beyond perception

I always start each discourse with a blank page hehe seems to work but I am shocked at how easily i express myself in the written form

I have been investigating Buddhist monastic life and have discovered that I don’t feel its for me.

I just have a love of men, and the freedom to do what I what I wish.

I feel my enlightenment is best not served somewhere in the middle of a furest

What a difference one day can make, but I am also going through addiction issues as well at the moment, nothing serious god no, just 420...but I am shocked at the hold it has over me even a simple plant

My enlightenment is best served out here alongside my brothers and sisters in the fight for the liberation of the human race. What are we liberating? It is the entire species from captivity and the slave state.

I have wondered alot about Nazism in modern times, and there exists shadow worlds alongside ours that are invisible that they were able to tap into, as well as claim some Antarctic landmass as their next location as a hub for world domination.

To rule invisibly seems to be the greatest skill. Many may wonder who is around them, or who it is in the media that is so familiar. Who their friends are etc.

These are all reflections of this state of familiarity that is around each individual. Mainly these systems are put into place to stop the person from literally killing themselves and leaving this dimension all together. Because if you see things how they really are, you would want to move too.

The Nazism was able to be put into effect in countless dimensions with the induction and sacrifice of so many people so horrifically and not to mention the practice of the dark arts.

The nazi and hell state is all around us, it is in suffering, every choice we make, the people around us. But also....It is in our very minds, which can be coaxed along through visual cues and neuro linguistics

We live in an all out apocalypse for humanity....To ignore the suffering all around seems infantile but there are systems and checks in place by those that govern over us and police us and judge us. Including things like the sex offender registry in the USA which groups people that are exhibitionist with people that commit crimes against children.

Until the very nature of this litigious society and resulting crimes against humanity can be investigated including the use of such laws including the nazi indian registration, the paradox of healthcare, the evil draconian laws on our freedoms and the systems of taxation and the system we live in itself not to mention the initiated people appointed figureheads over our future in this maritime law society we live in..i dont feel i have a role contributing towards crimes against humanity, in the seeming freest countries on earth.

There are hundreds of thousand of laws and statutes regarding human activity in place over our bodies, and our minds almost our souls.

What is taking place right this very moment is a revolution of individualism. We have people that have been pushed too far and we have whole regions that are unstable because of the marketing that is done on behalf of countries like the west and Europe as to our supposed and seeming freedoms we enjoy

Only if you submit to a freemasonic societal slaverat ideology  however

Where there is a disdain for intellectualism and a disdain for the arts. What kind of society is this but illusion. What is the USA and CANADA

Not much if you think about it. One big building with a rotunda, a ton of fax machines, a computer with every citizens info, and a room full of people. What I ask is why so many give so much power and money over to these monsters whom are initiated sell outs

The democratic governance in the west is ALIEN rulership.

You cannot be elected because of charisma alone, you must fulfil several pre-contrived abilities

Almost like bringing your resume and hunting for a job you have to go through many steps like references and dressing nice for the interview and suck up to the boss etc You cant just walk in and say hey i would like to work here and bam you have the job

The steps needed to be a minister of the government or of the ruling class are by their very nature alien and Masonic ideology and the fact that the governers don’t even belong to the greater community that they obsess about ruling over. They seem to be coming from the higher echelons and chosen to lead over the many lower class just almost symbiots below them

Each day brings a plethora of new meditations, realizations, and inclusions into mindsets which people normally don’t get to discover. In my meditations I have discovered that we are in the endtimes. The best thing anybody can do at this point is prepare for the change that is about to occur with the youth taking the power from these dinosaurs that have no idea what the hell an mp3 is or even a torrent for that matter yet they blindly pass laws that will restrict our freedom of association, our freedom to explore the vast world. Our freedoms to explore cyberspace.

