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I have really begun to question my role in the illusion of a metropolis ...
thankfully the newest satanic holiday passed by (nine one one)..they essentially ran out of satanic holidays so the bonesman created a new one for their orgies of blood and human meat eating. I always think to myself unless you were there when it happened it didn’t happen at all.
I dont believe everything the reality reich throws at me, I tend to question some things for weeks on end.
people say I am nuts when I say that New york and the world trade center towers dont exist and why would I say this, because unless you are standing next to the monument with your hand on it. It doesnt exist
Likewise how could you ever begin to understand the ritziness and wealth of a world cruise if nobody has ever taken you on a cruise.
Likewise if people are attempting to rule over you without being present than there is no basis for reality. Only where your presence is, is the reality. There are no countries or presidents or stars etc
Those are dimensional illusion  from your own being. anything you hear that is antithetical to your own presence is illusion. Where you are making $25K a year and you watch on TV somebody with a $50,000,000 house, this is illusion. what are the chances of you ever purchasing that house, it is out of your reach, another dimension. People are living in fractal realities you would never dream of
The world is set up like this, there are destinations and cliques only for those that have proved to have sold the nature of their soul. While we plebs sit and dine at the chicken shack while the rich are eating fattened duck liver to stay full. Would you want the fattened duck liver or the small hen in an egg to eat feathers and all ? I think not. Their life is not that appealing lolz
only through suffering can you experience what enlightenment means, likewise through renunciation. 

So seemingly so this would make most interactions online illusion of sorts because they sort of peek into your reality ... Reality itself is a carefully contrived illusion ...hacked from the dreamstate and made into an ever presence complete with hybrids who will uphold the slave state, and the realism at any costs

People that come and affect change in the world through performance art or what have you are always seen as changing the sphere of thought. Most don’t have the time to do art or write a book for example.

It would seem those in metropolis’s are taxed with time just no time at all ....those that live in rural locations have all the time and peace in the world. I have been questioning my role out here because I have been shown a place where I could be a forest monk and still have my hair and run my ministry

To leave reality it seems to be the strongest meditation available but I feel I would do anything for love itself. And this is my greatest setback. I actually enjoy the challenges that love brings.

I have been pretty dissatisfied with life lately, virtual income just trickling in, dealing with the plethora of negative emotions with marijuana withdrawl but yet I hold onto various degrees of enlightenment...I just wonder lately (thanks to a hot cowboy/horseman/horse whisperer hehe) my role out here....am I missing much ? lolz

Then I am also reclusive and isolated. I observe people in their realities and there is not much of a reality in some peoples lives. Part of me would like to say goodbye to the city. I think I am perfect for being out in the middle of nowhere. I mean I can sit and type for a week no problem.

I think it would be a process to unplug from the matrix and unplug from the system and the metropolis

So many people are just addicted to simple trivialities in the matrix like pot or booze that will lead them through a lifetime of addiction

I am faced with myself after a month long binge. I love myself. I love the fact that I don’t have to deal with the ADD symptoms like when I do have marijuana in the same day but have to fiend
so essentially I have myself and my thoughts back
it would be nice to say that I am a waste the past month of smoking marijuana every day
but the discourses themselves turn shorter and more creative so essentially it is me still.
Then you have the people that dont want to listen to the rantings of me online and that is great there are billions of other places one could go, I dont tie people to this blog 

There exists no method to safely come off marijuana, and caffeine. No pill nothing so were left to either suffer through withdrawl or suffer through addiction.

Part of me wanting to explore this newfound forest reality in my mind has enabled me to question my surroundings, my path, my future.

Part of me wants to make it inclusive to a newfound virtual mate. I think in a way I question whether I am ready for a relationship. A guy with tendencies to asexuality and avoidance in a relationship doesn’t have any part in it.

But also, I figure out essentially that what I had before wasn’t love. It was only love in my eyes. I want this power to exist for both eyes really not just mine. I dont think I have ever experienced true love or true romance. I believe I have discovered parts of it. but a relationship with affection and intimacy has evaded meh so no wonder I call myself asexual at this point. Asexuality is funny because it is not celibacy like the religious orders practice. Asexuality is a dis interest in sex with random partners.
Then given my experience with the masons in the tower with my twin and AIDS
no wonder I call myself this, have a fear of sex, and have a fear of catching an illuminist based illness
and I have no doubts in my mind the elixirs exist to cure one of this virus if you pay enough or essentially have sold their souls

