What a creative time to be alive, and the reality is
manifesting itself as quite a peculiarity lately
Mostly in the news we have things like bodyparts killers,
cannibals, austerity and Greece collapsing
For the most part there seems to be a sexuality war on with
straights pitted against gays, the religious against the non etc. I truly believe that we are given many
freedoms here and an almost trickery of the gods that run this realm is that if
one individual is given many freedoms their mind goes nutz and soon enough you
have things like molestation, and murder running rampant
Which is why I theorize that this is a pseudo repository or
purgatory of sorts where you are judged and sent off to the lower hell realms
or the very very few that are lucky and have divine natured souls, compassion,
happiness, etc and have done their lives work get to ascend into the more
divine realms
I always question how a god or divinity could allow such
atrocities to take place which is why I think that this matrix we are all
housed in is this pseudo judging station where everything you do is watched be
it by interdimensional orbs or aliens or angels, and you are critiqued based on
your actions whether you are fit to ascend or like most who have sold out and
contributed trauma and abuse on loved ones and strangers you get to descend to
lower more vulgar realms where you belong
Not saying that everyone is going because some youth and
teens and kids etc do some pretty stupid things but there comes a time when you
are pretty much meant to learn your lessons and move on and if you don’t and
continue trauma then of course your soul will not gain entrance into more
divine realms where like minded souls exist to perpetuate enlightenment in
their existence
It must be brutal to be the one that says descend/ascend but
without that authority there would be dimensional chaos and the whole reality
or realities would be cast into the hell realms forever more
And most people dream of heaven and a better place where you
have a castle and endless money and jewels and love and futurist trains to
visit your loved ones
I have no doubt the future is watching us in the present to
be able to choose who gets to join them in their enlightened realms but as well
the more shady realms and vulgar realms also requisite the nasties into their
realms as well which is why we have the spectrum of the black and white squares
on the checkerboard floor
Me, I have made mistakes but also around 2005 worked to
attain absolution of my sins for perpetuity so that I may feel more content
with my existence and this is the glorious work of the divine
Much of life is learning from your mistakes and many of
those surrounding me don’t get me, I am pretty simple minded and simple things
please me, definitely not materialism
Mind you if I had one hundred million in my savings account
I think I would go pretty nuts but most people have to do disgusting things to
get that amount of blood money
I strongly feel that I am doing my life’s work by marketing
my art movement, however bizarre male art with collage impressions may seem in
the moment and writing my novels etc and I know god or divinity laughs at my
silly attempts at stardom but at some point the negativity is going to have to
lift and I am able to ascend into full liberation
In meditation I always strongly focus on the following words
to aid my growth
I ask for power, authority, happiness, wealth, liberation,
enlightenment, intelligence, art and love for all beings
I tend to repeat that as a mantra while welcoming those
words energy then stop to cycle the earth a few times then move onto metta
meditation which is sending your energy out and I do two things,
I send energy to all my relations, no matter whom then close
my aura and protect it
Then I also send out things like, negativity, hatred,
sickness, anger, suffering, trauma and abuse back to the earth that gave it to
me in a grounding cord of sorts to the middle of the earth so that it may
utilize that energy for good and to reverse some of the negativity in my being,
since I am imprisoned here by gravity and forces I cannot control I feel in
essence it is a smart thing to do – to return that negativity to the source
that gave it to me and say, no thanks
I am just thankful that my own psychosis manifested itself
in the form of nudist Buddhism and not complete grizzly murderous rage and this
is a rare thing to be diagnosed with schizophrenia it only affects about 1% of
the population of earth but it also carries a scary stigma associated with it.
I was horrified when I found out that the greyhound bus head eating murderer was
diagnosed with schizophrenia – I was like fuck I would never do that that is
disgusting but there are many forms of schizophrenia and there is no cure
I strongly believe that each individual forwards their own
enlightenment if they should so choose, if they watch horrors, play disgusting
video games and just work as a slave there is no saving them
Thankfully I am stable and sound and have learnt from my
mistakes, received proper therapy and catscans and time to reflect in a hospital
several times, to me taking my clothes off at an embassy or a Buddhist nunnery
seemed normal at the time but it took several hospitalizations and very awesome
Canadian care to help me to understand that I have a life long condition and
that awareness is sublime
Not to mention I get a lifelong pension for it haha but that
is a whole other story all together – but it isn’t easy living on what I live
on, it may be a free income but I am left with very little choices or
entertainments which is why I take on projects like art or novels or meditation
because creativity and expression are free
I am doing things I enjoy and living life on my terms, not
having to submit myself for endless indoctrination or exams or whatever and am
living in an enlightened state now with no stress and a kind and loving gentle
man that loves me as much as I adore him
Peace and beauty seems to be my driving force
-
Shaun A. Delage
