zen fight

 

Recently pondering my last purchase in great depth, spending one hundred dollars on a ticket for a hospital lottery in todays economic climate seems silly to most but to me it is all encompassing

I welcome wealth into my life and material possessions and have grown very used to having the bare minimums, using Buddhist monastic life as a key to living I find is essential to a persons growth

I view monastics as complete lunatics now for forcing themselves into a subservience of sorts but I can relate being obsessed about the idea of monastic life to the point of me becoming a forest monk boyfriend

I laugh that the introduction to my forest monastery was complete opulence and it was, not many Buddhist monks get to make croutons and pet felines and drink wine and talk of far off lands or surf the net tucked away in the middle of a loft in the furest

Part of me came to realizations in the furest that it was a manifestation of my reality in a sense but as well it was a manifestation of my greatest needs, to be loved, to be cared for and to live in solitude

I was literally obsessed with the ideas of monastic living to the point of exhaustion saying well if only I become a forest monk everything will change.

Tapping into my inner nature I discovered that isolation to that degree and enlightenment like in that regard did not necessarily agree with me and I know I embrace my inherent citizenship in the matrix

I believe you can oppose the system and still be apart of it, making conscious decisions to affect change

So when I think of people literally laughing at me for spending my last $100 on a lottery ticket I only say that it is a fragmented investment in my ultimate reality because unlike the 6/49 or lottomax numbers- which everyone dreams they can win the 50 million I can visualize my lottery win in the form of me living in the house with the suite, essentially creating a reference point

I am able to go inside the house thanks to the virtual tours and visualize myself living there not something you can imagine with the mainstream lotteries and besides the odds in a hospital lottery are 1 in 118,000 when the odds of 6/49 are 1 in 14,000,000 and lottomax are 1 in 28,000,000

Not saying people don’t win, people win every week but it is by fluke essentially and I figure since my odds are greater, I don’t smoke pot anymore, I have no children or responsibilities and I have been entering these things non stop for about 10 years, matched with the fact that I can visualize the win, and my inherent degree of luck – I barely walk out of the casinos a loser usually with $1000 or greater in my pocket but also we have very very short lives here dictated by forces we cannot control and me in part I want to affect change in my reality and one of the ways I can do that is by using something I am sure can affect change in my life such as this

While everyone is fiendishly paying $100 a month at $2 or $5 a pop on 6/49 or lotto max here in Canada

I am spending that amount on my ticket for the hospital lottery which makes sense and in a sense it is a genius idea being regulated in its own regard but not every country has hospital lotteries nor do united states hospitals require any fundraising efforts with the state of health care there...

While it is nice to dream of my win in a house on main street with a suite and a garage I can turn into a coach house and $200,000 I wholeheartedly believe me winning $50,000,000 would be dangerous

I need to have something to show for my money in the form of an investment or whatever to make sure I don’t succumb to the temptations of wealth and I have been introduced to those temptations in my reality in the form of observing heroin addicted millionaires on yachts abusing fifteen year olds or for example vice presidents of banks that attempt to give some dirty little thief HIV through infected initiates or hostile ambassadors that take their angst out on twinks

I have seen and observed the trauma state of wealth and to tell you the truth I don’t really want any part in it but I know I am destined to come into many many millions in my lifetime with what I have been shown and what I have observed and essentially what has happened to me

But I want it to be on my terms, not dictated by an evil mysterious cult or selling my soul in a blood oath or having to submit to some gross old koot as a sugar daddy lol sense my frustration haha

So I am happy living with very little and since I don’t succumb to the slave state and the solar sun cult I have no visible distinction in reality

My reality is formed through creative will and the amount of untold karmic balance I have as a world famous occultist of the church of techno and essentially that is what I am because my experiences are unexplainable and lay within the realms of mystery and esoteric natural harmony

Then I lovingly explain to people that my former incarnation was female and involved within the highest realms of the eastern star cult but I lost my life in a horrific sense and vowed to right the wrongs of my ways of inflicting harm on others and work to affect true change and true enlightenment on the world in entirety   

My goals are not that of fame or wealth but to invariably enter singular conciousnesses  and affect true change and in a way I do that but I also welcome a lot of pain and hurt and hatred into my life so it takes great skill to release that negativity from my soul when in effect it latches on like a gelatinous alien and just sucks energy

I just had somebody with the first name mason talk to me in second life and I have to say this is a funny notion because I have always crushed on this guy who was another avatar and he has since contacted me again and I have pondered the fact that my soulmate may be an initiated sellout in a sense but why would I hate what I have no idea of.

