command sickness

My sexuality however striking it is or how the establishment sees it as ... abnormal, when it is the state that inscribed my inherent sexuality on me to begin with. Sexuality is something that i am extremely fond of. And protect. It is something close to my heart because i believe in love above all else

I believe that i can love another man in a way that nobody can relate to or figure out deeply and with no ill intentions

That i could hold hands with him and marry him

I was in cadets in a summer camp and this is where many find themselves in their youth simply because there is nothing to do, and we generally do not live in a very fun society for youth. You cant even go to a street fest (or smoke a joint without being shaked up by the cops.) You cant find solace in a society hell bent on appeasing the older generations, that actually work for their right to be here. What a boring place to live in and to try and adapt to

Newayz Segregated sexes , pubescent males, clear shower curtains, sweat, hormones, beautiful men all around...this is the nature of cadets

We were all abused physically and (psychologically sexually) by some twisted female officer at this one camp who hit and tormented all of us because she could. A few -pseudo revolted- against her sexual and power games so she claimed discrimination.

And sent some brutal and sadistic violent gunnery officers to discipline us making us do ten thousand pushups while torturing us, violently yelling at us, and we were just boyz

It got to the point where i and several other cadets passed out from stress and were brought to a medical facility and given a sedative when i awoke there was people standing over me saying i had been out for two days and that there was a federal human rights investigation

Where they brought us escorted by padres  to a room where statements were taken and we were given a new officer in command

I was mysteriously invited to a commanding officers lunch which i barely remember and then me and a blonde boy my first crush were taken away to a military jail for throwing shaving cream on some guy that made it is goal to torture everyone on the group with his psychological drama including tying a rock to his ankle and threatening to jump off a jetty that was 70 feet high and blaming it on me and this blonde boy named john

We were marched to prison and tried and convicted to spend a day in this place under three levels of security and a watchful guard and under complete boredom had my first gay love experience with this stud omg fantastic at least some good came out of this whole thing

It is amusing to think that my sexuality was subliminally inscribed on me on a military base under so much security and impossible to escape the sadism instituted by the command so much secrecy and having the rights taken away as a youth

So to be instilled with a lifetime of self identity seems funny given so much secrecy and abuse

However fun it was i cant escape the fact that this was neuro sexual torture while your brain is developing and power youth sex play all under the guise of being on HER MAJESTYS CANADIAN SHIP Quadra. That many of our youth are subscribed to this and have instilled on them

That seeming events while having a separation of authority are held under the watchful eye of those that run these sexual and power torture camps.

So i feel that sexuality is somewhat illusion when 99% of people i meet hint that i am abnormal or detested form of a human being. That sexuality is something never to be ashamed of

When your 12 years to 14 years old and you have a few adult male petty officers guiding you, disciplining you ...and parading around from their bunk to the showers with nothing on and you notice how huge they are and how much hair they have down there in comparison your mind begins to wander with the possibilities of your sexual future

That while my first choice sexuality wise may have a real sense of federal conspiracy

I cant deny that it is a catagorization of beauty in my life

That sexuality itself is a crazed notion to attempt to defend with so much illusion present

But i have dealt with so much hatred with my inclination to romance another man, that i have met with many demons and laughed in their face while they themselves call themselves a fag while their having sex with meh

I cant deny that nobody is ever complete in the realm of sexual satisfaction

That the only thing that would work is some degree of temperance in this desire, otherwise you end up with two irreversible outcomes, breaking your loves heart for cheating or getting a serious disease

When you meet the lover of your dreams it is best not to see them as some twisted sex slave

It is best to see them as a being of ever presence

to see them as a tool or pawn to satisfy you is illusion but to neglect them is cruelty

the being in front of you is displaying their love as a being that waited thousands of years to obtain a human body and to mesh well and become close soulmates

this is the essential key to survival

never best to exhaust them then five years down the road get bored of them and cheat or look for something else to start the cycle endlessly

oh for those that are later on in their life that so cruelly rejected dozens of people in their lifetime because of their own insatiable greed for unbridled lust

that they see the world as a virtual bathhouse

i say hey man get your head in check

it is so easy to attach to beautiful monogamy with the internet you are given a world of choices and fantasies you can share together and never need to cheat in the next two thousand millennia

this is where much of the contempt from the older generations lies at this point with the advent of the technological sexual freedom era

essentially if you cant communicate with your lover then what do you have

in a world where love can also be illusion and financed by the elite we sit and wonder about the timeline and where its leading us

every vision or theory of love is heavily marketed and financed so that the ones that are incapable of love can pass on the illusion that they have the power to love

where i see my own sexuality always under attack i can also see the very few puppet masters that finance the illusion of what it means to be gay

likewise the straight community vehemently denies that they are involved in a world of secretive illusion

it always makes me laugh when i think of the rest of the world as a heterosexual planet

it is deffo not viewed that way through my eyes because through my impressions and observations i simply see the world as a homosexual world (and homosexual as a word is a nasty word to use because it implies that there is a cure to homosexuality)

I don’t see the world how everyone blares their illusion at me at one thousand miles a minute of sexuality

Because to me it is extremely unsettling concept to have this neuro rape instilled on me every 14 seconds everywhere i go

I am sure i am not alone in this that most sexuality is inscribed by neuro repetitive mantras and manipulation by family and media

It really envelopes the greatest conspiracy currently in existence.

The freedom to choose ones path and ones mate without the society shooting them in the face literally in a sea of illusion and very little choices being made available

The choices that are made available are heavily propped up as a solid ever present reality that given the proper faith will work to improve you for your entire lifetime.

-          Shaun A. Delage   

spiritus novus

The evolution must find all those that willingly seek it and those that inform others are sometimes made out to be monsters or treated with a massive degree of hostility

There could exist by its very nature the new faith of the matrix philosophy that this in line with many other ideologies could form an existential theory

Moreso that those that want to find the theory could look for it and when the timing is right mostly the more evil elements will allow those that want to find the faith within themselves to find the answers they seek

My church of techno could be inline with this belief and say spiritus novus would want some belonging and a few others as well. That once the faith is built others will love to be involved .....and the hostility will mean nothing

That while i attach to an ideology that resists illusion i must also be prepared for the fact that the ideology in its infancy now may change to something i may not believe in in the future

That while i agree with it wholeheartedly that later on it may shift into something unbelievable or something i cant work with but the only thing left is faith

That i have faith in the souls that worked their whole life to bring a degree of enlightenment to me that is unheard of for a literal millennia

That many many people have an integral part unlike some of the other monsters of religions or societies that think nothing of their members that i also have a balancing effect on the ideology and an important role as a pseudo spiritual observer and that role along with my honorary doctorate bought online for $20 ........i take very seriously however others may not see it that way

