chick tote

Enlightenment as a figurative theory exists solely in only the minds of those that wish for the enlightenment to happen.

While many can tell your on the path to ascension they become envious or jealous because they did not come to the understanding first. Then when they figure out you are literally on a ten year path of existentialism they get sad somewhat that they too cannot exist on your path

While it is nice to attach to things like family and friends you cannot take them with you when you leave the planet and you did not take them with you when you arrived.

Although many have reincarnated and arranged to see you again. This is also something to be concerned about at times since some friends hold a vengeance against you for prior lives misdeeds

While nice to attach to things like family and friends it is a good idea not to base your whole existence around them which is tough for some reason because with most families the bloodline has either incredible good luck or misfortune depending on the entity at play.

There will always be rogue elements within your being. The need to either revolt or blend in with others

Best to go with your heart on this notion. Because nobody can tell you what to do or what to say but i can say this, that each choice opens up a plethora of paradoxical good or bad events to take place so don’t be afraid to take risks and step into the unknown

Many people exist solely as a basis of slavery and then in their leisure does everything they are told to do or believe they should do and society teaches you to do things in constant repetition

This repetition is literally programmed into all of us with the repeating day and repeating workweek and the tv shows constantly replaying and even the hour repeating twice a day

It is no wonder we are all caught in an endless cycle of birth and rebirth we are literally letting the magic take over in every single core fibre of our being and when given the choice to come back to earth or ascend most of hopelessly choose another sentence here rather than go into the unknown, because that choice is what were fearful of ...going into a new dimension with a new plethora and myriad of lives to live

Sometimes it is easier for most of us subconsciously to choose a life that has been so engrained onto our being for thousands of years in constant repetition

Life is much simpler with familiarity even when your going into the unknown it is wise to stick with familiar customs but in a sense welcoming new ones

Much of the technological coolcats of this age the millennium warriors are adepts at discovering each new day brings a whole spectrum of new adventures.

This is a sublime method of life because you feel passionate about waking up to a day you know nothing about. You sort of have an idea, like i am gonna stick some HTML in something, then go into a virtual world and fix vendors, maybe do a few graphics later on and have a hamburger to keep me alive lol

Then when your in the middle of all that other things come up and suddenly you have yourself a little adventure. Could you imagine if humans didn’t need to sleep, my lord what a mess of humanity we would have if that was the case, thank fully we have the god of dreams, because the other gods...paradoxically ignore us to mindnumbing neglect leaving us to further submit

Much of our daily life is in theory illusion but much of your life is simply illusion when you get to your endpoint and find that the past 78 years until your graceful death as an old man has only been a 3 minute cat nap in your other self.

The nature of our realities intertwining and things will only get harder and easier to understand as time goes on and it will and the magic of death and sacrifice keep layering on the illusions but likewise the magic of miracles and the magic of individual choice keep layering on a beautiful interlude of choices being offered to others and this is the supreme evolution of the human race.

That we may ascend to a reality that is unlike anything in history

That we may forgot everything else that is going on ‘out there’ and focus on your own divine nature for awhile instead of being in complete subservience to other mysterious entities that prefer not to be seen

This is your own meaning to life

To discover the meaning to self and i tell you. It is a challenging route given the paradoxes of individual lives.

I ask my guides to show me the way and what i get is a nice bull

The bull took me to a school where there was a pope with a sort of pair of shorts on and i noticed he had alot of boils on his leg it was pretty gross. I was friends with a  guy and we were going to JO and i had no time and had to get over there oooo but i did find some 420 in my pocket

Next the bull took me to a cities gay section it was great when i saw an ad for a gay gallery it was a perfect fit for me while i was sitting at a table two guys went under the table and table cloth and who knows lol there was a dish of money out as well

Finding wonderous examples of being

Amidst the astral world

Yet wondering of our own reality

The interlocked reality we all sit on enchained

Trying to get somewhere but not understanding

How to travel

Or even where to begin

The ascension belongs with you and your being

To innerstand who the person is that is behind  the eyes

Because the person in you is me

And I am you and they are me and we are them.

-          Shaun A. Delage 

egg laying

Many people walking around and dealing with you are simply programs.

They were bred for a purpose and they fulfil that in the matrix to the best of their abilities

If you are lucky enough and i mean lucky and fortunate enough to have a singular soul nearby that would like to ascend or evolve or enlighten themself.