While I may wholeheartedly oppose secrecy I am not closed to the idea of being matched with somebody involved in their own mystery of life on their end of the spectrum two opposites may attract and in a sense be a union of opposites but essentially isn’t this what love is

While I may oppose freemasonry I am not opposed to the idea of loving a freemason in a sense and I know it sounds funny and ironic given my own interactions with most of the grand lodge of the BC and Yukon and I have no doubts in my mind I am in a sense probably one of the only honorary masons in my region that far supersedes any of their grand worshipful masters based on a quotient for incarnations and incarnated souls and soul swapping and soul harnessing and the fact that I remain dimensional royalty

Ah the ego of the aries and ah the ego of the priest and prophet of the church of techno

Now can you see why they are so desperate to keep me poor in abject poverty and addicted to things like marijuana? This post serves as a reminder of my inherent natural wisdom state without clouded thoughts and the ability to traverse the astral realms and have romantic encounters with very very powerful astral entities

 – Shaun A. Delage

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Well it is a full moon, i can tell  What an incredible day thanks to esoterickitty deception Hollywood...She does a ton of videos on youtube about monarch slaves. And ironically they have been able to meet one that has not been indoctrinated into Hollywood or the cults and I am able to tell my story without the fear of death. I have started to come out fully in the public realm with my captivation piece and this was essentially one of my greatest fears. Was that some of my closest friends and family would find out my secrets when it is ironic that i place my faith in total strangers on the net above this interaction with family, maybe a by product of an abusive upbringing or my fears of total abandonment.

It is funny because last night i got a flood of satanic energy for about 2 hours and this happens directly before something big happening where i think the only route is to submit myself for hospitalization and i am slowly realizing that i have a place out here in the world.

So it is a tough thing to battle that focused intent so i have ordered some orgonite to help me along with my great power aminals and guardian angels which i thank for most of my trials for guarding over me through the tough times because my guardian angels have been witness to the satanic conspiracy on earth. What also I have been dealing with in the resistance is ascension but i see it as this. The resistance i feel is attempting to make its members walk away from all modes of thought and all modes of faith and trust. Ie. Religions, Buddhism, david icke. It seems that when i attach to stuff like this in my core self. Somebody comes along and gives me a reason to distrust it. So I am left in a world where the only thing is the resistance in a sense which i see as a paradoxical twist of fate.

Something makes me distrust these things but something keeps calling me back to my Buddhist nature and my seeking alternative media imputs. But then i hear that all the conspiracy media is placed within the highest realms of the grand orient temples of masonry. So I am left to wonder where to look next and what to do. SO I look within for answers. That constant hunt for the answers i seek.

Then I am reminded that what i am accusing people of is the kind of power that people kill over. I am slowly reminded that life isn’t the game or the cartoon it’s made out to be. So i simply hide away in my virtuosity and await the millions of people that want to hear my story. It will be told. There is no stopping it, because i feel like i am the only monarch slave that has escaped the brutality of a sadistic system alive. There is nobody like me on the net ....believe me i have looked.

SO in this i find the very nature of my spiritual existence. To bring these monsters to the public forefront and throw them into abject subjective world where they can rot for all i care for the next millennia.

Unfortunately because they have helped further the cause of placing me in harms way they have been rewarded like the Saudi royal family rewards its members.

The kind of power that people kill over.

Yes but if i was killed this would bring the whole thing into scope placing me as one of the most famous canadian metis warriors in existence so there is literal warfare to keep my story a secret and keep me in a dejected state of submission.

I just simply work with what I have and this means forming the entire scope of the Shaun zeno art movement. Somebody recently asked me why i call myself SHAUNDELAGE SHAUNZENO

It is kind of an acronym from my other virtual personae RAVER XENO and the name JAMES ST JAMES from the clubkids. So I just kind renamed myself Shaun Zeno because of the generational bloodline i am in and i wish to be a more of an artistic representation of my name rather than a name that i was not given a choice over.

I have been actively searching for a guy and have an internet ad up and somebody had the nerve to write YOU DONT EVEN DESERVE TO CALL YOURSELF HUMAN

And i am reminded that possibly in my region, my province, my country or a 100Km radius that there are no people with human characteristics....That they are all somewhat hybridic in mind and soul. It would seem that with a lifetime of slavery one gets defeated to the point where they lose the very nature of their soul. Maybe i am a bit too perceptive. LoL

I feel the full moons energy all around. The mass emails i sent out a few days ago seem like months ago and i continue on in my enlightenment.

So, Thank you esoterickitten deceptionhollywood it must be the divinity working through our souls to meet up with each other once again in a system that has been repeating for the exact same self similar experience for all of time.

Her blog is available in my links in the bottom of this page.

Once again thanks and thanks for the half dozen or so people that have become friends with me because they simply believe in my struggle.

-          Shaun A. Delage