fruit lupe
I’ve been reading quite a bit lately and they say that is
how you become enlightened. I hardly doubt the hypnotic glare of the television
will make people enlightened you tend to go into a catatonic state, and people
say what the heck do I do without a television?
It is funny because I don’t have one these days and spend
time reading books on mobipocket reader which is a scrolling software program
for ebooks, with a site like the resistance library there isn’t a shortage of
information to input.
I see remnants of a police state all around, because we don’t
have people riling in an enlightened state but rather emotionless pawns that
are propped up simply because they have to be doing what they do.
If we were in an enlightened state people would well, look
enlightened, an almost glazed over look in their eyes a bright smile, calm and
relaxed demeanor and focused on a compassionate dialogue
Its almost as if we have been programmed to be cruel
insensitive people that just squirm their way from sale to sale and this is a
funny notion because if you buy one get one free people will enmasse to your
store in droves and push and shove until they get the last one
In more ancient cultures you bargain and say well I will buy
1000 of those nuts if you give me a good deal on them. Only in capitalist
society are we given the absolute and final price for an item and that is it –
no bargaining.
I have no doubts still, that all the electronic voting
systems we have in place hence the mark your vote and they feed it into a
machine apparatus is completely criminal and these systems are what we use in
north America Britain and commonwealth countries
It is almost cruel of the system to throw a liberalized government
and have a few blissful years then a conservative right wing government in your
face for something like 8 years to terrorize the population further
It seems that is all that is running the world in 2012 is
conservative ideology and I tell you that fifty years backwards and who put us
here but a plethora of secret societies that finance multi millionaires into
being voted in, but they also use psychological operations to achieve their
final result with kushy love in commercials with grand daddy prime minister in
a sweater by the fireplace they don’t actually show them doing things like
drinking blood and doing incest, blood oaths, and other things they need to do to get to that
amount of power
In my country it is completely a lost cause until 2015 (Canada)
Then knowing the psychological operations they will be voted
in for another mandate
When things like abortion should be protected, freedoms and
rights and dignities of humans, social services, education and housing, native
rights, gay rights, women’s rights, disabled rights, the freedom to protest, the civil service, the freedom to smoke marijuana until your blue in the face, the freedom to end
your life if you so choose, etc
But it seems these are all being attacked at will by these
conservatives running the entire globe, blame freemasons, blame USA, blame
bilderburg, blame everyone because everyone has a part.
So here we are and we awaken in the matrix in a full slave
state, an apocalypse time, a financial meltdown, chaos, cannibals, propaganda
making us believe people eat each others faces on 420
Frankly it makes me sick being in one of the most liberal
countries in the world yet we have the most insane bible belt ideology running the
country. People in power abuse their power and you never really know until you
have to utilize government services how bad of a mess we are all in
The government hates its citizens yet feeds off our
trillions in taxes
I don’t believe in 2012 much these days I mean what the hell
is one gonna do with 3 months of food then what ? or even a room or a football stadium it is
all bound to run out at some point so if anything does happen well... just
meditate away lol but if it clicks by like y2k you will feel pretty damn sick
after spending 10K on your credit card to finance the endtime dream and there
is so much illusion in the world. I know I go back and forth on this subject
but we are all under some level of neuro hypnosis so my excuse is formidable
Anyways wanted to say thanks to the people that read 16,000
of my posts that is awesome considering each post is approximately 3 pages in
word (48,000 pages read) so thanks and take care blogbuddies
-
Shaun A. Delage
tater tot
The world and its pains, I cant help but ponder Michael
Alig’s release date, sometime in 2016 and the striking similarities between his
murder case and that of Magnotta’s…they both cut somebody to pieces and this is
the desperation of the system around us and its pressures, essentially one
cannot be fully blamed for their actions when most of us are lead around by
unseen forces for sometimes decades at a time or be it with luciferian forces
or whatever …mainly most of us are lead around by ritual, because we have too,
we have families that need us, debts that need to be paid, people to feed, and
nobody wants to be homeless
It is true that the United states has the most poverty for
being the wealthiest nation and by far the most racist and bigoted nation by
far, of course we have things being rumored like a total systemic collapse in
about 5 months and nobody knows what will happen, if there are kind old
thousands years old greys landing to take care of us and nurture us, or if the
kill switch will be hit rendering technology useless or if the time will just
tick by and nada nothing, same old vibe same old sphere
In a way I don’t want to believe in a systemic collapse, but
it would be almost divine if it did happen and we were returned to our ancient
roots, and I wonder about divinity constantly and where was divinity in the
case of these two gay men, or perhaps the young girl that was left to fend for
herself in the rainforest her entire life…Perhaps divinity is an illusion of
sorts or a plethora of illusion instituted by the worlds faiths but I only need
to look at what I type here for example, or the force that keeps me breathing
or my heart beating to understand the true nature of the possibility of god(s)
Or you look around at the material nature of our planet or
the infrastructure and understand that we may be in a luciferian domain, if
there was a god, they would never make us slave endlessly just to survive and
make it. In more ancient cultures doing nothing meant you were living, this
tiring need to be doing something with your life… out here in rural life I am
left alone in peace and just meditate like a monk and maybe that is my purpose
in life…I have accomplished quite a bit in the last few years, enough to last a
lifetime…done 1500 pieces of art – have 334 for sale, wrote two novels, done a
masters degree, became ordained.