My greatest wish , perhaps to start an intellectual romance, turn the guy onto me intellectually and then it will all fall into place. But what is intellectualism without compassion or happiness or the theory you try and broadcast without sounding too complex. My life is terribly complex I am realizing. but when I am present visually in person I am a simple country boy too shy, not too talkative
Have the need to release tension every day like everyone else lol 

I enjoy what my own mind throws at me, and the mind of the matrix because I am in a literal sense able to hack my own reality and make it ever expansive and ever present ....Thanks to the horse whisperer cutie I am able to bring my presence from where it is into the country in some rustic setting under the watchful eye of a loving and supportive man who worships me.
This is not based out of ego either, I long for the day when true love will hit and I can show how loving and affectionate I can be rather than shy, withdrawn, isolated etc 

When you begin to question your own reality and that of the matrix you begin to solidify in the need to unplug and I am one of the only ones that I have made contact with that has the desire to dabble in intellectualism and the process of illusion. But I also am the only human being I know.
There is nothing like me, in my entire city nor my country nor my continent
well
I have found a few like me on the same continent but they remain scattered
the rest are hybrids, illusion, reptillians or automatons whatever you want to call them lol 

What a difficult process where your seen as psychotic or sick for wanting to question reality. With a few swipes of the keyboard your every past mistake can be shown to the public and you could be made out to be a psychopathic  sex crime induced weirdo but this is the nature of the matrix

This is one of the reasons why I came public with my trauma document captivation was to have a place online with my every secret on a piece of paper, because after that...I have nothing to lose...

I am not scared of people using anything against me. I am not scared of what people think about me. I stopped caring a long time ago. Which is why I countered shortly after my diagnosis to entitle myself with reverend and doctor. Because you cannot be a reverend in universalism and a doctor of divinity without any universal knowledge or divinity in you.

I guess what I seek is a non scene, non materialist, cute, hunky, manly, deep, shy, studly, calm, meditating, country boy to call my own!

I worry that I cant provide the happiness needed for absolute enlightenment and love to take place with all my qualities but I feel is worth the effort. Materialism is a big one for me. All people have in the matrix is materialism. Me, I have a room full of stuff, but happy leaving it all for a flight to Tokyo if need be lol some people aren’t like that. I think materialism and sex are the greatest illusions of society currently but also they are the most heavily propped up desires to fund.

just the ability to have sex with random people is too much of an attraction to most
so sex is left as meaningless and pointless with the hybrids or whatever not even focused on love making but their problems and everything else
Were shown media about the total sellouts and all the crap they own. The gadgets and stuff. We become envious and jealous.

I think me living rurally is a good option. I think I have alot to offer somebody that is reasonably human. Believe me I have searched for a man with human qualities and have not found much out there that is why I am happy pouring myself into my art or whatever
I have struggled with the concepts of my life the past week and just simply questioning my role.
Being a writer is difficult because you dont get paid for hundreds of hours of hard work
you have to really believe in yourself
likewise, instead of going on the rebound and being co dependent could you imagine if you gave yourself some time to really come to a love for oneself before you can love another 

It would be a new experience, coupling, intimacy, and affection.

I have been single for 3 years now. Used to being totally alone.
I dont want to rush things either, I just want things to evolve naturally....It is tough being an aries because I know what I like and what qualities I am attracted too. I have goals of marrying somebody with the qualities I seek, not just to get hitched and be taken care of in a sense. But to unite and because most of all, I can provide a lifetime of companionship without it ever feeling awkward. I am able to converse freely about subjects and with my enlightened nature. I believe I have alot to offer a symbiance of sorts. When one person falls out of love in a relationship or if the love was never there in the first place then what is enlightenment of one of those in the coupledom going to project. Seemingly would be a waste of time, to try and spread your enlightenment to somebody that has a built up hostility over you
I also believe that a relationship is pretty much illusion
why say this?
because each person literally props up the others ego structure. What most lack is somebody that shares the same interests. Many people are introduced or whatever or just fall into a relationship.
Not many people look for 3 years str8 for specific qualities and in a sense interview dozens upon dozens in chat only to find nothing
I believe I have alot to offer. For a lifetime of happiness for somebody that believes in me.
I have written a book, I have 200 pieces in my art portfolio. I have overcome tremendous amounts of adversity, I have a virtual ministry. I believe I have more depth than a whole site like plenty of fish or craigslist combined....after reading profiles people lack depth. They lack a vivid reality
most I talk to lack that "fuck it all" quality lol people are so obsessed with elevating themselves through slavery or materialism to really come to terms with their inherent enlightened state.
I am almost an anti aries. People hearing about an introverted aries is a delight lol because we are the first ones to figure out socializing in reality, the first ones to figure out jacking off hahaha the list goes on but we will always be the first one to jump off a bridge to save somebody .
This whole rural life may not happen, but it is at least fun to dabble in for the week, gets my mind of 9-11 lol 

