Just surfin the NWO yeah so long ago I decided it was me and my ethical standing against hundreds of thousands if not millions of freemasons so I just better myself and try and live a just and ethical life without all their fluff I realize I have a lot to lose if donald annexes us but I also dont take his threats lightly I just look at all those with power and they all seem a bit bent some way bent to money bent to secret cults bent to themselves bent to intrigue I just wanted to better myself to the point where if the time comes I am pretty employable and could live a somewhat normal life if I was forced 2 my security course starts in a few days it should be cool to do -I was not doing it to be a guard but for it to help my chances at janitorial somewhat also my home cleaning tech course starts in august should be fun to do that one too since I really enjoy the home housekeeping for people with my gig work I was going to take non profit management but decided that was too social for me to do career wise and totally opposite of what I want to do for my work life its kind of a reaching out for something then realizing you are not nearly as social as they need to do the job I have regular work a few times a week with my home care app and home housekeeping gig work - it allows me to get out of the house and socialize and help a senior out with random tasks at hand its totally cool cause the requests for help are diverse some things are totally out of my scope but I try and assist any way that I can -in the cooler months I will be able to work more often than the summer months I am learning a lot of myself in the process my fears of growing older and my fears of being on my own and going through health issues one of the major things that comes up for me is not wanting to be totally broke doing it all like I was worried what if something happened to a few teeth or something and the government was unable to take care of it like I should have a few thousand put away for a rainy day hahaha so I started to save silver coins and bars it seemed like a healthy go between I found I could not really save cash and kind of want to buy lower amounts of gold like a gram at a time when I am able 2 and build up a nest egg and a safety and emergency fund that I could use down the road sometime just being employable seems a long shot for a lot of people at this time I think a lot of people are like why bother if I am on benefits but I have always believed in the fact that some time in our lifetime there will be a rescinding of benefits beyond our control and to prepare for the worst which might sound a bit fatalistic but I am not going to trust my government to keep me fed my whole life just myself I try and live a normal life but it will never be normal in a sense and I always have to kind of adapt and evolve or get left behind I guess just trying my best to surf the nwo