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Showing posts with label male art. Show all posts
Showing posts with label male art. Show all posts

ChEshire KaT







A long time ago I realized I was on my own per se, and this is terrifying to an individual.
I mean, most people have a family member or friend they can depend on, financially or otherwise
But when you are truly alone, only then can you come to terms with reality.
I have seen others operate, most of their houses are furnished by a rich family member, $700 to save you when you accidentally sent the cell phone company money twice, a new car when you turn 16, help with your first down-payment on a house, money for the new baby room, $2000 to help with the student loan underpayment. I realized I was on my own every single dollar, nobody to help with college, nobody to help me edit my book, nobody that would even care and this is a deafening reality to some while growing up some of my boyfriends were getting their private school paid for and were beaking off about how their servants serving their meal did it from the wrong shoulder, or they were getting a new car thanks to rich pop, our society is extremely unfair in it's setup, and most chav families out there you realize you are on your own from an early age, no wonder there is so much crime and adversity. These rich kids and their families gifting was beyond my own interpretation of reality, in a sense comes with more pressure but incredible to think about.
People don’t even know how much they rely on being helped along by their friends or family.
I can say that I have not been helped along other than a relationship. Just to be completely alone in your prospects is almost painful to most they try not to dwell on it too much. 
When you partner with somebody it is wise to be as kind, fair and just as possible.
The level of people that are suffering alone, is most likely immense, and you see these people scattering away in the sidelines, riding their bike down a highway filled with luxury cars, people still wonder why there is crime, and I observed an aged native man recently asking people for a dollar while they fill their luxury cars with food, and every single one was almost programmed to say NO. probably laughing off the old indian with a liquor store bag in his hands. It is just funny to me that we will gladly pay $8 for a box of cereal and can’t even afford to give somebody a dollar. How we are engrained to just shuffle along the streets passing by a dirty person lying with their hand out tears falling to the street. Technically it amounts to what have we become? Of course there has always been much poverty in the ages.  We have an incredible amount of people that are so broken by this structure and have no motivation to keep it going and very few that actually do in effect keep it moving. Being a part of 3 minorities I have a keen understanding of what people go through in life, myself being part native, disabled, and a gay man- I know in my heart what it is like to suffer and to have empathy and compassion. Karmically we live in a very unfortunate set of circumstances, and it is only enveloping as we go farther into strife with the entire world, safe to say about half the world is poverty stricken living in filth soaked slums, while we in the west live in an illusion of wealth.
We live in this illusion of wealth from little things like running, clean, healthy mountain water, to working toilets, food stores where you can buy any sort of munchies, working power and lights, every gadget one could imagine. How vastly different from India or Africa or S. America
Safe to say that somebody that does not recognize and have appreciation for these luxuries will end up living in something they never thought possible.
How easy it is, for a beautiful city to get plummeted with depleted uranium, for the forces that be to attack the water and sewage systems, and essentially collapse and entire city or country in a matter of minutes to hours.
We are surrounded by million dollar buildings and highways, stores that sell $800 jackets and $40 scarves. Yet we have people that are so sad they must shoot up heroin all over their bodies to achieve any sort of happiness.
It’s almost as if this world was built for the naïve and the ignorant materialist to bask in and not even think twice, about the untold suffering and horrible abuses that some of the citizens of earth must endure to live another day.
They say it is a gift from the Christ or the god that you can have this meal, or live in such opulence.
Where is this power present when somebody gets brutally murdered, raped, robbed, beaten.
Where is this power when one chooses to shoot themself, or jump off a cruise ship, or when a stray animal is dirty and wet huddling under a dumpster, where is this god when a prostitute is working the corner in 6 inch heels, where is this god, when abuse happens, and nobody cares, where is this god when the shelters are full and people are turned away –yet on sub zero cold nights we have the compassion to open more. Where is this power when the governments are passing laws that are downright criminally insane, where is the Christ when 12 police officers are beating somebody almost to death, if this god can see all, then why does it let countless masonic temples and fraternities do what they do, and allow nuclear armed submarines to scour the earth.

I am afraid the only divine, that you will find is within, they have long forgotten about this place.
Imprisoned within the body like a pearl, we all await our fate, whatever it may be.
I just am saying, not everyone here, has arranged to be here, nor wants to be here, This structure by far is the most terrifying design I can conceive of, a magnificent superMAX prison for those that have the most money. And literally those that don’t have the motivation to keep this illusion in place suffer with horrible health conditions and extreme poverty, suffering, and abuse.
The point of this discourse is not scare one away or harass their belief system
The point of this teaching is to make you aware of what you do have, the people in your life that guide and assist, the animals that look up to you for every meal, the plants that need your attention and those that you pass in the street, If you truly want lavish miracles to take place, it is imperative that you start performing a few.