It is only in western society that we have the need to judge
others to tiring ends, those that don’t fit the mould and are not propping up
the luciferian ethic in any way are judged quite harshly, and how I feel
sometimes, when a 20 year old has a $10,000 credit limit and I am 30 and don’t
even have a credit card.
This is by choice however, when I paid it off I handed it
back-I was pleased to be rid of it in entirety and people look at me like I am
an elephant for wanting a $500 credit limit. Now since I handed it back nobody
will even grant me that amount in credit so it seems like I am somewhat of an
exile.
I am just thankful that I don’t have to be in prison for my
actions, because the luciferian master had its hold over my life for almost a
decade after some crimes, sex work and a sort of ritual with her majesty but
really living life in freedom without having your freedom taken away brutally
seems to be the only thing going at the moment.
So many are suffering around the world this very moment and
so many beings are trapped here and imprisoned by gravity in this dimension. I
believe strongly in parallel realities given my interdimensional travel and
dream state so I know that the waking world is somewhat of an illusion and the
dreamworld can be construed as somewhat of a reality or vice versa depending on
how you see it.
The world can be pain after pain and most are so hopelessly
dependent on the system to survive they are almost taxed wondering what will
happen in 5 months, here we have older people so dependent on medications, when
they see the sites online devoted to 2012, many want to commit suicide, or the
obese 700 lb person that is frightened because they cant even walk around the
block, or the people so needing employment they are one cheque away from being
on the street, or the countless people so traumatized by the system that they
need to really muster up enough courage to live day by day
It is a rather unkind system that plays tricks on us and
promotes this cruelty in our daily lives, by forcing us to work tiring and
exhausting slavery just to survive while the super rich ride around in 12 car
motorcades, or just simply waving the possibility of a total systemic collapse
in our face has enough people in tears and in fear, just the disregard for
poverty and those that lack motivation, it almost seems like its bound to
happen and bound not to happen so were at an impasse
I can tell you with one of the only Canadian political
manifestos published I may be the first to go, but also may be the first to get
a commodore position in the new world order, because I had guts to name the
people responsible for my trauma state
We have the future were
gearing up for, and nobody can really tell what the future looks like or
holds, it may be a one world government with freedoms, it may be restrictive
policies amidst a utopian paradise, it may be to have you work in a communist
or socialist environment where people are picked up from the homes and driven
to work duty but maybe that is what we need
Part of me being so accepting with the future is basically
my dependence on alternative media for a well founded viewpoint of the world.
David Icke and Alex Jones, illuminatimatrix are perhaps some of the most racist
and homophobic sites I have encountered and this troubles me, because if they
are the enlightenment that they broadcast- being able to pronounce the queen a
reptoid or reptis or being able to bullhorn the sauris bilderburgers then why
cant they have the guts to accept shining sexuality as a gift from the divine,
no matter where you look straight people hate gay people and vice versa and
this has been going on since the last reset
They will never eradicate sexuality because even animals are
gay and lesbian and bisexual
So for some beings to openly preach enlightenment and not
even hold enlightenment in their souls is a paradox. Truth is most people
without power don’t hate each other, they accept their neighbours and loved
ones as just living it out with them side by side in the fight
It must be terrifying to be living in this time, and I know
because I am here, the astral world is rife with horrors and there are beings
so dark and disgusting that is where they rest torturing us while we sleep and
we have literally no control over it, depending if you’re on the god of dreams
good side or bad, it seems like I have literally proven myself as an astral
warrior in thousands of scenarios laid out before my brain while I sleep yet
somehow I cant get it right, I am in line with being an astral thief still, and
I have not been able to eradicate this side of me, which makes me think that I
have been hardwired to be in my current existence as is, as a karmically
unfortunate being that has killed a whole village in my roman or greek time
life.
I am changing my life for the better and am happy that I am
not able to carry pain or sickness from the astral nature, but in a way when
you dive into a pool of moss and mildew and you wake up almost heaving it has
transferred itself into your reality
I am changing my being for the better and this divine nature
has inspired me because it is very shy and never wants to be seen, but it is in
forms of sexuality or a good meal, or some kindness, or a smile somebody gives
you. The satanist forces want to be noticed and are in everywhere you can
possibly imagine in egotist pursuit. I am not here to play a game so to speak
but to keep surviving until the very end, when that will be in 2070 when I pass
away or in 2012 from nuclear radiation or 2012 or whatever that is not up to me
to decide or perhaps I did choose when I depart, I may never know the answers
or it may never be comprehensible until that day when I take my last breath but
until then I am going to stay on divinity’s side as an ordained minister of god
and divine creativity, the power that keeps you seeing, breathing, thinking and
being creative. For what else is there? Evil? I think not, !!
