I have really begun to question my role in the illusion of a
metropolis ...
thankfully the newest satanic holiday passed by (nine one one)..they essentially ran out of satanic holidays so the bonesman created a new one for their orgies of blood and human meat eating. I always think to myself unless you were there when it happened it didn’t happen at all.
I dont believe everything the reality reich throws at me, I tend to question some things for weeks on end.
people say I am nuts when I say that New york and the world trade center towers dont exist and why would I say this, because unless you are standing next to the monument with your hand on it. It doesnt exist
Likewise how could you ever begin to understand the ritziness and wealth of a world cruise if nobody has ever taken you on a cruise.
Likewise if people are attempting to rule over you without being present than there is no basis for reality. Only where your presence is, is the reality. There are no countries or presidents or stars etc
Those are dimensional illusion from your own being. anything you hear that is antithetical to your own presence is illusion. Where you are making $25K a year and you watch on TV somebody with a $50,000,000 house, this is illusion. what are the chances of you ever purchasing that house, it is out of your reach, another dimension. People are living in fractal realities you would never dream of
The world is set up like this, there are destinations and cliques only for those that have proved to have sold the nature of their soul. While we plebs sit and dine at the chicken shack while the rich are eating fattened duck liver to stay full. Would you want the fattened duck liver or the small hen in an egg to eat feathers and all ? I think not. Their life is not that appealing lolz
only through suffering can you experience what enlightenment means, likewise through renunciation.
thankfully the newest satanic holiday passed by (nine one one)..they essentially ran out of satanic holidays so the bonesman created a new one for their orgies of blood and human meat eating. I always think to myself unless you were there when it happened it didn’t happen at all.
I dont believe everything the reality reich throws at me, I tend to question some things for weeks on end.
people say I am nuts when I say that New york and the world trade center towers dont exist and why would I say this, because unless you are standing next to the monument with your hand on it. It doesnt exist
Likewise how could you ever begin to understand the ritziness and wealth of a world cruise if nobody has ever taken you on a cruise.
Likewise if people are attempting to rule over you without being present than there is no basis for reality. Only where your presence is, is the reality. There are no countries or presidents or stars etc
Those are dimensional illusion from your own being. anything you hear that is antithetical to your own presence is illusion. Where you are making $25K a year and you watch on TV somebody with a $50,000,000 house, this is illusion. what are the chances of you ever purchasing that house, it is out of your reach, another dimension. People are living in fractal realities you would never dream of
The world is set up like this, there are destinations and cliques only for those that have proved to have sold the nature of their soul. While we plebs sit and dine at the chicken shack while the rich are eating fattened duck liver to stay full. Would you want the fattened duck liver or the small hen in an egg to eat feathers and all ? I think not. Their life is not that appealing lolz
only through suffering can you experience what enlightenment means, likewise through renunciation.
So seemingly so this would make most interactions online
illusion of sorts because they sort of peek into your reality ... Reality itself
is a carefully contrived illusion ...hacked from the dreamstate and made into
an ever presence complete with hybrids who will uphold the slave state, and the
realism at any costs
People that come and affect change in the world through
performance art or what have you are always seen as changing the sphere of
thought. Most don’t have the time to do art or write a book for example.
It would seem those in metropolis’s are taxed with time just
no time at all ....those that live in rural locations have all the time and
peace in the world. I have been questioning my role out here because I have
been shown a place where I could be a forest monk and still have my hair and
run my ministry
To leave reality it seems to be the strongest meditation
available but I feel I would do anything for love itself. And this is my
greatest setback. I actually enjoy the challenges that love brings.
I have been pretty dissatisfied with life lately, virtual
income just trickling in, dealing with the plethora of negative emotions with
marijuana withdrawl but yet I hold onto various degrees of enlightenment...I just wonder lately (thanks to a hot cowboy/horseman/horse whisperer hehe) my role out here....am I missing much ? lolz
Then I am also reclusive and isolated. I observe people in
their realities and there is not much of a reality in some peoples lives. Part
of me would like to say goodbye to the city. I think I am perfect for being out
in the middle of nowhere. I mean I can sit and type for a week no problem.