-Shaun A. Delage




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Panty Squirrel








Financial freedom is a positive outlook for anybody’s future but the ability to have spare money at a time like this is VERY difficult for anybody, I know this because I am on a pension that places me far below the poverty line, and I have a government that does not have the poor or vulnerable in mind we have 42 billion annually in profits in my province alone and it would take about 400-700 million to raise the rates of my pension to that of the poverty line, but they choose to coddle big pharma and mega corps and resources over their own citizens it is sad.
So I thought, to myself…what can I do to make sure I actually have money to spend, and the obvious but most difficult one for me was to quit smoking, see I don’t get those things and the hold they have over me, but I have been smoking for just over a year and then I went quite a few years not smoking then a few as a smoker, so an easy prospect but to somebody that enjoys the deathstick between contesting and after a meal and after a coffee the prospect is terrifying
Anyways my cash flow as a smoker is to the penny and my cash flow as a non smoker is like a few hundred extra and some money in savings, it is difficult to quit smoking, I can barely afford to smoke let alone the stop smoking products but my province (the same evil province) lol has a program in place where you get 3 months of stop smoking products free in January so total bonus, and I have tried everything but what seems to work is the gum and the patch.
I am motivated financially haha but it makes me think of how difficult it will be to live in the future if things are this bad now the world is going to have to go through massive change and adopt a pseudo socialist structure to support the people because frankly the capitalist system is causing more deaths and suffering than anything, and capitalism has failed.
I am thinking ahead to two outcomes, either we all sort of live in domes and sustainable communities gardening and with a shoebox home or when China takes over the globe and they show us exactly how the communist system works lol
Things have been pretty good lately just started my 3rd book after seeing a movie “Christopher and his kind” on Netflix, it inspired me enough to get back into writing, and I have been battling whether to continue the series or start fresh with a whole new style. And I chose to continue the Zenophobic series with one more book, and I own the copyright to the Zenophobic franchise which is awesome so nobody could copy my idea or use the name of the book and it is all registered with the government of Canada. Kind of a cool wordplay on Xenophobic and I think it will go far, my distributor, booktango has a program where you can put your book in a repository for agencies looking for books for movies, it is one of my goals to take advantage of this program because the movie would be awesome for rave culture.
That is another thing, set goals, If you have none, you will go nowhere, even if you start with 5 simple ones or 10 complex ones- at least it will get you into a goal minded mind. And expect a lot from life, if you expect nothing and wait for whatever to come you shall have nothing. Write your goals out in vivid detail and fantasize and think to yourself if you play the lottery exactly where every dollar will go, and rework and revise those plans, if you have a vivid imagination things like that friend on facebook that needs a new car, or perhaps you want to help your family members retire, or somebody with a student loan or you want to drop off one thousand dollars worth of kibbles at the SPCA for dogs and cats hahaha the possibilities are endless, it is ok to dream and when you start picturing the life you want rather than expect in your mind it all begins to fall into place, I have worked with vision boards and stuff but find it is way more efficient to work with the mind and send images and words back to the subconscious.

Create the life you want and don’t get bothered by the darkness – I have found a lot of darkness and evil the dreamworld in the scenarios that whomever controls the astral dream world can be very cruel and mean proposing things that are just plain evil or twisted or disgusting and I bet this is the case for those that are ‘dreamers’ we dare not say the dream we had last week of some twisted scenario  that really bothered you enough to give you a migraine. As long as in the waking, you focus on all that is good, all that is beautiful, all that is fortunate, compassionate, and loving. You will excel ! 




