caterwaul tonic

When your living in a culture of subservience ....the fear based systems will institute levels of governance over your being ....and that is to really subliminate the ideology of subservience in individual minds .....where your meant to indoctrinate yourself into slavery, consumerism, materialism

Nobody wants to address the fact that it is the systems over us that needz to be looked at and analyzed and objectified in totality... and i have always been an advocate that they should be replaced with a new level of enlightenment be it futurist or a mental human spiritual quotient that would make life fair for everyone

Mind you living in society as is, a birth is glorious event but to the elites this is something to be controlled and they do this with various realms with our food and medicine and the keys to death traps (cars) this is their way of really controlling the population through their own means

I have never opposed a world government or anything like that which places me in a paradoxical position being in the conspiracy circle

I have never opposed a government that gives you freedom to associate freedom, of religion, rights of the person, rights of the individual and if its run by a faculty of some of the freest countries on the planet. When your stuck in an individual country and the country places its will over the individual and place places restrictions and laws over the natural progression of the individual then what difference would this bring in the grand scheme of things in comparison to the world government.

This is the future of humanity, is the world government and the world police and if its run by groups of the most seeming free nations on earth like Canada USA and Europe etc

What is the problem ?

I mean i would rather have a world government over an Islamic or communist dictatorship anyday

To say i cant kiss another man in public lol

If the world government itself, empowered me as a human being and empowered my choices as a sovereign entity then there is no issue.

The enlightenment itself in relation to the individual would take effect no matter what dictatorship we had over us

And here we just had 10 years with a conservative government and i would take a  world government anyday over that....... they sure don’t speak for the majority

We need enlightened beings in every facet of society but that is not what they are hired for, they are generally hired for their more psychotic qualities of slavery

For enlightenment to occur you would need to devote your choices to enlightened choices and keeping your enlightenment and choices as pure as possible and keeping your path clear of any obstacles and as simple as possible

And this can be done with alot of mindpower and you can in a sense devote your energy to clearing away your path in the future and welcoming things like happiness, compassion, devotion, love, and simplicity in your life.

May you only wish for happiness, prosperity, and ascension

And most of my blogs are confusing to some people i tend to think that i am in an altered state perpetually, mind you i try not to write a blog under the influence of marijuana or wine or whatever but sometimes that is a wise option for revealing in the moment prophecies. This is why you see the church just remain blank for a week at a time, is because real life gets to me.... and there is no way to articulate it and there may be beings left behind that don’t understand the concepts mind you there are some that read through a few postings and get turned off cause of grammar, essentially not elite enough lol

So thats not for me to worry about, my worry is articulating the information appropriately and those beings that understand the concepts and are able to move on. My worry is about coming into contact with people that enjoy reading what i have to say

I have a core group following and a few others that are mystery followers and i have some disciples which i enjoy ...and a  co reverend, and sadly enough the more evil elements with working with the public.

In no way do i want the church to expand, i am quite happy with one disciple

I don’t want to garner any money from it, so more of a post modern artistic expression or evolution for me it is helping me to inspire intellectual growth and thought in a few people and myself, I have also fashioned a novel out of the concepts and people are trying to shut me down through intimidation etc but that is where universalism takes over any earthbound human being stuck within the gravitational forces of earth so i am really able to look past all the negativity of some of the more negative disciples of the church i only ask why they don’t move on and take their energy elsewhere

My words will not be received by the populace in entirety and i can only get the words out there and have the people that want to hear the words and ignore the rest and i have this argument

I don’t mind the idea of a world government or world faith or world court as long as it doesn’t leave anybody behind and doesn’t inflict harm on others and as long as there is justice able to be served in case anything goes wrong with the idealism

So there should be safety nets in place

We address illusions here so when you have people in conspiracy circles hawking the idea of microchipped people and world government

And they regurgitate this line and code at random will

What is there to fear

Like you will have any choice if there is a microchip or world government

There is no choice that is not administered on behalf of super entities on the insects that scurry on the earth so what have you got to fear and what have you got to lose.

You cannot walk up to a building and tap at it away with a spoon expecting it to fall to pieces at your feet. You have to find your niche in society and even if you are apart of the conspiratorial circuit and you enjoy a good conspiracy and figuring things out on your own and you cant let these things shape your beliefs and dictate your choices

You have to garner your info from as many information sources as possible, be it enlightened be it hell based , confusing, media, hell based, media , friends , family etc

Your left with a world where your not an enemy your a friend of the world.

If the world should dictate world policy to you, you have your shining self to move on with each choice, because you know your right and no government or institution can place any hold over you.

Its the illusion that you don’t matter that you don’t exist that you don’t belong it is kind of ironic because this society wouldn’t have been created without the actual methodology of your character being factored into various realms of existence.

Just like 2012 serves as an ideological representation of cultural identity for our youth. Without it, they would revolt.

