I wanted to share exactly how the Code to the matrix book and the resistance group found meh since it is something i have kept to myself for good reasons, since it happened about a year ago when the enlightenment of the one found me in a sense. But also it seems like yesterday that which was one year ago when you live without the boundaries and constant repetition of time.
I have always been the one, it just seems to layer on quite a bit the past 10 years and the past 7 or so it has gone quite stagnant under the guidance of my ex lover
I had been in a very long almost marriage to a man i still love deeply, like any relationship it is usually at some point bound to fail unless it is your soulmate, the one you are meant to either spend the rest of your life with or you meet up and you both leave the matrix for the other worlds out there
I didn’t know anything was going on, my life had a level of perfection. Although i was very overweight and unhappy. I did not see it
I was posting something online on scribd and typed it out, one of my earliest dharma talks that i invented around that time a combo of enlightenment and poetry and dreamwork although i didn’t really get too much into the dream aspect around that time because it was not encouraged in my lifestyle
Anyways i was hunting on scribd and typed in the searchterm MATRIX
When i found the first few results came to a book called “The code to the matrix”
Intrigued i opened it to discover there was a download link on the resistance website
So i downloaded the whole book and read it in private over a few days ( i am a very very fast reader)
A few nights later i awoke in the middle of the night to go look for granola bars in my partners bag because i was a bit hungry and i knew he had good ones.
Something <<<<< made me wake up in the middle of the night almost like a whisper in the ear
And i opened his bag to discover a box of condoms.
I was like oh man, since we were mostly asexual at this point i was left heartbroken
I asked him about it and he said he had cheated on me with my ex i left to be with him
The next few days i stopped my medication and let that sink in until one night i stayed up and read the matrix book again and lit a white candle
When the candle was about to burn out and feeling the effects of stopping my meds i changed into my full tibetian Buddhist robes some skater shoes and luckily i didn’t shave my head
I wandered around town for about 4 hours from about 4 am onwards and walked about 10Km or miles
Some of it barefoot
I could feel peoples thoughts of me wandering town in my full robes, laughing, pointing, people saying why does he have hair that sort of thing but i went on
I was going to leave town and go meditate in the forest when i came to the bus terminal
And broke down almost
I knew i was in an altered state from stopping my medication for a serious mental illness
I phoned my ex and he said to me that he knew i was heartbroken and he is sorry
I just broke down and walked through Chinatown in my full robes to have people shaking their fists at me in anger and i kept walking to the police station through the heroin town in downtown Vancouver
Where i told the attendant that i had stopped my medication and i needed help
An ambulance and officers were called to attend to me and i was brought to the hospital where i had been given my medication again.
Over the night thankfully i stabilized
The next day hit me and i remembered i was due to go to whistler with my ex and his cat
We were going to a five diamond hotel for a few days
I said to the doctor can i please leave since i am a voluntary admission i have been looking forward to this for months
I said i was stable and he agreed with me and told me that i may be on this medication for the rest of my life and he asked me if i learnt my lesson of stopping the meds too soon. I said yes and i was off for a drive up to whistler and checked into the beautiful and ritzy hotel where i spent the weekend in complete surrealism
Over the next few days i forgot about everything when we came back to Vancouver i let a day or two pass and then i said to my ex “I’m sorry, i am too heartbroken. I have to leave you. I have to pack up my things and leave town. I cant stay with you anymore. My heart is broken completely. My life is no longer here. I need to leave.”
I left that night and went to Victoria and have been in the same spot since
Since then i have lost over 100lbs i have completed 41 chapters in my rough draft in my book. I have completed over 400 perpetual male rave pop art pieces and about another 300 variations.
I have discovered my independence and figured out essentially how gifted i am to be alive.
While i know now that that person was not my soulmate, i have a tremendous amount of respect for him. For keeping me alive for so long. For literally rescuing me from a drug induced life where i would have surely died without his care. For giving me a safe and beautiful home to live in and run and for giving me the safety needed to start my second life business.
While any relationship has inherent mistakes and pros and cons.
I am fortunate to still be in contact with this angel, while it has been very tough, i mean very very tough and we have been on two cruises and essentially we were contracted to be together and once the contract expires thats it for both ends of the spectrum
While it was tough and very dangerous to be in.... this is how i came to my new life
After a somewhat restful 7 year vacation and almost marriage
Here i am in the world.
Able to lead the church of techno, finish my novel. Lead the Perpetual Rave Male pop art movement
And discover what ascension and evolution/enlightenment actually means
With that i discover true happiness and true life and love
I have been on my own since about 15 yrs old so it nice to reconnect with those that care about the progression of my soul.
I ask my guides to come find me and what i get is a nice delight it is a dogfish sometimes swims around canadian waters and is very nice they basically look like a shark and also have a nasty bite as well
Well i found myself in a plaza where i saw a girl that could breakdance while pregnant lol i dunno she was pretty good at it, i was just concerned about the babe she was carrying while thrusting like that ‘breakdance bebe” apparently she found something that was going to turn her into a horrific creature
It activated and an assault group who met in a prison came and were going to try and find her to stop her
Next the dogfish took me to a jail and a parking lot closeby as well i was being arrested and i had on one blue sock and one black sock i saw david icke who was super small and in tights dancing around at my feet in protest
I arrived at the jail and asked to be put into protective custody and the attendant said absolutely not and I told her to download my captivation pieces which she was going to do then i told her it was a grave breach of the geneva convention to go against my wishes
I was able to break the handcuffs in two. She placed me in solitary confinement after that.
Next the dogfish took me to an apartment where i met a guy that was a few years older than me and another guy who was his boyfriend who was a few years younger and we all lived together and were all in love deeply. And we all took turns to kiss each other and make out. It was pretty hot !!! we got along pretty well but was a tender embrace rather than a sexual lust
I had a few computers and one of those ipad ones and i was playing with it for a few hours and i made some love letters about how much i loved these two men and how much i adored them.
Beautiful embrace by the theoretical side
Trippy intune with a more philosophical nature
And infusion of a belief that there is no theory
There is no philosophy except for that which is present
That the entire would is one philosophical playground
And world of subliminal suggestion and artistic creativity
Amidst so much analytical reasoning
Makes one question the actual living presence of our reality
Anybody more deeply inclined that is
- Shaun A. Delage
