Pony Panty

It is funny to live in the country as opposed to a city, I barely see any human contact other than my partner and the beings I do see around me are squirrels, deer, spiders and of course my cat and birds but this should be how it should be for everyone, imagine if everyone in the city got paid to live for two years surrounded by nature, you would have a new understanding of life and begin to look at the world from a more feral existence.

I can see the small creatures struggling all around me, from the baby fawn that ventures out after a rain storm to a slug slowly meandering by my porch, I only try and make their day a bit easier by plopping down a piece of lettuce for the slug or hand feeding some bread to the deer.

For some of these creatures, it is engrained into their minds to be incredibly fearful of humans, but I hope I show them that there is at least one that is nice and won’t carve a piece out of them to eat in my stew.

Living out here has given me a new affinity with nature and I almost feel quite elven and can look outside and feel I am just as a part of this world as they are. It brings me a new unity with these creatures and essentially that is what my distant native roots are passed through the ancestral lines.

I have the choice to be a part of the world however with coffee shops and stores and subway a ten minute walk away and I choose to be surrounded by these trees and animals and live in solitude and peace because I know the bigger metropolises attract some pretty insane characters and are on some pretty vivid ley lines as well so there is always chaos in bigger cities, and nothing ever happens out here. I swear if there was a murder in my village it would cause shockwaves through the whole town and people would be rattled but you hear of 4 or 5 a night in Vancouver for example. Even to hear a siren is a rare thing, it just makes me laugh being such an urbanite to be out here as a forest monk.

I have been losing interest in television lately since I found my ebook to mp3 program and I am on like my 7th or 8th book in the past couple weeks and am actually listening to my own book on my ipod which is just great for an author, it helps me believe in the project even more because I can hear that it is an awesome story.

I think life is a multitude of choices and I feel that the world does not want people to become totally intelligent because they become a vocal apparatus to the system that is controlling us, because they can read or whatever accounts of varying stories that shape their belief system. I like Icke he is an okay guy, pretty welcoming of diversity but the guy is a fucking nutball but then I ask myself is there anyone else? Sadly the answer is no. It always gets to me when I look into conspiracy and then I find out the person is bigoted or homophobic because doesn’t that just go against the whole nature of conspiracy I mean to question diversity even when it is present in nature just seems silly for somebody supposedly preaching about ascension and evolution hehe

Which is why I remain one of the ONLY few churches virtual or physical that welcomes all sexualities and leaves your diverse nature up to you. Gay =ok /Str8 = haha that is ok too but these days there is all types of fetishes and oddness thanks to the internet so got a furry or brony fix ok you are welcome here at the Church of techno hehehe trying to relay that one to a mainstream church might be a tad bit challenging lol

So if your ebook, your faith, your friend, your family, your news, your conspiracy theorist, belief system or education preaches against diversity and remains homophobic then chances are there is not much merit in what they are trying to preach –just sayin’

Well I hope this weekend brings each and every one of you a great time, Please be courageous as we move into the near future, it will bring it’s challenges !

-Shaun A. Delage

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Zenomancer

What a crazy time the past few weeks and they say it had something to do with Uranus in retrograde or something but I don’t follow astrology very much. Interestingly enough to keep up with regular stuff in mainstream society takes real skill since there is such an unfathomable amount of things going on at the moment, from the ebola outbreak, to Ukraine, to Russia, to undocumented immigrants on the US border, the possibility of forced vaccinations, Putin refusing to allow western products into Russia, meanwhile we are still in the literal dark ages and the largest financial collapse in modern history, but things toil on because there is still iphones and Cheetos on the shelves lol

It is fine to keep up with stuff in a sense and I advocate getting your news and updates from many sources hence a diverse range of input from alternative media to a spectrum of news outlets, rather than just either solely mainstream or just solely alternative media.

It is easy to get led down the path of paranoia or ignorance depending where you look for your information. And some of the things happening are downright scary. It seems present moment awareness is the optimal solution and if you are just going to work and coming home and playing xbox all night then there isn’t really a present moment awareness !

Part of my thought process included the possibility of continuing my book series with a third book and if need be I could leave it at two books but I read through the first few chapters of the 3rd book and thought to myself, wow I have something here. I think many writers want to give up but thanks to this blog rightfully named my virtual ministry, I have been given a transferrable skill from something that is free, and that is the fact that I have refined my writing skill quite a bit, and I know I am not the best at grammar and punctuation but I am a super keen story teller and I think that is a good quality of a writer.

Everything in the world is based in words, everything devised pretty much has a writer behind it, I mean it would be nice to be a millionaire and such but that is so unreachable to a person that is just beginning in story-telling. Part of my inclinations for writing this never ending blog include the above mentioned refining my writing craft but another part is karmic reversal, I hope to better serve people that may come across my words in whatever little way that I can, and also to be the first ever creator of the CHURCH OF TECHNO in which nothing is comparable. I used to tie my manifesto to it all in some whacked out conspiracy theory but I figured recently that everyone has a past and the sooner I can let go of mine the better and not to hang on or obsess about negativity seems to be the wisest solution.

Basically instead of complaining about all those that have wronged me, I can turn that negativity into extreme positivity by going into the creative aspect of my personality that turns adversity into a rainbow hehe

Personally I don’t think you really have to be a grammar nazi to make it as a writer, I think you just have to be able to create believable characters and an epic storyline for people to be entertained by and in writing my first book I realised after reading Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas. That you don’t even need to focus on a plot hahaha imagine that! If it is entertaining and unique I think the world wants to see it   –eventually- Not many people have the means to write for a profession, some people can barely even keep a working computer let alone the $200 in costs in word software and printing costs for your rough draft and the cost of an editor and anything else that may come up including keeping yourself sane and supported through the process.