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Macabre Bunneh









Much of life is a test, in a sense… A test of how much you have solved the issue of ignorance.
The divine powers rest you in a realm where pretty much anything is available to assimilate and test you to see if you will advance yourself.
Many people read one or two books here and there and give up. It is funny, because there are so many methods to input information, be it Buddhist discourses to audiobooks to videos
But one must be careful too, not to distract solely
I have never looked at my time here as an amusement, and many people do.
I have never wasted a day, perhaps a few hours in the day to lounge or rest but for the most part most of my days on earth have been very successful in ridding myself of ignorance.
It is amusing to think of how I was when I was 20, and many of my current goals would have seemed pretty trivial in a sense
Most people all they do is work and look forward to the weekends when they can booze and chill
I have been in a state of a spiritual life for more than a decade now, and it is amusing because I can’t find enough time in the day to do all I need to forward myself and I have no idea how somebody with more normal concepts operate, and I am sad thinking of it because the people involved in the usual ritual of life can maybe muster up an hour or two a day to forward themselves in the manner that I speak of.
Some days, I am like oh man, another ten hours to muddle about but it’s not like there is any sort of choice on my behalf, I am not fit for the usual ritual and fail miserably and have long since retired at age 31
I just ordered my Doctor in Metaphysics course and Doctor of the Universe
It will be an interesting time in the next few months to prepare for these enhancements.
It is funny to observe all realms of entertainment from the conspiracy far left to the more global far right and get my pseudo dose of information from a mish mash of between the two- I also like to keep up with pop culture, and celebrity culture along with some really bizarre blogs that I couldn’t even classify if I tried.
I have never wanted to compete with other blogs or be a blitz in your face news site with 1000 news stories a day to keep up with, I have always felt that I personally offer a unique perspective and much like the Buddhist monk discourses –I don’t prepare anything ahead of time, I just type
I believe strongly in a godly power or divinity but not counting out gender or sexuality I tend to imagine them as a female or intersexed feline hybrid from a few galaxies over that has inherited our galaxies
But to think in the extreme vague opens one up to the possibility of the universe
Also to extend your aura beyond that of our cosmos is a tough thing to grasp because where to put it…it is never ending when you work with energy.
Recently a cat male named fecklar has come to me in the form of a spirit protector tribal necklace
His main/mane goal is to protect it’s owner and I am thankful
I am also thankful to my readers who follow me where they place their faith in something quite vague a sort of spirituality one lacking in biblical concepts and loosely construed of Buddhism as the path along with endless techno to perform mundane tasks-even meditation!
But one not agree with my entire thoughtform to be expressive spiritually I just think I provide a safe space online intellectually and spiritually to grow and I have provided many links to aid you in your growth an almost xtacy pill of enlightenment when you first encounter the church of techno
The blog and ministry is a reflection of myself so I always write or provide information as if I happened to stumble on these words and try and imagine the reverend saint behind the blog or the person that has offered 1700 ebooks for sale or the person behind the youtube vids
But essentially it isn’t all me, it is also inclusive of you.
You are the Church of Techno *smile*
-          Rev. Shaun A. Delage




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Kat Dander





I cant help but ponder my last living situation and the misery I was going through living with family and a monarch situation where I was endlessly programmed at will
Lately I have been discovering affection, for smaller animals and insects but also my lover
It is a strange feeling having somebody reach across the couch and stroke the back of your head
My life has been void of affection and even as a youngin that affection between family was put in a bizarre sexual context what I would have given for my mother to kiss my forehead or my cheek
To love another it seems, takes some skill….
many are searching out meanings of love or a lover and have no idea what they are getting themselves involved in
My last relationship was void of most affection my upbringing was void of that as well
To actually love another unconditionally is the greatest skill of a human being
I look at my new beautiful and shining baby faced man and I just melt
I told him tonight I won the male lottery finding him haha
Real love takes hard work and takes a kind soul otherwise you will just attract another person like yourself.
Many months ago I felt my life was hopeless and without meaning
I remember going to the beach at 4 am and broke down crying – I didn’t know why love has not found me and why I was stuck in an abode where my life didn’t matter
I was going to jump in the water because I felt I had nothing to exist for and I asked divine nature to please send me somebody that would love me, unconditionally and for my entire life
Now I cant promise how things will turn out but he has the exact qualities I have been seeking in somebody –posting hundreds of craigslist and plenty of fish ads and I finally found him on the website and it was a confusing initial few weeks
I loved him so much and connected tantrically and I wanted him to be mine so I moved in then a few days passed and I cruelly packed my things and moved out and back to a place where I was unloved and not respected
Well the weekends away did help and I finally decided to move back in a few weeks ago
Now I have a shining man close to my age that I love and adore and same goes his attitude towards me and this is what I was looking for – a non materialist, kind, compassionate, smart, cute bloke to call mine
When it hit I walked away from it all and have begun to forgive myself for moving out but change is difficult on any person – thankfully I can move anywhere in my province and still keep my income, something not many people with commitments can do.
Rural existence is beautiful and exactly my original programming and I enjoy living in the peace and quiet of the furest when in the city everything is constantly blaring at you a mile a minute
One of the things that I struggled with was dependency on another – I mean as far as driving or whatever and I couldn’t for the life of me be dependent on another and I struggled with this for quite some time but there is a profound level of respect when you give over your needs to another
Time ticks by and I think of that morning on the beach or my self inflicted suicide attempt and I think how horrible of a world this can be to people and I think about constantly what if? What if I succeeded on my attempt on my life- where would I be right now? Prolly floating away in the astral world
But the Buddhists believe a human birth is very fortunate and takes thousands of years and I see us all here and in this immaculate movie playing out- nobody knows how it’s going to turn out
I can’t help but wonder as well how exactly I am being positioned for 2012
 Without the protection and guidance of my lover I would be still in my taxing living arrangement with family and the constant nattering
I believe those in rural situations will be able to survive in a systemic collapse easily. But those in cities and metropolis’s will struggle and now is not the time to head for the caves god no lol
I have not been a firm believer in 2012 but it is always nice to be prepared
And I cant think of what would happen in a systemic collapse, the light and power go off, internet shuts down, businesses shut their doors, gas prices rise to a $100 a litre
Nobody imagines this, but this is something they have been using as a tool of oppression for many many centuries – the threat of apocalypse be it with the threat of an occupying force or whatever this has been used against us since Egyptian or roman times.
So best to be prepared yet not very paranoid
Blessings blogbuddies
-          Shaun A. Delage




