BrEAd CrUsT

Seeing a pet go through the process of death again has given me a new sense of responsibility and quite a bit more compassion for suffering, from the smallest of insect to the largest animal we are all struggling to survive any way we can.

I am at peace with my beloved daughter cats passing but I just hold dear to me that I have given my animals a good home, waited on their needs head and foot and totally gave my service to them so they may feel better and be at ease with their life.

All I need to take me through this is the fact that I gave them all the love I could and served them endlessly and with loss, you discover compassion. It was extremely tough a week prior learning we had to put her down, essentially starting the grieving process early.

I have no doubts she is the techno party in the sky, able to escape physicality.

Being a physical being isn’t easy, we always have the threat of death or sickness, and most people do things to make themselves sick but we do it anyway because it comforts us, like smoking or drugs or food for example.

All I wanted years ago was to become a Buddhist monk, and here I am, ordained as such living in my forest kuti and studying the esoteric and the dhamma and studying the philosophy behind the thai forest tradition.

I wrote my mom a letter the other day and told her everything that pisses me off about her lol I think people process things differently like death and grieving and anyways I wrote it and wanted to set the record straight on a few subjects and was a bit mean in the process while leaving the word bitch out.

Instead of giving her the letter I am going to have a closure ceremony, and bury it. The important part of my whole writing the letter was the truth coming out, but to me personally the most important part is that I KNOW the truth, I cannot advocate for her soul or anybody else’s. What I am here to do is to work on my own issues and escape the endless cycle of rebirth and countless past lives mistakes. So I wrote her a 4 page letter setting everything right but I feared that it may break her in a sense so I have the respect for her to let it all go and understand that it is in the past and to go through the process I need, to bring closure. **update, I have decided to send the letter and am letting it sit for a few days, really we don't have much of a relationship anyway except with gifts on holidays so I have nothing to lose at this point, it has some negativity but it is written with love and sent with the truth in mind, if she can't accept the truth than that is not my problem**Essentially this is what I have been doing of late because I took my manifesto down and I am beginning to let go. It is a tough process and some people can’t let go, forget or release the past hence why we have so many people addicted to things, or doing crime (or in jail) or sad and depressed.

They simply were not taught nor look for ways to release their anger and negativity.

Believe me when I am done here, I don’t want to go through the process of birth and youth again and sickness and death. I would love to ascend to much higher realms of beauty, intelligence and love

And perhaps reincarnate in a few hundred centuries when we’ve actually made it lol

I have a new respect for the simple mom, that doesn’t see herself as much but a sandwich maker and house cleaner and maid, because essentially people that keep the house going, make nutritious meals, and provide emotional support not to mention the only one that will actually clean the toilet......I see them in a new light because they offer a stable outlook, love and sensibility.

I believe my beloved cat is up there helping us out down here by putting in a good word to the powers that be, and that she is happy and well fed, she will always be in our hearts and she will always be in our lives, we have loved her unconditionally- If only a few people suffering could feel that for just one hour.

Keep your heads up, it’s a tough world out there but thankfully the powers that be gave us techno and meditation and wine and 420 and nice happy pills that make us smile hehe

Take care blogbuddies

-Shaun A. Delage

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Concurrent Hypnosis

The world in which we inhabit is multitudes of pyramid schemes layering on the next, be it from credit to mortgages to smoking to food, to online gambling, children, housing, and medicine.

I am thankful that I live a relatively serene existence, using that which is ultimately free to attain enlightenment being meditation, but I can see why people just go bazerk.

Really what it all comes down too, is that each and every one of us is looking for the tipping point, but everything keeps happening like a trickling stream slowly and layering on, and no doubts some of the higher up’s are imbued with psych degrees so that they can better know how to reveal the coming age to the populace, and I have no doubt that there is multitudes of people willing to kill you when the time comes, we live in a society of sellouts.

There is no shortage of people working for the darkside or new world order as it’s called, from border security to parliament to taxation, prison, NSA, CIA etc there is gymloads and busloads of people that would be up against you to hinder you.

This is why it is imperative to make your mark on society in whatever way you can and to welcome your exit with flying colours, I don’t believe the way to enlightenment is through diet or hallucinogens or whatever but it must be easily accessible so that all human beings have access to it but do not experience enlightenment because they never look for it.

It is brutal to think of the countless pawns of the system forwarding a system that would turn its back on them in the slightest apprehension of wrong doing.