So i tell them to go find the flaws somewhere else and find something they believe in because they wont find it with me or what i believe in if they cant believe in my path

My titles are titles but they are just titles without any meaning or substance behind them that i cant be a doctor in divinity unless i have some degree of divinity in my soul and have worked tirelessly to reject hatred and negativity in all i do

That many i meet have no level of compassion and this is unlike anything that i have ever known because every core fibre of my being inhabits compassion because you don’t understand compassion without first understanding suffering in all forms and that to me is enlightenment

While some may argue that to define somebody into a  vision or definition or a marketable product is easiest i come to terms with the fact that i am always evolving in ever presence i definitely am not the same individual as i was yesterday or the day before but many attach endlessly to who they were or who they can be not who they are

But i simply cant be here saying that enlightenment is only given to those that are worthy of it exactly the opposite, enlightenment can be given to all who seek no matter their definable characteristics or programming inherent to their brains or bodies

Selfless service to others as it is known may be one route to enlightenment but also the endless compassion for all you see is another route..... the involvement of intellectualism in one’s life is another, and the repetitive action of meditation is another all together

While the theories may present themselves and contradict themselves over time you may just want to grow with the evolution and EVOLVE and understand the in the moment philosophy of how the theories affect your being

Our society is taught that mostly everyone that exists should exist without ego, when i look at each being in creation as a literal pontificate, they have a jewelled hand and are elevated beyond anything presentable that is the glorification of creation and the shining sensibility of ascension

That no being is beneath you nor above you no matter what they preach or how much harm they inflict on you

That it is wise to attack those that attack you but also wise to evolve past the elusive nature of the present timing and into something that is of a universal concept

Now no wonder i am a doctor of divinity and i share this title with many others, and you as well can get the title and i share my ordination with celebrities and i share it with you if you seek to elevate yourself to the universal priesthood but that is up to you

With the bank i went in to get my titles added to my account which she looked at me and smiled and said you can have anything added to your account and i jokingly said how about Prophet Rev. Dr. Instead of Rev. Dr. And she laughed needless to say the bank was happy but i went into my identification office for my province and asked the same request and she said nobody in british Columbia is welcome to entitlement the only way you could make it work is if you submitted a change of name and actually added the titles to your name.

I needed to repeat what she said so there was no mistake or miscommunication “so your telling me nobody in british columbia is welcome to entitlement” she replied, “That is correct sir”

The smile i had was immense because i see past the elusive measures of the state and see into a world that is much stronger than illusion or borders or illusion of borders i wonder how the state feels when they entitle their members with titles such as “most honourable” and then their name for members of the parliament

What a silly society that contradicts itself continuously but if you never had the courage to walk in you would have never figured out this essential key to how the state views you

Amusing to me

In second life today i had to deal with alot of hostility attempting to bring the resistance TO THE people of second life because essentially it is a fractalized virtual world of what freedom means but there is so much illusion in second life a virtual world built up on money alone

I hold alot of power and authority in second life with my rave store and i have setup a sort of half invisible poster of the resistance to the door to my store which people can click and they get the site name of resistance 2010 and it is funny because you have to walk through the prim (as its called) to get into the store so people look a bit more and figure out that there is writing on it and read and it directs them to the site

Well i used my power in the rave scene to send some notices in groups of people and one group in particular sent me a hostile message that i should have checked with them first before sending a non music related notice and started to articulate rules within their group called the techno cult and said that i shouldn’t have done this and that it could be a brainwashing cult and i had to stop him and say well your telling me i am leading somebody from one cult to another and he laughed because his group is actually called the cult of ____then his avatar    anyways story into a paragraph essentially i voluntarily gave up the friendship and the group but still i am responsible for sending dozens possibly hundreds or thousands of people to the resistance with my power in the virtual world and my name so essentially it was worth losing a friend and a  group.... that would not stand by me..... being the most successful rave biz in Second life and well regardless i hope he chooses to look over the site and come back to the friendship  the hostility was way to much for me to deal with but is expected when you responsible for giving thousands the choice they have waited their whole lives to hear

Meanwhile another good friend of mine with a VERY popular group called THE A LIST messages me and is like so i guess your neo now lol and we got into a lengthy dialogue on matrix philosophy and oh how he balanced the vibration out to a point where i felt at peace with my decision (UPDATE: He has also ejected me and i will be ending that supposed 'friendship' of four virtual years as well. ) lol how fun kicked out of the A LUST oops mean A LIST well guess i am a B LIST celeb now lol i am so beyond the A LIST anyway lol above it all :P~~~
this time of the libra has proved to be extremely stressful i have also losta  8 year real life friendship as well and then another pseudo friendship here online in SL along with all of this
but these arent friends they institute cruelty on others because it is easy ina  virtual world that is text and cartoon based ....just simply proposing the ideals of enlightenment and evolution liberation and ascension is enough to make people spit in your face
i have the HOTTEST club store in the virtual world and i am going Places in life and they are pretty jealous because what do they have to do but make people literally soak in sadness over the thought of losing a friendship that was seemingly solid as a rock - all i can say is enjoy !!! you will sense how famous divinity will become over all of this madness

That i know to be around people with the same goals and the same direction is empowering and to others you may be a cult or distasteful but to the group that sees it this way it is evolution/empowerment/ascension/enlightenment

also i know that there may be people in the resistance that dont want to be there ....
And it enlightens me to how groups like the masons or the Buddhists or catholics stockbrokers etc or any other group function and i know there are members within the group working to correct the wrongs of the ideology or are unaware of what exactly is going on or are too far involved to leave so a sense of compassion is needed for all beings from animal to elite to celestial to hell based beings that they are only acting a scripted part and once they meet you some even go through painful but liberating deaths to escape and to join you in a beautiful placement in eternal love and light

They know deep down inside what has taken place they are able to witness what they have done and are working to change it

Many people have the keys to evolution but the keys cannot be hidden in illusion or subliminal suggestion or in surrealism the keys should not be found in riddles or in theories they should be found by you and you alone are freely given the keys to unlock the door and walk through it and with your shining smile embrace the beautiful scene before your eyes and walk away from the internal storms the world has setup for ya

So many in life think it is just a virtual world like second life and in some ways it seems silly to be in  a world that mirrors our own yet you have a better looking character and a bigger house and three businesses it would seem that people locked into this realm would not want to be set free they are happy in it.... i just cant ignore the virtual surrealism present

I cant ignore the fact that it is isolating being in a  virtual world such as this 10 hours a day....Like i was a year ago for three years prior but here i am i have the hottest rave store in the whole virtual world and have the power to say what i want and bring people to a fashionable existence

I cant ignore the fact that most of my ‘virtual friends’ are not really friends that care and it is easy to be inhumane in a text based cartoon world of illusion

I cant ignore the fact that most people on average spend about $400 US a month inside the world and it is a fun place to be when there is nothing else to focus on you are able to go to raves build stuff design clothes ....

