Church of Techno, Buddhism and Addiction

Addiction is a far ranging subject, much more pronounced than can be discussed in a discourse, basically without addiction there would be no pleasure in the world, people suffer from all sorts of addictions that you don’t even think about like coffee and television for example and there is more far reaching addictions such as drugs, sex, and gambling.

Truth is, we live in a free will quadrant of the galaxy, and truth is there is some worlds where everything is thought up for you, and even more perplexing such as in the animal worlds there is not many addictions to worry about.

In a free will universe you are given the tools to make it, but it is funny because without food constantly entering our sphere we would not be nourished and therefore could not operate soundly. So it is up to each person to figure out there own world in a world that literally feeds off addiction.

It is weird cause what is happening here, happens on a level universally as well, it just seems like it is magnified in the universe and somebody would be perplexed to think about the kind of highs you can find universally rather than on our own planet hehe

Addiction is quite a quagmire because once addicted unless you feed that craving there is nothing in the world that matters, and there is suffering on the planet when people are using needles to get high, but these issues it seems do not reflect the greater populace as a whole.

A world that is relatively enlightened would have legalized most forms of addiction way sooner so that people can have their supply regulated and ensured it is safe rather than getting it from gangs and crime lords, it is ironic that in the past century the same people that make drugs and such illegal in parliaments around the world are the ones that are secretly supplying it to us through the black market.

The richest in the world deal in things like heroin and other harder drugs, and then supply the police departments with enough money to combat crime, quite an irony when the richest people in the world make their billions off of black tar heroin then are seen at the opera via Rolls Royce.

The Buddha would have chosen the middle ground, and he would have never put a needle in his arm to attain enlightenment so to speak because these states of altered perception can be achieved naturally or through the dream state for example. I don’t think an enlightened being would refuse a few tokes off of a joint if it was offered to him, but he would not go steal and hurt people to seek it out.

Things like addictions and crime can be easily solved with an enlightened person leading a country or the world and you could instead of providing welfare to people, instead provide a living wage and legalize softer drugs so people don’t need to hurt others to obtain it, this practice of the government dolling out the funds as it sees fit is a travesty because these people that rule over us are detached from reality they live in an illusion of grandeur so to speak of ivy league educated initiated sell out that has no clue what the bottom or middle class is up too nor do they care what challenges they face.

Truth is addiction affects all parts of society I mean some of the elite are addicted and cannot live without their millions, billions, diamonds, and roasted quail eggs.

In a society that feeds all sorts of addictions rampantly one would wonder if there is a certain duality that runs the place, unlike the belief that this is a hell world solely or a prison planet, because if you look around you can see hints of a loving duality that rule over our domain, the power that heals you when you are sick or injured, the beauty of flowers or stars or the ocean.

There is beauty in the world if you seek it, and if you are addicted choose the middleground, do not get carried away in suffering it is all in the mind, and of course able through free will.

-Shaun A. Delage

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ScReamiNG ClaM

Well we just passed the second of the four blood moons, and if you are putting two and two together we are entering a very precarious time where nothing is certain, meanwhile we all just keep tinkering on, knowing there is much, much wrong with the world.

The Olympics of 2012 featured a massive visual display enacting ghouls and children on hospital beds, while the queen looked on, and the Nelson Mandela funeral was a pseudo psy ops where there was subliminal suggestion of what was to happen in Africa.

Now we are not only fighting terrorism we are fighting ebola, which for the most part they assure us, it isn’t airborne. Only now are we beginning to see the revolution and the truth come out about 9-11 and so many years after, so we can begin to surmise that we won’t really come to any truth about what is happening currently for a decade or so, that is how efficient the satanic forces are, but there is divinity working in the present as well. This chaos has been happening infinitely - and what is happening on earth right now is but a small ripple effect of what is happening universally.
I am not going to sit here and type that you should prepare for the end of the world type paranoia but I am going to state that you must work on yourself in the time being and tend to ignore the stuff the mainstream media and structure puts out because everything imaginable is meant to be a pseudo distraction for the world to be mesmerized with. The truth is, each and every one of us is fighting things like ignorance and laziness, and other more complex issues such as addiction, poverty and sickness.

There are a few on your side that will fight for your soul, but essentially if it comes down to it, say when your very sick…the only one that can save you, is you. Nobody can wave their hand and make you better.