We are in quite a chaotic time, but what would happen if the revolution was won? Well there would be councils setup to explore this, and I believe we would go back to tribal rule. Other dimensional portals would begin to be found and would find us. People would not have endless debt to worry about or the stress and trauma of employment/slavery

The community would be able to hold true to its tribal rule amidst so much technological freedom

Reason I say tribal rule is because I feel strongly that the elitists will take every chance they can get to destroy everything we enjoy through things like disease, ruining the power grid and sabotaging every last dignity we have in an all out catastrophe

BUT

What if this whole world around you and the people you know and the place you live and everything you know is a carefully contrived illusion. That if you need to die to progress into a multitude of dimensions. That you too need to go through a painful or horrible death by nuclear radiation, breaking into boils etc this is what is being played out now and most are too ignorant to take notice

But, it would all be worth it wouldn’t it

See I visit other dimensions all night in my dreamstate, longtime readers know this about me

What I am scared of mostly though is being trapped here forever and ever ....I want to explore billions of galaxies and meet people that are humanoid but purple with sparkles I want to do it all man

I just don’t want my soul to be charted by the Harper.obama.clinton.pontficate.windsor cartel/regime

They are fine charting the territory over the dominion of my mind and body but let me tell you they will never have my soul. Not many people get to look into the nature of their soul, or have the ability to travel astrally or dimensionally and if you can you are of a very few.

We are in a state of total collapse and technically everything you see hear and do is illusion

What are the next steps?

To prepare yourself for change, to do that which is right (in all circumstances) to think universally, to not do what everyone else is doing, to object to tyrannical behaviour amongst the ruling elite, to oppose and object the systems and laws in place around your being

I hope I have given you some things to ponder as I ask nothing in return and also can never get back the last 25 min or so that I spent typing out this message..yesterday I was a buddhist monk and today I relate with the anonymous movement and fuck it all hahaha

Peace

-          Shaun A. Delage  

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monastic wait

Even one day in ascension is difficult, which is why people choose ritual like employment and other things to keep themselves amused. I have been in serious contemplation over Buddhist monastic life. Not only because of my own inherent spiritual programming but the desire to do something with my life that is epic that has substance that has meaning.

Every chance I get and I do get close to going away to discover this part of me, people get suspicious and say things that make me wonder. What is monastic life but doing the work of the lord Buddha.

In a way I have wanted to become a monk since about 20 yrs old. It is a complex theory to want to be a Buddhist monk because doing the buddhas work is very appealing and very sound and very honourable

I find I don’t really have an attachment to sexuality. I mean of course I am gay. But I don’t enjoy regular gay sex like everyone else, maybe a by product of my sex work I have no idea.

I don’t really have a purpose or a role in society. I am not receiving any help whatsoever as far as ascension goes from the system and this leads me to believe I am being held in pseudo captivity

The only way I can really discover this, is if I go discover the meditation centre on my own.

It is pretty far, quite the setback financially to go visit which is why i was looking for assurances of my safety and security, something the centre is not willing to provide.

They have only told me that first time visitors to the centre are limited to 10 day stays

They want to meet me and get to know me.

I think I would be a prime candidate to enter a monastic order, I have the devotion, the happiness, the life experience, and the ability to give discourses. But also in this is my ability to live simply while people ten years younger are passing me by so to speak.

I guess in a way I have tried the householding life, I have experimented living on my own with a roommate the past 3 years and I seriously question whether I have a role out in this reality

I think my involvement in a spiritual faith would ground me, and fill me with its own enlightenment

Of course I am petrified of people and stuff like this, new things. To show up one day and say I am moving in seems a bit out of place but also in the right regard how can I be sure I want to live there without even showing up to meet the people and monks and teachers behind the order.

I am putting some deep thought into this and I don’t know where the answers will lead me

But I do know I am going through a societal dysphoria in a sense. I feel I have no directive in a slave based society. Philosophy is my main language. I cant seem to find a suitable mate with qualities I seek

Plus I have been mostly celibate for about 10 years off and on minus virtual secks But I mean with another partner I can count on one hand. This makes me a bit of an oddity and I even saw my psychiatrists face when I told him I practice celibacy and renunciation

When I listen to Buddhist discourses on birkens website I only grow more fond of monastic life ....Then I understand how I am treated by those men that I am supposed to be in love with and I am only left with more questions.