I fully support the whistleblower state recently because I am one myself, I have outlined the chaos in my own life on this ministry and continue to offer a perspective that is unique and original

And this is what society lacks, is originality.

It seems everyone has their vice and the system is truly adept at sucking all the life force from the person unless they learn their lessons from the said vice.

I think the world and reality we inhabit will only get tougher from here, we are awakening in a new world order scenario, have corrupt to the core governments and intelligence agencies and the only industries thriving right now, are fast food, drugs and prostitution.

The best way to garner any level of enlightenment or attachment is to sit quietly in your environment and ask yourself the questions you need to centre yourself, like why was I born this way, to read this ministry in depth, why was I not born a cat, why was I not born with a million dollars, what is this reality, who are the people in my life and their intentions, why am I so addicted.

I have to say that I have not belonged in this reality one bit, but have added my mark to it out of boredom mostly, I like to have this blog, and have some videos of my art up, I have written books and attained some degrees but it pains me how somebody who can put in 1/10^th of the effort I have gets rewarded the most, people think because they can remember passages from a textbook and dictate them to paper in the form of exams that they are a higher more evolved person than me, I can say with full ability that when I read a book I don’t remember much of it, but garner my information on a sub conscious level and I don’t think that attaching code to your reptilian nature makes you more of an evolved person than me, I just can’t see many people that would choose and existence such as mine, likewise I probably couldn’t fathom the complexities of others lives.

I just stare at my smiling cats face and wonder what power gave me a human being self over a cat face and vice versa, I feel fortunate that because I have unlocked a certain sense of wisdom and opposed this structure that I have a fortunate karmic outlook as to not be in some dark alley shooting up heroin.

I think many of us are being taken care of one by one, and the sooner you get your information out there for the world and trailblaze and make your mark the better, and treat every day as if its your last the better off you will be.

So we awaken in this dark and dreary world amidst scandal and addiction only to feed and care for a beautiful animal that needs us, kind of a reflection on true enlightenment is that other beings need us constantly.

I think the name to the game is not to look the prettiest or be the richest but to hold steady and support those that need you and to not align yourself with any sort of satanic natured characteristics

Everything is drawn to the light, nothing survives in darkness.

It is funny, I am imagining somebody angry and nasty and capitalist and their whole life is misery with few rewards and they just continue in this quagmire of negativity being fed by the same force that keeps them subservient.

Like if I could sit here and list the multitudes of pyramid schemes out there I would be here for a very long time, but it seems each and every one of us succumbs to this power almost daily. A society built on corporate law – where and individual has no say over nameless numbered corporations.

One of the big meat companies in Canada recently killed like a dozen or so people but people forget and still buy their ham and bacon under these people it is insane.

I don’t want to be here and pretend like I know all the answers, because I don’t. I think collectively we all hold a piece to the puzzle, I think much of this is slowly being introduced to us in the form of gradual hypnosis or psychological operations to gradually bring about this society that the elite seek, they are looking to strip away all forms of individuality where people are not known by name but their visa or mastercard number.

But I also believe there is inherent beauty in this world we all live in, I just also believe that it is somewhat of a recurring dream or fantasy world.

What do you believe?

-Shaun A. Delage

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Rain BehR

What seems to be the root cause of most evils in the world today, it seems to be religion.

The second would be secret societies. and the third would be capitalist greed, the fourth would be ignorance.

It is funny saying this because I view myself being a spiritually adept person, but over the ages it seems faith has been used as a tool of great oppression and to further enchain people and make them ignorant pawns in the game.

We are told there are billions of people on earth, and maybe in our lifetime perhaps only come into contact with a few million. It seems these we come into contact with are apart of the illusion somehow.

Many people go their entire lives without meeting somebody that can aid them in questioning their reality more, able to guide them to awareness, able to show them compassion or able to set them on a new path or future.

Much of my last few years has loosely followed the teachings of the resistance, but I have now found myself in a precarious position, because, the website and spiritual leader of the group have isolated themselves as a venue for enlightened dialogue, but it seems just another cult based on esotericism, and you could fill a gymnasium with books on the esoteric, I even credit my last breakup and myself setting on a new path because of this group, after I read the code to the matrix.

But when you speak in a dialogue that people cannot understand but the only adept, and you speak in such vague concepts, using survival of the fittest as your main dialogue it is time to look again at what you think is the right course, they have tried to teach not to believe in anything spiritual like Buddhism or any gods, and use herbs and raw food etc and extreme physical exertion as a way to enlightenment.

