Much of enlightenment is paradoxically painful
Nobody knows how beings with profound amounts of enlightenment and ascension and evolution exist with such a level of happiness that their counterparts in positions of extreme influence have zero trauma yet hold so much massive wealth and power
It would seem there is a fine line between those that are traumatized and those that inflict pain on others
While neither end can attest to any specific degree of pain there is no finality to pain it seems
That there would be a continuous flow of pain and enlightenment
People that you assume are at the top and are not going through any type of trauma.
There is degrees of trauma yes but to the people at the top there are safety nets available with the smartest minds available to help you and guide you through your pain for a price of course while this option is not even considered for the people perceived as lower beings (90.92% of the known world)
I have been battling entering this latest lottery by VGH millionaire lottery
Mind you it would be extremely paradoxical if i won, considering i am accusing them of injecting my left knee with a being but i would enjoy a house with a suite in it and i would retire at age 28
So for me, i know i have strange amounts of good luck and i know somebody is watching over meh
It may not happen this draw or the next and my millions may be the works with my book considering there are no starving writers lol
But even a singular chance and winning $2,000,000 is enough for me to enter at $100
Why?
Because if you enter the national lotteries here your chances of winning are one in about 12,000,000 or 24,000,000 i furget
but these hospital lotteries, while you have to pay more the odds of winning are on average one in 160,000
Those are odds i can live with man and it is keeping me motivated to stay alive one more month or two or three haha just to wake up to a call like you have won 2,000,000 dollars would be amazing and you cant win it if your not in it
Mind you i am not really a fan of the national lotteries given the odds but also winning $50,000,000 tax free is pretty cool if you ask me man
I have been thinking of all the reasons not to enter and then i look at my hands and my wrists and think i am not a normal person, i have not lived a normal life. I am definitely leading the way for magic of winning to happen, because beings do know who i am and i have angered and paradoxically amused others in various avenues
Recently i just took out an ad for a $9025 psychic reading on ebay
I have taken various denominations out and to no success and confident that i have psychic powers this is the only causality i am willing to live with
I would essentially do an enlightenment retreat on the person and relay every known bit of information the guardians want them to know while answering every question fathomable
I put in the ad, why mess with penny psychics...you get what you pay for
That along with my $1,480,000 ads and the psychic healing stones ad and the dimensional dream journal ad makes for quite an eclectic ebay
In case your wondering and wanna see it for yourself my tagname on ebay is: “newamsterdam604”
Anyways all that aside
I would like to make the argument for urine therapy lately it has come up in discussion. That while most are inherently disgusted with the idea of drinking their own urine or bathing in it or washing their face
I make the argument on behalf of the subject that it will cause you not to age, That you can heal any skin disorder, That your psychic energy will be increased dramatically
Your teeth and hair will improve along with your energy and outlook, if your unsure or disgusted or a bit turned on i welcome you to google it a bit more
I have been pondering the people i am aligned with in my life in a subset of paradoxes and on my captivation piece with the conspiracy leading all the way up to the monarchy and in Hollywood right to the banks and the highest forms of governance in Canada
I am pretty fucked up lol
To say that schizophrenia is a concern is a triviality compared to the plethora of issues in my life
I am just proud to say that i am happy, content, safe, protected, and loved
Mind you a nice man would be nice but for the time being i am focusing on my book
I want to sort of give my art a rest for awhile.
I have about 300 pieces so far and that is alot for any artist and i have safely posted them everywhere on the net to be used again if i should die or whatever really bringing the art to the mainstream and here as a movement by anybody willing really. The only catch is to make money off the art you have to go through me or my estate essentially other than that you will be sued
Muhahah
I have been thinking about this guy from Pakistan i chatted with a while back on gay.com i found him a bit weird against the west and cut our communication off based on his views of the US considering most likely the communication was monitored as a threat somehow
I know now my life is very much public and monitored to a certain degree because look around we are in an informative prison a psychological operations web
Anyways a few weeks after i talked to him the Pakistan floods hit
Crazy i know, he was in the upper echelon of the Pakistani caste system but of course for being gay the penalty was death by firing squad
It makes me think of how well and how tough we have it here equally
That i am sure there are some advantages to living in Pakistan although from our perspective we are the highest in the world caste system likewise with other communist and Islamic countries or just countries that are hot all year some people would just want to escape to Alaska to see the glaciers to stop the heat so each inhabited area must have its pros and cons
Likewise with our rulership in Canada.
While i resist and in someways revolt against much of the madness i cant help but think i am so deeply entrenched into the system it is near impossible to escape the web of energy all around me not to mention my accounts, my name, my legal obligations, avatar, my skills, my depression with it all and my inherent love for where i live and the notion that i am thankful for not being born in a hell based place or a place that i could never evolve in
So here we are riding the ascension train ....when it pulls up just smile and wave because this is life and learn to enjoy every waking moment you have no matter how boring it may seem !!
I ask my guide to find me and what i get is a wonderful applauding beast i get a hedgehog and i love these creatures because you just want to cuddle it being a smaller hoglet
It took me to a large cruise ship i had gone on shore excursion where i rode around on a bike for a few hours and came back after somebody injured themself i walked my bike back to the massive cruise ship and set it down in a room where i was offered some champagne in a metal and glass dish
I walked through the large hallways and knew it was a ship but was massive and they were seating people in a formal dining room and i looked on the menu and saw it was just cheese sandwiches which i found gross so i walked back to the open cafeteria place and there was a pizzeria
I reached for some pizzas but a lady snatched mine up first and i said hey but she was already gone filling her face with them so i explored the food a bit more and saw a dish that said “orim” and it looked kind of like couscous i naturally assumed it was a loose cheese or pasta or something
There was also muffins floating in water which was kind of weird but hey whatever
I spied various other dishes like this garlic coil thing that looked like a dog treat of sorts or a ham hock lol
Next the hedgehog took me to a place i was housesitting in it was a Gucci decorated place and i noticed a guy showering so i spied a bit and then sat down and out came a dark haired really flamey bigger gay man. He looked alot thinner from a distance but it was not his size that i found weird it was his flaming nature. I guess i was built for a more masculine man
He handed me an invitation but when i opened it it just ripped to shreds
Next the hedgehog took me to a large crowd
Where i walked through them and i had superskills and confident if needed i could jump really high or go fast, beat anybody up that threatened meh or fly through people at superspeed
Some lady stopped me and said one of the toonies in my pocket was counterfit and i took it out and the middle of the coin popped out and i said yea your right here you keep it this whole gathering was some huge strange apocalyptic party pretty crazy seeing 45,000 people gather in one spot but if your not invited then how would you ever know it took place?
Figuring self amidst energies
Wanting the truth
Yet not ignoring a self of beauty
Finding comfort in familiarity amidst so much illusion
Finding long lost friends i have waited centuries to talk to again
This is for you
And to all of our relations
We will EVOLVE past all of this madness and sadness
Into complete inner wisdom and a beauty for all beings
Released from captivity
With a smile from our loving creator
- Shaun A. Delage
