanted to go to the fourth floor so i went to a stair case and ditched the wheelchair there was a section with dozens of desks setup and older opulent eccentric setup
Next the ant took me to a school where i was in the military and there was a few deaths and nobody told them and they said there was serious miscalculations and a guy getting charged spat on me i walked around and a girl was going through a tough time beating her own head
Next the ant took me to india where  i was in a washroom and a guy smiled at me and i walked out to a restaurant where a lady shared lunch with me i was going to order dimsum but she said she was the chef so they brought out trays of the food for us to enjoy and she said you don’t need to order i take care of my friends...
Another chef came up and said how much food do you have here how much are you sharing and she said i dunno quite a bit and he said you guys should try the morrocan jellybeans kinda a strange food now that think of it the lady told me in some neighbourhoods you can literally be surrounded in if your a westerner
I was wearing some traditional Indian clothing knight of something washroom it was provided to us by.. i walked into after getting my hand covered in filth from the ground a girl smiled at me in her traditional dark blue outfit .
Next the ant took me to various hotels i was Head of security for a hotel and these snakes could breathe gas and cause fire extinguishers to go off and kill people and i went over to another hotel but they were repopulating the hotel through the swimming pools and they are large bastards too i had to shoot a few
 had to run from panthers and drug people and had to slide down a long mountain with only my balance there was a huge oil pit that i had to go from finally ended up in a seafood restaurant and a face came out of the wall and ate the whole place

 wandering the matrix of thought

and believing in the belief of one

yet resisting the life of the one or the path of the many

yet wandering away from the one

which is the self

yet mixed with love and being and a thought of sanity

but what is sanity but a dose of madness

in a world of theories and selfless service to others

where does one rest

that lays in your choices and your life

essentially

is to keep growing

-          Shaun A. Delage

p.s. I am going to post the transcripts to the audio discourses i removed so here they are from 2010 the last enlightenment of the year !!!

Illusion of sexuality

being from an omni present viewpoint and confirmed to originated with the military industrial complex so essentially my whole sexuality can be attributed with that but for obvious reasons i don’t attribute it to that and to address the illusions of sexuality and walking away from that meaning of sexuality that inherently choices were opened up to me because

You have the straight media graphically being instilled onto us when in fact were a liquid being and with your soulmate it doesn’t matter in the moment of course the chemistry has to be right and essentially you have the straight male mind being arranged to be in the institution of the relationship at  the earliest  time possible leaves the str8 male dissatisfied with himself because it leaves him no realms of exploration so were left with a man that has to observe his sexuality in secret and in private while that instills the idea that their sexuality is inherently evil because they are setup to be in these relationships as early as possible by the system and you have the whole system built up on quantifying this definition the whole core earth is built up on the illusion of sexuality and you have 90% of the known world operating in a dissatisfied sexuality just waiting to die, and this is not life

You have the illusion of sexuality being propped up by the Hollywood industrial complex so you have the institutions of relationship being propped up by the luciferian industrial complex

Then the Buddhists believe that all relationships are technically incest so you have the most seeming distasteful sexualities being vilified in humanity and the ones that are most karmically hindering being the most heavily marketed and you have the illusions of sexuality being marketed everywhere you go from your bank to your media to the clothes you wear

You are an alien being in an alien body locked into a body of familiarity locked into a familiar sequence to make you believe you have substance in reality when in fact you are always evolving and always addressing illusions as you go and it is the system that is coming up behind you and correcting your ability to ask questions of your humanity and your sexuality the most prevalent being why was i born in this body and why was i born in this gender and you have the notion of all heterosexual relationships being incest the luciferian industrial complex begins to fall into place that we are in a lucieferian society because if we lived in a loving society we would have the full spectrum causality represented

Then we have the polygamist and child abuse case being propped up in media lately where instilling the notion that sexuality is abhorred

And technically if your relationship is out of incest and nothing else matters if it is built out of love and if you care about this person alot and you have the being built out of an embodiment of illusion and the body itself is always flowing and always moving and constantly evolving and essentially you should figure out your own illusion or your own sexuality and your own path and essentially that is where your path resides is not in hindering your growth but embracing it

Intoxicants

How comfortable we are with a sole group of about 10 intoxicants and there is not very much there is only about 10 or 20 intoxicants and every one of those intoxicants the frequency has been hacked by alien intelligence and allows for a download upload of information from the alien mindset

You have a mindset that is able to articulate thoughtform from each of the chemicals

