Doing what they say you should not do and battling 3 addictions kind of at once -the only big one I need help with is nicotine so gonna get some 4mg gums and cut each piece in 2 so I get 2MG at once I think it all comes down to your starting dose and what you get used 2 and if you are not careful you can get addicted to the sensation of full strength -and gonna do coffee just cant handle the price gonna replace it with a nootropic maybe just have one a day when I get up I tend to drink a whole pot over about 10 hours so that is a bit much !!! and weed gonna really cool it for awhile see how I do I may have a joint or two a day but like the way I smoke stuff like wont have much time left lol takes me a millisecond to smoke it all but most people take like 10 min to finish half a deathstick hahaha its like I already had ten hahaha I was really pondering getting some acid or mdma but like I would only microdose and kind of getting blood tests every few weeks so I think my MD would be like oh wow we found MDMA in your blood are you okay? lmao I would have been like well I thought you were checking my livers so I did not know that it was a drug test hahaha he knows I am on lots of psych meds so if I take stuff that warps my dopamine all over the place it can be catastrophic mentally to go through I think I just need to settle down and take on healthy addictions like art and writing and chocolate and lessen the impulsiveness and extreme leaning to a really addictive side it kind of ruined michael alig in the end so yeah -but I did ok w=ith my flexitarianism I can still feel like wow I am gonna starve to death I have to kill a chicken to eat but that is rare lol I figure just cause I can get endless herb and ciggies and mdma and acid and other stuff like coke via mail order in canada does not mean I have to have it all the time or even at all :)

 **update did ok with smoking and coffee but not really on weed - I realized in day one that 420 is super important to me lol win some lose some hahaha