All anybody wants to feel is love, but love is only equal to the love felt
Some people are unable to find the love they need based on looks or the temperament they possess or other character traits
This leaves much of our society either desperately seeking out their feelings in other avenues and redirecting their energy which by far is very beneficial to the workings of society
But what if you are making no effect on the actual human beings you aim to enlighten
You simply appease the matrix and the matrix in turn rewards you for your effort with a pay cheque
Much of our society is built up on either programming the system in an unknown fashion much like a hypothetical code or programming the system to continue the system in all avenues
Most of our work involves keeping either the system running or the actual continuance of the system going
When independent minds revolt and harness the energy to themselves much warfare is directed at the person to stop them in their tracks because this is a life or death game essentially and much can be done to kill you if you don’t have the right protections in place or if you are not of use to the sides of duality that you represent
You can be killed neuro linguistically essentially so why worry about things like cancer or plane crashes or anything like that
I think of one example of this that enlightens even me
It was my meeting with the master mason in his white tower and my brother type.
They were trying to neuro program me to have sex with them both knowing full well one was HIV positive There exists a war on people and i am convinced i have unlocked the secrets to HIV AIDS
That it is done mainly through neuro linguistics and masters and hosts rather than through the infected fluids that everyone imagines HIV is spread
And it is done through a confusing array of neuro programming a sheet of beings that send you to your death essentially
Technically if your not having sexual love making for any other purpose than the directive force of love than it is a pointless endeavour to begin wif
And you are setting yourself up for disaster
So what did i do to deserve a rogue master mason trying to get me infected with HIV?
I was a billionaire escort
I had sex with dozens possibly hundreds of men essentially setting them free and yes some of them were powerful and some were married some i will never know who they were or are because it was just two men meeting and having a great time only to get a stack full of hundreds in my hand at the end
So that in a sense caused some trauma to the system and caused me to inherit some very negative energy along with my more criminal lifestyle and my dimensional practice of drug experimentation
The system we inhabit is not very forgiving at all
Much of the drama hit around year 2001 and before but i see residual effects even to this day when i deal with people in the moment
These darkened souls are able to read or psychically perceive who you are or they get advanced information and they use it against you in an all out assault
But i cannot believe
Otherwise i would go literally insane with paranoia and i look around at the world and see inherent bits of love everywhere i look from somebody handing a pandhandler without legs some change
Or a couple kissing in the street
Or i look at a dogs face (the next human incarnations on the planet-here to familiarize their being with earth so they don’t literally die of shock when born into a human body)
Or i look at a bed of wildflowers or i see somebody or someboy smiling
And i say that term loosely and i have been attacked quite a bit for calling men boys
It is a gay community thing , not one based in the sickened desire to rape small children lol
Like wtf for somebody to accuse you of things like that by simply attaching a cultural title to a gender is amusing because it is usually the people that have such strong aversions to youth treat people with hostility regarding perpetual youth
It is hard to imagine me being a young guy forever at some point i am going to look aged but it is very tough at this point when your almost 30 and look 16
LoL
Some people would say you should not reject that part of yourself
But it is also kind of harsh because older men wont touch you because they think your some stupid twink and younger guys love you however if you look the part then you even act the part and they are equally shocked to find out your literally an old man
What a shell to be walking around in
I must have good genes and i am not complaining at all haha
I just wish i was an alpha male with the shirt and tie and pinstripe slacks and the car and the condo at this point
But it may never happen for me in that regard
But there is nobody that is forgotten here no matter how alone you may feel
And the answers to your inherited success may be all around you this very moment it may just take some thinking power to perceive how it is all going to fit
It is tough for me to say i believe in god, because i do i believe there is a faculty of good and evil gods that run the earth then i believe there is the most high or the supreme creator and there is always other beings that will have godlike or luciferian powers and then you have the human beings that walk around as literal gods or angels or evil people
While i see so much pain and coldness in the world it is definitely nice to keep hope no matter where you are
That you too may be happy , healthy, prosperous and free from danger should be your ultimate and most pressing goals inherent to the meaning of life will find you as long as you have those objectives in mind
You will never ever find yourself if you don’t take time for yourself.
You must take time away from all of the useless programming code people are filling you with
It is imperative that you take much much time for yourself and take time to reflect and isolate and take time to touch yourself, i don’t mean masturbation, (although that is nice, to service the self for a change rather than be a sexual slave for others) i mean rub your arms and your legs and your own feet and your scalp and really connect with your being on a more tender embrace.
Take time to lay in bed without the objective of falling asleep
Take time to meditate and work out and take walks without people gabbing your ear off
And always be choosey of how you are willing to surround yourself with this type of programming, if the person or media influence is not offering you any sort of ascension or evolution then chances are it is damaging you.
i call on my guides to show me the way and
i call on my guides to show me the way and
I get a nice dove and it took me to a dimensional casino with the older style slot machines i am used too perhaps a lower world or a world out of sync with our time an older world i dunno
I tried to make a withdrawl even though i had a stack of bills in my pocket i just wanted more so i login to the ATM and it said my account had been locked due to criminal activity good thing i had a stack of money on meh so i sat down and gambled a bit and there was a stud next to me that was doing the same thing and he was leaning over and playing and i said to him hey you win anything, and he is like nah i haven’t and i pulled out two crisp one hundred dollar bills and gave em to him from my pile and said hey you wanna mess around and he said sure and i said whip it out under the table and nobody will mind and he said yes believe me they will mind meet me downstairs and i went downstairs and i went to a smaller room downstairs where there was another guy and well we did have ALOT of fun to say the least the guy could handle us both :P
Next the dove took me to a pool or rec centre where i walked in the changeroom and it was tough to explain what was going on because it was happening all at once it was a cross between a sadistic murder scene and an orgy and torture and a party and drug induced craziness there was a fire as well on top of it all lol well after that all died down i changed into my gear to go workout and told some guy about how medicated i was that i need it and it was provided free for my schizophrenia after i fixed a 420 pipe and talked with a girl on a bus about her trip to Europe
Amazement to the theories of being
But what is self without substance or direction
A self admitted to a theory of life
But a life of intuition and guidance
But a life of theory and belief
- Shaun A. Delage