And you have millions of people getting stoned on marijuana or alcohol and the chemicals act as a one way wall and allows for a one way download and your whole thoughtform races and this is actually a download in progress and bordering on a level of schizophrenia

I come from a rather ascended viewpoint on drug experimentation and it is easier to be able to do not what everyone else is doing like experimenting with more hidden enthobotanicals

And the sponsor of the church of techno has many available to allow for the dimensional travel and dreamwork and the download to happen on more hidden frequencies that not everyone else is downloading uploading on a more hidden and more fluid communication channel

There is the route of major intoxication that many are on there is no level of control that happens you go completely out of your frame of mind with some of the more freer substances to use on the planet with many side effects including liver disease with alcohol and lung infections with marijuana

You definitely want to not do what everyone else is doing and the frequencies on many of these substances have been essentially hacked and allows for the massive download to take place of your thoughtform and your secrets and your inherent ability to make choices

If your taking the intoxicants essentially it comes down to earth based sin that if your taking the intoxicants we have the ability to monitor your thoughtform and allow for the download upload to take place/.

With some of the more hidden enthobotanicals you are permitted to download on hidden frequencies

I have been down the route of some of the more serious enthobotanicals given my time to be brought up in the old rave days of the 90’s still dealing with the effects of the massive download s and in a way i am able to perceive the other dimensions but in no way am i advocating the use of the more serious chemicals because it has allowed some of the more harsher consequences to take place including health difficulties and black magic for younger people it is wiser to do what others aren’t doing.

If you feel the need to alter your consciousness to visit the sponsor the church of techno and become informed of some of the other methods to alter your consciousness and have the ability to alter sublimination

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Asexuality

I come from a rather ascended viewpoint that has to do with sexuality all there is in straight and gay culture and all there is, is the attachment to the sexual state and it is leading us down routes where we don’t even know where were going and there is a culling of humanity taking place and a silent war there is not only hiv but herpes and other things like hepatitis and the sooner your able to temper the craving in you and your complete unfounded lust is the wisest option for any young person looking for ascension

Mind you everyone always needs a release of the sexual tension and a release of your sexual energy but it should be aligned with an evolved moment of release and to do with other people if it is anybody but your soulmate than it is really not worth having and some people are happy having sex with everyone they meet and me coming from a resistance point of view most of the people i have interactions with allay they are apart of a cultist mindset be it from a reptile or cultist mindset and why would one go give their energy and their fluids to another being like that

And i come from a world of alot of sex work and sex magic mystical sex rites and the ideology of gay culture and to walk away from that after some point and become a a person of asexuality and i am not a strict asexuality i just have a love for myself and my soulmate enough to come to the understanding that if it is not with my soulmate than what purpose is it

And then you have humans that are wanting to download your information at any costs and they are able to input your information and direct the focus of your sexual state to download your information and your secret communication and provide a pathway for perceived sin and there is many that believe that they are with the one and you have to be able to believe in the power of the soulmate and the power of growth

You have two ends of the spectrum the complete sexual being there is words for those types then you have celibate the Buddhist monks then you have asexuality which is a disinterest in the sexual state but not with random people

And coming from an ascended sexual viewpoint i say there is great harm coming to the human populace in the forms of this hidden communication

And i argue there is a fourth sexuality there is gay straight bisexual and celibate/asexual but there is also a sexuality that is technological that remains undefined because it doesn’t relate in any level of straight or gay sexual sense it goes from fetish to fetish to fantasy and doesn’t define itself in any realms of sexuality you can be gay or straight or be into brightness or darkness

And there is in a sense an enlightenment but you also have the prison porn circuit happening you have the prison population being used for pornographic enterprise and you could say it is for the more goodlooking people and a hidden network and this is even hidden from the main circuitry of existence in society which is why many are targeted into being lead into these realms of prison porn from the earliest part of their criminality by the luciferian mindset that has a path laid out for them

It is better to be ascended about sexuality and also not only see yourself of who you are currently but who you are 1000 years down the road.