So amidst all the madness, we have copious amounts of time to work on our own mind, our own path and our own future. I can’t tell you the exact potion for achieving what you need, because it would be VERY complex and something only you can manifest. Me personally, I want to achieve financial liberation and full liberation would be nice, but my aries side wants money! So I work in my meditations to say power words and visualize exactly what I seek, and I listen to hours upon hours a week of affirmations that I have found, I also use auto suggestion techniques like putting a small paper with my goals where I will see it the most and I don’t read it half the time because the other half is subconscious.  I also buy crazy things like different types of crystals to attract what I need, and four/five leaf clovers, spell vials. But most of all I have to be sure I am ready by making simple choices that show the universe I can handle wealth, by not gambling all my money away, or by paying my credit card down and paying my overdraft down, instead of frittering that much needed debt reduction money away. Also things like not spending $60 every three days on pot-420 will do wonders, and making very wise choices with my money while finding time to bring fortunate merit into my life by giving a few dollars to charities whenever I can afford it, I swear I usually give when I can feel the cats that are hungry for chow at the cat charity or the scruffy dude that needs to eat turkey at the salvation army.

The best thing despite all of this effort that you can do is to bring merit into your life, by saving every single insect you see from being stepped on or killed or squashed…. no matter how disgustingly scary it looks as well. That small being would want to live as much as you or I.

When the world comes knocking with your millions of dollars in the raffle or your millions in a book deal it is wise to remain humble and give as much as you can in as many ways that you can think of to people that need it. If you squander wealth to yourself and hoard your millions or billions that will not create merit and you may find your soul on a very lonely path for the next millennia, because now is the time to create your future life.

Have you thought about what power it is that gave you this body, in this country, in this house or apartment, and what your future will look like beyond this earth? Have you thought about how many people have been affected by your presence? Have you thought about what you are going to do when you are very old? Have you thought about how exactly you are here breathing this very moment to read these words? Have you thought about how much illusion and chaos magic is in the world? Have you thought about the elements that control our very waking existence?

The answers may come to the willing, it is time to reflect and ask questions.

PLUR

-Shaun A. Delage

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Rain BehR

What seems to be the root cause of most evils in the world today, it seems to be religion.

The second would be secret societies. and the third would be capitalist greed, the fourth would be ignorance.

It is funny saying this because I view myself being a spiritually adept person, but over the ages it seems faith has been used as a tool of great oppression and to further enchain people and make them ignorant pawns in the game.

We are told there are billions of people on earth, and maybe in our lifetime perhaps only come into contact with a few million. It seems these we come into contact with are apart of the illusion somehow.

Many people go their entire lives without meeting somebody that can aid them in questioning their reality more, able to guide them to awareness, able to show them compassion or able to set them on a new path or future.

Much of my last few years has loosely followed the teachings of the resistance, but I have now found myself in a precarious position, because, the website and spiritual leader of the group have isolated themselves as a venue for enlightened dialogue, but it seems just another cult based on esotericism, and you could fill a gymnasium with books on the esoteric, I even credit my last breakup and myself setting on a new path because of this group, after I read the code to the matrix.

But when you speak in a dialogue that people cannot understand but the only adept, and you speak in such vague concepts, using survival of the fittest as your main dialogue it is time to look again at what you think is the right course, they have tried to teach not to believe in anything spiritual like Buddhism or any gods, and use herbs and raw food etc and extreme physical exertion as a way to enlightenment.

With the members of the group in constant supposed evolution, but my heart tells me they are perhaps a bit too egocentric to follow, and me wanting to believe in things like Buddhism, idols, meditation, manifestation, swamis, techno, nature, and my own path have lead me to believe that I have all the answers in myself rather that listen to somebody that is egocentric in their teachings.

Not all of us can afford $190 chakra building stone kits, or $75 vedic herbs, or even have the want or desire to do multiple liver, colon, and parasite cleanses.

It just makes me think cult, and something I have made many friends with but am now beginning to think twice my involvement in such a group. They have helped me tremendously, but there is a time when enough is enough about the body getting worms on its surface that I can handle and listening to the past teachings of sevan he can’t even keep himself composed while giving lectures and has bursts of crying, so it makes me wonder.

It seems like an internet group that is only interested in getting a million dollars so they expend a million dollars in creativity hoping to get there, those with enough money are idolized while the rest of us just keep an obsessive stare because there is nothing else to do, and endless boredom in a total financial collapse.

This makes me think of how I would like this church to be perceived in the future, sure it would be nice to be a guru and all and wear some weird frock and have some rainbow hair and be the temporal leader of the church of techno, but that is not really what I am aiming for, I am not looking to hoard virtual cash from people to support my way of life, because I live on a small perpetual stipend that is afforded to me because of my trauma in life, and I am thankful that my country provides this help to it’s citizens rather than ignore their deep psychological or physical trauma.