But there is a horribly uncaring and unkind governance of the world

So i see it as this

I want to use my status for that which is right

My store is an absolute monarchy where it resides i am the prince over the land or king depending how you look at it, as long as the rent is paid so be it

Many of my friends have no interest in friendship

Many are lost in there because real life is too damn depressing

I lost a friend that was hostile and i voluntarily left a group and i may get banned from another for my post being non music related but it was worth it it was worth the negativity and the pain to set hundreds free to be involved in a community that actually cares about the loving progression of their soul

Or a governance that cares nothing about their customers but how much money is exchanged

That simply me making $30 US a week believe me, i can do without

That originally is almost marketed you will make millions in months if you work hard enough

That if needed i can leave the virtual world behind and not look back

Well, i spend maybe an hour a week now instead of ten hours a day and there are some friendships worth keeping and of course having the hottest rave wear and mens wear store for virtual clothing is definitely worth it

But my fight tonight against the dark energy that protects hundreds or thousands behind these groups was infiltrated and i put forth the ideology and allowed many to find the path if they seek it and i am proud of this and proud of the sacrifice

I did a little part and we’ll see how this goes

At least they will talk now lol

I have always been diplomatic amidst so much hostility and i enjoy it but i am very sensitive as well and cant deal with stress effectively because of my illness but if i avoid it completely and hide away and live in a fantasy world how am i ever going to evolve

Evolution is essential for survival we are all evolving this very moment while most don’t even want to entertain the thought it does take skill to evolve past illusion and to evolve into a world where you matter and that you are a sovereign beautiful prince or princess because that is what you are

To attach to an egocentric and community centric world is essential to survival and to involve yourself in universal matters puts you higher than any earth based system of ideology or illusion

That no matter how hard you are punished for wanting to be free walking three hundred miles barefoot with blisters is worth the walk if you reach your endpoint because there will always be somebody there to help you heal those cuts on your feet and rub the pain out for you because that is the nature of divinity which by its very nature along with evil must be used within the human body to achieve the goals of each encouragement

Theories will evolve out of successive fate and will we all see what will happen

Definitely !!!

I ask my guides to show me the way and what i get is a nice blue and yellow fox he is a male fox and he has a bushy tail with a stripe down the middle

He took me to an airport where i was due to go to new York over xmas and money never went thru – basically i thought i was making up fantasies and in a state of relapse calling the bank i realised nothing was happening so i was with a  group of people that were flying out and  a girl came up and gave me a hippy bag and told me to look inside so i found a bunch of folded up bills and i took one out and it was a one thousand dollar bill so i was like wow and she said i could keep the whole bag

Next the fox took me to a condo and i was on the computer and discovered that somebody had tinkertotz in their designs and i was like wtf those are mine and they insisted that they made them so i walked over to the freezer and found a bag of candy and it was rainbow and so cool looking and i ate a few pieces and skipped some of the bigger pieces of candy of all shapes inside a plastic bag

Next the fox took me to a restaurant and a lady that worked there asked what i wanted and i forgot so looking again she stood over me impatiently like a hawk and i started to sweat and get nervous and i couldn’t find what i want finally i said i cant take you standing over me like this and hovering and breathing down my neck and i walked out

Then the fox took me to a  small market where i was selling things like mini plates of lasagne i was like hmmm strange and then a friend came by and took me away and i was like thank you i don’t know what i was trying to hawk on people back der lol

Scared to say nothing

Yet fearless to say everysing

Courageous enough to see others

Encouraged to see me

By my own regard i am incredible

By my own theory so are you

Not something to be casually dismissed

Or neglected

Because ultimate love exists above all else

We do not live in a hateful neglectful existence

I am here and you are here

That is enough to change things and shake things up a bit

We are all unique

Attach to your individuality

And attach to always moving like a river from the mountain

Into the ocean

The beauty surprised even me

Because it is surprising to see so much love in the eyes

Of those you seek solace in

Where the world would fill them with so much pain

-          Shaun A. Delage 

imprisoned tearz

The explosion of internet pornography requires an almost epic response considering nobody ever watches a porn video twice. This is only something those that are corralled into the prison system could provide and nobody has ever brought this sick slavery to light because it is not known

Not known to the mainstream that a prison community by its definition is a secret society or another dimension completely depending on how you look at it

But young men are used as sex slaves mind you it is great and pleasurable and all wow what a tough life.

But there are many other levels of sexual gratification painful and pleasurable however sad that it is peoples insatiable appetites are simply not fed on a JO porn vid alone, they need creativity and they need props and a great face to boot

They don’t show you the massive resources dedicated to porn rooms on teevee prison shows and mostly the whole population doesn’t have any idea it is those that are elevated that get to work in this and those that can get off dozens of peeps at a time that are led here for their own protection

People are guided and financed into prisons on their supposed ‘crimes’ of course there are those that belong locked up for life haha YES hello? But long ago they figured out what a marketable slave base lets get as many people in here as possible

There are about 80% of prison populations that DO NOT belong there and once arrested and charged are given an initiation to stay quiet. That is if your good looking or can last a long time or have good equipment you are used as a sex slave in the freemasonic and cultist prisons with youth prison porn being traded in the underground

That whole sub caverns and basements are dedicated and exist to fuel the scenes needed for every fantasy and Hollywood is very much involved

That people in prison must be a believable sex act or they are simply killed off

Mind you i have never been in prison, the closest i have been is on a tour this is just enlightened theory that nobody is welcome to share given the initiation and the rape and the torture and silence that is expected of them . i am simply not involved in secrecy or staying quiet the rules don’t apply to meh

That this sexual torture exists in ALL canadian and US and commonwealth prisons

There is only a few sites online worth investing your hardon online or your attention and energy in and those sites are controlled and financed by these sickos right in our face but nobody ever unlocking the actual hidden ideals until now.