What leads me onto this path is complex. Terribly complex. It is a combination of poverty, my living situation with family, slavery, enlightenment, meditation, my dissatisfaction, my frustration with society

This constant barrage of information that is taking place puts one person on the level of a microprocessor and you are constantly being used as a digital tool

Then you throw in fear based psychological operations and other things like media and music and we have ourselves an illusion of identity

I guess in a way I have been in an observational state. Observing those people attached to reality and studying them. I see how inherently dissatisfied they are and how they use things like addiction, drama and anger to solve their inherent paradox of enslavement

Another issue all together is my income. I am on a priests wage but they don’t give me a penny more. It is barely enough to pay all my bills and live on and spending money is usually out of the question

I have always wanted to meet a guy that could help me with this or whatever but no men seem to want to include themselves in my life, and I have looked, maybe I am unapproachable

 I truly believe I want to be around people that are like me, think like me, have depth, character, they have goals of ascending and becoming enlightened and helping others

There is the fear that sets in like oh man I will be living in a hut in the forest with no hair or eyebrows in robes kind of a pathetic existence lol but it is much more than that.

It is putting yourself into a role that matters, where you have substance, where you are in effect a spiritual leader. You have worked to attain your own personal enlightenment

I have never given in to too much ceremony or ritual in Buddhism and have never really attached to group meditations or whatever

People around me say I should start out small with baby steps and perhaps just go to meditate with a group or something

But it is deeper than that, it is about being immersed in the culture, being safe, having the rules in place for protection ...nothing I will find by attending a weekly meditation it just couldn’t offer me the same serenity

My income too is for life, So I am at a very opportune time to discover this. Even if I choose not to handle one more dollar oh well but if i discover I dont enjoy them then I  have the ability to hop on a plane if need be and come back to reality.
I am a strange raver as you can tell lol 

I don’t know if I will come to any conclusive results in my meditations this week

I guess we will all see

I like how this is developing though *smiles*

Take care of yourself

-          Shaun A. Delage

  

tinker trot

No better time than for a universal dispatch than now

This past week I have been job hunting, man hunting, and in the middle of my own personal retreat.

I have also been dealing with the roller coaster of marijuana and the flood of emotions and the paradoxes of addiction

While it is nice to be me, I find in hunting for a job there is not much I can do.

My dexterity haunts me. I mean I cant serve coffee because I will spill it on people and I cant do tasks that require dexterity which is like 90% of jobs out there

And for those that don’t know I am a suicide survivor and along with my schizophrenia this loss of dexterity due to a serious self inflicted suicide attempt leaves me completely detached from the system

It is almost like I am forgotten within the matrix, an exile.

It is easy to get swept away in things i like to do like writing and art and virtual worlds

Part of me wants to blend with reality a bit more.

In hunting for a man, I don’t really think there is anybody with the qualities I seek...Family just visited and I observed the relationship dynamics at work and I question whether a man is right for me.

I don’t want somebody to defeat me or whatever at every turn.

I kinda want somebody that sees me as their equal

So it has been a wild ride on ascension. Not much planned for the next week except the GYM and chillen and reading some of the conspiracy novels I have.

I have been taking a break from writing my sequel because of the loss of 15 chapters

I am kinda grieving

Life is tough for me at the moment , but it could be alot worse

I mean when you live in a society where all of your basic needs are taken care of. Why complain ?

Be at peace with your existence.

I have faith in the future, that the world will open up to me as well...not just countless others.

Just have to be patient

-          Shaun A. Delage

THEY ARE BROADCASTING AT THE 666 megahertz soundwave alien communication at ALL times.

Xeno Comics- necronim series

I wanted to showcase once more the comics i have made with a special software remaining pop art of the new millenium ...the software is now lost so they are rares now yum yum rare virtual comics yum yum


this is the Rev. Kai and myself series , in case you missed these last week ,  I made these when I was the gay husband to rev kai for 3 months in a gay sex blitz in second life. lol

MaLe ArtWeRkZ GALLEria #21

RAVER XENO SPOTTED AT CIRKUIT DREAMS

Photgraphed by 'celebrity photographer' EDDI HASKELL

dogleg

Seperation of oneself from the past seems to be societies greatest struggle …but more than that it is the individual humans struggle as well with things like addiction to drugs and alcohol to cover up the pain of a life.