It would be nice to have a physical church some day that is soundproofed that I can throw afterparties in and stuff but that is also not my intent, it just exists here in the now to better aid those people that the creator shows to my instruction.

With millions of blogs I am not competing, I have perused some blogs and only found about 5 or 6 that are entertaining or worth saving in my bookmarks, not many people are willing to put the time or the energy into a blog such as I have because they simply don’t have the time.

Call it an introverts church lol

With my experiences I have been lead to this more spiritual existence, serving others and providing instruction for life and hopefully I help or at least provide a few minutes every week to gain a better perspective of things.

When somebody has the range of experiences such as I have, and many have painful existences or monarch existences etc they begin to question their reality and why they are here every moment. Every moment surrounded by crazy beings that have no inclination toward compassion or sincerity or love.

People question their being when they see nothing of themselves in family, friends, or coworkers.

I have always questioned whether I am in an elite experiment or a Tv show of sorts for other dimensions because most of the time, I deal with people is in hostile or clinical environments where it is policy to dictate policy, or going shopping and people waving their fists and yelling swear words, or people shooting very nasty looks my way. Or just random people lunging at me, trying to scare me with their fists clenched.

You tend to wonder where the hell am I and why is this ‘reality’ so hostile towards me. It is because I am on my way out into other realms or dimensions, and I don’t let ignorance sway my point of view, I am dealing with multitudes of existences of pain and suffering, and I believe that by continuously serving others it will be my path not to salvation but to evolution. A truly enlightened being and their aura would be able to be perceived for miles upon miles - a compassionate buddha or a universal individual working to attain ascension. 

My end dream or end scenario exists being reborn into a more spiritual realm with buddhas and incredibly profoundly beautiful souls where I can live out all of eternity without suffering, disease, poverty, hate, sickness, ignorance, stupidity, etc.

Then I am reminded that I chose to be here, I would wonder why I ‘chose’ to be here, it seems that I was imprisoned against my will more like it because I was bad on another dimension or something haha

Who would choose a life where there is abuse, suffering, sickness like rashes/boils/cuts etc, poverty, hunger, and immense hatred.

I don’t pretend to know all the answers, I like to drink and have steaks on the grill, and take a multi vitamin and live a simple existence out in nature and the forest. But I also believe that things like enlightenment take ascension and evolution into factor.

I believe strongly that I acted for the most part for my own divine interests to be kept in tact for most dealings through my life, and more criminal actions on my part were of not my control, kind of a mish mash of drugs, satanic puppetry, greed, and regret.

Which is why I believe that most criminals are just being used as tools by the satanic oversight to fill the prisons and create another slave society, a microcosm within a community.

Which is why we need to treat people like criminals and homeless people with compassion, and be able to help them and not throw away the keys once they make a mistake.

I see this hostility in all forms of media, like oh the thief, lock him up and hope he gets raped… me coming from that end of the spectrum I can say that about 98% of criminal intent is not even of this world, it is usually most likely luciferian consciousness working people like puppets so that their energy can be harnessed and used for a prison planet.

When you almost lose your life, your limbs and your being because of this illusion and live to tell about it, you can relay its deeper meanings, but unfortunately most of the people in prison or on the street have no ability to articulate as eloquently as I can my struggles and name those responsible.

Kind of funny to name the Queen as complicit in your torture haha

But welcome to the Church of Techno ^.^

-Shaun A. Delage

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Pickle DogLeg

The path of letting go is tough, letting go of ego, letting go of dreams of fame, letting go of love, letting go of a traumatic past

Many are going through insurmountable levels of suffering this very moment

Which is why it is easier to attach to love and kindness for all through a difficult time

Already we can see the seeds being sewn for world war 3

So we must be prepared to live an even more difficult existence

I am not on the extreme left about my visions of this world war either

I think it would be a setback to have an occupying force in north America – we just have to be prepared for things like, the draft, military rule, 1984, famine, sickness, biological warfare and poverty/suffering

The people with the most to lose in essence are those with everything.

Those with very little have nothing really to worry about since there is not much to lose

Lately I have been faced with the grieving process in several forms, an ex cat suffering and going through health difficulties, putting my wishes to become a Buddhist monk to rest, saying goodbye to the last 30 years and saying goodbye to the world as I have known it and welcoming in the constant evolution of the age of 2012

Life is never certified as an existence, there is no contract between you and your country of how long you will live, and we live in such a capitalist environment with no ancient roots it is easy to not identify with anything of substance but rather things that are in a sense; superficial.