-
An enlightened beings purpose is to help others
that are in bondage and suffering and to also give energy and tools to
alleviate suffering rather than putting the person down more paths of
suffering.
-
Shaun A. Delage
CaKe WaLk
“Making it” or so to speak in such a time is endearing to
say the least but troublesome for a fair number of people… many just hopelessly
plug the pyramid scheme along which is fine but others with the qualities
leadership currently despises is having a difficult time nevertheless
In an all out fascist Masonic quasi political dictatorship
rife with corruption and criminality…agriculture that is almost non existent, Hollywood
that is overflowing with sellout souls, art galleries that aren’t buying,
restaurants that are struggling to keep their tables at even half capacity,
unseen and hidden world war 3 soon to encapsulate the entire globe, 2012 on the
horizon, schools that seem like prison camps, music that is just programming
you, movies that are baseless formless and void of any real entertainment,
structured financial meltdown, monarch sciences operating full on, lower beings
being harnessed enmasse into our realm, a prison planet that is guarded by a
celestial spider web, leaders and VIPS engaging in things like murder and
cannibalism who would want to really become something in this state of affairs
I have always advocated for a residual income over employment
and to not do what everyone else is doing, but so many are struggling to hold
onto their jobs and their income, my advice may not resonate
Some, cannot even fathom a residual income, nor can they
devote a ten year long quest to writing their first novel…it seems when you
start on your quest the system and its inhabitants try their best to stop you
early on…not like I am left with any choice in my own personal quest…writing
novels and doing art seems better than staring at bugs or a wall all night lol
Me, I am struggling to define myself artistically and this I
find a challenge in such a litigious nazi like brethren look out for brethren
society…seems the dictatorship doesn’t even have to rule the masses, we have
grown adept at policing each other’s actions to the point of nausea
I have discovered this in my art, which I admit are images
taken from the net and believed to be public domain since there is no watermark
or anything and I alter them more than 30% and use only about 10% of the image
and create art with it- it seems we have exhausted all avenues of art to tiring
ends
When somebody comes along and trailblazes I am met with
hostility everywhere I go about it and I don’t care, it is funny when somebody
says “according to the terms of service of the site were on you cant upload
that art” I only laugh because I would love to get sued for my art- it is the
publicity I need haha
They don’t understand that collage is an art form and that I
as an aries have invented my very own perpetual rave art movement and that I
challenge the meaning of art…the thing is nobody really knows how I can do my
art and simply debase it as childish cut and paste
My method will remain a secret but art is in the eye of the
beholder not in the status quo, currently I am listed in two newspapers for my
art site Canada wide, another condo owners newspaper is in the works and I am
working with a press release software to come out with an official announcement
of my virtual gallery opening, I think now is the time to do the art and bring
it in the open, when the newspapers aren’t rife with classified after
classified to ponder only about 30 or so and bam there is a raver art link –
perfect!
I am also in the like god knows what edit of my first book
and a creative edit of my 2nd – I have found a way to express myself
and it is a mighty retirement fund, meanwhile I scrape by with a modest monks
pension and I am thinking how fortunate I am to be alive and kicking to witness
this time in our age the time of reawakening, perhaps the time when we put all
the sellouts to death who knows haha but I am not waging a war, I happen to
enjoy the systems we have in place, I just can’t stand sellouts using them for
their own deeds to make themselves richer than beyond imagination while the
rest of us scrape by so some reclusive billionaire could have another million
or so tacked onto his fortune, it doesn’t make sense to me, this system we are
all housed in will never make sense, but the struggle we all go through does.
Not many people have 300 pieces of art they can market on a
website but I do and it is glorious, not that I have much sales but it is fun
to at least try !!
So I guess the point to my discourse is to follow your
dreams even though it may seem like they will go nowhere, you never know where
you will end up, perhaps the same as yesterday or perhaps you could have 2.2
million in publishers royalties in your savings account
At least start your first chapter, invent a new method of
doing art, start your first blog posting, do a video, sing a song, paint a
picture, meditate on fortune or love and at last of all – don’t do what
everyone else is doing, watching, saying, or believing.
Challenge authority and hold it accountable and be shining
YOU
-
Shaun A. Delage
Interdimensional astral travel 4.0
Interdimensional astral travel =
In the middle of the farm with sheep one of the sheep bit of
a kids tongue and there was this other part of the mansion that had these sea
creatures and I got to operate the sound system and some women got super mad at
me, and it was all done by a camera or something then I talked to a guy without
an eye he gave me two joints and he was talking about going on a screen (his
face) a massive complex this party farm
.