I want to get to know somebody with the qualities I seek, kinda funny to say hey I wanna marry you and you havent even met lolz
I am keenly interested in forest monks call it an obsession so the ability to be a forest monk and still keep my hair and have sex and eat dinner seems appealing to me. lol call me simple. But I just imagine myself starving to death in a hut with no hair or eyebrows and a urine bucket next to me and I think my life would have pretty much ended lol
Just traversing the reality seems to be challenging. Attempting to educate somebody on my virtuosity proves challenging considering the magnanimity of my virtuosity hehe

Mixed with those that don’t think like me, that despise my every action proves challenging as well because I want to be in an inclusive and inviting environment.

Maybe I am just looking for somebody to believe in meh

I question my reality? please question yours too. It is the only thing we have left .

-          Shaun A. Delage

    p.s. on another subject.... hope you like chairman mew (below on sept 11th) that is the only thing I could visualize as a posting for the tenth anniversary of the towers falling lolz it is horrible how many people died what 3000?
      well what about the hundreds of thousands our  north american and internationalist forces are ritually beheading in the countries that seemingly started this whole "war" when alex jones rants about global governance and microchips I feel like shaking the weirdo and saying "dude, is already here" 

                                  PEACE LOVE UNITY AND RESPECT 

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What better of a way to pass the time than a universal dispatch  

I was pondering universalism lately because you could say that the world is somewhat closet cased universalist, but not in title only, most of our systems and beliefs are that from very distant cultures. Cultures that are able to intrinsically hack contractual law for example then pass on their secrets to initiated disciples.

There are far more technologies being used in the vast world and the greater universe. One could say this place is a goldfish pond compared to what is going on in other places around the universe but one can also say that a prison structure could be construed internally as well

Very much so people that lack the qualities of ascension I feel will never help you ascend only to descend that is my greatest advice of the moment is to make sure your always inclusive in your thoughtform all degrees of compassion and happiness. These are the rarest qualities in humanity. You can never fake a laugh

Just listed all my art on deviantART been pretty fun ....first I had to blow up all the images then  i had to do a ten step procedure in photoshop to all 188 images which took 3 days but alas I am done and I rode azatlan the lion back from the caves of eternal digital despair.

I ask my guide to show me the way and what i get is a nice black ant it sent me wandering around side streets of a city had a bunch of money on me and was trying to get to a monorail in time had a quad bike I was riding looked at a map and was like miles and miles to go and I was trying to go on a train back into town but it was awhile away totally stressful running by people and corridors and buildings trying to get to the train in time

Spent some time talking about business practices in a post apocalypse setting chatting about the matrix and business practice of art

Some people make a lot of money in the virtual world and they were like people make tons of cash in the virtual world selling clothes and click was like your right

Came across a huge field with a  helicopter attached to it ..I wanted to dismantle it.

Went to a festival and some people were chosen to be elevated to a level of an internationalist by the people around them , after they were elevated they insisted on eating finer things and sitting at classy tables rather than dine with the plebs at the chicken shack

Was travelling through a city trying to get out of it was staying in a huge hotel which was kinda cool and a pocketful of cash and was trying to get out of town and out of the hotel finally I got a ride with somebody it was winter and it was really cold then I went to the washroom and cruised a guy and got a blowjob and he offered to give me a ride in a van to the trainstation

Sitting around in a crowded room and they roasted a pig and it had a head on it and everyone was contemplating eating it and some people that showed up to the party were vegetarian

Was roaming around the city trying to find a ferry with a cab driver trying to find a cruise ship port he didn’t know where he was taking me so I was constantly looking at a map ….i said your supposed to know where were going you’re the cab driver

peace and love unity and respect 

unity love peace respect 

respect love peace unity 

love peace unity and respect

Vibes now

Demand difference

Shaun A. Delage

Twinkle Sparkle

2012 as of itself is a negatively recurring thoughtform or curse, a curse is simply defined as negative intent. Nobody wants to say they have the date off by a few hundred years. In fact nobody knows what year it is, the year 2000 and all the history we have been taught is a carefully contrived illusion.

Begs me to differ when you see a priest walking down the street somebody would say who does he think he is. Rightfully so Who is the teacher…a liar, an illusion, further loss and conciousnesss withdrawl teaching in sadism.

That is what schools do, in place of roaming free and laughing, eating fruit of trees, and in a utopian paradise.