People it seems are involved in the routes that bring them the most illusion

Having said goodbye to credit in all forms I feel rather blessed, to have an income and not be sending ¼ of my money to visa.

This is where I would say 90% of our society is in a slave world too, and most people are happy being indebted to forces they don’t understand, be it illusion or aliens or Satanists, truth is we have very little

And we are witnessing a time when most of us are losing everything we have because we are so indebted in forms of credit and mortgages and family commitments etc

Hardly a time to be slogging away at the bar thinking about the next twink that will walk in, hell no…this is time to meditate on your ultimate reality and to sew the seeds to your next incarnation and to work to correct some of the wrongs in your life and that of society

To tell you the truth I have stopped working to correct the wrongs of my society, which includes Satanist rules, child abuse rings, catholic church abuse scandals, the advent of militarist rule, the possibility of microchips and the coming age of _____

If I had a choice between being shot in the back of the head and getting a microchip I couldn’t tell you which one I would choose, but I am leaning on the shot in the head, it would make more sense for me to terminate my contract here on this earth out of billions of earths rather than give my inherent power of choice over to forces that I cannot see or touch.

Most of us are in a prison state, the only ones not imprisoned by their reality are initiated sellouts whom have the power and money to just dart of to the Netherlands Antilles in a private jet and eat prawns out of a martini glass.

I think back to my own personal history and past, some of the events in my life that stand out are my puberty and awakening as a gay male, my suicide attempt, false allegations of incest within my family, my drug abuse- being high for twelve days without food or sleep, my vipassana meditation experiences, my last relationship of eight years, my ordination as a priest and prophet of the church of techno and here I am, able to put it all to rest

This is the most difficult part of life- letting go.

Most people are so hopelessly lost in a cycle of trauma there is no recovering them, the others that are seemingly above human emotions have in a sense sold their souls so they have no ability to feel emotion or understand suffering in the most compassionate terms

I am beginning to let go of my dreams of becoming a Buddhist monk, it has been pivotal in the discourses recently and maybe this is part of my illness – to go psychotic over monasticism haha but at least its left there

With the stigma of schizophrenia I have been refused entry back to vipassana and have disgraced myself there I believe but I don’t believe I could become a Buddhist monk with the difficulties I live with including being a medicated schizophrenic having insomnia and nerve damage in my wrists

I have been told I have the ability to develop my psychic power as well which is comforting, it would be a blessing to be able to guide others, I have always knew I was psychic since things I say will come up hours after I say them in a TV show or my dreams have realms of precognitive vision along with full astral sight

Part of me wants to leave the planet and join my multitudes of friends in the astral world, but I guess I am needed here, haha needed here to write my books, lead a virtual ministry, discover myself and live life in one of the most difficult times in existence

It is all relative illusion however since existence has gone through multitudes of the same exact self similar repeating circumstance for all of time

This time we are blessed, with things like human rights and freedom of speech and action rather than witch burnings in the square – thankfully the systems in place are there to guide and protect-hopefully.

I have thought deeply about the Buddhist monk thing and have come to terms with my own enlightenment – I don’t believe I need to shave my head or eyebrows or swear off orgasms or food to proclaim my enlightenment

I believe I am doing my purpose since I was ordained as a Buddhist monk of universal life church

And my credentials and certifications are available for validation – anybody my call and ask about whether my credentials are real or proven

I posted my credentials on the site ages ago and now I cant find them lol go the internet haha

I believe my purpose is here and now, if it means being shot in the head, it wont be a painful long drawn out process, I will welcome it and this kind of virtue is rare, only because I have faced death head on and realize how much is at stake but as well if it is my time to go, good riddance, to a reality that has offered me very little.

I have dreams of publishing my two novels and if it is about to happen or if I have to wait years upon years than so be it, but the process has been started already- I believe I am the JK Rowling for gay men !!

I am in like the thousandth edit and the funds to edit them seem hopeless at this point but if an anonymous source within the Church wishes to donate say $5000 I wont stop them haha

Not to say I expect anything from these teachings however

They are given freely and for life and without cost to all that seek that the divine creator has shown them to this site.