With the members of the group in constant supposed evolution, but my heart tells me they are perhaps a bit too egocentric to follow, and me wanting to believe in things like Buddhism, idols, meditation, manifestation, swamis, techno, nature, and my own path have lead me to believe that I have all the answers in myself rather that listen to somebody that is egocentric in their teachings.

Not all of us can afford $190 chakra building stone kits, or $75 vedic herbs, or even have the want or desire to do multiple liver, colon, and parasite cleanses.

It just makes me think cult, and something I have made many friends with but am now beginning to think twice my involvement in such a group. They have helped me tremendously, but there is a time when enough is enough about the body getting worms on its surface that I can handle and listening to the past teachings of sevan he can’t even keep himself composed while giving lectures and has bursts of crying, so it makes me wonder.

It seems like an internet group that is only interested in getting a million dollars so they expend a million dollars in creativity hoping to get there, those with enough money are idolized while the rest of us just keep an obsessive stare because there is nothing else to do, and endless boredom in a total financial collapse.

This makes me think of how I would like this church to be perceived in the future, sure it would be nice to be a guru and all and wear some weird frock and have some rainbow hair and be the temporal leader of the church of techno, but that is not really what I am aiming for, I am not looking to hoard virtual cash from people to support my way of life, because I live on a small perpetual stipend that is afforded to me because of my trauma in life, and I am thankful that my country provides this help to it’s citizens rather than ignore their deep psychological or physical trauma.

It would be nice to have a physical church some day that is soundproofed that I can throw afterparties in and stuff but that is also not my intent, it just exists here in the now to better aid those people that the creator shows to my instruction.

With millions of blogs I am not competing, I have perused some blogs and only found about 5 or 6 that are entertaining or worth saving in my bookmarks, not many people are willing to put the time or the energy into a blog such as I have because they simply don’t have the time.

Call it an introverts church lol

With my experiences I have been lead to this more spiritual existence, serving others and providing instruction for life and hopefully I help or at least provide a few minutes every week to gain a better perspective of things.

When somebody has the range of experiences such as I have, and many have painful existences or monarch existences etc they begin to question their reality and why they are here every moment. Every moment surrounded by crazy beings that have no inclination toward compassion or sincerity or love.

People question their being when they see nothing of themselves in family, friends, or coworkers.

I have always questioned whether I am in an elite experiment or a Tv show of sorts for other dimensions because most of the time, I deal with people is in hostile or clinical environments where it is policy to dictate policy, or going shopping and people waving their fists and yelling swear words, or people shooting very nasty looks my way. Or just random people lunging at me, trying to scare me with their fists clenched.

You tend to wonder where the hell am I and why is this ‘reality’ so hostile towards me. It is because I am on my way out into other realms or dimensions, and I don’t let ignorance sway my point of view, I am dealing with multitudes of existences of pain and suffering, and I believe that by continuously serving others it will be my path not to salvation but to evolution. A truly enlightened being and their aura would be able to be perceived for miles upon miles - a compassionate buddha or a universal individual working to attain ascension. 

My end dream or end scenario exists being reborn into a more spiritual realm with buddhas and incredibly profoundly beautiful souls where I can live out all of eternity without suffering, disease, poverty, hate, sickness, ignorance, stupidity, etc.

Then I am reminded that I chose to be here, I would wonder why I ‘chose’ to be here, it seems that I was imprisoned against my will more like it because I was bad on another dimension or something haha

Who would choose a life where there is abuse, suffering, sickness like rashes/boils/cuts etc, poverty, hunger, and immense hatred.

I don’t pretend to know all the answers, I like to drink and have steaks on the grill, and take a multi vitamin and live a simple existence out in nature and the forest. But I also believe that things like enlightenment take ascension and evolution into factor.

I believe strongly that I acted for the most part for my own divine interests to be kept in tact for most dealings through my life, and more criminal actions on my part were of not my control, kind of a mish mash of drugs, satanic puppetry, greed, and regret.

Which is why I believe that most criminals are just being used as tools by the satanic oversight to fill the prisons and create another slave society, a microcosm within a community.

Which is why we need to treat people like criminals and homeless people with compassion, and be able to help them and not throw away the keys once they make a mistake.

I see this hostility in all forms of media, like oh the thief, lock him up and hope he gets raped… me coming from that end of the spectrum I can say that about 98% of criminal intent is not even of this world, it is usually most likely luciferian consciousness working people like puppets so that their energy can be harnessed and used for a prison planet.

