In the Middle Ages, male anxiety was not treated with conversation or reflection. It was treated with the body. Physicians of the time believed that excessive anger, melancholy, and restlessness in men came from an imbalance of bodily fluids — specifically, tension believed to gather in the testicles when desire was left unresolved. When the body was disturbed, the soul followed. To restore harmony, the fluids had to be regulated. The treatment had a name: therapeutic genital massage. It was not practiced in secrecy. Midwives performed it. Trained healers did. In some regions, even monks known for their devotion to natural philosophy were said to oversee the procedure, convinced they were serving both science and God. Men arrived in poor condition. Some trembled uncontrollably. Some wept without knowing why. Others were consumed by rage, snapping at servants and family alike. They described a pressure inside themselves — heat, restlessness, an agitation that would not fade. The treatment was methodical. Clinical. Spoken of in careful language. And it worked. Men left calmer. Their faces flushed, their steps slow and measured. The shaking stopped. The anger melted into quiet contentment. Healers recorded that patients departed “balanced,” walking gently, smiling faintly, as though something heavy had finally been released. Many returned. Some claimed their anxiety always returned on the same day each week. Others insisted the symptoms reappeared only if too much time passed between visits. A few, less convincingly, described familiar aches and unrest even when nothing seemed wrong. Appointments filled quickly. When asked what troubled them, the men answered with the same phrases again and again: “My fluids are unsettled.” “I must regulate what gathers below.” They did not speak of pleasure. They did not name desire. They believed — or pretended to believe — that this was medicine. But the Church was watching. And physicians were beginning to argue among themselves. Because beneath the calm faces and repeated visits lay an uncomfortable realization: the treatment did not cure the anxiety. It created dependence. The relief was temporary. The imbalance always returned. What had been presented as healing was quietly becoming ritual. And behind closed doors, whispers began to spread — that the practice was not restoring order, but encouraging indulgence. That monks who claimed devotion to science were crossing lines they no longer recognized. That what began as medicine was becoming something else entirely. Soon, authorities would intervene. Records would disappear. Manuals would be destroyed. The practice would be renamed, redefined, and eventually condemned. But long before it vanished from official history, those who experienced it understood one thing clearly: The body remembered the relief. And once awakened, it refused to be silenced. The true secret was never the treatment itself. It was how easily virtue learned to disguise desire — and how dangerous that disguise became once everyone agreed to believe it.

 

I find I hate reading stuff but love finding my groove through buddhist discourses (vocabulary and intellect wise) and debt podcasts and just really shortened my podcasts to those two things nothing else is interesting i like a lot of esoteric things but not all day but like I find I am never bored doing blogging art meditation dhamma talks and stuff its like stuffing stuff into my day seems like a lost cause only so many hours lol i spend a lot of time on social media and have found I have read quite a few of my occult books its funny I guess I have a fear of getting bored lol

 

 

Wall Street stole $100 trillion through naked short selling - and the NSA has tracked every transaction for 15 years We now know beyond the shadow of a doubt that Wall Street has stolen $100 trillion from Main Street with naked short selling. All of the illicit wealth in the world has been tracked by the National Security Agency for the past 15 years. We also know that Wall Street has laundered $100 trillion in dirty money from trafficking drugs, guns, and gold. 90% of the people in the US government, the US military, the US intelligence community are good people trapped in a bad system. The secret intelligence community serves the Deep State. It does not serve the American public. And the CIA in particular has been doing rendition and torture, drone assassination, regime change, helping to start wars based on lies. All because war and trafficking in humans and drugs are a profit center for Wall Street and the Deep State. And once the president processes 100% of what we have at NSA - we have every single one of you by the balls. The evidence exists. The receipts are there. Justice is coming. #truth #wallstreet #nakedshortelling #NSA #deepstate

 

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got an exercise bike I was 70 lbs overweight forever now need to lose about 50# so my days of being huge are over haha could only do 5 min for my first ride today but like it never really bothered me much but I want to fit into smaller less obese buddha clothes and be healthy it really allowed me to tap into my inner nature and creative side than rely on good looks hahaha I have been many body types through my life but it never really affected me much I guess that is a good thing hahaha most of it was weight via medications and lack of exercise not sitting here eating all day and it does come on quick over 40 lbs a year with no exercise if you are not careful with some delivery lol

 

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