-          Shaun A. Delage

rural code

I have really begun to question my role in the illusion of a metropolis ...
thankfully the newest satanic holiday passed by (nine one one)..they essentially ran out of satanic holidays so the bonesman created a new one for their orgies of blood and human meat eating. I always think to myself unless you were there when it happened it didn’t happen at all.
I dont believe everything the reality reich throws at me, I tend to question some things for weeks on end.
people say I am nuts when I say that New york and the world trade center towers dont exist and why would I say this, because unless you are standing next to the monument with your hand on it. It doesnt exist
Likewise how could you ever begin to understand the ritziness and wealth of a world cruise if nobody has ever taken you on a cruise.
Likewise if people are attempting to rule over you without being present than there is no basis for reality. Only where your presence is, is the reality. There are no countries or presidents or stars etc
Those are dimensional illusion  from your own being. anything you hear that is antithetical to your own presence is illusion. Where you are making $25K a year and you watch on TV somebody with a $50,000,000 house, this is illusion. what are the chances of you ever purchasing that house, it is out of your reach, another dimension. People are living in fractal realities you would never dream of
The world is set up like this, there are destinations and cliques only for those that have proved to have sold the nature of their soul. While we plebs sit and dine at the chicken shack while the rich are eating fattened duck liver to stay full. Would you want the fattened duck liver or the small hen in an egg to eat feathers and all ? I think not. Their life is not that appealing lolz
only through suffering can you experience what enlightenment means, likewise through renunciation. 

So seemingly so this would make most interactions online illusion of sorts because they sort of peek into your reality ... Reality itself is a carefully contrived illusion ...hacked from the dreamstate and made into an ever presence complete with hybrids who will uphold the slave state, and the realism at any costs

People that come and affect change in the world through performance art or what have you are always seen as changing the sphere of thought. Most don’t have the time to do art or write a book for example.

It would seem those in metropolis’s are taxed with time just no time at all ....those that live in rural locations have all the time and peace in the world. I have been questioning my role out here because I have been shown a place where I could be a forest monk and still have my hair and run my ministry

To leave reality it seems to be the strongest meditation available but I feel I would do anything for love itself. And this is my greatest setback. I actually enjoy the challenges that love brings.

I have been pretty dissatisfied with life lately, virtual income just trickling in, dealing with the plethora of negative emotions with marijuana withdrawl but yet I hold onto various degrees of enlightenment...I just wonder lately (thanks to a hot cowboy/horseman/horse whisperer hehe) my role out here....am I missing much ? lolz

Then I am also reclusive and isolated. I observe people in their realities and there is not much of a reality in some peoples lives. Part of me would like to say goodbye to the city. I think I am perfect for being out in the middle of nowhere. I mean I can sit and type for a week no problem.

I think it would be a process to unplug from the matrix and unplug from the system and the metropolis

So many people are just addicted to simple trivialities in the matrix like pot or booze that will lead them through a lifetime of addiction

I am faced with myself after a month long binge. I love myself. I love the fact that I don’t have to deal with the ADD symptoms like when I do have marijuana in the same day but have to fiend
so essentially I have myself and my thoughts back
it would be nice to say that I am a waste the past month of smoking marijuana every day
but the discourses themselves turn shorter and more creative so essentially it is me still.
Then you have the people that dont want to listen to the rantings of me online and that is great there are billions of other places one could go, I dont tie people to this blog 

There exists no method to safely come off marijuana, and caffeine. No pill nothing so were left to either suffer through withdrawl or suffer through addiction.

Part of me wanting to explore this newfound forest reality in my mind has enabled me to question my surroundings, my path, my future.

Part of me wants to make it inclusive to a newfound virtual mate. I think in a way I question whether I am ready for a relationship. A guy with tendencies to asexuality and avoidance in a relationship doesn’t have any part in it.

But also, I figure out essentially that what I had before wasn’t love. It was only love in my eyes. I want this power to exist for both eyes really not just mine. I dont think I have ever experienced true love or true romance. I believe I have discovered parts of it. but a relationship with affection and intimacy has evaded meh so no wonder I call myself asexual at this point. Asexuality is funny because it is not celibacy like the religious orders practice. Asexuality is a dis interest in sex with random partners.
Then given my experience with the masons in the tower with my twin and AIDS
no wonder I call myself this, have a fear of sex, and have a fear of catching an illuminist based illness
and I have no doubts in my mind the elixirs exist to cure one of this virus if you pay enough or essentially have sold their souls

My greatest wish , perhaps to start an intellectual romance, turn the guy onto me intellectually and then it will all fall into place. But what is intellectualism without compassion or happiness or the theory you try and broadcast without sounding too complex. My life is terribly complex I am realizing. but when I am present visually in person I am a simple country boy too shy, not too talkative
Have the need to release tension every day like everyone else lol 

