The path of letting go is tough, letting go of ego, letting
go of dreams of fame, letting go of love, letting go of a traumatic past
Many are going through insurmountable levels of suffering
this very moment
Which is why it is easier to attach to love and kindness for
all through a difficult time
Already we can see the seeds being sewn for world war 3
So we must be prepared to live an even more difficult
existence
I am not on the extreme left about my visions of this world
war either
I think it would be a setback to have an occupying force in
north America – we just have to be prepared for things like, the draft,
military rule, 1984, famine, sickness, biological warfare and poverty/suffering
The people with the most to lose in essence are those with
everything.
Those with very little have nothing really to worry about
since there is not much to lose
Lately I have been faced with the grieving process in
several forms, an ex cat suffering and going through health difficulties,
putting my wishes to become a Buddhist monk to rest, saying goodbye to the last
30 years and saying goodbye to the world as I have known it and welcoming in
the constant evolution of the age of 2012
Life is never certified as an existence, there is no
contract between you and your country of how long you will live, and we live in
such a capitalist environment with no ancient roots it is easy to not identify
with anything of substance but rather things that are in a sense; superficial.
People it seems are involved in the routes that bring them
the most illusion
Having said goodbye to credit in all forms I feel rather
blessed, to have an income and not be sending ¼ of my money to visa.
This is where I would say 90% of our society is in a slave
world too, and most people are happy being indebted to forces they don’t understand,
be it illusion or aliens or Satanists, truth is we have very little
And we are witnessing a time when most of us are losing
everything we have because we are so indebted in forms of credit and mortgages
and family commitments etc
Hardly a time to be slogging away at the bar thinking about
the next twink that will walk in, hell no…this is time to meditate on your
ultimate reality and to sew the seeds to your next incarnation and to work to
correct some of the wrongs in your life and that of society
To tell you the truth I have stopped working to correct the
wrongs of my society, which includes Satanist rules, child abuse rings,
catholic church abuse scandals, the advent of militarist rule, the possibility
of microchips and the coming age of _____
If I had a choice between being shot in the back of the head
and getting a microchip I couldn’t tell you which one I would choose, but I am
leaning on the shot in the head, it would make more sense for me to terminate
my contract here on this earth out of billions of earths rather than give my
inherent power of choice over to forces that I cannot see or touch.
Most of us are in a prison state, the only ones not
imprisoned by their reality are initiated sellouts whom have the power and
money to just dart of to the Netherlands Antilles in a private jet and eat
prawns out of a martini glass.
I think back to my own personal history and past, some of
the events in my life that stand out are my puberty and awakening as a gay
male, my suicide attempt, false allegations of incest within my family, my drug
abuse- being high for twelve days without food or sleep, my vipassana
meditation experiences, my last relationship of eight years, my ordination as a
priest and prophet of the church of techno and here I am, able to put it all to
rest
This is the most difficult part of life- letting go.
Most people are so hopelessly lost in a cycle of trauma
there is no recovering them, the others that are seemingly above human emotions
have in a sense sold their souls so they have no ability to feel emotion or
understand suffering in the most compassionate terms
I am beginning to let go of my dreams of becoming a Buddhist
monk, it has been pivotal in the discourses recently and maybe this is part of
my illness – to go psychotic over monasticism haha but at least its left there
With the stigma of schizophrenia I have been refused entry
back to vipassana and have disgraced myself there I believe but I don’t believe
I could become a Buddhist monk with the difficulties I live with including
being a medicated schizophrenic having insomnia and nerve damage in my wrists
I have been told I have the ability to develop my psychic
power as well which is comforting, it would be a blessing to be able to guide
others, I have always knew I was psychic since things I say will come up hours
after I say them in a TV show or my dreams have realms of precognitive vision
along with full astral sight
Part of me wants to leave the planet and join my multitudes
of friends in the astral world, but I guess I am needed here, haha needed here
to write my books, lead a virtual ministry, discover myself and live life in
one of the most difficult times in existence
It is all relative illusion however since existence has gone
through multitudes of the same exact self similar repeating circumstance for
all of time
This time we are blessed, with things like human rights and
freedom of speech and action rather than witch burnings in the square –
thankfully the systems in place are there to guide and protect-hopefully.
I have thought deeply about the Buddhist monk thing and have
come to terms with my own enlightenment – I don’t believe I need to shave my
head or eyebrows or swear off orgasms or food to proclaim my enlightenment
I believe I am doing my purpose since I was ordained as a Buddhist
monk of universal life church
And my credentials and certifications are available for
validation – anybody my call and ask about whether my credentials are real or
proven
I posted my credentials on the site ages ago and now I cant
find them lol go the internet haha
I believe my purpose is here and now, if it means being shot
in the head, it wont be a painful long drawn out process, I will welcome it and
this kind of virtue is rare, only because I have faced death head on and
realize how much is at stake but as well if it is my time to go, good riddance,
to a reality that has offered me very little.
I have dreams of publishing my two novels and if it is about
to happen or if I have to wait years upon years than so be it, but the process
has been started already- I believe I am the JK Rowling for gay men !!
I am in like the thousandth edit and the funds to edit them
seem hopeless at this point but if an anonymous source within the Church wishes
to donate say $5000 I wont stop them haha
Not to say I expect anything from these teachings however
They are given freely and for life and without cost to all
that seek that the divine creator has shown them to this site.
-
Shaun A. Delage