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I ask my guides to show me the way and what i get is a nice surprise i get a  nice baboon

It took me riding around with a kid who stole a bike from people in a field and i biked home and he biked with me, although the people never ran after him they just let him take the bike. This went on for about 4 hours dreamtime we just biked around and we would forget where our bikes are

Next the baboon took me to a wall There was some faces and blood coming from the eyes and this was considered art  the flesh was stretched over pieces of wood making it appear that the faces were full of life

Next Omnidirectional satellite imagery  was watching me i arrived in a strange city and was wandering and came across a skool or gallery and first i came across an old Chinese restaurant and i got a job with a big corporation – they said i was hired- i wandered the city i came across a gallery or a school and they were unpacking stuff and they got a box full of donations and they said i should photograph or volunteer and i said sorry are you an artist or do you like art and i was like yeah i love art i am an artist i make perpetual male art and she said what is it and i said the guy has graffiti and smiley faces and stuff

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Catatonic

But catatronic

Wanting to be a cat

Of course not finding cat like beauty in the world

I am only left to caterwaul in my mind

And mind you the caterwaul is high pitched

And nobody

Nobody can stop the insanity of the shrieking

-          Shaun A. Delage

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Passing thoughts and fade away the last few days  i mean i think people find that people with schizophrenia are amazing people to observe lol

Well i have mulled it over regarding vipassana and my upcoming trip to another city is looming and i have decided to put that part of me to rest for the time being since being detached from the matrix is one of my greatest fears

I find the matrix itself to be somewhat limited within the confines of natural thought and when you have a sub processer file system in your brain you tend to lose directives at times

It is funny because i see people all out in public and they are depressed i mean fucked up depressed and this is about 90% of the people i see. I am able to have a blissful look in my eyes and smile at EVERYthing that makes me want to smile. And people may assume i am on drugs while smiling but i say whatever man. I wonder what is stopping most of us from being on perpetual xtacy and this is simply slavery and rules imposed by beings that take on paradoxically opposing views to your very nature. These clashing of souls are in occurance everywhere in public and familiarity. There is never any ambiance.

There are two reasons for this. Many of the people out there belong to the daanite tribe and this tribe imposes rules on others and restrictions and abuse of the most methodical kind. These types are known as abusive fathers and friends and people you read about that just blow up and implode at times.

Some of this abuse can go on for a literal decade and i know some of the churchs stalkers are apart of this hopeless group of lower realm beings. I just wanted to say publically that no death threats nor any stalkers or any abuse is not going to shut down this site nor stop the enlightenment from being fostered in people that need a kindred soul to help advocate for them if need be.

An enlightened life. What is it, mine is deffo enlightened. Complex. But i wish it was better for me in some ways and why not say it but for most people they live in a paradox of good and evil and love and hate and suffering and orgasmic bliss so we never really know where to turn for answers so we seek out the answers in complete escapes such as television and intoxicants

And i will always be addicted to stuff like this as long as i am alive because of the release associated with certain shows and with stuff like wine and 4:20 etc

I have always held fast to not do what others do.

My police complaints commission interview was going to take place but i sense something with the investigator so i am not going to pursue that further.

My complaint to my treatment has been received and responded to and logged as per (history) and my life that i should so speak up against one exalted psychiatrist.

i am considering approaching an art agent at this point for both my male art and my tinkertots which was derived from various alterations of pixels in fonts like wingdings but not that simple

I think this is going to be a pleasant year lol 

V.I.P.

I have been struggling to come to terms with a decision i have made recently and yet the world around me seems to be making the choice for me.

I applied to be a long term server at Vipassana meditation center in the middle of nowhere in the middle of british Columbia

I have been to two courses that last in excess of ten days each

I have deepened my meditation practice to include at least one meditation per day sometimes quite a few. While i have hijacked the meditation to use it for building wealth i don’t know maybe it will pay off one day maybe not.

I have been pondering my reckless search for wealth and it is funny to me because my enlightenment may rest with a life without the use of money

Mind you of course i don’t want to isolate myself in the forest and swear of the world

But the argument goes much deeper than that in my spirit and my soul

I guess this would be a kindergarden before becoming a Buddhist monk but something i have been pondering is what if my purpose is to simply be a long term server, in which i get to keep my hair, keep handling money. I can have some time off when needed and well i get money flowing in every month for nothing so i am in a pretty fortunate position to take something like this on.

It means i would lose alot though. To gain so much more enlightenment seems worth it.

My home life can be challenging.

I know the universe can sense my frustration in a sense and if things don’t work out with vipassana at least i know i can go there in the future.

This is a troubling time for me, emotionally because i have taken on the realm of a virtual long distance and very loving relationship.

Plus i have my virtual business to watch out for etc

So yes troubling time

I like to see how the universe makes this one fold out for me, because i am unable to make the right choice myself.

I guess in a way i have made the choice already

Just coming to terms with letting go is troubling

I mean what a profound experience to be able to go through something like this in the west.

So i will see if my application is accepted and go from there.

I was pondering my fortunate karma for being shown vipassana meditation at around age 20 and i actually stumbled on a discourse given by the spiritual leader of vipassana meditation while on a walk in Vancouver BC

To leave the home life to serve meditators seems stressful

But this is a choice i must make in my life because i am not around people of my own kind. I am not around other meditators, I am not around people that have common purpose or intellectualism. I just feel somewhat anxious at this point given my hermetic role in society. On one hand i could not imagine myself being in my “life” for 5 more years.

I strive to attain enlightenment and possibly finding that enlightenment being in service to others.

Now mind you my last experience at vipassana was not a glorious one, i actually got into a few altercations with an assistant teacher over a few trivialities. But i was pre diagnosis and pre medication so I have an excuse.

I think i was simply to infantile and juvenile in my meditation to be able to perceive the gift that was given to me, given to me by our creator, our gods and our oversight

Simply so that i may address illusion everywhere and not live in ignorance

Now mind you the setup is rather cult like, and they have affiliations with the lions club and eastern star halls etc so that lead me to list them on my captivation piece along with the argumentative nature of the teacher.

So we have ourselves a little paradox.

If accepted, i would seriously ponder this one. While depressing to leave a virtual life and a virtual husband. If i pondered this decision in totality i would have to make the right decision based on my soul. My path. My future path and my life.