I enjoy what my own mind throws at me, and the mind of the matrix because I am in a literal sense able to hack my own reality and make it ever expansive and ever present ....Thanks to the horse whisperer cutie I am able to bring my presence from where it is into the country in some rustic setting under the watchful eye of a loving and supportive man who worships me.
This is not based out of ego either, I long for the day when true love will hit and I can show how loving and affectionate I can be rather than shy, withdrawn, isolated etc 

When you begin to question your own reality and that of the matrix you begin to solidify in the need to unplug and I am one of the only ones that I have made contact with that has the desire to dabble in intellectualism and the process of illusion. But I also am the only human being I know.
There is nothing like me, in my entire city nor my country nor my continent
well
I have found a few like me on the same continent but they remain scattered
the rest are hybrids, illusion, reptillians or automatons whatever you want to call them lol 

What a difficult process where your seen as psychotic or sick for wanting to question reality. With a few swipes of the keyboard your every past mistake can be shown to the public and you could be made out to be a psychopathic  sex crime induced weirdo but this is the nature of the matrix

This is one of the reasons why I came public with my trauma document captivation was to have a place online with my every secret on a piece of paper, because after that...I have nothing to lose...

I am not scared of people using anything against me. I am not scared of what people think about me. I stopped caring a long time ago. Which is why I countered shortly after my diagnosis to entitle myself with reverend and doctor. Because you cannot be a reverend in universalism and a doctor of divinity without any universal knowledge or divinity in you.

I guess what I seek is a non scene, non materialist, cute, hunky, manly, deep, shy, studly, calm, meditating, country boy to call my own!

I worry that I cant provide the happiness needed for absolute enlightenment and love to take place with all my qualities but I feel is worth the effort. Materialism is a big one for me. All people have in the matrix is materialism. Me, I have a room full of stuff, but happy leaving it all for a flight to Tokyo if need be lol some people aren’t like that. I think materialism and sex are the greatest illusions of society currently but also they are the most heavily propped up desires to fund.

just the ability to have sex with random people is too much of an attraction to most
so sex is left as meaningless and pointless with the hybrids or whatever not even focused on love making but their problems and everything else
Were shown media about the total sellouts and all the crap they own. The gadgets and stuff. We become envious and jealous.

I think me living rurally is a good option. I think I have alot to offer somebody that is reasonably human. Believe me I have searched for a man with human qualities and have not found much out there that is why I am happy pouring myself into my art or whatever
I have struggled with the concepts of my life the past week and just simply questioning my role.
Being a writer is difficult because you dont get paid for hundreds of hours of hard work
you have to really believe in yourself
likewise, instead of going on the rebound and being co dependent could you imagine if you gave yourself some time to really come to a love for oneself before you can love another 

It would be a new experience, coupling, intimacy, and affection.

I have been single for 3 years now. Used to being totally alone.
I dont want to rush things either, I just want things to evolve naturally....It is tough being an aries because I know what I like and what qualities I am attracted too. I have goals of marrying somebody with the qualities I seek, not just to get hitched and be taken care of in a sense. But to unite and because most of all, I can provide a lifetime of companionship without it ever feeling awkward. I am able to converse freely about subjects and with my enlightened nature. I believe I have alot to offer a symbiance of sorts. When one person falls out of love in a relationship or if the love was never there in the first place then what is enlightenment of one of those in the coupledom going to project. Seemingly would be a waste of time, to try and spread your enlightenment to somebody that has a built up hostility over you
I also believe that a relationship is pretty much illusion
why say this?
because each person literally props up the others ego structure. What most lack is somebody that shares the same interests. Many people are introduced or whatever or just fall into a relationship.
Not many people look for 3 years str8 for specific qualities and in a sense interview dozens upon dozens in chat only to find nothing
I believe I have alot to offer. For a lifetime of happiness for somebody that believes in me.
I have written a book, I have 200 pieces in my art portfolio. I have overcome tremendous amounts of adversity, I have a virtual ministry. I believe I have more depth than a whole site like plenty of fish or craigslist combined....after reading profiles people lack depth. They lack a vivid reality
most I talk to lack that "fuck it all" quality lol people are so obsessed with elevating themselves through slavery or materialism to really come to terms with their inherent enlightened state.
I am almost an anti aries. People hearing about an introverted aries is a delight lol because we are the first ones to figure out socializing in reality, the first ones to figure out jacking off hahaha the list goes on but we will always be the first one to jump off a bridge to save somebody .
This whole rural life may not happen, but it is at least fun to dabble in for the week, gets my mind of 9-11 lol 

I want to get to know somebody with the qualities I seek, kinda funny to say hey I wanna marry you and you havent even met lolz
I am keenly interested in forest monks call it an obsession so the ability to be a forest monk and still keep my hair and have sex and eat dinner seems appealing to me. lol call me simple. But I just imagine myself starving to death in a hut with no hair or eyebrows and a urine bucket next to me and I think my life would have pretty much ended lol
Just traversing the reality seems to be challenging. Attempting to educate somebody on my virtuosity proves challenging considering the magnanimity of my virtuosity hehe

Mixed with those that don’t think like me, that despise my every action proves challenging as well because I want to be in an inclusive and inviting environment.