When you almost lose your life, your limbs and your being because of this illusion and live to tell about it, you can relay its deeper meanings, but unfortunately most of the people in prison or on the street have no ability to articulate as eloquently as I can my struggles and name those responsible.

Kind of funny to name the Queen as complicit in your torture haha

But welcome to the Church of Techno ^.^

-Shaun A. Delage

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Curried Lemon Wafer

My own core belief system is vastly different from many of my readers, I bet.

I believe strongly in the unknown, and I believe wholeheartedly in the power of meditation to aid in enlightenment. I have thought about people I have encountered over the time, and how in line with satanic energy they must have been.

Even to this day, as I write this I am completely mystified as to some encounters I personally have been involved with. Now I am able to live my life in relative peace, in line with nature and the natural realm, fatty squirrels, deer and frogs…gardens and wildflowers.

I never really pictured myself living in the country a short time ago. Actually an almost unfathomable outcome for me. Truth is the fact that I am liberated enough to live out here without any of the issues that a city boy would go through is my own testament to the power of god.

But why stop at one god.

Embrace the huge Buddha who is happy you have stepped into his realm for a piece of sweetcake.

Or say hello to the wiccan high priestess that is happy that you have come to her for advice.

Or shyly walk by baphomet whom you have encountered many times in your life, and said quietly…no thanks.

Or walk by a rich woman with diamonds on getting out of her rolls, and attain that power.

Or embrace the simplicity of a prophet.

God and divinity comes in many forms, and it is up to you to find it and unite with that power so that you too can take control over your life and its path.

I sometimes think about the obstacles in my way….

I am cursed to walk the night, maybe a week or two in normal schedule but for the most part wake at such a strange hour, dinner time.

I am sad to think of my own hinderances sometimes when I think of the dexterity issues I face with my hands, and this is one reason why I went into writing and graphic art over being a barista or a painter.

I think of how aware I am of each moment and think it is almost too aware for the common soul.

I think of how bizarre I feel the world is, how we are all being herded and categorized and numbered

Perhaps it is the artist or the Buddha or the reverend in me, being able to recognize the intense value of my own soul, yet walk around amidst a sea of mostly people probably thinking the same thing.

I think the unknown is too scary for some people to delve into.

Not many people choose my route of meditating for decades on end for power, authority, wealth, liberation, happiness, success, to be healthy, to be safe, to become enlightened.

And also to affirm to myself, I am happy, healthy, successful, honorable, rich, powerful, free, loving, kind, and tender.

I believe there is much more to this reality than is being let on, and I tend to wonder how invested the other dimensions are in observing us. In keeping up with us. I tend to wonder what I would be like on another dimension. Wanting to get to know a facet of myself or being insanely envious of the infancy of my other beings path lol

I tend to think in rather shaded spectrums.

It just pains me to think of what a squirrel lives like, and they have no choice in the matter, they could almost be the most famous squirrel on earth but they simply are almost imprisoned by their own reality.

I read long ago in a dimensional book – imagine, if you lifted a koi fish out of a pond and let it look around for a few moments then put it back amongst the other fish, it would be like “wow, what a crazy thing I saw, it was this place without water, and there were these strange things walking around, another world.” The other koi fish would brand that one the village nut lol

I tend to wonder about some experiences in my life, whether I had any sanity or sense of control and the ultimate question of whether I personally chose to act in that circumstance or not.

I think back to the times when I was an unmedicated schizophrenic and my manifesto is testament to the insane travels I have been on including being introduced to some very powerful people.

But finally I am able to live my life with an ounce of control. It pains me sometimes to read through DAVID ICKE site and he has a bizarre outlook concerning prescription medications.

My own medication has helped and alleviates every known symptom of my condition.

And because I fried my brain totally in my rave days I have to take a pill to sleep, otherwise I just stay up for days on end, and some of us are so fried we need things like this, when all the herbs and teas and advice don’t add up and don’t offer us any solutions, I think telling an insomniac to listen to whale sounds for 6 hours before bed is the wrong approach.

I am simply a microcosm of what other people are going through as well.

I am still living the life of somebody that chose to inhale drugs through my lungs leaving me with a life long nausea to deal with, apparently somewhere in my past I chose this route for myself.

It just strikes a cord with me when I try and define my own existence, how close I flirted with death so many times, and danger.