Believe me that is a gift

At this point i am surrounded by people that choose not to ascend only to further their reliance on the system

Most supremely identify with ignorance, it is the easiest methodology of living

One of the only routes to enlightenment lies with introspection. Mind you there are other fringe methods like the fetish of pain etc but not recommended because the enlightenment would be different than the supreme level of ascension.

Mind you anybody can attain enlightenment but you cant just focus on it for one hour a day in your meditations

You have to be able to be a living embodiment of the enlightenment you profess to attain

Stay calm 100% of the time and even while people are trying to raise or level out your emotions to trigger electrical response understand that this is in a sense coded programming in a sense to make you react.

If they see nothing bothers you it may make them fiercely envious for some time but also just know this is your life and your emotions and your health

You have to be selfish with these things because people literally die from stress

You have to be able to manage this quality in yourself along with tempering social qualities

I mean that specifically to not allow yourself to be endlessly programmed by people at every turn. If you are a very social person than having the ability to fend off much of where you are being directed

Even in the routes of enlightenment you will find some levels of illusion

It means figuring out the essence of the illusion and fixing it in your minds eye to something with more stability and possibly working to correct that quality in others if it is a persons illusion you are dealing with

The individual matrix philosophy is resounding in many individuals who choose not to be apart of the system yet they are heavily interlaced within their own quasi matrix that is almost inescapable either due to societal strain or individual mental blocks

Many try to put on so many fake faces or masks to appease people like bosses or family that these masks sometimes over run the life and you lose touch with who you are

Much of my own life consists of an inner hatred for my path but when that comes up i smile and think of a small cat that just walked through a park and finding a piece of meat and walks up to it and grabs it with its mouth and drag it off to feast on this wonderful piece of food just found.

The cat should not be tormented or beaten or slaughtered because it was operating out of instinct rather than the inherent need to take something that wasn’t theirs

Power animals are a gift to each person. I see people and i see their power animals usually like oh that person is a dog , or oh jeeze that person has to be a platypus or that person is a giraffe

One important lesson to learn in life is before you go to sleep to ask your power animal to come close to you and reveal itself along with asking yourself to remember your dreams to the best of your ability to write it down. But as well asking for guidance and protection so you don’t become fearful of the dreamstate and live to intoxicate yourself so you don’t perceive it.

You may also ask your power animal to take over your body as well

And don’t be surprised if they take it over and have sex they are naturally curious of the human orgasm state they will soon figure it out and show you deeper realms once satisfied

You may also find you have many many power animals or that you have had so many animals over your lifetime

Usually your main animal will reveal itself in the first dream and some of its friends or other animals will show up later on with sometimes a whole room of animals waiting to meet you

Of course you cannot control things like being scared of them because of our earthbound perception of fierce animals or things like the animal reincarnating from a housecat to a shark etc or saying things you don’t mean in your dreamstate to them essentially hurting their feelings. or do you something to offend the animal or make it sad...like trying to trap it in a cage or dress them like i do in my dreams lol

If this does happen make a conscious effort to apologize when you do wake and ask the animal to return to you again and that you didn’t mean to bring them sadness.

Also it is important that you work tirelessly to bring your power animal close to you even in your waking life so that you may be guided by them and your human guardian entities

But also keep in mind that a power animal may be mythical or something you don’t expect or another dimensional creature you are unaware of

I have heard things like never speak about your power animal it offends them

This may be rightfully so but some animals like to be adored and talked about some animals want to be a celebrity and make you into one as well . some animals like to be known.

It would be of use to research the animal or the closest variation on earth so that you can relate to it better when you do meet

And like i said always allow it to take over your body in the dream world if you can, chances are the animal is hundreds of thousands of years old and can show you things you never thought was possible

My animal is a tabby cat with spots and it is one of the oldest Egyptian feline bloodlines so in a sense that feline operates on a whole different level. I am very fortunate to have this animal as my guardian but it took effect after much of the trauma ensued in my life and continued to layer on. The protections afforded by this animal are unfathomable

My animal guardians shifted quite a bit because some were not able to handle me, or my pain so i essentially ended up with the tabby that looks like a kitten

I listen to the animal over my five spirit guides mostly

I feel guided and protected and it feels like it has somebody that can help it evolve even from the other side and in that is the perfect relationship with a real love and a real harmony and a real basis for growth.

i ask my guide to show me the way and what i get is a fantastic delight i get a nice mole, now these are cute creatures and even nice to pet when they are in a good mood.