Maybe I am just looking for somebody to believe in meh

I question my reality? please question yours too. It is the only thing we have left .

-          Shaun A. Delage

    p.s. on another subject.... hope you like chairman mew (below on sept 11th) that is the only thing I could visualize as a posting for the tenth anniversary of the towers falling lolz it is horrible how many people died what 3000?
      well what about the hundreds of thousands our  north american and internationalist forces are ritually beheading in the countries that seemingly started this whole "war" when alex jones rants about global governance and microchips I feel like shaking the weirdo and saying "dude, is already here" 

                                  PEACE LOVE UNITY AND RESPECT 

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To say there are no secrets in society would be an amazing concept in itself...even a simple phone company must be built to handle levels of secrecy those levels of secrecy would be more pronounced as time evolves. But also to handle the amount of secrets that the phone conversations handle between people with varying levels of trade secrets and top secret government information etc but also have the ability to analyze and interpret varying levels of dynamics to do with the populace i always say that people just gab on and on on the phone and think nobody is listening and interpreting the information and it is a funny concept because the same could be said of why wouldn’t they be listening

This is also like this with the higher echelons of communication, with communication being the #1 form of secrecy where the highest levels of beings are evolved. Think of the amount of trade secrets, government secrets and personal secrets that email providers and phone companies have to deal with, then you have it right down to the analytical aspects of the shows we watch and the food we eat and nothing is unknown these days if you live a virtual presence you will understand that mostly everything you do online is repeated back endlessly back to your email quite a few times, from lists to passwords, to requests to receipts, just endlessly fed back to your email with no objection on your part

This constitutes not only a technological supremacy but also an information supremacy that is constantly trying to keep up with the individual amidst somewhat massive levels of evolution.

There are many types of matrix type incursions that have allowed massive amounts of energy to enter/exit our stratosphere be it with magic or actual spirits for example the nazi death camps the tragedy of 9-11, assassinations, royal weddings

People wonder all the time why our own society is so glorified yet we hear nothing of European royalty or celebrities or news from around the world unless you search for it

Many feel that enlightenment cannot be achieved in such a regional system of obsession how could you become enlightened amidst so much ignorance of the greater world.

It has been tested to exhaustion that while independence and intellectualism are favoured by a smaller clique and objectified and personified with an almost extreme sensibility the actual code to success these days lies in stupidity and sex based programming

The higher realms of situational programming exist if you search them out much like the tv shows queer as folk or ROME or other shows that enhance the human race massively with a devout following but are ripped away from people too soon leaving people to go back into their worlds of neglect and negativity only to wait until the next form of enlightenment finds them

When it is not the responsibility of the system to enlighten you it is your responsibility to evolve with the system but if you choose not to evolve along with time, simply because you are too busy or too involved in your ‘life’ then you must be prepared to feel the consequences for that choice.

Many of the programs we see glorify a few personality types only to make you have a love hatred for them so they ring out, while this is a good option, there are other things at play like the character being written about and formed to appease all personality types

The greatest game at play is to objectify our sexualities, while me being a gay man it would not make sense to evolve to a level of a straight man or try and change my programming and my desire i find still that my own culture has serious flaws when it comes to the personification of status, sexual orientation, societal dynamics, and inherently the notion of love

We must always be able to readily object to illusion, or illusion will keep layering on and always be willing to reprogram the matrix at will, and the matrix hates this....try it you will be surprised at the results

While the service programs working will happily take your money endlessly for a bag of chips or the water you need because if you don’t drink it you will gladly lick a puddle on the street

I mean they will take your cash but the second you try and add a personal touch to the interaction depending on the person most of the time, you are greeted with a level of hostility outside of the norm of programming.... you simply programming them is not allowed.