I could fly by flapping my arms and jumping off cliffs and
nobody else could going by expansive valleys and ocean front and I would cast
off in a crowd of people and watch them all point to me flying like a rubber
chicken !
.
Saved 4 kids from abuse by their father and took
guardianship over them, it was all done in an opera and told them they would
never have to live a life like that again. The dad punched them right in the
face and I said that is unacceptable so I called 9-11 and contacted the fire
dept and told them I was willing to go to court for the kidz
.
Feasting because I reported the abuse and we went on a tram
and had a feast in every location. It was an awards ceremony of sorts for me
and the kids.
.
Travelled really far and ended up in a small town and met a
family with one kid and the kid was an adult and the whole family was into the
bible and jesus and we went into a big city and tried to pawn 6 or 7 gold items
and two watches didn’t pass the litmus test but a few necklaces did, and we
were off to Toronto with this blonde haired guy.
.
I was chasing after this guy with other worldly powers and I
had a steak knife on me to get him and chased him he was weird had deathly
powers he could strangle people with a switch in his brain and I chased him
thru the mall and he died his hair blue and finally caught him and triple
cuffed him and we were celebrating then he jumped out of the building to his
death.
.
It seemed I could jump into the future while I was in the
future my mom was going through a tough time it seemed like an alternate future
where she had aids. I was in a dingy version
of her apartment and I discovered this piece of copper on me that could alter
reality. I put the copper on a card and it could decorate the house with
anything imaginable wallpaper, cupboards flooring furniture etc and I would
take the copper off the card and it would go back to normal, same ol dingy
I was walking through the future Victoria BC a hundred years
from now and I came across an old factory so I used the copper and blew into a
horses mouth and it came alive and started galloping the factory people were
shocked. I guess the horse died. I walked through this bioethics section and
people were having sex and then I saw this hot boy and said wanna suck me and
he said no I need something bigger and I used the copper and materialized a
body builder with 15 inch x 15 inch and I said is this big enough haha and they
went at it
.
I was at a skool living in portables and shuttled from class
to class people were pretty nice a huge disaster happened somebody was bbq’ing
in the ground and it caused a fire over pride day lol I went to the hospital
and hundreds of people were affected, code orange. I was just cold, so no
injuries.
.
I went to an awesome rave festival in a fancy hotel and I abandoned
a cat for catsitting and I was trying to get to where she was in this old hotel
and I saw a statue and I activated systems designed to protect the hotel
anyways got back to my room and I used somebody elses credit card – the rave
was awesome soother kids, sesame street ravers and total rubber ducky candy
ravers.
.
I made friends with some ravers – and ended up going and
partying at their place and escaped military arrest via special ops on an
island and drove on their atv to their home and the leader kid who was really
friendly with me …I said how am I going to get home, the skytrains are closed
and then the friendly guy said meanly fags can go their own way and I just said
whatever and walked to an open atrium where there was some kids and a lady in a
helicopter and I said hey can I catch a ride with you guys and she said sure
and I shouted as we were taking off I said looks like fags are flying out in a
copter anyways we took off and I noticed a van pull up and Vietnamese men
jumped out and stabbed people with needles containing poison and I had a bunch
of knives on me so I gave them to the copter people and we cut the mean men and
the ravers came to help afterward and we took off in the van for the city
because I was pretty weak.
.
I was at a talk by a young queen elizabeth and I friended
her nephews and we were smoking pot and listening to her give an xmas talk we
took a break walked out to a dock and I almost slipped and we smoked more pot
!!
.
I went to a hotel with a guy and ended up exploring a city
for awhile and went back to the hotel and got the bill for the room and it was
ten times more than I expected and I was quoted 250 a night and had some cash
on me the bill came to 450 a night plus tons of room service so I said I will
pay you 400 now and the rest later and he said that was unacceptable so I went
to my room, cleaned it of all the 420 cause I was in an American dimension and
would have been put in prison and went downstairs and the police arrived and
told them they were trying to stiff me and a guy said oh there is marijuana in the
room and I said SHUT UP AND SIT DOWN they had my bags and stuff in a back room
and they sicked this weird escort girl after me and walked out and flipped them
the bird on the way out.
.