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Enlightenment and theosophical realm

that runs the earth and that man brings all of his problems onto himself and this seems to be the weighing consequence in the world with the way the elites govern over us with these teachings they believe each man or woman brings their inherent karmic difficulty onto themselves and essentially bringing lifetimes and lifetimes of karmic difficulty

While wise to take your enlightenment from many sources rather than one taking your info from one genre such as theosophy being able to withdraw the elements that you don’t agree with and much of the information of the church of techno the info is not forced onto you it is simply shared so with that outlook you are able to continue on with love and life and to be able to evolve

The elite and power that be that believe man brings karma onto themselves i find troubling because they don’t take any responsibility for inflicting harm on individuals that inherently it is the individual brought it on themself and in a way it forces them into a hybridic mindset that they can inflict harm on others because they are given godly powers to broadcast the greater good out on the populace

If a group of global enlightenment took place you would start to see massive change and this is essential with infancies of groups such as the church of techno and the resistance and these cliques sit separated from one another like Goths, ravers, gay, club kids and it is time we all came under a banner of a global age of enlightenment that should have  taken place many times and this is why the system has been reset so many times

And i always argue that the system and the power and the magnanimity of society wasn’t played out exactly as you perceive because yo look at how everything is being broadcasted to you in the moment and you look at society and we lose our ability to ascertain the truth of the matter and to be able to question authority and question our surroundings and bring to the surface some of the illusion of society

Theosophical teachings offer some degree of enlightenment but you cant base your whole realm of enlightenment on the teachings alone we have stopped asking questions of our surroundings and stopped the dialogue from taking place wheras it is more a monologue

We have lost many realms in society that were beneficial including the mystics and alchemists and now everything is being segmented into the slavery world and the slavery mindset and you have the world being propped in slavery and if money doesn’t interest you, you are the enemy so how could you have any realm of foresight if your not willing to see the future of slavery essentially

Were slowly culling members of our society that can affect real change rather than embracing them the ones that can affect and see the change they want in the world.

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The new year clicks intro focus and so much life and love to think about time for renewal and time for figuring out the direction of the new year

I attempted to make some youtube discourses with the church of techno but i found i said ‘you know’ alot in the discourses and it bothered even me ...while enlightening and while fun to attempt to do it took even more courage to figure out that i was better off without em

Essentially what i have been battling is the energies of enlightenment and the paranoia of conspiracy

While i find flaws in the energy field of conspiracy i also find enlightenment itself to be challenging

While i address the world of enlightenment in all avenues of my life i figure out essentially that what eye lack in the fields of perception i am constantly making up for in the realms of evolution and ascension

While it is a challenge to evolve and to welcome more hidden knowledge it is comforting to understand that this type of information was harder to obtain in older generations, while we can download massive amounts of information these days people in older decades had to really be lucky to come into this field of technological advancement

Or submit their being to a figurative death ritual to therefore belong to a secretive cult that has hoarded the information and kept it in a repository

So we have some humans on earth becoming far more powerful through knowledge than ever thought possible and while some conspiracy material has the ability to change people there is also the notion that the individual mind is also a perceptive tool that is well individual

While enlightening to take your ascension from many avenues it is also wise to ground yourself within the realms of your own ascension and your own core self.

Not obtaining the knowledge and reformulating your desires in a sense but welcoming the knowledge into your life and evolving with the newly created options for growth and you don’t need to alter yourself and in a sense you are allowed to object and oppose enlightenment if it doesn’t agree with you and you are allowed to critique enlightenment much like your are allowed to oppose and object and critique much of the society you live in

Likewise for somebody to critique conspiracy knowledge takes skill because it is a facet of the mind that is undefinable. While you may not look at queen elizebeth as a shape shifting reptile and everything goes against that theory when you look at the dear sweet old lady in the polkadot dress you have to wonder a few things, if she isn’t why hasn’t david icke been brought to justice with several libel suits against him and the resulting charges of perjury for attempting to lie in a maritime jurisdiction court of law

Or you wonder if she sits in her castle and laughs at this man for calling her a literal 8 foot sauris and child abuser and blood drinker.

You have to ask yourself questions such as this in every avenue of life because if you don’t and if you don’t open yourself up to fringe avenues of obtaining knowledge you risk being a member of the herd or flock and having your consciousness altered by the same illusion that is leading all of humanity along

While it is nice to place your faith with total strangers at times, it is also wise to embrace the more traditional methods in your life be it with programs running all around you such as family and friends and adapt and embrace rather than abuse and revolt against their jurisdiction

Likewise in society it is better to be able to work within the rules and confines of societal structure rather than throw a rock through your bank window for raising your interest rate

While many may attempt to program you endlessly and talk in riddles and code and try and allay they know your inner most secrets or your left in a world of mind numbing neglect or addiction you can always find your way out and actually ignore the code and let the person ramble on and on about nothing and understand it doesn’t have anything to do with you

While troubling to have people senselessly coding you with layers upon layers of misunderstood linguistics it is essentially up to your singular being if you should act on that code.