Many people hide behind policy=policing for the inherent dynamics of interaction the second something is out of touch there is alarm bells, and you are treated as a threat

The minute you try and challenge the system built up around you people frown and revert back to their policy

Quite the society to live in

And when i go about my daily interactions the GREATEST flaw i see is the capitalist mind. Mind you i am not a communist or a socialist by nature...maybe i would be if i researched it... but i am not ready to move to china just yet

I am a realist

People are taught in the west that you are a person if you are a slave and everyone else that isn’t a slave is beneath you. This programming instils the notions that even the most psychopathic and mentally disturbed people are something if they just submit to slavery and this ideology is existent because most of the most evolved people on earth have found ways around slavery while they leave the mentally disturbed people to work an 8 hour shift then miss out on everything around them meanwhile propping themselves up on a level that is higher than a street person, higher than an artist, higher than a pensioner, or somebody on welfare or disabled people or mentally challenged people or the urban poor

While this is beneficial in the short term, nothing is ever lasting in life and the person is punished for their slavery in a sense and also punished for the inherent wrongs they have become or broadcasted as a greater implication of their actions as a slave so in a sense you get a nice settlement for doing your deed but your actual wrongs that have been objectified as part of the group mentality or on behalf of the group in which you are a slave of come back to you

Be it with health concerns or negative issues all around.

But also your left to continue your constant craving for madness and collecting things that it comes to the point where that is all you are, there is no spiritual aspect there is no need to garner information because you have zero time, there is no time to look after you body there is no time for family only slavery and once you have offended all those you care about you have nowhere to turn, but other slaves that can feel your pain because they relate.

The most enlightened people it seems are the most reclusive which is why it is imperative to really analyze every present moment and second in complete dialogue when other people surround themselves in your energy

Not only to figuratively objectify illusion at play but also to reach out to those people that have been placed before you in the moment to heal

This is one of my greatest flaws is that i just race by people that i could truly learn from and also help heal and this by far is not all my doing

It is also fear that i will be hurt fear of people and fear of those that are like me, because i have been hurt so i am left to make myself happy and make others happy mysteriously and digitally rather than inclusively and courageously

I hope one day to change that part of me, but it something i must embrace as a part of me now as being a part of my character and it is much like a cat that you go to pet and it darts off for fear that you will hit it lol

While i have been shown what the fruits of your labour can produce.... be it with cruises or yachts or mansions... i am still not convinced.... seeing things from an advanced terroristic financial viewpoint that while i have been blessed to be spendthrift on occasion and also live in luxury it is all illusion really, collecting vast amount of wealth over your lifetime leaves the slave exhausted, seriously and secretly mentally unstable and inherently dissatisfied with their results. It only leaves you as a pawn for the aristocratic glorification of the systems war on individual minds. it seems the goal of the system is to prop up the stupider and more naive souls up to the leading realms of society while leaving the most advanced, intellectual and enlightened souls way in the back wondering why they have been forgotten in the grand scheme of things.
i tried to become a vegetarian for all of 12 hours before i literally started to starve to death given my high endurance life....i guess i have come to figure it all out, the essentially i dont need alot of meat to be happy just a more complex protein, and when soy is bad for you too, what the heck do you eat ....my vibration wanted to stay sane essentially so i thank the animal for its sacrifice, that i may bring enlightenment to more people with its initial sacrifice- the middleground....essentially :)

I ask my guides to come find me and what i get is a nice interlude of magic i get a nice bull African buffalo and it took me to a concert where somebody started belting out synthetic rap to techno it sounded pretty phat and sick lol

Next the buffalo took me to a festival where i got to ride a half million dollar bike around when i tried to move it when i tried to ride the girl said i couldn’t test it and i told her i was probably the only one at this whole festival that could afford the bike and that i will have to decline her offer to test the bike and send a complaint to her boss, essentially costing her her job.

Next the buffalo took me to a house where i was serving a meal to people including a boss of mine and i was serving fish i had to use the washroom and discovered a freezer with a half slaughtered pig in it it was pretty gross and the toilet was sort of mobile like no pipes. I had lots of gum stuck in my teeth as usual .... L

The buffalo took me next to travelling where i was in a bus going across a country when we had to stop to eat somewhere in a field with all of these huts of traditional food and dancing from various cultures

I chose the native hut to dine in and they were dancing as well when i sat down they said people actually had to dance with them to get their food and a little girl handed an older lady some food wrapped in foil and she dropped it they said everyone has to do the happy feet to eat
next i started to shop for a portfolio to display my artwork in, of course i needed one that could fit over 300 pages in and i settled on one with alligator skin after looking at many that i thought were acceptable

Wondering where the stars take me next

Yet i evolve so casually abound in a time

The time is not my own and has no relevance

Yet i have an obsession with it

But not so much so

Because if i did like everyone else

I would age like everyone else

So better to not keep track of the day or month or year

And i just don’t get old like the rest of the common style

-          Shaun Delage