Much goes on behind lock and key and electric fence that we are unaware of

And the many levels and the sickness exist when you change out of your uniform be it prison blues or whatever colour meant to incite general hatred you are expected to change out of your uniform and into the porn clothes to have it be believable as a homemade or an amateur porn vid that while a JO vid is fun as an initial precursor the studs keep going right up into sadistic torture and snuff films

This is why the actual sadistic hatred exists against gay men is because this hatred is perpetuated on magic levels that young men are being forced into gay sex and gay sex torture scenes and of course you would preach against gay men

 Many crimes in existence require a deviant psychic ability to actually have the crime take place so criminals generally are highly intelligent people

That while shunned in the open as being a sickened state or a distasteful part of the human psyche

That the truth is our society flourishes on the enhanced creativity of criminality because most criminality is never discovered so it keeps going higher and higher until it is picked up by a demi god and the person is tried and convicted in a private court of their peers and then the public courts take over with the emulation of actual societal laws when in effect they don’t even apply because you have been secretly convicted in the first place

So essentially those that are smart enough to get away with crimes  are smart enough to make a believable and horned up vid because sexuality as we know it is illusion and they know this

Locked away wearing urban clothes or a military uniform near bunks and not only appease the masters that are behind the camera that get them off but with the advent of the internet a military controlled safe zone of intellectualism they also appease hundreds of thousands of surfers and finance the very prison and bandwidth and also finance bringing people in to be locked up

If you ever wonder why our prisons are so heavily financed and essentially way better looking than third world or Islamic countries prisons is because we hold the actual trademark to inherited creativity in these places and they are masters in making money

Why pay somebody $8.00 an hour when you can pay them .25 cents

And then when they get out they are positioned to continue the trauma on others as drug dealers or overlords and it is hard to escape this trauma mind once out because of the initiation

You understand the virtual blackmail that goes on in these places

Want to be safe, not raped daily? Not hit or cut or killed ? want perks? Then smile for the camera

And it is known that people like me are targeted and financed and lead to these places with a verifiable trail that would have you locked up for a millennia i swear if all my crimes were known with the consecutive sentences i would be locked up for 400 years in the USA

And when somebody like me realises the hurt and the pain instilled and works to turn their life around and make amends with the world after a few year crime spree the cultists target meh and threaten and send people to report on me or literally attempt to push me to a state that i revolt or incite violence or use hell based black magic to force me to commit additional crimes

So that i can be put in a place like this and my crimes and my being glorified to all those that hate the essential quality of being human , because many of the ACTUAL humans reside in prisons There are VERY few left here in the matrix in freedom and they are working to maintain that every being that fights for humanity be locked away indefinitely and with me personally if i was to be locked away their goal would be complete when you look at each soul as a cosmo matrix that they are literally Killing people without the act that there are walking dead all around us

So when you see shows about prison life and it is a relatively good life compared to other countries who do not finance this secretive world.....understand the fundamentals of who actually controls the trademarks on prison porn and the actual qualities of Prisons themselves and have a compassion for those you see on the cute vid that you willingly take energy from online and send some back to them because believe me the tormented souls need it more than you do

People that resist are easily led into avenues in life that traps and harnesses their soul power and energy while it is a sick thought to be locked away for ten years many out here virtually lock themselves away in freedom prison matrix’s

The only ones in this system able to enjoy a life of complete liberation are the super elite and nothing holds them back

Mostly everyone else is left struggling with purchases and slavery and family dynamics to even address the fundamental flaws in societal functioning

Much of our society is secret – so to deny secrecy is ignorance

Everywhere you go there is a plethora of secrecy from passwords to pincodes to locked doors

Our whole lives envelope secrecy

-          Shaun A. Delage

finality to powerz

If you love somebody you don’t base your love on how many times they get you off per day or per week a real union can go literal years without any sexual force, dare i say but its true.

That while a sticky messy release or for lesbians a slippery sliding lovefest is however pleasurable i make the argument for a truly evolved relationship to not involve unchecked un garnered sexual lust and activity

That a relationship could include some degree of sexual celibacy and even for gay men dare i say it as well that you can also limit your sexual activity that is somewhat painful, that our ideology of what is appropriate sexually in todays society is seriously flawed that even simply masturbation together is a form of intimacy but were led to believe that anything else that does not go the full ten miles is illusion when it is the other way around

Even a simply kiss can be loaded with thousands of light years of sexual lust and pleasure

To be in a relationship of higher aptitude sensibility... both will include some time of celibacy and people may not realise this for dozens of years until they are well aged that there is more to life than the expectation that they please me, because i simply deserve this sexual slavery from my partner or else.

That a relationship however worthy it may seem may be tested for observational sexual theory by being celibate for at least a month. If the union doesn’t last, believe me, it wasn’t meant to happen celestially lol

That while with your soulmate all you may want to do is have sex, even if it is pain versus pleasure that is up for you to decide as a union but i have to say that if thats all your based in what is there but a ton of sweaty effort and a 30 second burst of bliss for you non tantric folk

Mind you sexual repression is never a correct philosophy because primarily psychotic tendencies can prevail but also on the other hand unchecked sexual lust is equally as bad.

The only beings pushing the sexual agenda of earth are not human and simply live in a perverse world that literally feeds off the sexual and fear energy of the world not to mention the fluids that escape

That this modern sexual ideology is a basis to life and existence that is seriously lacking in one essential quality true romance because there is literally zero romance in media portraying of sexual freedom and extacy.

*SLick*

By denying marijuana to people you are denying a sacred herb to the original inhabitants that by their virtue of birth require this plant to function in a world with so much social and market pressure.

It is a slap of the face of immigrants, native people, gay people, African Americans, Mexicans, Chinese, anarchists, and people that generally require this sedating herb to function in such a lonely and sadistic hell based world to inhabit.

By the colonial mindset denying this to the people they are perpetuating one of the greatest atrocities in the medical community currently and the systems controllers know this, because they despise its better qualities simply because the herb is antithetical to their existence that they don’t require it to operate simply because they are not of this world. Dimensionally.

They feed off the literal hostility this creates in people being denied medicine that is on average 400% cheaper than pharmaceuticals This sacred herb would solve about 99% of known medical conditions and steal the power away from greedy international pharmaceutical corporations.

There would be no energy being deposited into the ley lines on earth because there would be no hostility no violence no chaos Everyone would be talking about philosophy and doing creative brain centered activity and a whole art movement would envelope the earth

*4:20*

So i sit here being able to write in a seemingly dissociative state about things . (sorry had to change my text colour since the technology god turned the following text invisible, this is the only thing i can figure out to do with this post lol -go spectrum) i write in a confusing place in my own country given the amount of power torture that exists and many go through it from those arrested in Victoria BC being tortured with phone books on their stomach being hit to people being literally locked away in the porn worlds of prisons to be power abused more so

While my life in the year 2000 included being a billionaire escort i met some of the highest reigning reptilian/invisible/human entities.

Including my relations with somebody that was responsible (and i risk death for typing this)

For the creation of Nunavut and one of the highest ranking grand wizards in canadian governance including being the deputy minister for Indian and northern affairs Canada

That while i stress that these beings are illusion, i cant escape the notion of the hurt they have instilled on the greater populace and the world as a whole. To my fellow native brothers and sisters and elders that need to be set free this is for you my friends.