I think it would be a process to unplug from the matrix and
unplug from the system and the metropolis
So many people are just addicted to simple trivialities in
the matrix like pot or booze that will lead them through a lifetime of
addiction
I am faced with myself after a month long binge. I love
myself. I love the fact that I don’t have to deal with the ADD symptoms like
when I do have marijuana in the same day but have to fiend
so essentially I have myself and my thoughts back
it would be nice to say that I am a waste the past month of smoking marijuana every day
but the discourses themselves turn shorter and more creative so essentially it is me still.
Then you have the people that dont want to listen to the rantings of me online and that is great there are billions of other places one could go, I dont tie people to this blog
so essentially I have myself and my thoughts back
it would be nice to say that I am a waste the past month of smoking marijuana every day
but the discourses themselves turn shorter and more creative so essentially it is me still.
Then you have the people that dont want to listen to the rantings of me online and that is great there are billions of other places one could go, I dont tie people to this blog
There exists no method to safely come off marijuana, and
caffeine. No pill nothing so were left to either suffer through withdrawl or
suffer through addiction.
Part of me wanting to explore this newfound forest reality
in my mind has enabled me to question my surroundings, my path, my future.
Part of me wants to make it inclusive to a newfound virtual
mate. I think in a
way I question whether I am ready for a relationship. A guy with tendencies to
asexuality and avoidance in a relationship doesn’t have any part in it.
But also, I figure out essentially that what I had before wasn’t
love. It was only love in my eyes. I want this power to exist for both eyes
really not just mine. I dont think I have ever experienced true love or true romance. I believe I have discovered parts of it. but a relationship with affection and intimacy has evaded meh so no wonder I call myself asexual at this point. Asexuality is funny because it is not celibacy like the religious orders practice. Asexuality is a dis interest in sex with random partners.
Then given my experience with the masons in the tower with my twin and AIDS
no wonder I call myself this, have a fear of sex, and have a fear of catching an illuminist based illness
and I have no doubts in my mind the elixirs exist to cure one of this virus if you pay enough or essentially have sold their souls
Then given my experience with the masons in the tower with my twin and AIDS
no wonder I call myself this, have a fear of sex, and have a fear of catching an illuminist based illness
and I have no doubts in my mind the elixirs exist to cure one of this virus if you pay enough or essentially have sold their souls
My greatest wish , perhaps to start an intellectual
romance, turn the guy onto me intellectually and then it will all fall into
place. But what is intellectualism without compassion or happiness or the
theory you try and broadcast without sounding too complex. My life is terribly complex I am realizing. but when I am present visually in person I am a simple country boy too shy, not too talkative
Have the need to release tension every day like everyone else lol
Have the need to release tension every day like everyone else lol
I enjoy what my own mind throws at me, and the mind of the
matrix because I am in a literal sense able to hack my own reality and make it
ever expansive and ever present ....Thanks to the horse whisperer cutie I am able to bring my presence from where it is into the country in some rustic setting under the watchful eye of a loving and supportive man who worships me.
This is not based out of ego either, I long for the day when true love will hit and I can show how loving and affectionate I can be rather than shy, withdrawn, isolated etc
This is not based out of ego either, I long for the day when true love will hit and I can show how loving and affectionate I can be rather than shy, withdrawn, isolated etc
When you begin to question your own reality and that of the
matrix you begin to solidify in the need to unplug and I am one of the only
ones that I have made contact with that has the desire to dabble in
intellectualism and the process of illusion. But I also am the only human being I know.
There is nothing like me, in my entire city nor my country nor my continent
well
I have found a few like me on the same continent but they remain scattered
the rest are hybrids, illusion, reptillians or automatons whatever you want to call them lol
There is nothing like me, in my entire city nor my country nor my continent
well
I have found a few like me on the same continent but they remain scattered
the rest are hybrids, illusion, reptillians or automatons whatever you want to call them lol
What a difficult process where your seen as psychotic or
sick for wanting to question reality. With a few swipes of the keyboard your
every past mistake can be shown to the public and you could be made out to be a
psychopathic sex crime induced weirdo but
this is the nature of the matrix
This is one of the reasons why I came public with my trauma
document captivation was to have a place online with my every secret on a piece
of paper, because after that...I have nothing to lose...