Got kidnapped from a bus ride and was punched 20 times in
the face having trouble walking …I would collapse while walking and was brought
to a cult and hospital ward-I was going to go clean up and somebody had burnt
or something on my ward. There was this figurehead the doctor elite and
everyone else was under the influence of weird drugs in the food and human meat
hot dogs. The food was good but was all drugged and human ick just so bizarre
to be on this ward basically kidnapped and locked on a ward tucked away in the
forest and could see Vancouver in the horizon and I tried to call 9-11 but didn’t
have any luck people were blitzed and indoctrinated they gave us lashings (I
got 30 lashings) one part this guy had a fishing hook on his mouth trying to
hook it into another guys mouth and they showed a movie about how we were all
kidnapped and brought to this ward. There was this restaurant before the bus
then I ended up here – lame
This concludes my dimensional and astral travels for the
month
Shaun A. Delage
ticky deer
The truth about or economic system and the worlds system
lays with one considerable fact, The USA has been bankrupt since 1933 after
which time emergency declarations were made and we have been in a perpetual
state of war, they also used the collateral of our birth certificates and our
beings as collateral for this debt. In just twenty years the federal reserve
system went bankrupt hence the banks willingness to loan out tons of money it didn’t
have and make us pay ten time more on it
The greatest illusion plaguing many millions of people this
very moment is that the banks charge on average of 140% interest on a home
mortgage but lead you to believe that you are only paying 7% or even 21%
So many people are ensnared into a virtual web and it is Satanist
in nature because there may be no saving us. I don’t doubt there is a massive
kill switch in place to virtually shut everything down and return us to our
ancient roots. It is bound to happen at some point
We have almost exhausted our futurist conceptualization to
tiring ends with no results because the secret societies have not allowed us to
progress and keep us in a perpetual state of 1990
People envisioned flying cars and metallic suits by now and
it is funny because you have others that believe this reality is all contrived
as simply electrical impulses and a massive multiplayer online virtual world of
sorts
Most of our lives can be construed as fiction but it is
funny because we live in a fictional reality of sorts – the people with more
wealth and power are actually the ones most indebted to the system and are
trying at all ends to have the system stay in place
Even though divinity and universality are beginning to take
hold in this massive concentration camp we all live in. Much of it has to do
with a few puppeteers like the bush obama crime syndicate and others like the
queen of England whom has been the master puppeteer for seemingly longer than
anybody can remember
Whether we get returned to our more natural ancient roots
and are forced to live off the land without any support whatsoever from the
system or we all go out in one insane nuclear blast is beyond me but I believe
people are positioned in this coming shift in reality for maximum exposure
I strongly believe it is karmic forces that have placed me
in a resort community where I may be forced to live out world war 3 but I am
happy here more happy than anywhere else I have been and I just wonder whether
people locked into systems and matrix’s called cities are even somewhat karmically
fortunate?
For a city boy to suddenly land in the forest and surrounded
by hummingbirds and deer and frogs is a big adjustment to do in 2012 and it was
my fear that lead me right back into the hands of my controllers the first
time, but divine energy had its way and let me move back a 2nd time
and this time it is for good.
I strongly believe many of us will survive, but not people
hopelessly locked into the systems avenues like materialism and vanity to name
a few but also many people seem to be poverty minded or slavery minded so they
will never begin to let go and lock into the natural harmonies of earth and
animals to survive.
There are stories such as interstellar webs and such that
keep us all confined here and space weapons that will forcibly shoot down any
alien willing to come close to attempt to rescue us but I believe there is some
illusion in believing we are all in space somewhere out of 12 planets etc
I believe moreso that it is a box of sorts that we are all
housed in with planets and such so the truth is close but they have lied to us
because there is thousands of these boxes stacked in place with the exact same
self similar repeating circumstances happening across the board
I strongly believe in parallel realities and I believe I am
interlocked with myself or a being like me on an other dimension, be it a lower
realm or an astral realm I cannot begin to describe but when I go to sleep it
is not the humdrum of hypotheticals that lul me to sleep
It is a complex story seen through my brain of me, somewhere
else, a complex hypothagrim of events and scenes and stories interwoven in an
amazing parallel reality site – this was afforded to me by my rave days and
completely bringing myself into full comprehension and awareness of the
enlightenment that the rave days of the early 90’s brought many people
This is why they don’t want us doing drugs or experimenting
with things like dimensions or mediations or really altering the consciousness in
any way and the resulting punishment is banishment in further prison states
(secret worlds) within our reality where they throw anybody willing to question
the system or expand their consciousness along with murderers rapists etc
I cant stress enough to get prepared for the coming
catastrophes be in as little way as possible and begin to address your own
internal illusions. Take some time to meditate by candlelight, sit quietly and
welcome the information that is streamed to you via other galaxies or realities
depending on your point of view but also take time to send out things like
sickness, hatred, pain, abuse, trauma, sadness, anger, hostility and negativity
and give it back to the earth that gave it to you
-
Shaun A. Delage
Pear Dumpling
It is an extremely terrifying time to be alive, I am
thankful that I have just over a quarter decade behind me and how terrifying it
must be to be a twink or twinkette just maturing in a complete police state and
global financial meltdown
Luckily I have my intelligence and life experience
somethings that many people don’t have or take for granted, we’re taught in
western society how much you own is the makeup of your character and this is
unfortunate because it provides people with a false sense of belonging
I have to say for a blog of this magnitude I am very
fortunate to have some devotees and that is what you are but you are also
enlightened in your own regard, and my enlightenment at times can be purely
text based, I have mastered typing and storytelling and giving discourses but
sometimes struggle with normal forms of communication
My art site so far has no sales, which leads me to believe
first of all that my art is very bad or ahead of its time lol but for the most
part I understand it is a chaotic time to be selling anything which is why I am
going head on with marketing in various formats.
