I used to always have a dissatisfaction of where I lived, be
it the city or in a shoebox apartment, never would I have ever dreamed that I
would be living in a loft cabin in the forest with a family.
This is why in my manifestation I group things in with
wealth, because I don’t want my entire manifestation to be wasted just solely
looking for money.
I live in a detached cabin about 100 steps from the main
road in a resort community surrounded by forest and I feed a few squirrels some
seeds every week I put out some sunflower seeds, pumpkin seeds, raisins,
cranberries, pecans, and this week I am going to give them a few dried apricots
as a treat.
We have deer that snack on bushes outside our front living
room window, and my panorama outside the living room and kitchen is a beautiful
forest interlude with the passing seasons, my view the past decade has been a
parking lot and ocean a few blocks away and a busy city street
Never before had I dreamed I would be living this rural. I
actually moved in and out twice, the first time I didn’t think I could do it, I
felt in a sense like I would be cut off from everything but it is exactly the
opposite a 2 minute drive away I can get sushi, donairs and subway which is
funny, I don’t know why it was such a big deal the first time because I rarely
leave the house and most of my waking life is on the internet.
My last living situation was with family and it just was
brutal people coming into the apartment all the time and the phone ringing off
the hook, and a bird that emitted thousands of chirps a day I was literally
trapped in a room or cell and spent about 3 years in there lost in my virtual
world of my book.
Now I have more freedom, and a better diet, when I had to
live on my own I really struggled on my income, I figured out dozens of ways I
could turn hamburger into multitudes of meals, from cheeseburgers to slowcooker
stews and patties to filler for pasta and it was tough.
One of the reasons I started my book, because I wanted a way
out creatively –I went from living with the illusion of nothing to worry about financially to
worrying about every single dollar and now I have more of a fluid financial
outlook, I feel like I have more buying power, more structure, more love and
more substance and purpose. I truly believe that one does not realize their true potential until they have to live with poverty, and sacrifice, within limits. Most people are relatively co-dependent and just float from relationship to relationship in a sense, it was a very empowering experience to be truly on my own so to speak, but not one I would repeat, but also I am afforded a pension that gives me certain freedoms over people that have to work, so limiting financially but a life of true independence, one that allows me time to focus on enlightenment, so a reason why I continue to serve my world with my projects, I feel free.
Caring for two daughter felines is quite the task because
they have totally opposite personalities, on one hand I have pickles, whom is a
kitten only a few years old, very independent and a hunter, eats only chow. And
on the other hand I have MissTivitz a senior cat, whom is so affectionate I
swear you could cuddle her for 22 hours a day and that still isn’t enough, she
loves to nuzzle in and eats pate most of the time and chow when she has too.
Balancing both the felines needs and characteristics has
been one of my greatest challenges and comforts.
I have aligned perfectly with the energies of the earth and
nature being out here – rather than synthetic urban design, it is comforting
and therapeutic in a sense, because I get to live as a monk without all the
rules and restrictions.
I feel so accomplished having given up virtual slots,
smoking, and smoking 420. However I don’t judge people who choose vice, if a
joint came my way these days I wouldn’t hesitate but smoke it lol
I have found I have a very difficult obsessive and addictive
personality so to balance that in me, teaches me that I can temper my cravings
and desires. I still drink alcohol on weekends however and it is a fun little
vice, I mean I have to have something.
In a way I really miss these things in my life, all three,
but with virtual slots it is easy to spend every waking cent I have on those
fun cartoonish games, and with smoking with the rate I smoke I would die by 47
yrs old and I have officially quit for 2 months now and I have saved $360 so
that is just epic. And with marijuana I honestly love this too much, it opens
my creative center and allows me to be very focused on games and silly stuff, I
wrote most of my book while high and did my thousand pieces of art –honestly I
wouldn’t have been able to do that much art without going insane if I didn’t
smoke some 420.
But with my illness It is probably the worst thing on earth
for me, It causes extreme paranoia, hinders my decision making skills, and
causes psychosis. So happy to say goodbye to all three.
I think to be truly enlightened –at some point an individual
needs to align themselves with nature, at some point in their lives. I don’t
think it comes down to the food you eat or how cleaned out your colon is lol
but what you think about, your thought process, and the choices you make, the
things you visualize and dream about and the people you surround yourself with.
It exactly has to do with your surroundings, if you want wealth then you should
be in a higher income neighbourhood mimicking higher income people, listening
to classical music once and a while and watching a movie meant for the 40+
crowd, learning a few new words, surrounding your perception with thoughts and
entertainment of the opulent and perhaps a glass of red wine once and awhile.
So all in all I feel like I have achieved what most
absolutely cannot, a forest loft to meditate in, a life free from negativity,
beautiful natural surroundings, a cute caring man to share it with and a family
to laugh with and experience life. Meditation found me early on in life, a
divine and mixed interlude of positive karma and fortunate circumstances, I
feel blessed beyond any comprehension and look forward to my future in a life
free from addiction, pain, and trauma/sadness. The manifestation is definitely working!
-Shaun A. Delage
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