There was a big cruise ship and these tend to occupy my dimensional travel lately since my real life cruises i was on leave for a bit and needed to find my way back to the ship so i wandered the streets searching i found myself at stores and businesses  that were mansions and a store combined.

I asked a retail associate where the ship was and she went into a complex tirade she looked down and noticed i wasn’t wearing any shoes so i quickly put sandals on i walked through the alleys by a plumbing and sheeting store and a barber i also walked through a large mall and saw a lady handing out nuts so i settled on a purple walnut and ate it ...

Next the mole took me to the ship i guess i made it back in time the whole ship was massive i tried to find a breakfast buffet amongst countless delis and diners and such and i stopped to use the washroom and washing my hands a stud came up next to me and rubbed arms with me so i rubbed back (romancing his arm) then dragged him into a washroom stall and he got nervous and left ...lol poor guy. The ship was massive about 3 blocks wide and even longer

They were doing train trip excursions many things were going on there was countless pubs and restaurants

This time i was a rep from the church of techno on the ship and i told them we have about 20 faiths that are able to subscribe to the church without any clashing of the faiths. I went to go to a sushi place and it had live lobster and stuff and i saw they had a sign “breakfast wraps” i kind of walked away because all i wanted was the usual eggs and sausage and toast type buffett but couldn’t find it amonst the musky diners and such of this place.

Working to attain a spiritual path and a spiritual life

Takes a love for oneself

That exists way past any earthbound relationship

It means kissing your enemies

And figuring out where you rest

And mind you death comes at a fine line with each choice

But nothing you should ever be fearful of

My friends on the path

To take risks

To be different

To be your ultimate reality

To be you .

-          Shaun A. Delage

illuminatiMATRIX - The Rock - Dome of the Rock

complete seclusion

The true nature to alteration of sublimination lies with you and you solely. I have been dealing with some of my monarch slave side recently. Really pondering what i have been programmed with in a sense code words. Others that come up as well...the only real way i can see myself escaping the programming is to keep going endlessly in a tiring adventure of cosmos theory

Understandably i have been programmed with many code words that may come up in the future by the most elite regional royalty in my region but not just that dozens of these hellish creatures that only live in a world of sadism and sickness.

One of the directives of the church of techno has always been to have it as a base of analysis of some sort in case all chaos breaks loose and ensues with my being but also in that regard i understand i hold profound amounts of psychic energy that when used for the better will of the most divine.

Magic can take place to exist in a spacial sense.

it may happen like a manchurian candidate thing, Be it with a programmed crime or death or conspiracy if i haven’t already been immersed in enough already lol but it has always been my directive to be more of a public entity rather than one that operates with them in the shadows

I argue that everywhere i go i am led from one minder to another mainly the dozens of people that speak in riddles and also the people that display dozens of personalities given their own sexual abuse and trauma abuse based programming.

I also inhabit an advanced characterization of theoretical analysis . not one based in the luciferian mindset (those that are indoctrinated into post secondary witchcraft institutions.)

While some argue that my  being is somewhat powerless when i so rightfully lack essential qualities to assure i have a successful life. I also excel in every sense of things that are unexplainable and not of this world.

And one needs confidence because i am divinely programmed at night to reverse the trauma of the day.

Today i passed by some guy and moved out of the way for him to pass and then he literally shoved his arm into me, reminding me of either two things...that people can be inherently sadistic or that there is a great force against me as an individual. That is why i don’t like people very much and they don’t like meh

My country breeds these people through neglect, this is my community, my humanity and i am sure it is much worse in a hell based country rather than the freedom of our own.

Much of the people out there inhabit a degree of sadism and cruelty and twistedness you would never imagine

You would never have any idea

Then you meet others that reverse the effect and inhabit a being of profound angelic qualities.

Some of those angels are fiercely separated and guarded from others that they may have an effect on

I have been dealing with a  notion that i may be tasked to do something horrible.

In some ways the Church Of Techno may mysteriously save you, save another, save somebody. Because nobody but me and google can take it down the enlightenment will continue to layer on at all definable cost.

But also, which was not expected in the church’s infancy was that it may help the leader of the church the sole reverend and doctor of divinity that types these words from being cast into a rape and torture prison against my will for choices i have no control over.

