Recently pondering my last purchase in great depth, spending
one hundred dollars on a ticket for a hospital lottery in todays economic climate
seems silly to most but to me it is all encompassing
I welcome wealth into my life and material possessions and
have grown very used to having the bare minimums, using Buddhist monastic life
as a key to living I find is essential to a persons growth
I view monastics as complete lunatics now for forcing
themselves into a subservience of sorts but I can relate being obsessed about
the idea of monastic life to the point of me becoming a forest monk boyfriend
I laugh that the introduction to my forest monastery was
complete opulence and it was, not many Buddhist monks get to make croutons and
pet felines and drink wine and talk of far off lands or surf the net tucked
away in the middle of a loft in the furest
Part of me came to realizations in the furest that it was a
manifestation of my reality in a sense but as well it was a manifestation of my
greatest needs, to be loved, to be cared for and to live in solitude
I was literally obsessed with the ideas of monastic living
to the point of exhaustion saying well if only I become a forest monk everything
will change.
Tapping into my inner nature I discovered that isolation to
that degree and enlightenment like in that regard did not necessarily agree
with me and I know I embrace my inherent citizenship in the matrix
I believe you can oppose the system and still be apart of
it, making conscious decisions to affect change
So when I think of people literally laughing at me for
spending my last $100 on a lottery ticket I only say that it is a fragmented
investment in my ultimate reality because unlike the 6/49 or lottomax numbers-
which everyone dreams they can win the 50 million I can visualize my lottery win
in the form of me living in the house with the suite, essentially creating a
reference point
I am able to go inside the house thanks to the virtual tours
and visualize myself living there not something you can imagine with the
mainstream lotteries and besides the odds in a hospital lottery are 1 in
118,000 when the odds of 6/49 are 1 in 14,000,000 and lottomax are 1 in
28,000,000
Not saying people don’t win, people win every week but it is
by fluke essentially and I figure since my odds are greater, I don’t smoke pot
anymore, I have no children or responsibilities and I have been entering these
things non stop for about 10 years, matched with the fact that I can visualize
the win, and my inherent degree of luck – I barely walk out of the casinos a
loser usually with $1000 or greater in my pocket but also we have very very
short lives here dictated by forces we cannot control and me in part I want to
affect change in my reality and one of the ways I can do that is by using
something I am sure can affect change in my life such as this
While everyone is fiendishly paying $100 a month at $2 or $5
a pop on 6/49 or lotto max here in Canada
I am spending that amount on my ticket for the hospital
lottery which makes sense and in a sense it is a genius idea being regulated in
its own regard but not every country has hospital lotteries nor do united
states hospitals require any fundraising efforts with the state of health care there...
While it is nice to dream of my win in a house on main
street with a suite and a garage I can turn into a coach house and $200,000 I
wholeheartedly believe me winning $50,000,000 would be dangerous
I need to have something to show for my money in the form of
an investment or whatever to make sure I don’t succumb to the temptations of
wealth and I have been introduced to those temptations in my reality in the
form of observing heroin addicted millionaires on yachts abusing fifteen year
olds or for example vice presidents of banks that attempt to give some dirty
little thief HIV through infected initiates or hostile ambassadors that take
their angst out on twinks
I have seen and observed the trauma state of wealth and to
tell you the truth I don’t really want any part in it but I know I am destined
to come into many many millions in my lifetime with what I have been shown and
what I have observed and essentially what has happened to me
But I want it to be on my terms, not dictated by an evil
mysterious cult or selling my soul in a blood oath or having to submit to some gross
old koot as a sugar daddy lol sense my frustration haha
So I am happy living with very little and since I don’t succumb
to the slave state and the solar sun cult I have no visible distinction in
reality
My reality is formed through creative will and the amount of
untold karmic balance I have as a world famous occultist of the church of
techno and essentially that is what I am because my experiences are
unexplainable and lay within the realms of mystery and esoteric natural harmony
Then I lovingly explain to people that my former incarnation
was female and involved within the highest realms of the eastern star cult but
I lost my life in a horrific sense and vowed to right the wrongs of my ways of
inflicting harm on others and work to affect true change and true enlightenment
on the world in entirety
My goals are not that of fame or wealth but to invariably enter
singular conciousnesses and affect true
change and in a way I do that but I also welcome a lot of pain and hurt and
hatred into my life so it takes great skill to release that negativity from my
soul when in effect it latches on like a gelatinous alien and just sucks energy
I just had somebody with the first name mason talk to me in
second life and I have to say this is a funny notion because I have always
crushed on this guy who was another avatar and he has since contacted me again
and I have pondered the fact that my soulmate may be an initiated sellout in a
sense but why would I hate what I have no idea of.
While I may wholeheartedly oppose secrecy I am not closed to
the idea of being matched with somebody involved in their own mystery of life
on their end of the spectrum two opposites may attract and in a sense be a
union of opposites but essentially isn’t this what love is
While I may oppose freemasonry I am not opposed to the idea
of loving a freemason in a sense and I know it sounds funny and ironic given my
own interactions with most of the grand lodge of the BC and Yukon and I have no
doubts in my mind I am in a sense probably one of the only honorary masons in my
region that far supersedes any of their grand worshipful masters based on a quotient
for incarnations and incarnated souls and soul swapping and soul harnessing and
the fact that I remain dimensional royalty
Ah the ego of the aries and ah the ego of the priest and
prophet of the church of techno
Now can you see why they are so desperate to keep me poor in
abject poverty and addicted to things like marijuana? This post serves as a
reminder of my inherent natural wisdom state without clouded thoughts and the
ability to traverse the astral realms and have romantic encounters with very
very powerful astral entities
– Shaun A. Delage
