My own core belief system is vastly different from many of
my readers, I bet.
I believe strongly in the unknown, and I believe
wholeheartedly in the power of meditation to aid in enlightenment. I have
thought about people I have encountered over the time, and how in line with
satanic energy they must have been.
Even to this day, as I write this I am completely mystified
as to some encounters I personally have been involved with. Now I am able to
live my life in relative peace, in line with nature and the natural realm,
fatty squirrels, deer and frogs…gardens and wildflowers.
I never really pictured myself living in the country a short
time ago. Actually an almost unfathomable outcome for me. Truth is the fact
that I am liberated enough to live out here without any of the issues that a
city boy would go through is my own testament to the power of god.
But why stop at one god.
Embrace the huge Buddha who is happy you have stepped into his
realm for a piece of sweetcake.
Or say hello to the wiccan high priestess that is happy that
you have come to her for advice.
Or shyly walk by baphomet whom you have encountered many
times in your life, and said quietly…no thanks.
Or walk by a rich woman with diamonds on getting out of her
rolls, and attain that power.
Or embrace the simplicity of a prophet.
God and divinity comes in many forms, and it is up to you to
find it and unite with that power so that you too can take control over your
life and its path.
I sometimes think about the obstacles in my way….
I am cursed to walk the night, maybe a week or two in normal
schedule but for the most part wake at such a strange hour, dinner time.
I am sad to think of my own hinderances sometimes when I
think of the dexterity issues I face with my hands, and this is one reason why I
went into writing and graphic art over being a barista or a painter.
I think of how aware I am of each moment and think it is
almost too aware for the common soul.
I think of how bizarre I feel the world is, how we are all
being herded and categorized and numbered
Perhaps it is the artist or the Buddha or the reverend in
me, being able to recognize the intense value of my own soul, yet walk around
amidst a sea of mostly people probably thinking the same thing.
I think the unknown is too scary for some people to delve
into.
Not many people choose my route of meditating for decades on
end for power, authority, wealth, liberation, happiness, success, to be
healthy, to be safe, to become enlightened.
And also to affirm to myself, I am happy, healthy,
successful, honorable, rich, powerful, free, loving, kind, and tender.
I believe there is much more to this reality than is being
let on, and I tend to wonder how invested the other dimensions are in observing
us. In keeping up with us. I tend to wonder what I would be like on another
dimension. Wanting to get to know a facet of myself or being insanely envious
of the infancy of my other beings path lol
I tend to think in rather shaded spectrums.
It just pains me to think of what a squirrel lives like, and
they have no choice in the matter, they could almost be the most famous
squirrel on earth but they simply are almost imprisoned by their own reality.
I read long ago in a dimensional book – imagine, if you
lifted a koi fish out of a pond and let it look around for a few moments then
put it back amongst the other fish, it would be like “wow, what a crazy thing I
saw, it was this place without water, and there were these strange things
walking around, another world.” The other koi fish would brand that one the
village nut lol
I tend to wonder about some experiences in my life, whether I
had any sanity or sense of control and the ultimate question of whether I
personally chose to act in that circumstance or not.
I think back to the times when I was an unmedicated
schizophrenic and my manifesto is testament to the insane travels I have been
on including being introduced to some very powerful people.
But finally I am able to live my life with an ounce of
control. It pains me sometimes to read through DAVID ICKE site and he has a
bizarre outlook concerning prescription medications.
My own medication has helped and alleviates every known
symptom of my condition.
And because I fried my brain totally in my rave days I have
to take a pill to sleep, otherwise I just stay up for days on end, and some of
us are so fried we need things like this, when all the herbs and teas and
advice don’t add up and don’t offer us any solutions, I think telling an
insomniac to listen to whale sounds for 6 hours before bed is the wrong
approach.
I am simply a microcosm of what other people are going
through as well.
I am still living the life of somebody that chose to inhale
drugs through my lungs leaving me with a life long nausea to deal with,
apparently somewhere in my past I chose this route for myself.
It just strikes a cord with me when I try and define my own
existence, how close I flirted with death so many times, and danger.
It just helps me these days to look what I do have, a
beautiful, courageous, and kind gentle kindred soul to share my life with and
two daughter felines, to pet and show my unending affection for, and a serene
mountain ashram in the forest, a truly remarkable finality to my manifesto and
my story, haha but I don’t want it to end there, that is why I am so involved
in meditation, introspection, creative thought, and imagination…I want to shape
my next thirty years to look nothing like the last.
I think life is mainly meant to scatter you to the fucking
nine, so that everything seems like one bizarre circus of events, be it a
simple day in some people’s lives or work life. Mainly to help you miss that
$10.95 banking fee charge and not dispute it, or overlook a nasty comment by a
family member or not even really begin to have a moment to think and feel and
be one with the world. And question it.
I only hope that the next thirty years is as slow as
possible, drags on – minute by minute hour by hour day by day, I would like to
be in the schedule of a tree for heavens sake because I was dashing through
life like it was a racetrack on steroids in my youth.
Happy 2013 blogbuddies and happy valentines day coming up
Peace
-
Shaun A. Delage
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