It just helps me these days to look what I do have, a beautiful, courageous, and kind gentle kindred soul to share my life with and two daughter felines, to pet and show my unending affection for, and a serene mountain ashram in the forest, a truly remarkable finality to my manifesto and my story, haha but I don’t want it to end there, that is why I am so involved in meditation, introspection, creative thought, and imagination…I want to shape my next thirty years to look nothing like the last.

I think life is mainly meant to scatter you to the fucking nine, so that everything seems like one bizarre circus of events, be it a simple day in some people’s lives or work life. Mainly to help you miss that $10.95 banking fee charge and not dispute it, or overlook a nasty comment by a family member or not even really begin to have a moment to think and feel and be one with the world. And question it.

I only hope that the next thirty years is as slow as possible, drags on – minute by minute hour by hour day by day, I would like to be in the schedule of a tree for heavens sake because I was dashing through life like it was a racetrack on steroids in my youth.

Happy 2013 blogbuddies and happy valentines day coming up

Peace

-          Shaun A. Delage

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tempura prawn

I think half the world is going to be let down when nothing happens in 2012

They have been using apocalypse against us for centuries so that people don’t explore anything but the safest, being the status quo

We have the future we are gearing up for and it is going to be advanced and beautiful

However we have a lil notion of ww3 to get over, quite the hurdle, and we have the entire Arabian world against the west, I felt it when I was in sanfran and they tested their air raid sirens oh man I was like wtf is going on, is north korea bombing us while I am here on vacation lol

Even if some regime changes happened we would still be better off but the governments need to start getting more in line with the people by legalizing marijuana and stripping away the litigious nature of our society

One can only operate so long with thousands of rules to follow

People involved in the system have a criteria to follow being hundreds of corporate rules and it seems even if you are employed in a mom and pop operation their 79% partner seems to be a mega corp. lol

Just gearing up for 2012 is enough for most people, but to the people that have stocked their basement with canned beans and powdered milk to feed an army they will be the most to suffer when we all awake on dec 22 and the world is exactly the same, same rules, same deal same world.

People are fearful only because their governments tell them nothing, not to worry not to be weary not to prepare, me being in the most enlightened country on the planet I can say that you only need to study the provincial or state system and how they operated in the 1900’s for example to come to terms with how your government would operate in a collapse

The internet itself is too big to collapse and the billions of bytes of info on servers everywhere would be restored in some time, but society is pretty fragile when you think of it

Needless to say the future looks beautiful, just the lil hurdle of ww3 to get over and it will be smaller than the other world wars and the stew has been brewing

The church of techno will continue, we will all be able to live to old age and we will all understand the nature of our suffering.

-Shaun A. Delage

Pickle Finch

The illusions cast on sexuality astound me sometimes, from conspiracy circles to enlightenment to every organized faith it seems that the Church of Techno would be the only all encompassing and accepting faith on the planet, preaching to simply do that which is right, if you are gay, lesbian, bisexual, sado, emo, furry, asexual etc just find yourself and accept who you are and what you are and don’t listen to the BS half the people on earth cant even grasp.

It is mostly due to the biggest religions on earth saying something is inherently wrong like gay or lesbian love and this is crazy because most of the millennium warriors of today go between sexualities like the hours in their day.

It would seem funny to sit down with somebody into the Christ and tell them that eden is based in the fourth dimension rather than some old tale from thousands years ago in evolution. Those people also believe that reincarnation is a sin, so there is probably no saving them.

I am always mystified that we still cant get over sexuality as we are a decade into the new millennium, it seems we are still stuck at a hundred years ago or a thousand where there is death by firing squad for kissing another man lol but it is all relative because in greek and roman and atlantian mayan societies etc gay and lesbian love was accepted.

It is only because they fear the entire world turning gay or lesbian allowing the oversight over those beings to take leadership over our domain that they spread hate and fear because we all know deep down inside who is running this dimension and it is a combination of freemasonry/oddfellows/eastern star/lions club/rotary, the Windsor/bush bloodline, bilderburg/bohemian grove, and aliens.

So if every soul on earth is gay or lesbian which has happened on other realms the people guiding them naturally would become leaders over these people per se using a calculation of one oversight being per 10,000 souls.

I have always thought that the presidency/prime minister/king-queen should not lay with one person, but a faculty of enlightened beings that can guide and protect each realm, when one person gets the power they let their sickened ego take over and use it to their own means, one only need look at Russian politics for example where the wife of a Moscow mayor became the richest in all of Russia.