While much is being done to medicate me to the point where i make the right choice. I cannot ignore the grave trauma inflicted on me with no therapeutic benefit so i am left with no other course of action than supreme enlightenment, however painful it may be

It is the nature of the severe programming instilled on me from the master mason in his tower or the nazi bakery and all of its demons or the people i am surrounded with

Which goes way against my inherent need for a community centric lifestyle to be lived.

My hopes in bringing the serious crimes unit of the RCMP and various levels of provincial governance and hospitals and even the hague have gone un noticed. Either i am just being silenced, ignored, or they think i am dreaming this all up.

Bringing my case up to this level stops everything in its tracks and in a sense decades of programming has had to be put to a stop because if i am ever objectified the whole entire earth will change.

In a way the church of techno has the power to fend off the chaos and avert things like crime and murder and rape/violence and serious issues. Every line you read is code meant to instil another layer of divinity onto your soul. Which to many is a relief considering the amount of sadistic torture being layered on every second.

The church of techno aims to guide people to find their most virtuous and ultimate identity.

I will even do it to the detriment of my human body which is in a sense virtuous yes but i also offer my spirit being to advocate on your behalf at any time. Which nobody is willing to do at this point in any existence temporal or reality based.

I hold profound levels of psychic energy and skill and power. I am able to redirect it where its needed to. And only do it within the realm of divinity

While divinity may be paradoxically painful at first ...later on things happen for you that are on the level of supreme enlightenment. Because the universe works very slowly. Given the size of the events taking place.

The church of techno resides as one of two sole institutions in my city that are able to assist people and help them heal from trauma based serious intellectual programming.

The other one based out of VICTORIA BC CANADA is Illuminatimatrix.com

& one of only a handful of places on the internet that can be trusted within the infinite confines of enlightenment – evolution and ascension.

So in a sense alteration of serious amounts of sublimination

While i theorize there is only a few people in each country running the show . the smartest thing anybody can do is input enlightenment from as many avenues as possible that will direct your focus.

Code essentially sending you on a new path , a new directive. One where it is the obsessive desire to alter sublimination but needed

Because i know it saves the very essence of your soul.

And that is what is needed these days is representation from the other side. Amidst an army of millions of darkened souls and i can say that one divine being can literally outshine 100,000 of these types (hellish sadistic creatures) that is aligned with divinity.

I know and am confident i am empowered with the nature of divinity

My desire to help others does not rest in egotistical basis, moreso to help the youngins who know no better or the naive or those that cannot articulate it nor even conceive of this realm of ultimate perception without the basis of reality of verifiable factual substance we believe is happening or currently taking place. The trauma state or the drama state i think i will pick the ascension state 

It is my purpose my path my life service to others after realizing the true nature of the world after countless doors being unlocked in chemical precursors.

I am in service to you and many others , many mysterious digital others, to achieve ascension

Because what else is there ?

I ask my guide to show me the way and what i get is a nice surprise. It is a squid

I was prepping for an art exhibit on a cruise ship and i would go around telling people of the exhibit. One lady tried to take my passport in my back pocket only to be surrounded by security

I went into my room to get some buddhas and some crystals for the buddhas to hold and to my shock one of the quartz crystals started to move.

The maid cleaning my room said  it was good for my dreams the crystals and what an incredible ship. I was planning on making and announcement like “dimensional rave male pop art exhibit in the cafe”

Trying life

Yet wanting wonderous life

The life of supreme being

The most virtuous you can be.

The ultimate being

The ultimate self

The most supreme qualities you need

To carry you through one more day

Be it in isolation or out in the open

The only thing you need is happiness

And just a hint of love

To douse out the negativity of them

Against u

-          Shaun A. Delage

Rain HeN

You never know who you really are until you almost lose your life.

In our inherent loneliness we prop ourselves and our emotional state with things like cigarettes, and alcohol and drugs, (every 2^nd person i see on the street is smoking, it is sad) What else would you do when you find out your life consists of a 70 odd year prison sentence

in constant subservience

to ISIS =$$

almost everyone you surround yourself with is lonely. Because people don’t know how to love the self

much of our media instils the notion that the individual does not matter and glorifies in telling us how many people shot others or brutally attacked and raped others or people that are harmed in some way and subliminally this instils the ideals that.... what good are you when you are made in the same image as these monsters.?