I am not scared of people using anything against me. I am
not scared of what people think about me. I stopped caring a long time ago.
Which is why I countered shortly after my diagnosis to entitle myself with
reverend and doctor. Because you cannot be a reverend in universalism and a
doctor of divinity without any universal knowledge or divinity in you.
I guess what I seek is a non scene, non materialist, cute,
hunky, manly, deep, shy, studly, calm, meditating, country boy to call my own!
I worry that I cant provide the happiness needed for
absolute enlightenment and love to take place with all my qualities but I feel
is worth the effort. Materialism is a big one for me. All people have in the
matrix is materialism. Me, I have a room full of stuff, but happy leaving it
all for a flight to Tokyo if need be lol some people aren’t like that. I think
materialism and sex are the greatest illusions of society currently but also
they are the most heavily propped up desires to fund.
just the ability to have sex with random people is too much of an attraction to most
so sex is left as meaningless and pointless with the hybrids or whatever not even focused on love making but their problems and everything else
Were shown media about the total sellouts and all the crap they own. The gadgets and stuff. We become envious and jealous.
so sex is left as meaningless and pointless with the hybrids or whatever not even focused on love making but their problems and everything else
Were shown media about the total sellouts and all the crap they own. The gadgets and stuff. We become envious and jealous.
I think me living rurally is a good option. I think I have
alot to offer somebody that is reasonably human. Believe me I have searched for
a man with human qualities and have not found much out there that is why I am
happy pouring myself into my art or whatever
I have struggled with the concepts of my life the past week and just simply questioning my role.
Being a writer is difficult because you dont get paid for hundreds of hours of hard work
you have to really believe in yourself
likewise, instead of going on the rebound and being co dependent could you imagine if you gave yourself some time to really come to a love for oneself before you can love another
I have struggled with the concepts of my life the past week and just simply questioning my role.
Being a writer is difficult because you dont get paid for hundreds of hours of hard work
you have to really believe in yourself
likewise, instead of going on the rebound and being co dependent could you imagine if you gave yourself some time to really come to a love for oneself before you can love another
It would be a new experience, coupling, intimacy, and
affection.
I have been single for 3 years now. Used to being totally
alone.
I dont want to rush things either, I just want things to evolve naturally....It is tough being an aries because I know what I like and what qualities I am attracted too. I have goals of marrying somebody with the qualities I seek, not just to get hitched and be taken care of in a sense. But to unite and because most of all, I can provide a lifetime of companionship without it ever feeling awkward. I am able to converse freely about subjects and with my enlightened nature. I believe I have alot to offer a symbiance of sorts. When one person falls out of love in a relationship or if the love was never there in the first place then what is enlightenment of one of those in the coupledom going to project. Seemingly would be a waste of time, to try and spread your enlightenment to somebody that has a built up hostility over you
I also believe that a relationship is pretty much illusion
why say this?
because each person literally props up the others ego structure. What most lack is somebody that shares the same interests. Many people are introduced or whatever or just fall into a relationship.
Not many people look for 3 years str8 for specific qualities and in a sense interview dozens upon dozens in chat only to find nothing
I believe I have alot to offer. For a lifetime of happiness for somebody that believes in me.
I have written a book, I have 200 pieces in my art portfolio. I have overcome tremendous amounts of adversity, I have a virtual ministry. I believe I have more depth than a whole site like plenty of fish or craigslist combined....after reading profiles people lack depth. They lack a vivid reality
most I talk to lack that "fuck it all" quality lol people are so obsessed with elevating themselves through slavery or materialism to really come to terms with their inherent enlightened state.