It seems that leaders are chosen, and I have always stated that leaders are not voted in but groomed, and they also have sadist qualities, besides you cannot become prime minister or president with less than 200 million dollars in your account

People actually still believe four years has passed since Obama was elected, the biggest illusion of time, and also 12 years since bush came into office.

When you are somebody like me and you don’t live within the realms of time, it seems but an illusion only because there is no basis for quantification of time itself with an exiled nocturnal.

Believe me, I have tried to meld with society but no luck there, I have even tried to make it as an artist and writer and make no effort to follow it through because I am hit with so many road blocks, at least I have my art and my books if I need them however.

I am not looking forward to 60 more years here which is why I hope something happens with 2012 so that I can return to the astral and ascend to more divine realms, and begin the process of ascension rather than descending from an angelic state.

On a totally off topic did you know that your nostrils are connected to your sexual glands by two nervous cords this is why when you sneeze you feel the anti 1/8^th of an orgasm

Anyways lol

It is cool to be proclaimed a saint these days religiously and I dreaded doing the test for the ph.d in religion but that will mean, and I have already obtained the highest degrees in universalism but also attain higher ones and the highest being the ph.d

In a sense I use Gnostic meditation to achieve my own enlightenment and theory when the divine self creates all the words and they are given through chosen initiates of the highest realms of spirituality

What some may see as a simple blog, inhabits that of a divine vortex of learning, a church.

And what some see a church as a simple building, to others it encapsulates much more than that.

-          Shaun A. Delage

Deer Monk

My thoughts of ordaining as a Buddhist monk are mixed, and rather human at this point, first and foremost I would like to be released from my own internal prison structure of karma and psychological operations.  Next I would like to become more versed in a reclusive and enlightened faith. Next the ideals seem to mix with that of a middle aged mandarin female which I probably was in my last life lol

I have decided to post the manifesto for public view but only have this one copy visible through the Church so in a sense my own lil gateway and portal

I am beginning to let go because frankly I think I have the qualities needed of a Buddhist monk and I see Vipassana as kindergarden for monks and I got a taste and rebelled and now I seem to be blacklisted on vipassanas rosters but that is what happens when you accuse a way centre of warcrimes lol

I have learnt from my experiences  enough to warrant me changing my life drastically....while I still seem to be caught on

 the level of a teen or whatever I just cant escape my life and I don’t want it to hit me at middle age that I have done nothing

I want to shine, and give discourses in enlightenment, train under an evolved religion and release myself from the confines of the material world and the matrix and finally make sure I don’t get born into the next vessel as another chav or whatever having to suffer

Maybe my path includes that of being able to preach enlightenment and guide others through suffering

I as well will be suffering, with no hair, nor eyebrows or dinner or snacks or coffee or for example the ability to shave my pubic hair bald lol (it is against the monastic code lolz)

I believe I have the spiritual centre needed to be a monk, living as a lay hermit for like 4 years with barely enough

I wanted so much to be a writer in the world and travel cruise ships but I think I would be a 500 pound writer in no time lol

So in april the Church of Techno may close, and I may move on, but it has been a blast regardless. I have made quite a few friends and even more enemies (lala )

I think it would be cool to be a monk, kind of ironic for me to choose a lineage that concerns itself with Buddhist conservatism haha but I think it will be good for me considering how much of an unstructured and undisciplined life has lead me and look where I am now, lol

Part of me wishes that the internet or my books or second life for example could lead me to a level of happiness. Part of me wishes I could just win a hospital lottery and sit in my lottery house smoking 420 and eating muffins ...part of me wishes by now I have found the right man, a shining prince in beautiful clothing that could say to me one day “you never have to work a day in your life”

Much of me has realized that my power and authority will not take place as a handout but rather a learning experience

That I can hold power and authority without wealth

This is the greatest epiphany to hit recently

Me personally I think I have tested all the other gods to their limits lol the lord Buddha remains the only one standing and smiling back at me

While I have had fun delving into conspiracy, MK ultra and other fascinations

I don’t believe these avenues will offer any level of enlightenment

While part of me wanted to release captivation in totality and get rid of it in my life completely

I honestly believe it can help others

I believe my place in 2012 is to be a forest monk and to retreat to a forest community where I will be accepted and respected. I could think of no other place other than birken forest monastery to live out my days

-          Shaun A. Delage