Well, i must come out and say that he was also the canadian ambassador to costa rica which paradoxically is where the leader of the resistance resides imprisoned, much like i am by a border. That nothing is by coincidence that this will all be made apparent for the future liberation for all those that seek it,

This reptile king the sexual encounter included power play and forceful sexual activity this places me in a precarious position in my own country lol

That technically by definition i can be transported out of Canada and placed into any country that i seek refuge in according to the war crimes legislations that exist currently for my own mistreatment in Canada for my ideological beliefs

Although the sex never crossed the line into a violent sexual encounter it still was an illegal act for pay and unprotected and bordered on power rape and while having this encounter the 3 ominous distinctions from the city state known as the federation of Canada hung on his wall in his bedroom inciting the decree to use and abuse whomever he wished in his bedroom that he was untouchable.

The Givernment of Canada demanded my discretion, oh how they never knew what a soul i inhabit, and my history and the fact that this whole thing was observed by intelligence agencies

There is the ideology in sex work that you should keep your mouth shut of your encounters but that is how people end up dead and naked in a shopping cart

When these power reptile human beings abuse they are not in their human selves and i feel compassion for them because they are by definition in a psychotic state

But when they abuse and torture you and sign your death warrant this crosses the line

That there is a separation between actual human beings and the souls that govern / givern

That while i should have stayed quiet about my encounters under the threat of death they do send young cute anti millennium warriors to threaten me subliminally including most of my relations and all those i meet i have had enough of this BS and this mind torture ensued on my being from the establishment When somebody comes from your own generation and your own age and you lick up the fluid from his rod after the threat the threat sticks lol like wtf

That this must stop and the power returned to those that rightfully shall and WILL inherit it

That i didn’t mind mr. Ambassador taking his rage out on me,

That maybe i showed him the truth of the matter when i escaped my forcible confinement (instituted by the other grand wizards mr. Wall centre and mr. Mason ) from VGH psych ward and walked 2 km barefoot total COLTON HARRIS-MOORE style to his beachfront kitsalano villa in my yellow psych ward pajamas

All he did was take one look at me as i walked in the door and started making out with him and he rubbed my ass and asked how much this time.

meanWhile  asking what the yellow pajamas were all about

then i just walked out in tears and continued walking with detectives following my every move until i ended up at the university of British Columbia psych ward and asked to be admitted there instead of VGH mind torture unit

where i eventually was placed on government assistance rather than be employed by the nazi system in place this was a life or death matter and this should not be the case for people seeking help from this beastly system in place that has massive wealth available to be able to ensure each canadian retire and live a comfortable fully paid existence

that life is sad for people they rule over

that a revolution of mindpower must exist between the people that essentially want to be liberated from the prison we live in and those that inhumanely and sadistically govern over is under an unaccountable city state that is linked with hell based ideology

and that continue to trap those that want to be essentially free.

So we will only see how my situation will develop as a singular consciousness amidst so many genres i aim to protect and enhance and guide to ULTIMATE LIBERATION

When you report and prove an entire war crime in progress in the free world to the people responsible for the actual prosecution of war crimes (the hague) and are literally ignored while also proving to the CBC news outlet in Canada as well and are ignored you see you are elevated beyond an international level into a galactical being of ultimate reality

So the slave unseats various emperors and denies their actual evolution and their planned progression and halt quite a few from obtaining the life they worked an entire life to obtain

Only to meet the wrath from a gang of old daddies that claim to be the godfather to prince William and harry and threaten death to all those that resist i say lets expel these whackos mostly from the power play they introduce over most individual minds and souls or at least empower me with the entitlement spiritually to guide and protect all those that seek and wish it

For i continue to become the most powerful being in Canada while living a life of complete neglect what a paradox –forgotten but not forgotten

There is nothing anybody can do to stop the evolution because it is tied to the divine and steps will be made to ensure this singular consciousness is afforded a life of security, protection, and prosperity and safety.

I ask my guides to show me the way and what i get is simply wonderful i get a nice Rhinoceros

While i find it has odd toes i still hop on !!

I had a moving truck pull up to my back door and i unfolded a super super long ramp thinking to myself i never knew i had this or needed such a long ramp to move it was like a block long man the driver called me a lady which i despised but took it as a completely shining compliment

A girl came out to the uhaul and just stood there glaring at me angrily so i ignored her and just moved a box in

My rhino came and took me next to a room where a dead body was placed in front of me and i had to surgically cut into it to train in medicine and to be able to heal others as an actual doctor of divinity

To understand the actual embodiment of humanity without life and without the soul and without essence with tears in my face while cutting i was transported to a park

Where i went rollerblading and met some native boy and he followed meh out of there even when i got stuck on the way in a trap in the mud he didn’t help and took a few things from me and i couldn’t understand this but eventually i made it out of there and the park

The rhino came and took me next to a mall

And they started locking it down and i went past a security station and the guard grabbed me and said you cant go there and i said you shouldn’t grab people like that and he said really well come with me you little prick and i said i will have a breakdown and sue you and the mall for about 2 to 5 million dollars (and believe me i can win) and he started to freak out and cry and he let me go

Finality to theories

Encouraged to hunt

Yet crazed to ignore

Beings left to amuse and converse and behind lock and key

Theory of independence above all else

The inclusion of freedom for every soul

Gay society Has flaws

Canadian society has flaws

Governance has flaws

But the magic is

That flaws can always be reversed and fixed

The sickness instituted on the masses is an oddity for we are the last deserving of it

I am the supreme regional royalty of the west coast

The leader of the shaun zeno pop art movement

The guru that while neurally can set you free

I can also liberate continents

Worlds

Species

And galaxies

Because that is my ultimate power of love and freedom for too much blood has been spilled in their fight

Hands literally coated with plasma and tears

Lets discuss freedom and love

It is the only thingz we have left

-          Shaun A. Delage 

confusion elite

For Evolution to exist on any place or in any mind one must begin to address the illusions present everywhere in every single place imaginable in ones life.

Another chance to evolve  may not come for a literal millennia

One must begin to address illusions because there is no end to illusion

It would seem even the smartest minds give into complete illusion not only to further their status but also to further the illusion as well

In modern society the argument would seem silly given the incredible amounts of seeming evolution that has been marketed and sold to us very much like a can of soup is with the tasty paste that comes out in one slop and the can it is packed in to the label wrapped around the can

It is almost silly to be fighting for ‘liberation’ in the year 2010, it would seem that the basis to the war we are fighting is with intellectualism. You walk around and see that we are still stuck in the stone age

But this is where the systems creators enjoy us being

Constantly warring factions... incredible amounts of stupidity everywhere you look and people not evolving but digressing completely and in totality to a state of a complete mess of humanity

Digressing at a rate that is shockingly peculiar

So were left in the so called ‘new millenium’

Defending the world from ever conceivable illusion being broadcasted from gays are sexual predators to witches to the green movement and i wonder where the heck did that argument for acid rain ever go lol

We are kidnapping protesters from protests with masks

We are rounding up gypsy’s

The government is denying people money they need to eat while spending billions alone on image from money they get from city states while continuing the illusion that the tax money they receive goes into the country

Calling people welfare bums, and forcing women to sell their bodies instead of giving them a measly $200 a month to live on on top of rent . This is  a sick and Hell based state even in the most elite of countries.