I am almost an anti aries. People hearing about an introverted aries is a delight lol because we are the first ones to figure out socializing in reality, the first ones to figure out jacking off hahaha the list goes on but we will always be the first one to jump off a bridge to save somebody .
This whole rural life may not happen, but it is at least fun to dabble in for the week, gets my mind of 9-11 lol
I dont want to rush things either, I just want things to evolve naturally....It is tough being an aries because I know what I like and what qualities I am attracted too. I have goals of marrying somebody with the qualities I seek, not just to get hitched and be taken care of in a sense. But to unite and because most of all, I can provide a lifetime of companionship without it ever feeling awkward. I am able to converse freely about subjects and with my enlightened nature. I believe I have alot to offer a symbiance of sorts. When one person falls out of love in a relationship or if the love was never there in the first place then what is enlightenment of one of those in the coupledom going to project. Seemingly would be a waste of time, to try and spread your enlightenment to somebody that has a built up hostility over you
I also believe that a relationship is pretty much illusion
why say this?
because each person literally props up the others ego structure. What most lack is somebody that shares the same interests. Many people are introduced or whatever or just fall into a relationship.
Not many people look for 3 years str8 for specific qualities and in a sense interview dozens upon dozens in chat only to find nothing
I believe I have alot to offer. For a lifetime of happiness for somebody that believes in me.
I have written a book, I have 200 pieces in my art portfolio. I have overcome tremendous amounts of adversity, I have a virtual ministry. I believe I have more depth than a whole site like plenty of fish or craigslist combined....after reading profiles people lack depth. They lack a vivid reality
most I talk to lack that "fuck it all" quality lol people are so obsessed with elevating themselves through slavery or materialism to really come to terms with their inherent enlightened state.
I am almost an anti aries. People hearing about an introverted aries is a delight lol because we are the first ones to figure out socializing in reality, the first ones to figure out jacking off hahaha the list goes on but we will always be the first one to jump off a bridge to save somebody .
This whole rural life may not happen, but it is at least fun to dabble in for the week, gets my mind of 9-11 lol
I want to get to know somebody with the qualities I seek, kinda funny to say hey I wanna marry you and you havent even met lolz
I am keenly interested in forest monks call it an obsession so the ability to be a forest monk and still keep my hair and have sex and eat dinner seems appealing to me. lol call me simple. But I just imagine myself starving to death in a hut with no hair or eyebrows and a urine bucket next to me and I think my life would have pretty much ended lol
Just traversing the reality seems to be challenging. Attempting to educate somebody on my virtuosity proves challenging considering the magnanimity of my virtuosity hehe
I am keenly interested in forest monks call it an obsession so the ability to be a forest monk and still keep my hair and have sex and eat dinner seems appealing to me. lol call me simple. But I just imagine myself starving to death in a hut with no hair or eyebrows and a urine bucket next to me and I think my life would have pretty much ended lol
Just traversing the reality seems to be challenging. Attempting to educate somebody on my virtuosity proves challenging considering the magnanimity of my virtuosity hehe
Mixed with those that don’t think like me, that despise my
every action proves challenging as well because I want to be in an inclusive
and inviting environment.
Maybe I am just looking for somebody to believe in meh
I question my reality? please question yours too. It is the
only thing we have left .
-
Shaun A. Delage
p.s. on another subject.... hope you like chairman mew (below on sept 11th) that is the only thing I could visualize as a posting for the tenth anniversary of the towers falling lolz it is horrible how many people died what 3000?
well what about the hundreds of thousands our north american and internationalist forces are ritually beheading in the countries that seemingly started this whole "war" when alex jones rants about global governance and microchips I feel like shaking the weirdo and saying "dude, is already here"
p.s. on another subject.... hope you like chairman mew (below on sept 11th) that is the only thing I could visualize as a posting for the tenth anniversary of the towers falling lolz it is horrible how many people died what 3000?
well what about the hundreds of thousands our north american and internationalist forces are ritually beheading in the countries that seemingly started this whole "war" when alex jones rants about global governance and microchips I feel like shaking the weirdo and saying "dude, is already here"