What is life but a pseudo prison sentence with freedoms. Constant barrage of information regarding your pseudo captivity is hidden from you at all times while being masked in the aura of free market enterprise and capitalism

In a world with almost infinite things to buy it is tough for one not to be materialist

In my gay community materialism seems to be the leading characteristic amongst gay people along with the addiction to sex and alcohol

I don’t attempt to vilify sex or alcohol either while funny to be seen as a conservative raver in my discourses it is ok to drink it is ok to have sex and shoot a load it is ok to buy a $1000 jacket on your visa

But what I am saying is that when materialism runs your life that is all you become

You only become the $400 jacket you bought that was regular $1000

It seems people have lost their spiritual and ancient purpose so they mask it in their slavery and materialism – it seems to be a catch all for those that have no direction or abilities

I have always blogged that people that are inherent slave minded do anything they can to prop up their innermost slave state while ignoring the greater societal issues, simply because they are too busy slaving away to take notice. Then when they are not slaving away it is this endless chase for sex and booze and drugs to mask their pain and injuries sustained while slaving

Slavery is something we all have to live with but what would life be like without slavery

Well people would not have so many burdens like mortgages, endless and tiring debt, addictions etc

When one begins to strip away the layers of illusion in their life it is amusing to note those that scatter around you like locusts trying to repopulate the ideology that you so despise.

Stripping away layers of illusion is tiring and exhaustive work in the mind because you can literally feel when your being stepped on and most don’t do anything about it

Then you have people and like I spoke of materialism I also want to go into social life a bit more

It seems those without an active social life are vilified as psychotics and funny thing is when you practice isolation that is one of the only methods you have to experience peace and enlightenment and ascension and a world without illusion

You are simply left with the self. Most people cannot handle their being. Their presence. They find themselves boring or whatever But funny thing is too that those that block ascension in all avenues in their lives seem to be the most bored. Those that welcome ascension and evolution are constantly welcoming new experiences in their presence

I have really been questioning my place in the world lately

I have been pondering the Buddhist monastic life in depth

I have been relating society to me

Tirelessly searching for a purpose, a reason for being here, a career …anything

Seems to be the hobbies I have besides my enlightenment is the gym and meditation lol quite the life

This reminds me of my anomalous state

That I am here to oppose the structure in place with a Christ consciousness

I have qualms with god and divinity but nothing that cant be solved without some ascension

I question my beings role here and how much of an oppositional force I am in the system

It is a setback , you feel defeated, injured etc

Somebody said to me you have the same chance here as everyone else

I seriously question that because not many average folk have had what I went through on my captivation document and live to tell about it

While the document scares away people that are not likeminded it allows me the power to enter likeminded souls lives and make an impression

I don’t believe that my going public I am going to change people

But the goals of this virtual ministry to is to help others ascend and liberate the written word and do that which is right

Not many gay, Buddhist, raver, perpetual teen, reverends out there lol

Time to make it last I say

-          Shaun A. Delage

I will add a post script to this posting which is rare indeed for my blog while most posts follow the same artistic code it is funny because most may wonder about the graphics on here and most of em are all created by meh and who am I well here is a recent pic of me in my bathroom mirror with the camera phone. hottie or cutie well I will let you decide lolz I was just talking to afriend about how I get mistaken for 16/17 all the time but funny I am not an egotist mainly because I used to be 300 lbs... not anymore I am proud of how far I have come. so cutie or studbuddy you decide but haha I know I wont be single for much longer trying to smile at some hawties :) sorry is kinda blurry lolz cant do much about that :P not many reverends that look like me I figure and they lie, they touch themselves... they just dont want to say they do lol priests

fav hoodie (now worn out/faded so rare pic zomg)

still have an aura that is tripped, messed , slick, whacked

Rev. Dr. Shaun A. Delage DD MA

Matrix Techno Universalist

I just ask one question why does my generational abuse bloodline share almost the exact same coat of arms birds as the 33rd degree freemasonry crest .....maybe the answers are too secretive to be found

bebe puppy

Nothing really to do at this point so i thought i would ramble on in a universal dispatch

I have personally been feeling the edges of 2012 hit and it will come into focus predominately with the induction of the year clicking into focus, 2012. At most our only issues remain with the fact that our problems are un solvable marketwise or capitalist wise.

