I am beginning to feel the worlds energies opening up to me,
given my last living situation was pretty stressful but funny thing is, I could
have changed it if I wanted too, I must have been a masochist to live there
haha
Now I am with one of my best friends, we talked about it and
although I struggle and want to find love I cant help but treat him like I
would a boyfriend…we talked things through and I know sex is a strong pivotal
key in his life and I don’t hold that against him, at least I am in a safe and
comfortable forest nook
But I cant help but wonder of the world opening up to me
It is pretty taxing to see the world abnormally as a
nocturnal person and this is what I struggle with the most, almost like a curse
to walk the night. I feel with the right person I could shine and fly
The novels are near completion – there is almost nothing
else I can do to them without going insane haha the art movement is retired and
second life just banned my account for 7 days for featuring obama, Monroe, and Warhol
in my tags – so fuck em, Nazis
I will not put a cent into the virtual world now
Editing the novels seems beyond me at the moment with the
guy I approached to edit has quoted me $3600 – I don’t think I have ever had
thirty six hundred ever in my life lol
So I just continue to refine them and I know they are
bestsellers – part of me has wished I would find somebody that believes in me,
that has a few hours in their day to read them and tell me what they they think
of them or what I need to improve on –but funny to be an aries NOTHING needs improvement
lolz
My 30th bday is approaching in a few days – I am
excited but I cant help but ponder breaking free from an abusive living situation
and being around people that aren’t constantly programming me with their life. Luckily
I had my good bestie friend I am staying with that was able to help me become
more assertive and told me that I was not being treated right
And rightfully so, I was with an energy vampire.
It is almost strange to not have somebody constantly feeding
off you energy wise, because I hold great spiritual power, funny though to her,
my celestial power didn’t matter very much…only how much energy she could sap
from me.
Things like my manifesto, my blog, my novels, my art were a
nono in her mind so I didn’t even go there
Now the world is beginning to open up to me finally
It almost felt like a prison sentence but most of it was
personally induced
Anyways
Gonna go plug away at my novel
Catch ya later blogbuddies
Shaun A. Delage