No we are locked away from nine to five while society functions. If you are deemed individual or eccentric as a child you become a target for a hateful policy driven system of administrators or a pawn by the other youth there forced against their will

You are directed to sit through most of it, in a seeming place of freedom of expression and freedom of individual expression.

I only say this because the youth prison system formerly known as the school system  I dropped out in grade 8 later on getting my GED after going through dozens of schools from kindergarden to high school

I was able to ascertain the illusion in all of it, the quackery of the staff. Naturally I revolted against an unkind system until I was forcibly removed from alternative school. I just went through the youthprison system, poor, treated miserably by staff and students, never received any therapy for this abuse endured.  I was under the abusive direction of some vice principal in grade 5 who brought me originally to the Lions club international for tagging IN A RITUAL lunch.

This date in which we have for a global age of consciousness to sweep the globe and either a huge april fools or something of alien intervention. Which essentially would force a global era of adoration and obsession with these creatures, all of which could be contrived in a lab.

Just to be a simple object for everyones hatred is amusing to oneself because you figure in essence the true natures of suffering. One could say that if you don’t face death head on, you will never know what life is. Not many people have had to go through what I have certainly not 99% of this blog or society

Quite the society of illusion

One where there are chosen consciousnesses with the ability to rule over massive amounts of people.  With massive amounts of power and authority and their disposal and they use that satanically to alter the timeline.

The time line, is paradoxical. Only those that know the access codes and have the technology to traverse the dimension go into parallel worlds even in their waking state, stepping into another dimension whenever you turn the key and go through a door in the matrix for example.

Ah writing is sadistic and defeating but enjoyable when you have nothing else to do

hehe

-Shaun A. Delage 

Fire-engine red

The matrix is built to produce negativity. From everything you do, from waiting in line to performing internet functions. This is key too, you begin to understand the workings of the world when you go on the net and everything seems to take 5 minutes to do. Then the system crashes on you. Then you go into start the computer and it physically checks every drive for error.

I have been really connecting to my independence lately. The fact that I am not co-dependent on anybody. As well I am not dependent on the sexual state to keep me pleasured either.

This makes me think of the actual humans, that I speak of. The artist types, the ravers, the millennium warriors. The 5 people you see chosen to navigate the ships through the matrix. You don’t see many people chosen to fulfill this role because they were judged paradoxically on their choices

I was really looking at media as direct satanic influence, not only this but when you get so intimate into a story on a movie or TV show, you become enveloped in the drama, it becomes your whole life. Gone are the cheesy jingles and sappy shows grandma used to watch.

Make way for deeply entwined romances marked with millennium warrior struggles. Ah I love independent film.

Being a priest of ultimate reality in the new millennium faces challenges. The one thing lately that I am very thankful to have gone through is the release of my debts.

Not many can do through that and you never really understand the depth of that $70 you send to visa, unless you don’t have to send it. Otherwise it just becomes a little blip on the screen, justa simple digital transfer because you have too, if you don’t they will call a level one collector to stalk you and eventually take away your card.

My next moves I am pondering artistically is the BLOW UP 2 software for Photoshop. This will allow me to list each art piece I have (I have 188 pieces) in my final portfolio….But it will also allow me to BLOW UP each piece without loss compression that I have been going through in photoshop because you have to follow advanced calculation to not have your photograph appear fuzzy

The setback is the software if $250 and I am not too keen on torrenting myself a copy.

Is funny because this one move on the chessboard would allow me to list my 188 pieces on 3 or 4 sites that have print on demand service. Best of all you choose the markup and commission. I had it set before at about $10 per piece.

Then I am editing my first book, and writing the sequel. I am having fun because I am beginning to see the construct of an epic novel and epic saga at best. It is funny because once it is written you can go back and change certain things in the novel, like make a character more raver in one scene for example…or be really descriptive like a “lanky, gaunt, emaciated old man walked through the square in a white shirt and cutoff shorts.” LoL

Part of my enlightenment means delving into the unknown, the hidden, the esoteric, the hidden realms of the matrix, as a superhero of sorts. Virtually that is what I am. I have an alter ego that is just incredible but Raver xeno mirrors my other self, just a tad…..tad more successful in the virtual world with two stores, and an online store too that pay for the in world location plus a new home I just built, a cuddle nook. Perfect for snuggling :_)

I didn’t really want to go all philosophical like I usually do, today. I just wanted to relay my own personal struggles so that I may better project to the disciples of the church.

Take care

Thanks for reading

-          Rev. Dr. Shaun A. Delage

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