I have designed my own postcards in which I send to
galleries and I am sure they are feeling the struggle too financially but there
is always time for more art in the world, not a time to cower with my art
between my legs however hehe
So I have taken out advertising in XTRA west which you can
see the classified below this posting and my next course of action will be to
formerly issue thousands of press releases and also continue with the
classifieds (I am in xtra west and also the Calgary and Edmonton gay newspaper)
We are bombarded by advertising but I just struggle with the
thoughts of how Warhol or Emily Carr did it…so my next courses of actions include
the postcards, classifieds, press releases and some facebook advertising
Imagine this, I also have goals to attain my Ph.D in this
time as well !!!
Kinda a crazy time to be doing these things but I have the
time, thankfully and a small stipend by the government that affords me the
ability to live in peace with zero stress.
I have almost put my manifesto behind me, I don’t think of
it much but it is one of those things that once people read it – it changes
their impressions, of me, and the world around them and shines light on the
fact that anybody any old joe or susan could be being traumatized or abused
this very moment by an unkind and sadistic system that is encapsulated around
them
It is really tough to look at the world from the eyes of a
medicated schizophrenic agoraphobic and enigmatic mind. Thankfully once my time
is up here I will be hailed as a genius
Genius is often misunderstood in the moment, mocked,
ridiculed, killed off almost too quick
Now I have a sanctuary in the forest and have somebody close
to me, a loving partner that I can live with on my terms and this is what I
have been looking for since my last breakup 4 years ago
I endlessly posted ads, mostly just to be mocked in the
process but I found many people were willing to lead you on and make you
believe they were the right person, after some coy sleuthing in text and
emails, I usually found the person to be completely unsuitable for me after
only a few emails
It is tough to date when you have a social anxiety or the
stigma of a mental illness, which is why I strived to find somebody that would
appreciate me for who I am and most people have this insane twitch to abuse
others constantly and this is what I so casually picked up on
I have walked away from asexuality, because I believe I have
some skill to offer my partner in the sexual department but it isn’t easy – I
have been pretty asexual or celibate for about 12 years then a teenage hood of
sexwork before that – that was not very pleasing nor satisfying just the dozens
of gross old koots willing to throw hundreds of dollars on your naked body in
hotel rooms astounded me, the world was ripe for the picking when I had a few
minor violent encounters with some hair pulling and slapping while I was
supposed to be having fun, then a Masonic inspired rape by subliminals and
pawns people were ready to call me insane, maybe I was insane but my illness-
to see things out of reality was the only illness I would most likely embrace. imagine coming from making $400 an hour to just under that to spend PER MONTH !!!! but I am not complaining - I am at peace with myself and the learning process and there is some deadly infections out der >:/
My diagnosis helped me tremendously, and before the financial
collapse I was placed on a disability pension so my stipend is there for me to
pursue my goals and dreams in small doses.
I didn’t do so well as far as being employable and found
illusions in everything and everybody
I found people in employment scenarios to be cold,
calculating and utter Nazis
Now I get to be a crazy artist and I love it, I have many
many years before my novels will hit the mainstream and it will be time, almost
when ravers seem like a flicker of the past I will revive the culture with a
beautiful and amazing novel that will make anybody want to listen to a techno
stream, put on some candy and buy a bottle of banana puree baby food and
matching soother from the drug store and just effin dance
I am thankful that my own satanic oriented karma and actions
didn’t manifest in the form of murder or violence, because that is so far from
my soul it is not even funny.
Me, it manifested as an ex sex worker going nude at
embassies, nunneries and universities
Kind of funny to laugh about it all now but it was
terrifying at the time because I thought that if I didn’t go nude they would
eat my leg
Or if I stripped at the Buddhist temple they would put robes
on me and declare me a monk.
I have put my fascination with monasticism to rest because I
have found their doors to be closed to me here completely –for such an open and
accepting religion the Buddhist faith seems to be riddled with secrets and a
secret society – nobody knows what the hell you have to do to ordain but they
are not willing to ordain any new members it seems
In a sense it would have been hell to ordain, no sex, no
food-after noon, no media, no books, no talking, no techno, no warmth, no hair,
no anything. Kind of weird to want to attain this but it seemed appropriate
considering the Buddha wanted to offer these places for people dissatisfied
with the material world
Now my manifestations have brought me and cute man and a
forest loft in the country, a cat that loves me –adores me actually and I have
a circle of about 50 friends mostly online that also care about me
Sure beats the illusions I have been seeing in other,
younger, more naïve souls.