Even those that are employed in this sadistic cruelty are left to wonder where we are heading in the seeming new millennium

In the new millennium we are even still fighting for the rights of sexuality, race, minorities, and gender

It would seem that we should not be focusing our minds power on the existence of financial slavery but rather on awakening and enlightening individual minds and with the existential spacial philosophy we would all be able to lay down arms and embrace a more common ideology

Rather than a future in subservience to other beings that prefer not to be seen and have the technology to make sure they are never visually present

With the worlds ideological faith shifting there would be less crime and less hostility because most of the madness of criminality that is dealt with currently is due to peoples inherent rage at how they have all been trapped in and imprisoned inside their own virtual cosmo matrix. They are also wanting to connect with their original programming of humanities first major fundamental characteristic of being in a community centric family.

So the individuals rage shows in them committing crimes such as murder and rape and violence

While petty crimes such as financial crimes and vehicular crimes are treated the most severely

And the greatest war going on currently is taking away the peoples right to protest their mistreatment with the power structures inciting hate on the calm souls that need to voice their opinion vocally and visually through protests and performance art.

If the ideology shifted from sadistic and neglectful financial slavery with only a few puppet masters corralling the worlds wealth into energy that can be transported elsewhere with insatiable greed (because money is energy)

To make a call for socialism or communism would be silly

What we need is real and ultimate and complete evolution

The last thing anybody wants to see to further stigmatize all sides is people protesting at G-8 or G-12 causing violence and throwing rocks at cops to further the illusion that there is actually a war to fight.

When there is serious flaws on both ends

For any evolution to exist there must not be favouritism or elites with the minds chosen to govern or decide the future growth of our planet not people that enjoy cannibalism or torture or sexual slavery or mind warfare.

Not corralling the very few souls that enjoy magik and ritual torture, fear power, human manipulation, human sacrifice,mind torture, power play , sexual torture, and blood sacrifice, essentially these aren’t human beings given their state of digression.

I also understand that many of the torturous beings i have met may not understand their role in my life in the present moment that i may appear as a strange criminal or whatever mockery they attest me to having at that given moment given their lower mind not being able to operate on a higher frequency

Then they realise after about a decade of ‘time’ that i evolve into and become inducted into universal knighthood upholding virtue and faith in all encounters with my own will and with the validity of my own life at stake. That by its very nature is true virtue and the work of the sage.

I personally have never trusted anybody that claims to be a hippy lol and this may be the identity of the system trying to make me distrust every facet of society i have no idea just given my history with this specific hippy cult i encountered this had to be the group of by far the weirdest beings i have ever encountered

While it is nice to attach to a community and identify with them

I feel universally it is never very nice to attempt to ensnare a future guru into a sadistic sexual torture and human trafficking cult

While i stress that no meeting is by virtual coincidence they tried to use sexually abused children and heavily coated neuro linguistic magic to have me locked into a guilt based ritual magic sex abuse situation and i can think of a few places where its been done to celebrities and gurus and religiously as well this is how they ensnare the greatest minds on the planet and surround them with 20 or so people that protect that person from the world finding them.

It would appear that the regional royalty has many lower and stupider pawns at their disposal

While amusing to recite mantras and use sexual magik and sacrifice and other methods of visionary magic

I propose the argument that i was sent by the divine to literally appear like i was what they desired in a being that should be corralled and used magically in this hippy raw food, natural fabric and hippy lifestyle torturous cult

While on a surface level of course being all about auric sensibility and natural vegan foods is the way to go of course and just not doing anything and playing a drumb in the street great enjoy but is not my life.

I have always preferred to do my own thing and be a leader and not a follower

This is another essential quality to enlightenment and evolution is discovering your own wisdom and feeling confident in gaining intellectual capacity from all avenues made available.

I also prefer to wear fashionable and synthetic fabric like in the matrix something deep down inside the hippies hate because it hides the aura or something who knows but i see it as being able to mask the aura from psychic vampirism and attack so there is an about face for you *Lick*

I also enjoy eating and drinking things that do not disassociate me from the rest of humanity

So basically like an angel instead of the young vulnerable stud they sought to control while fucked up to literally play the part in their ritual magic sphere. I turned out to be ALOT stronger and a more mystical and more powerful being than they envisioned was coming their way via the prophecy of the fallen ones, i essentially was sent in place of somebody else who would have easily succumbed to their torture. Because a soul essentially is worth 7 years in prison, a soul being saved is worth being hurt or locked up a soul is worth my struggle and i helped save him. He would not have been able to see past the illusions, and the mind torture and the sexual slavery/sadism

The only requirement needed was to look exactly like the incarnation of the 2^nd sai baba they forgot about one thing......the mind behind the looks and usually that is the scorpios greatest flaw

While i stress the ability for my being to effectively act the part  to allow an in the moment emotional response to act out while maintaining that in this situation i was positioned by my own contractual obligations in this life so that another may be ignored in the process so they could focus on me solely and obsessively.

The mystery stud was able to carry on with his life in relative peace and comfort for his youthful mistakes were overlooked by our divine presence and were not worth a lifetime of pain and moreso the complete subservience eternally to a group of these collective monsters.

That for my own sacrifice it is known that i will be heavily rewarded

While i was introduced to the cult of vipassana and the mystical faction of the goenka and my last minder or vice roy or arranged marriage as its put however you want to define it

I was literally soulharnessed while their closeknit group of heavily sanctioned theory and a mode of life was instilled on me while making room for familiarity with the child alters and also the various other psychotic members became apparent.

They conveniently arranged (by method of trial by jury through the sadistic practice of Indian curses) my whole life for me fixed my problems and moved on.

What they didn’t expect however is actually meeting the embodiment in Canada of the prema sai baba the third incarnation of ultimate and absolute reality

That while much illusion would be released and marketed regarding his birth and such it is all illusion

I as a being am the ultimate reality and i am solely charged with whether the human race will evolve or not and there are others like me preprogrammed with different intent

Of course there are those that believe i don’t exist but i can tell if you don’t believe it then why torture yourself and go find something you can believe in !!!