soda supreme



Belief in a higher spiritual power above the cults on earth takes skill
While everyone lays in literal collective hypnosis the religions of the world siphon power into the dark sciences.
It is true that Christians and catholics among others remain the highest in conservatism
Not being able to question why their own figureheads could be involved with freemasonry and child sex abuse at the highest levels
But I understand the energy broadcast at spiritual leaders and can say that sex abuse remains the biggest target
Sex with children was legal up until 1970 same with pornography so just some simple legislations and statutes wont solve the problem, it seems amongst the power elite that sex with children remains the greatest stranglehold on power, and there is countless snuff films being made and other atrocities being done this very moment
It is a terrifying place to live but strange how people view the world as theirs when they simply commute and go back home after work and then go out again only to come home and they believe this is their reality
The reality itself is so dark and disgusting if people knew the real truths of ‘mother earth’ they would think twice about being involved in any way with this so called, reality
But the reality does offer some happiness, comfort, protection and guidance
So many are trying to conform to their own programmed reality they forget the essentials of their existence and their ancient purpose.
It is so engrained into the skulls of our youth to tie down a condo and a car and a dog and a partner and your set but what if none of these offers you any level of freedom, or enlightenment or purpose
Simply to plug away in your almost militaristic employment where if you miss work for longer than three days or whatever or they just don’t like you – you can be fired and cast away
Nobody knows how many people have been cast away amidst the cruelty of the system and frankly nobody cares, simply because we have been desensitized in nature to suffering and causality
Were losing people every minute and hour and its just immaculate when you imagine what the other reality may look like with septillions of souls watching this mini reality take shape, the number is far greater most likely but cannot be quantified simply within the confines of our own perception
Suffering could be construed as immense but only when nobody is there to shake you out of your illusion is there any basis to exist
-          Shaun A. Delage






bisquit









Pondering…..pondering, well the blog is going to continue
I have decided for various reasons, 1) the political climate 2) 2012 3) the possibility of military rule 3) the current internet legislations to take my manifesto offline and out of the public view
Me personally, I believe having a copy of the manifesto for my own protection is vital but want to make steps to embrace my very long prison sentence on earth. Also I was pondering ordination as a Buddhist monk but have halted that in perception because I don’t believe I would be accepted
I don’t think you can be medicated and have insomnia as well and function as a monk
I am pondering taking a personal retreat and discussing the matter further with Venerable Ajan Sonja the abbot of birken forest monastery (furest)
We are going full force into 2012 and most likely a time of military rule so I don’t personally want to be branded a terrorist heck even your grandmother is one because she cans and jars stuff lol
The manifesto itself has served its purpose by providing me with a plot to my second novel
Has successfully allowed to set me free, if charged or accused of anything I have a pretty solid defence
Karmically I don’t want to expend any energy placing the names on the manifesto in the public eye any longer I will cut and paste the contents to one of the first posts for my own protection
Which is why I felt the need to continue on with this blog of universal theory
This blog is vastly superior to a rant or manifesto
It allows me to use my religious titles appropriately
How beautiful it is to evolve
I forgive you, all, and myself most of all.
-Shaun A. Delage