I have come across countless people that talk about being a writer but haven’t written a word or they are in school taking a course about how to write a novel and have not even written the first chapter.

I can say it is a defeating process but once you start battling the hurdles it becomes easier to deal with any sort of negativity.

It is with great pride that Zenophobic has recently made a submission to the Zeno Literary Agency, (my fifth) -3 I haven’t heard from since I submitted and a couple have declined so I find the process to be interesting to say the least hehe perhaps if they want to be very wealthy they will choose me hehe it is a long shot since it is gay fiction but you never know !

-Shaun A. Delage 

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piece by peace

My life lately has been a sad evolution, after living with my mother for almost 4 years after a breakup of 9 years I have decided to leave home and move to a lake beside Victoria named Shawnigan lake hehe named after meh.

Evolution and change it seems are very hard to do, somebody told me after venting some frustrations of living with family –you can move, were all given the same chance in life.

Sadly because of finances and such I felt trapped. Most youth these days are living at home as well and the ones that are not are living in a painful plethora and confusing array of slavery, social obligations and servicing debt

While I view moving in with a trusted and amazing friend a beautiful miracle, that I am permitted to live a rural existence, I am pained by my last attempt to move to the lake, I wanted out but when I got here the isolation and everything got to me

While I also identify as being non sexual with a partner it is easier to say hey bud lets just be roomies hehe

I am rather defeated by love it seems, not being able to identify into a sexual role per se but a technological sexuality

My life it seems must go through stages of letting go for me to move onto enlightenment

My end goals are a Buddhist hermitage on Denman island at the moment and it is a glorious miracle as well that I am able to handle money even as a monk, the kagyu lineage is not particularily conservative and it is a monastery that I will be working to build from the ground up- they have a yurt for meditations an RV and some cabin style accommodations

It has been my focus to ordain as a Buddhist monk since taking two 10 day retreats in the Vipassana meditation centres and while those doors are shut to me there is the ability to possibly ordain in an ancient tibetian lineage rather than the conservative thai therevada lineage

I would have to save up money to go to Nepal to be ordained but would eventually come back as a full fledged Buddhist monk and this remains my focus and my goal

While Buddhism is a rather odd faith to believe in, it is also rather reclusive and  offers things like shaving hair, celibacy, no eating after noon etc which to the common laity seems a bit of an extreme measure but one many nuns, monks and llamas undertake

It has been painful the past couple days almost severing ties to my old life and welcoming and adapting to change, this was my greatest fear- 2012 seems to be a time of not undertaking grave adventures or making undue risks but maybe this is the propaganda at work who knows, just sit back and watch the world go by because it is going to end haha

What I find most appealing about monastic living is being around beings of my own kind, evolved, smart, happy, compassionate, sincere, sensitive old souls striving for enlightenment and it is a life long commitment

The lord Buddha instituted the monastic order to alleviate the suffering of the householding life.

While I also identify with being a lay hermit it seems that this hermitage would fit considering I would have a lifelong income afforded to me due to my illness but I understand it would be a lot for the monastery to take on, a medicated insomniac schizophrenic gay guy but monks and nuns are never perfect

Mostly nobody sees any shreds of mental illness in me, thanks to my medication I am on and it is prevalent in times of stress

It is very terrifying to make rash choices in life and deal with the outcome

But I believe I am being protected and guided by forces none of us can understand

My life was an internal prison structure and I need an evolved step to bring me to my most ultimate purpose. Life deals out choices like this

Most likely if I am refused in the denman island place I will look at moving back to Vancouver or choose to stay here in shaunigan lake hehe

Hold onto enlightenment, it acts swift

    Shaun A. Delage

Rubix Helix

This ministry has always been different,. Literary at best.

Some could say I lead a virtual cult but when you don’t get to meet the people but your aware of the amount of traffic that your site gets it brings a whole new spectrum to the illusions of religion and faith

My faith can be described as matrix buddhist techno universalism then you add in the complexities of me being a vipassi and also have about 10 years of meditation about 3 – 4 hours a day so far under my belt

I only see people questioning the illusion around them when they meet me and don’t understand how i affect change on their consciousness. Here we see a simple expressive dramatic shy gay guy that is very creative leading a virtual ministry with about 3 years of discourses written and logged on the site

If this site was to be made into a movie it would take approximately 400 hours to watch.

Many people do wear their programming, like I would be the embodiment in a gypsy that nobody could describe because the gypsy would only do their work in the shadows and sometimes years into the future which makes the presence in the moment a bit of a time loop paradox

Today I am wearing checkerboard boardshorts and dalai llama beads so who knows maybe I was ordained into a mystical solar suncult perhaps I was ordained into dozens over my life. But the paradox exists solely in my enlightenment because I am aware of how my words, may make an impression.

Coming into a life where you have seen ALL ends of the personality spectrum in totality...something that the super elite cannot even subscribe too. What makes the existence of the church so exciting is that we are in a new millennium we are given new spectrum to work with..

The world needs somebody to shape the millennia and in a way the art movement that exists alongside the church will only set a strict standard of expression in a futurist and populist society to live in

People will be looking to recruit modes of creativity seen on this site. Some people become very mean and start stalking up but I find there is truths in giving your enemies everything they need to defeat you because most just stop at some point and just become fascinated or scared and your never bothered again your simply left in peace.

Anomaly is a new word anew expression and a new voice but so is millennium warriors and matrix warriors as well as metis warriors. SO expressive wit aside It’s time to party

Let’s get frisky with it babe

-          Shaun A. Delage