Nobody understands their existence unless they begin to isolate themselves from the social norm.

Thankfully I will be graced with a 2 week silent retreat. I think it will be awesome to enter into a summertime full on dhamma retreat with 3 discourses a day. Meditation 3 times in between a nap twice water approximately 14 times and yea fun lol

I am going away to catsit again soon. I love felines. Caring for an animal is my greatest wish.

I just heard the barefoot bandit will get about 10 years in jail and have to pay the victims of his crimes with the movie deal to his life story. It is funny how the world literally ignores me while I embark on a journey that places me in one of the most famous existences on earth call it ego mania but even psychiatrists whom are educated enough to diagonose ego maniacal behaviour are very much ego maniacal themselves with all of their distinctions. Their power etc

I was fortunate enough to meet a baby puppy these past few days and it reminded me of creation. I was in a way honoured to be one of the first people it encounters on its path. I am filled with feelings of happiness and love and compassion for the animal. In some ways I wish I was a baby puppy but perhaps I am in the incarnation doing the things I want to do presently

It has occurred to me, that I have substance besides the almost etheric residual net that exists all around us, the walking dead of the matrix so to speak. It would seem that everyone and their dog is given an incarnation so that we may see the change in the world and witness the untold horrors of existence.

One could only be happy with their present existences but that is not the case essentially.

Most people are angry about something or detest their own humanity for example to treat others with dignity. This includes people in your own governance. This sadist need to govern over the masses in a capitalist paradise is by its very nature illusion but remains one of our greatest preoccupations

Spending more time in nature to achieve my goals lately –I am filled with many reasons for existing yet i remain an urban hermit for various reasons. Too scared to come out or whatever

I have been really pondering three courses of action. #1 Ph.D In universal theory #2 Freeman on the land and #3 My artist portfolio

I know with enough reflection and dedication if I came into the amount needed to edit my book I would be set for life. I have to have faith in the future. I like to view my book as a retirement fund rather than a shelved manuscript at this point lolz

People all around are in this so called purgatory of distraction until it comes to their presence that their time is up ...People usually live oblivious to suffering...detached from their own bodily functions for example. But one should embrace all avenues of humanity and never fear too much inside their human vision state. One thing I do know is that I am scared of finding a man I mean not many men exist with the qualities i seek so I guess I am better off on my own totally independent of coupledom hehe

One exists in all  ...Where is your home? Who are you? Why are you here ? what is your career?

-I cant answer that for you but you CAN start on the path of ascension anytime
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I ask my guide to show me the way and what i get is a nice delight i get a fly we Went to a strange city on a tram and was trying to get to university really expensive city to visit dimensionally and expensive to go see man it cost me alot of money to see this place got to university and took my first course and was doing stuff on math and these people were cutting off the live legs of lizards and i thought that was disgusting and quit the course and i was talking to people in the atrium but i was like god the course was so horrific and I was having a sandwich in the atrium and A guy said I had something in my teeth and he put his hands up to my face but cutting off the live lizards legs was seriously gross. Next i wandered the same city and caught a bus to nowhere totally lost and no GPS or planet or anything I was seriously lost in a matrix and there are hundreds of thousands of miles to explore so I was trying to get my bearings and I pull out a map and I am in the middle of a city the size of my home province british Columbia . the end stop of the bus and there was trucks and trains they were hauling people on those and i didn’t want to go farther than that i wanted to explore the city some more.  Met up with a guy at a restaurant next and he ordered chicken and fries and the chicken was succulent I mean amazing and we were going to go to the casino later and we shared this chicken meal we walked through a bunch of cars and the scene was a collage of reality vs fiction next i wandered to a great park and nothing happened lol

-          Shaun a. Delage