made a few difficult decisions all at once ended my care app i find socializing and going to houses really anxiety inducing and probably gonna go back to herb and meat again i just want to do what is right for my own sanity like my push for all this was to defeat donald trump annexing canada and become employable but i think that might be unrealistic lol i want to find employment eventually but on my terms in safe space at night again and in solitude not running from house to house all day across town wondering if i will be murdered lol i have realized housekeeping and janitorial are very different lol not going to base my life on a narcissist in my life telling me i won’t find another job like the one i had and will never succeed