I am pondering some higher education as well, I think this
would be a good step for me, I would take out a student loan and study and then
because of my disability it would be forgiven
So why not? :P
It has been a blessing to move away from a monarch sciences
type scenario living with somebody constantly nattering your face off even
though you seem unamused, I think I have a mean mother at times, she can be
pretty cruel to me, for the most part were best buds but I found living with a
middle aged woman to be a challenge not only as a gay man but somebody with
various hinderances
I found her the opposite of anything I desire to be, cold,
uncompassionate, materialistic, vain, neurotic, angry at times, trapped in
illusion etc I just sat there endless late nights avoiding her and doing my own
art projects and doing my novels, so my novels are a reflection of my isolation
in wanting to create my own virtual world and play in it, and that I did. They
were also a place for me to funnel my anger and sadness into.
Novel writing is a cold dark barren world, not one in which
I advocate anybody to belong too but I started my projects so I am going to
carry them through to the end.
Meanwhile, we have a very chaotic and crazy world we belong
too and it has only intensified with the times changing into the full on 2012
police state. We have a varying distinction of those who have all the power and
wealth and for the most of us those that have very little power or wealth
What it all comes down to, is who is left standing in the
end. People that have millions behind their last name but only do things that
they have subscribed to attain in life and not look into mystery paradox or
their own god given creativity will go nowhere but forwarding the illusion
state for the sheeple
There is very few people willing to put their life in the
open like I have, to be studied, to be ridiculed, to be mocked, to be gabbed
about but I wonder who is going to be left standing with all the power in the
end
Much of the people on my manifesto are pretty wealthy and
they get wealthier each day that goes by
The funny thing is that anybody on that document is free to
sue me but to date no charges have been filed against me and no civil suit
either in such a litigious society you would think that I would have threats or
being served by now, but the funny thing is, there isn’t a damn thing anybody
on my manifesto can do about it because it is based in the truth.
My only goals: the truth, power, beauty, intelligence, love,
happiness, to be healthy, to be safe, enlightenment, wealth, money, authority.
-
Shaun A. Delage
XTRA WEST
This is my ad in xtra west gay newspaper with 40k readers (toronto edition)
I am in the next 5 weeks !!!
Red Ant
I have been thinking and pondering quite a bit lately on the
bodyparts killer and I cant really help it the media is everywhere on the
subject and you cant really escape the madness when it is in your face
I have been pondering what exactly would trigger somebody to
murder another being but our culture promotes this behavior with the amount of
EXTREMELY DISGUSTING movies and games out there
With full mutilations, murders and other disgusting
apparently fictional scenes play out
I strongly believe that much of what we see can be construed
as real and I believe strongly that some of the gore we see has some depths of
reality in it however it may be displayed in film
When one is triggered by these scenes their mind wanders and
they get obsessed with such phenom
Which is why I advocate to get rid of as much of this
influence as possible in ones life
An enlightened being would not watch such horrors why should
you ?
I also think quite a bit of it has to do with the distaste
for society and its inklings and everything about living in a capitalist
society would make one want to give up and murder and get a life sentence
In this country you can get 15 years in jail for robbing a
store and 10 months for murder
It also has some depth to do with the monarch sciences and
promoting trauma and having people bred for the purpose of committing such
atrocities in real life
When people are so hatefully abused and forgotten by a
system that only cares about its own material progression there is no saving
them because they are literally a trauma abuse asset and everything they can
and do can be attributed to trauma
Enlightened beings only surround themselves with beauty and
love and happiness
When you begin to mix in forays of neglect hatred and
sadness there is no saving the route you go under
But as well humanity as it is is quite disgusting of an
existence so hard to stop the mind from thinking how almost disgusting it is to
be a human being with sickness and bodily functions
The pressures of society also take hold to be purely
materialist and forward oneself in that regard seems to be our only goal and
this is not the goal of more spiritual ancient cultures
I also beg to differ that murder etc are man made sins and
the ancient cultures of native culture and tribal culture actually promote
things like murder decapitation and cannibalism
It is only the status elites that have grown used to making
us pay for our crimes
I strongly feel though that anybody with enlightened
qualities would never attain to hurt another living being, would never take
part in that sort of horror and would never want to broadcast things like pain,
hatred or sadness on another
Me much of my sadness comes from a life of crime and a life
of sex work and I was not left with many other options in my life within this
cold dark matrix we are living in
I relate to sex workers claims that people can be violent
etc and am thankful that that is not my life anymore and am set free from that
existence with a life of happiness and love now and have learnt my lessons and
have attained to never hurt another being or inflict pain on another so hard
for me to delve into the mind of a killer but I cant help but relate in some
ways
What a painful existence with many pressures we live under
I was saddened to see my other conspiracy site
illuminatimatrix has not been updated in quite some months and I am happy to
say the church of techno will continue to offer enlightened discourse well into