So in their ignorance of self and subfusion of time they abuse themselves

How could anybody love another when they don’t have the desire to introspect and figure out what their essence is as a whole

I look in the mirror and think to myself I have no idea who this is staring back at me, and i just smile because i am proud of who i am mysterious as it may be. I am proud that i have surpassed the madness enough to be able to smile at my path

Much of addictions lead to a pointless end one where the sickness is never predicted because of the chemical masking agents in the additive substances.

The individual props themselves up with the substance just to feel normal and hide away from their real essence their loneliness and their inherent mistakes that haunt them continuously

Thanks to the powerful luciferian psychic mind for constantly reminding each individual of what they have done wrong ....ty lol

The first years are fine, but you get to a point in your addictions where it just becomes a pointless and cash draining adventure through chemical response and electrical signals

It becomes pointless yes, but also baseless, substanceless.

I am speaking from experience as well being addicted in some way to various substances ranging from cigarettes to alcohol to marijuana (Go 4:20 lol) and right up to crystal methamphetamine and xtacy and all that

Then you have those that are most traumatized in society that are literally targeted and won over to the bloodcults to literally continue and redirect the pain onto others.

All the while masking their being further in intoxicants and most of the time our young men that have undergone the figurative death ritual are not even aware of the pain they broadcast onto individuals like a prism outward.

I look out into the winter wonderland and making my way (barely able to walk in my skater kicks through the ice snow and slush-is ok i have boots but those things are effin clogs man)

Not many have to face a world such as this and i know within myself that the illusion of apocalypse could not happen without serious energy being broadcasted back at the side that brought it on

Many conspiracy people are fortunate to live in the tropics or on islands tucked away from it all and warm climates and could not even begin to fathom being cast out like an inuit into the winter wonderland of minus 18 with snow

That is why i know that the 2012 events as they are being marketed cannot happen as they say

It is meant to like eye say in other posts guide you further away from your dreams and goals but also further entrap or ensnare you into a life of addiction

I want to relay that no matter what there will be continuance of the species

There will be a reality, there will be life.

If it means facing challenges then so be it, if it means the matrix gets reset ....live it

Have you ever wondered why there is no vocal opposition to the 2012 theories? Because there is a tiny conspiracy clique and they can be won over at any point with any singular choice

(promoting all this) and the ideals and has come at a very powerful price.

People that hide away and believe in this have no guardianship or faith in themselves. Or a love for ones being to be able to outlive this madness –if you only knew how many suicides this has and will cause over the next few years it would sadden you.

You need to understand your being will continue. No matter what

We have come to far technologically and i have seen the future so i know and have made the future available on this blog

We have the year 3000 to get to not the year 840 BC

We are not going to be erased into the stone age

Much of the last 20 years has been spent propping this ideal up in individual minds that the world is ending and people believe it. This is one of the most heavily financed campaigns on the planet,

Why?

Because it is market research into fear based programming. Much of our communications are monitored so they understand the effect this is having on the populace

Then in 2025 there will be something to the same regard that the advanced psychological operations dreams up to scare us with

When it clicks by and nothing happens it furthers the way for smarter fear based programming

But also much of the energy being sent to 2012 is greedily perpetuating things like wars and famine and bloodshed (it adds magic to the whole endeavours) and things like child abuse and other crimes by the cultists

In a mask of magic and an unseen hand that is able to redirect everything associated (tagged) with 2012 outwards (wherever it wishes)

Only way this has been propped up so much is because it has been marketed within the cultist network as a factual statement.

Did they really assume they were worthy of the truth?

-          Shaun A. Delage

perfection symbiosis

The linguistic earth we inhabit with countless rules to follow

My earth does not inhabit thousands of rules or policies

I am sure yours does to some degree

But you can live with a minimal amount of directive in your life

and still attain a degree of enlightenment

Much of my captivation piece assaults medicine. Mostly for what i feel what was done to me on the psychiatric ward while i was supposedly very sick and needed to be hospitalized

But the fact of the matter is when your sick there is no options other than the care given

Not many people go to their MD and think “this person has carved up a dead body” no you deal with them on a human level ...

Being an enemy of masonry i have come to the understanding that my death may come at any time

But also very brutally- that is why i have attempted to bring my art and writing into the digital avenue where it will sit on various microchips around the globe for the perpetual existence of the net

While the Vancouver oracle told me i will live a very long life

Perhaps it may be so and that i welcome.

I just want to be able to live a life on my terms, with my own rules. My own guidance

I want to live without my life being dictated about at every turn.

