Most people are so heavily invested in everything around them they fail to entertain the thoughts of oh what if my country does not exist anymore how will I live or do anything anymore?
each path is totally different but I fell into this train of thought long ago when trump was elected into power a 2nd time and I was faced with being royally fucked over if my pension was no longer and spending a few years on it then having nothing at some point with no direction or no path career wise
but awakening to my own survival I thought about everything with my life and realized in an instant what steps I needed to make to at least make myself 50% self sufficient so that if the time comes I can step up to 100% self sufficiency if I am forced so around new year of 2026 I was scattered but I knew some aspects that would help me were to get a few working references be it volunteer or also employment -this really sets you apart from the masses chances are you wont last long without references of how you work from people in the hiring processes and also pursuing school to get my provincial standard in janitorial then I took a security course which I can fall back on as well if need be
now I am due to start a DEI course through UVIC tomorrow its just 2 hours a day not that big but it will be a baby step into a couple more years of school in emergency management where most of it will be covered in grants and such and I can rely on my janitorial for life at least until I can use my knowledge in emergencies
after the church I lost a valuable working reference and the gallery I volunteered at that reference moved along to better things so I was left back at square one and I did not even do anything to make it happen it was a disgusting sex scandal and bullying there where the chairman of the board of the church sent his nudes to me and when I submitted a complaint the bullying started and for my own sanity I just left all of a sudden on easter they can clean their church themselves then if that is how they are going to act I am done -partly I had my sanity but I guess I should have fought them all but I could see other things brewing like they wanted me to move into a maintenance role and also work days which I despised
so thankfully I have confidence in myself and left and never looked back I knew I had to start from square one again and it has been almost a year or so of this and not many people can do that in their life with a career they paid student loans for and a million dollar mortgage so they stay in toxic workplaces forever
people wonder why I work as a cleaner when I have 6 doctorates
its funny my doctorates were easily obtainable and mostly honorary so yeah not much I could do with them other than this blog which if you read more than 10 min of this place you will realize I am a fully functional spiritual leader and very humble despite my ego mania lol I just see myself as so much more than the crowds of people out there and this is how you should look at yourself like I survived a few very long narcissistic abuse relationships and just going through life through ww3 and the NWO while smoking weed sometimes which does aggravate my mental health condition but I am also battling addictions as a life long practice like just gave up meat and coffee and kind of revisiting gambling soon I will get more into that in a bit but also have been battling nicotine addiction its super tough I just try and live day by day I know in the back of my mind I cannot survive in life smoking things inhaling is the leading cause of death right now and we were never meant to smoke so much lol just dont want to die a horrible death gasping for air yuck
but gambling my self exclusion ends in a month or so so my goals for the website are to finally stop buying them in person like its 1970 lol but to use the site as a tool I may not login in much cause it has slots and keno and will just use the app to buy lottery tickets unfortunately the exclusionary practices of the site only go so far I have tried to submit changes but they go ignored so I have to use my own decision making skills I can handle the lottery aspect just not casinos and slots cause they make it super addictive and certain sites I play I win tons but also spend every waking cent hahaha so yeah its funny just three years without the site has calmed a lot of that down at least if I want to play slots again I can make a three year choice if I cant control myself but I think this time is different - I have battled so much personally I think I can go far with it its funny like a smoker buying a pack of smokes only smoking one smoke out of the whole pack
it may seem funny to want to gamble on the lottery and not slots but yeah I am just me hahaha vegetarianism is going well I really have finally embraced it along with my working life its just a few hours shifts about 3-4 times a week I just started applying to work now so moving on up after a year of professional and personal development hahaha So I guess the way to beat the NWO is to make sure you are always self sufficient never rely on anyone and be able to see trends develop years ahead just tune everything out and meditate to techno battle addictions one hour at a time-and also try your best to release the amount of debt you have or make sure the amount you take on is affordable but just taking care of your own life instead of rioting or throwing rocks or anything the streets are filled with broken hearts that could not learn ways to cope - I am getting better with ciggies and 420 but its going to take awhile hahaha just make sure your life is nice and pleasant having a breakfast of boiled eggs and toast with english mufffins and jam and some tea surrounded by felines lol and good music and live in a good environment with luxe leanings and talk about how refined you are to other people :)