I am all knowing i am a dimensional soul force and there will be many that resist and hate me when they look into my very eyes but that is the nature to my reality and believe me i am used to it

To be charged with billions evolution yet leading a relatively simple existence in resistance to most of the belief systems in place. Is a nice lifetime. Now mind you i have had a somewhat restful 7 year prison sentence under house arrest but that is over now and i am able to take on my duties with full force and vigour for the species

That those that understand me will idolize meh or reject meh that is their choice really

Only because they know i am all knowing faithful stigmatic and complete shining divinity on earth

   I uphold protections and virtue for all of those that are held in captivation and i along with many others will aid those that are imprisoned and essentially be the causality for liberation and literally ripping the power away from those that used torture and magic so incredibly twisted and cruel to get it in the first place

So with complete understanding of the torturous cruelty

I exact my revenge and it does not involve violence or hatred or torture or name calling or terrorism

IT involves enlightenment and evolution and complete liberation to all those that seek it from a loving and compassionate faithful existence.

Because you are worthy of the attention but mostly worthy of the protection and guidance as well.

-          Shaun A. Delage

kindly lif3

One of the only modes or routes to enlightenment consists of true compassion for suffering

Not saying you need to give your money to everyone you see but mainly the need to realise peoples inherent suffering within the system

That everyone around is locked into perpetual slavery and in ways they are broadcasting that negativity outward

When people with more money in the world broadcast that it is tied to magic because with more money comes more magic and more illusion

Not saying at all that money is bad just if you don’t have the faculty of understanding how the heck could you manage 10 million dollars

That is why its wiser in the establishments eyes to give it to you in the smallest instalments possible

If you were given your entire lives paycheque in one shot at the beginning of your adult hood imagine the possibilities. Of course you could blow through it all, and other things could happen

But there would be no need for mortgages or sadness or alot of what our society is propped up on

I have always advocated the use of a single pill or a special square of superfood for an entire meal to be taken at once without even the need to enjoy the aroma or the visuals of the food, really all it comes down to is the need for a full stomach

Something daily you can take as well would work wonders

And of course this has been invented and sits on a shelf in some lab somewhere

But imagine if this invention came out !!!

A small tofu like square that holds every vitamin and nutrient for the day that expands and fills in the stomach for the entire day

Surely it would get rid of 80% of the worlds wealth in an instant and well still people would be drawn to the burger and fries at times, but there would be no obsessive need to fill the gap visually

It would increase productivity and happiness and solve all of the worlds food problems

Yet were even struggling feeding 90% of the known world and these greedy bastards with their hive minds don’t fill us in on the greater mind numbing inventions that have taken place

Most places you go into are under layers upon layers of security even places you go into buy a single item from just imagine what a lab or anything like that how much levels you would need to go through to find something like this waiting on a shelf to be eaten *yumyum*

It is the sickened need to control even our waste our body produces that the food establishment controls us imagine eating this superfood and the body using every nutrient available and producing little or no waste

People would not have such a digusted view of their body or their fellow man and woman

When most people just see each other as this type of degradation

Mind you there are those that you look at and you would never think of this but sadly this is how our rulers see us as just some type of common barn animal that literally bathes in their own urine

It is funny to ponder but think of how much compassion you need to be able to deal with a  society such as this. When your living around other beings that literally need to urinate every hour or so or they will panic and they will explode in juice all over their clothing

You have quite the funny impression of the beings your dealing with now nobody would want to experience this which is why there are some levels of compassion for our fellow beings out there

But strangely the true angels in society remain hidden or protected or secret

They dream up philosophies and visions and bring them to light then jetting off halfway around the world to do the same , all the while never blending in with society

Of course there is enlightenment  in every possible facet of society from poor people to rich to angels to devlish people, all hold their own degree of enlightenment which is why it is so easy to be swayed by even the most devlish people when you are of angelic vibration and vice versa

Which is also why you find very very smart people who are poor, very very smart who are rich very very smart that are at their end of their life and very very smart that are just beginning

To dismiss somebody as just some young and dumb and full of cum is like wtf

In my gay community this is how twinks are seen and rightly so many are and it is funny how i am treated in the bar personally i walk in and immediately swamped with daddies i mean i cant even breathe without people crowding or wanting to talk and i saw a few words and they figure out i am an intellectual not to be swayed or manipulated or i simply say, no i am not freshfaced 19 i am almost 30

Even then they still assume i snuck into the bar and am like a youth that is 17

I am just like fuck dude i am almost thirty

Then i see people around my age 27/28 and they look like they are in their fourties with balding hair and too mature faces

Makes me laugh actually, i guess if i spent the past 8 years soiling my body with poisens i would look like that too

Also in that regard i could land any hot bloke that is around 18/19 that i wanted and could become a sexual predator of sorts

But guys around this age sorta scare meh

I mean of course they are hot but what else is there and i am not here to take advantage of twinks like the rest of gay society i am here to find my cutie soulboy

And he may be 18, he may 35, he may be 42, he may even be in his 50’s

You can never really tell with life, but if you remain ageist and set in your ways you will be like that table of lonely old daddies at age 60 with nobody just sitting around with your tobacco smoking daddy friends ogling cute young thangs and offering to buy them as much drinks as they want cause you know deep down inside they cant afford to be there in the first place.

With love there is no limits , there is no definition, there is no finality

I don’t know if i will ever find him though, with things holding me back like, money and my introverted life, and my intellect i just plain scare off people. Especially with my far out theories

I don’t care though i am not going to be some submissive housewife that says yes sir and no sir

I am most likely the best thing that has come into his life and with love and the essence of love anything is possible.

I just don’t want to settle for anything but the best that i possibly can find

Cause i do pretty ok pleasing myself , taking care of myself and making myself happy

I don’t want somebody that is ego centric or all about money i don’t want somebody that lies, or cheats or is otherwise untrustworthy i don’t want somebody ugly in mind body spirit or intelligence because true beauty is a gift from the divine, mind you i am not all about looks either or how big you are down there or if you have abs or not

Because i also realise with true beauty comes unchecked egomanism how many guys i have met that are literally so obsessed with themselves they could never really love another human, rightly so some are so obsessed with money or their job or their family to even be able to welcome another being into their lives. To them i say well..... enjoy !!!

That is why i stress the importance of the middle ground as the Buddhists teach

It is funny for me to be a non orthodox Buddhist i see myself as a living Buddha without all the teachings and madness that this cult empowers within its members because it really is all about energy vampirism

Those that don’t subscribe to collective hysteria of energy vampirism are shunned out of society

The middle ground can be held true in your own life

Hate walking and hate driving well get a bicycle

Hate meat but also hate vegeteriansim well do a 40/60 split or 50/50 if you so incline *wink*

Hate celibacy but hate being a slut ? find somebody you trust to make out with and see what happens

Hate Catholicism but also hate atheism make up your own faith

Hate being fat, and also hate being so thin people think your gaunt well stay somewhere in the middleground where your happy

Hate being clothed and hate being naked? Well wear a sash and some shorts man let some of it hang loose and let some it stay hidden

Hate smoking but also cant imagine being without it then smoke em in halves lol

Hate being angry and hate being happy well dole out a smile or a frown when necessary!