Much of my new book i am writing is directive of morpheus in my life the god of dreams

And i have in a sense taken this blog and turned it from blogger to fiction

Much like the writing style i have made a main character that can go into a  virtual world I made up and travel dimensions and he meets gurus and goes to raves and there is another character that can do poetry

I am on chapter 42 currently of the rough draft and i keep going

Probably have another 40 chapters

So i have dreams and my own given directive rather than having everything laid out for me or living a life where i am under ‘their’ guidance doing ‘their’ work and ‘their’ directives

Rather i am in my own world doing my own thing being my own sovereign person and that is how it should be

Perhaps it is the nature of the curse on me or my illness but i am very perceptive.

I hear things that people say come up a few hours later and it is troubling

I tend not to freak out about it though and already people are starting to say some characters from my book etc

It kind of scares me i wonder who would know intimate details of my life etc

But it can all be read in the aura then you bring in the notion of invisible guardians controlling our and everyone you meets moves so there is quite the paradoxical world we live in

I am also dealing with something that i have been aware of for about a year is i am 28 now

And most people lived to be my age at some point and then died a hundred or so years ago and before that as well

It is crazy to think of how short of a life they had

Must have been easier in that life, although things are paradoxically easier now that we live to be in our hundreds

So i am here thinking of my own mortality and really pondering it

I know i will have a very long life

What it comes down to is cheating your way through, acting your role, living your part

And outsmarting those that place restrictions on your being

I know i am living the past year in renunciation and probably the next one as well

Renunciation so that i may have a good time when i am 30 years old

I will be able to afford to go out and party and have fun, i may be able to afford a home and other things

So i give up this year so that i may enjoy the next few in relative comfort

Usually it is the opposite with gay society when your 16 you tend to enter the club scene and spend it there until you look very aged when your in your 30’s from drinking so much or you catch some sexual infection and you become bitter about life.

I have always looked at the past ten years as a sort of renunciative state of introspection

Maybe my whole life with be in renunciation i don’t know

Part of me just wants to be able to go to the club and have a few drinks and smoke one with some friends and listen to music

At this point i am unable too

I just have hope in the future i will be able to enjoy my life a bit more

These days when i think of that i go envelope myself in my book and yet another chapter

I have things looming over my mind like, no literature background no grammar skill, dropped out in grade 9 only to get my GED a few years later. Then i have people i tell about my book saying things like “oh manuscripts never get picked up these days” “your going into the wrong field” “it may never get picked up” “there is gay characters in it?”

Flustered for a moment or two i kind of angrily shoot back “My book is different, it is going to be a star”

People think what they see of me on the surface level or through advanced telepathic information is the correct version

What changes my own viewpoint is me reading a few chapterz of my book and i just smile because i know i have something and what everyone i deal with broadcasts secretly is that they couldn’t do it on their own, they needed help...be it submitting or going to school or finding an employer,or sugardad etc

Essentially they were not karmically imbued with GOD GIVEN talent to make it happen and this to me is shocking because 100% of the people i deal with in familiarity or simple occurance have had to submit like this.

I know there is a supremely high up level that could access my book from the computer mainframe etc

And they also know too I am going to be a star

It is literally being funnelled all the way down into everyone i deal with

My book is going to be one that gets a cult following :P

After it is published people will want to see the movie

 It will be nice going into the club in a rolls Royce from all the publishing royalties

And EVERYONE will know who you are because you walk in with a hot security officer

And you just buy the whole crowd a glass of champagne and smile, for you had faith in yourself and your talents and your dreams most of all

I ask my guides to show me the way

And what i get is a nice delight it is a raven the bird of conspiracy lol

It took me to the middle of nowhere and people were doing a  game show

One guy had to take a stand on an elevated stone pinhead while the others did challenges to try and set him free

I walked up the mountain side and could see hundreds of thousands of nag champa incense littered all over the mountain side The blue packages and trademark packaging stuck out and it made me happy

Next the raven took me to

A guy got shot so i was handed power over a corporation and i got to sit on a CEO chair and eat a meal with two guys with elevated teaching boxes like found on the vipassana meditation courses

Next the raven took me to a mobile command unit where i took everyone hostage including the cooks and i got to feel up a really thin and hot cop omg

Next the raven took me to a school where there was a shooting we were at and evidence techs were everywhere and me and this kid practiced singing in a hallway it was so fun we were singing a song from Moulin rouge and believe me i could sing better than Real life

Wanting more

Yet wanting less

Timing for more

But needing less

And figuring more

For less

And wanting less for more

Trying to find more

Amidst less

And figuring less while wanting more

We want more

But will it find us amidst less?