And then you have the realms of enlightenment that don’t offer you any levels of actual perceived change but only layering on more questions and more causality which to some would seem paradoxically saddening

What anybody wants is to have their lives switched with somebody that has a more favourable life but understand that those that display their lives as more favourable are illusion to you technically

Be it they are not specifically human, nor related to you in any way or have any direction to your life so why provide that mode as a basis for growth

Many just want to be handed $500,000 and be told to evolve but there is no realms that will offer that method of growth because it is being withheld from even the most enlightened beings on earth

With the glorification of financial wealth and the illustrious nature you have two ends of the spectrum the very very poor who have no wealth and it only trickles in and the very very wealthy that have massive amounts of wealth almost like a cheatcode in a virtual world with the middle realms of our society paradoxically spending more than what a wealthy person would spend given the nature of the buying market and capitalism and as well some people from the lower ends of the spectrum sometimes spending 800% more than what they make on a singular product just to appease their own chemical signature to obtain the level of enlightenment they desire.

But equally of a quagmire is if the enlightenment found you rather than you seeking out the answers is that it may not be the right option for growth

Much of our media instils the ideology of existence onto us when it should be instilling history and lifetimes of lessons rather than the illusions of the present.

Working to find your enlightenment throughout so much illusion can be tricky and in this i find alot of illusion itself because one can never distinguish between a pursuit that is antithetical to growth rather than progressing their being light years beyond everyone else

What anybody wants is enlightenment to be easy and in pill form when in fact when you first start the enlightenment it may take a decade or two to come to a perceptive theory as to the nature of your existence or the nature of your growth and in this realm many are disheartened by the prospect of working out for 20 years straight working out the mind and many cannot go into a state of introspection for 20 years so enlightenment escapes them thanks to the many spectrum avenues and causalities of the system around us, and perhaps that is the direction of the system to keep most of the known world in tears and in illusion to keep them from finding their most enlightened state because once one finds their highest embodiment of being they can affect true and the most ascended change in the world and this is what the system is very scared of, because not only can one enlightened being change the course of the planet can you imagine what a dozen or a hundred ascended beings can do, more of a galactic destabilization

Most beings you meet are not ascended nor do they have the faculty of perception to be able to handle ascension or evolution and this mind you is relative to your own growth to observe but usually has to do with the infancy of their incarnated being they are a relatively new soul unable to perceive the enlightenment you crave to broadcast

This is disheartening when you figure there are possibly only about (approximately) 1000 beings on the face of the earth akin to your enlightened state and they lay scattered all over the globe surrounded by systems of control to halt them from helping you ascend further

Thankfully we have tools available technologically and the like to be able to connect in some ways but the internet itself is a rather impersonal method of communication and technically a form of alien interaction with its own cultist mindset and its own language and laws and systems in place that keep out the least technologically ascended with a vengeance

SO really the only enlightenment worth striving for these days is the ability to be able to pull people from their inherent trauma state and allow them to figuratively analyze their own state of mind to be able to perceive illusions and furthermore give them the knowledge to be able to ascend past the beings that keep them trapped and in imprisoned by their own desires and perceived sins

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I ask my guide to show me the way and what i get is a nice delight a female falcon

it took me to a Project where i could download millions of lines of code,where i found and was  helping a spider and put near a nest and it started to attack me so it bit me and i put another spider beside it and they started fighting

Next i went to a town and had to catch a ferry and there was a ton of people in the park sleeping hundreds of them and i had alot of gum in my mouth trying to hail a cab to the ferry terminal

Next i went to a building where i could make any art i wanted with any supplies i wanted and there was room of supplies and this girl kept pressing on my ear she didn’t agree with what i had to say but i hated that she kept pressing on my earlobe

Next i went to a massive protest and i bit the head of a guy to stop him from dragging a girl off  it was a  huge  protest filled with people

Next i went to a native reserve been damaged by fires glass on door and they were planning on rebuilding it into a resort but now their plans are quashed

Went to a hospital went to an emergency room to a washroom a flamey gay guy watched me jack off and then we almost got busted so i escaped the hospital so i escaped through an escape route through a large elevator and people chasing me

Next went to a house that was run down and there was alot of guys living there and i was trying on shirts and gonna stay there for awhile there was a guy sitting on the front yard in a truck and they were nude and hairy too kinda fun place to spend some time.

Wandering the spacerealms of theory

Wandering through a past life

And wandering into your most interdimensional self

Wandering past illusion

And wandering into a world of elusive enlightenment

Because not everyone seeks what you seek

Not everyone has the goals of enlightenment in focus

And will do everything to stop your course of enlightenment from taking aim

-          Shaun A. Delage