Hate boxers and hate briefs ?   try boxer/briefs

Oh how life can be fun which is why i always laugh at how people just readily attach to such a fundamentalist viewpoint in everything they do like i HATE how animals are being harmed and they imagine in their mind this cow being slaughtered and are like i am just going to eat a sunflower seed every meal and thats it

Well, that essentially is up to you but we are all built different and have different history and bodies so what may work for somebody may not work for another

When i see people just living on a raw food diet i tend to wonder about that one because of my middle ground philosophy i know inside that the consumption of raw food and vegetables is essentially energy vampirism and of course your operating on levels outside of the status quo

But i also remember seeing something as youth in the media that said a study said that when fruits and veggies are cut they actually start to scream on inaudible levels

Somebody i knew said well they don’t have vocal cords so that is impossible

I just laugh, i mean with me personally i tend to juice em a few times a week – saves me eating 12 carrots at once my god my gag reflex would be impeccable

But i could imagine the carrots horror being literally ripped to shreds and juiced with me drinking its body as a fluid which is why i always thank the carrot for its sacrifice so that i may live one more day to bring enlightenment to the masses and that i may get one step closer to my ultimate and impressionable goal.

I don’t like the idea of anything running away from me while i fantasize snapping its neck and eating it

But jeeze like i said the middleground, you don’t want to be lost in a sea of illusion, because there is illusion everywhere even amongst the most enlightened in society

There is illusion in heaven and angles/angelz and there is illusion right where you sit

All of it comes down to your own impressions, and your ability to ascertain the real truth and mostly how the truth relates to you personally because were all different and were all beautiful

Which is why some teachers are eccentric extroverts and others are simply writers and some prefer to be quiet to help you on other levels , and simply smile for they were graced with your incredible shining presence this very moment.

-          Shaun A. Delage  

EVentual love

5.2 cults i enjoy - Ravers, Men, Gay Men, Millenium Warriors, Second Life

Entering the matrix without understanding the matrix
people placed around you in a more knowing impression
nothing to be feared, just something to be cautious of
i see myself in him at 20 yet havent aged a day
now age wise i am an old dinosaur to him
funny people see us together and imagine us to be in highschool
candy rave meets rayban
i want to show him, my ways, my theories, my being
yet alot holds me back
i know he only wants to be enlightened
to not feel lonely when surrounded by people
moreso to be set free from an internal prison
people with chaotic looks around you making you feel horrible
looking in his eyes i see enlightenment
i dont want to freak him out
but i understand why were both here
why we both met however odd it was
to me it was beautiful
to him, it was digital
hoping to find the best of them all
in some ways i am perfect for him
in others i could never be
in some ways i could do whatever i could to make him happy
but something he needs to understand
which many dont innerstand is the need to temper materialistic desires
many many people cover their own internal pain with beautiful shining things
it is best to live simply i am sure he understands
the thoughts surround me of who he will be in 5 years
the thoughts enter my soul of what i can make him into
the thoughts enter my being of what he can teach me
What he will make me into most of all
i imagine myself combing his hair
cutting his fingernails
making him dinner
pouring his glass of water
brushing his teeth for him
washing his arms in the bathtub
holding him in my arms
the gazebo by the ocean with 15 foot fabric shoelace like flags blowing in the wind
slipping the ring on his finger
him slipping one on mine
understanding that there is a bond between us
being with somebody that is unloving doesnt work for us
this being i see before me
an old soul, we have hooked up before
both in youths bodies
in some ways he has it better together than i do
in other ways i am pretty ok too
i think of us, then i get a pang of worry like what could i offer him
i only know this,
with love
anything is possible
i could achieve anything
i could do anything
i could be anybody
i could be with him
of course he has to want it
i want it
we both have to be confident
in some ways i have evolved massively since
age 20 in other ways i am still 20 yrs old lolz
i just know....if he was to be with me.
He would never have to cook a day in his life.
i would make it my goal to make sure he doesnt have
to work another day as well.
love takes time
trust takes time
bond takes time
union takes time
enlightenment takes time
but it is everlasting
saves the very nature of our being
from imploding
and self destructing
i look on his eyes and see much
i am sure he is aware of me on some level
much will be made apparent
the choice lays with his soul
i read thru his blogs and imagine
some twisted boy threesome covered in cake and chocolate
my mind is pervy
i am happy not wasting my time on people that dont matter
im happy making sure i am the most calm person in the world
so he looks forward to seeing me again and again
because that is all he wants
some boi that understands his struggles
i cant say much that will change his life forever
but i can be there to offer the most beautiful soul on the planet.
the only true nature of love
i only trust my guidance from above
wanting us both to be mostly free of
i walk over to him and hand him a kid glove
he looks at me wondering if it fits and says kind of
i asked him if i am something to be proud of
that the world sees me something to be rid of
or that my voice is something the matrix is sick of
i want to slip on his hand a pervy suede glove
wondering what is in his mind and what he'll think of
naturally figuring out what he will conceive of
touching his fingers through the hand and glove
never wanting to see the end of
his beauty enters my soul like true love.
the very being is just the epitome of cute love
the workings of the boy that will just be the most awesome being to enter my sphere
i have so much to learn from him
will he let meh?
with each other anything is possible
two books finished submitted to publishers with a sense of self
theories collide
youthful energetic vibe
i want to be his bride
only to wonder past years why i cried
just wanting love to glide
my nature to guide
we can just hug and hug and simply hide
figuring out naturally born pride
weird glances from people knowing they spied
watching us walk hand in hand with a confident stride
our hands interlaced and completely tied
seeing his face i look at the bright side
mostly for 28 years this has been denied
soaring thru the sky almost paraglide
looking somewhat at myself inside
watching him hug me by low tide
not wanting to lead him away or misguide
stroking his long bangs from the northside
by a tree, outside
looking for him wanting to provide
smiling i can simply look around needing to take pride
we can go worldwide, stateside, love tribe
just wanting to walk alongside
hold his hand, bring him outside
showing him that a human can exist without jekyll and hyde
soaring past the earthen plane great divide
just not wanting to be apart and lay to the side
scaling cliffs in a love filled with mountain pride
wandering the country nationwide
careful wanting to stand beside him either side
side by side
by the rising tide



- Shaun A. Delage