the future so be loyal and be happy because it is the work of the divine that I
may type this for your enjoyment
PLUR
-
Shaun A. Delage
Pickle Calico
What a creative time to be alive, and the reality is
manifesting itself as quite a peculiarity lately
Mostly in the news we have things like bodyparts killers,
cannibals, austerity and Greece collapsing
For the most part there seems to be a sexuality war on with
straights pitted against gays, the religious against the non etc. I truly believe that we are given many
freedoms here and an almost trickery of the gods that run this realm is that if
one individual is given many freedoms their mind goes nutz and soon enough you
have things like molestation, and murder running rampant
Which is why I theorize that this is a pseudo repository or
purgatory of sorts where you are judged and sent off to the lower hell realms
or the very very few that are lucky and have divine natured souls, compassion,
happiness, etc and have done their lives work get to ascend into the more
divine realms
I always question how a god or divinity could allow such
atrocities to take place which is why I think that this matrix we are all
housed in is this pseudo judging station where everything you do is watched be
it by interdimensional orbs or aliens or angels, and you are critiqued based on
your actions whether you are fit to ascend or like most who have sold out and
contributed trauma and abuse on loved ones and strangers you get to descend to
lower more vulgar realms where you belong
Not saying that everyone is going because some youth and
teens and kids etc do some pretty stupid things but there comes a time when you
are pretty much meant to learn your lessons and move on and if you don’t and
continue trauma then of course your soul will not gain entrance into more
divine realms where like minded souls exist to perpetuate enlightenment in
their existence
It must be brutal to be the one that says descend/ascend but
without that authority there would be dimensional chaos and the whole reality
or realities would be cast into the hell realms forever more
And most people dream of heaven and a better place where you
have a castle and endless money and jewels and love and futurist trains to
visit your loved ones
I have no doubt the future is watching us in the present to
be able to choose who gets to join them in their enlightened realms but as well
the more shady realms and vulgar realms also requisite the nasties into their
realms as well which is why we have the spectrum of the black and white squares
on the checkerboard floor
Me, I have made mistakes but also around 2005 worked to
attain absolution of my sins for perpetuity so that I may feel more content
with my existence and this is the glorious work of the divine
Much of life is learning from your mistakes and many of
those surrounding me don’t get me, I am pretty simple minded and simple things
please me, definitely not materialism
Mind you if I had one hundred million in my savings account
I think I would go pretty nuts but most people have to do disgusting things to
get that amount of blood money
I strongly feel that I am doing my life’s work by marketing
my art movement, however bizarre male art with collage impressions may seem in
the moment and writing my novels etc and I know god or divinity laughs at my
silly attempts at stardom but at some point the negativity is going to have to
lift and I am able to ascend into full liberation
In meditation I always strongly focus on the following words
to aid my growth
I ask for power, authority, happiness, wealth, liberation,
enlightenment, intelligence, art and love for all beings
I tend to repeat that as a mantra while welcoming those
words energy then stop to cycle the earth a few times then move onto metta
meditation which is sending your energy out and I do two things,
I send energy to all my relations, no matter whom then close
my aura and protect it
Then I also send out things like, negativity, hatred,
sickness, anger, suffering, trauma and abuse back to the earth that gave it to
me in a grounding cord of sorts to the middle of the earth so that it may
utilize that energy for good and to reverse some of the negativity in my being,
since I am imprisoned here by gravity and forces I cannot control I feel in
essence it is a smart thing to do – to return that negativity to the source
that gave it to me and say, no thanks
I am just thankful that my own psychosis manifested itself
in the form of nudist Buddhism and not complete grizzly murderous rage and this
is a rare thing to be diagnosed with schizophrenia it only affects about 1% of
the population of earth but it also carries a scary stigma associated with it.
I was horrified when I found out that the greyhound bus head eating murderer was
diagnosed with schizophrenia – I was like fuck I would never do that that is
disgusting but there are many forms of schizophrenia and there is no cure
I strongly believe that each individual forwards their own
enlightenment if they should so choose, if they watch horrors, play disgusting
video games and just work as a slave there is no saving them
Thankfully I am stable and sound and have learnt from my
mistakes, received proper therapy and catscans and time to reflect in a hospital
several times, to me taking my clothes off at an embassy or a Buddhist nunnery
seemed normal at the time but it took several hospitalizations and very awesome
Canadian care to help me to understand that I have a life long condition and
that awareness is sublime
Not to mention I get a lifelong pension for it haha but that
is a whole other story all together – but it isn’t easy living on what I live
on, it may be a free income but I am left with very little choices or
entertainments which is why I take on projects like art or novels or meditation
because creativity and expression are free
I am doing things I enjoy and living life on my terms, not
having to submit myself for endless indoctrination or exams or whatever and am
living in an enlightened state now with no stress and a kind and loving gentle
man that loves me as much as I adore him
Peace and beauty seems to be my driving force
-
Shaun A. Delage
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