-          Shaun A. Delage

luvin himz

Sexuality is a very concerning topic to most

While it be somewhat undefinable much like the illusion of class and wealth combined

(that you don’t need money to be classy)

And people don’t understand this one bit.

Many try and attack the issue of sexuality because it is one of our most vulnerable topics of the human psyche

You have four sexualities, Gay/lesbian, straight/heterosexual, bisexual and celibate/asexual

Now most in their lifetimes settle on at least one definable moment to do with their ultimate prowress

But if i could tell you the experiences i have had as a gay man, meeting married men or straight men who were ‘curious’

I could relay that they try and adhere to the neutrality of the sexuality for a short time

And then when discovering the flaws of the sexuality move back to something more comfortable.

Alot of straight men experiment with guys, it is the nature of the original male programming and the male home world and star system

There is always an attraction to other men even amongst the most straightest in society

Many try things they are supposed to like oral sex and then discovering anal sex they discover a pretty hardcore avenue of expression.

That while painful for the most part and enlighteningly pleasureable the pain seems to ring out in their mind and in a sense scares many straight men away from the gay community

This is one of the greatest conspiracies put to prey on the community

That gay men are obsessed with anal intercourse

When there is a fringe group within the community that will subscribe to light touching and etc to achieve real sexual enlightenment rather than full on penetration

Then you have the people that identify as wholly tops or bottoms and this is a comfort for most

Now me being kind of an asexual gay it is amusing to watch the dance because either identification with being a top or bottom leaves the relationship pretty unsatisfactory because at some point each role does not please the other resulting in frustration and then the individual moves on to another partner that can satisfy them

For people to obsess about anal sex is quite silly

And me being the gay i am i attach to being in the know of sexuality since i have tried all avenues of sexual experimentation i can say that when you are an individual about things from the very start everything is bound to happen for you

While i love schoolboy sex , that nervous quickie you have in the locker room and thats it i can tell you it leaves quite the impression rather than you spreading full eagle for the jock to take you

To live in a complete comfort zone is ultimate to your own enlightenment

While nice to discover your way around a man, it is also nice to respect him

You may find 90% of the men you meet are not specifically interested in anal intercourse they just do it because of the communities standards and also just simply keeping up with powerful or submissive archetypical roles that must be defended at all costs

I even make the argument that a non sexual relationship can be loving and beautiful and incredible

While most of the relationship is ideal to surround oneself with the pleasure of the orgasm state it is ideal not to focus solely on that
believe me the longer you can hold out in a sexual sense the better rather than having an unchecked sexual lust because the 'culling' is taking place - the death camps are in perpetual existence with the advent of HIV AIDS and cancer etc  so the longer you can realize your true potential and slow and steady wins the race rather than fucking everything you see with or without protection  creates a stigmatic illusion of your sexuality.
on another note

I also argue that the advent of internet pornography has created a fifth sexuality on earth which many cannot define nor even begin to idolize given the complexities of sexuality

The people that enjoy porn solely for its enlightening aspect, the provide the ability to isolate oneself and live out a fantasy, be it gay straight etc

For a couple to ignore this part of themselves would be detrimental to the state of the relationship

When your every fantasy can be lived out in the age of technical supremacy we have ourselves a little quagmire of sexualities forming to enmasse into a spectrum of unbelievable love

Than envelopes the earth in real peace, real enlightenment, real ascension, real evolution.

I ask my guide to show me the way and what i get is a wonderful surprise i met a nice goose who took me to a small village where people ate small kid like portions because there was no food available, this took some getting used to since some of our western portions could feed a whole family of about ten here ....and i didn’t want to say anything of my home planet being customary to this practice because they would have gotten depressed.

They were scared of being busted for enjoying things too much like chicken fingers i cooked for them witha  dip of asiago and dill

Findinga  soulpath amidst so much trauma

But wanting to discover drama amidst trauma

There is love

But there is essentially better than love

And that is spirit

And spirit of being that is unknown to most

And a self that sees past life and time

Only seeing their true ascension

And figurative philosophy amongst

Millions of individual dreams

-          Shaun A. Delage