What a week or better yet a few days which seems like an eternity in my world yet it flies by so well
I have been making the final preparations to have my online gallery launched
I am going to be taking out advertising in my local gay newspaper here in british Columbia and then in the month or so after i save up some money i am also going to take out an ad in the Toronto version of the same paper
Really is pretty cheap considering how many people will actually see the ad and if you are at my level than there is some substance to taking the ultimate risk of going the full way
Part of me doesn’t want the attention of celebrity hood but i know it is inevitable with my captivation piece and i know with my history of being a literal suicide survivor and turned into a beautiful existence of ultimate compassion and guidance there is only beautiful things in store for me.
I literally surround myself in beauty and love and happiness and reject mostly everything else
It is tough to see myself with loads of cash in the future coming from an entire existence with zero cash
Just trickling in
I have wondered about my celebrity hood and i know now it will all fall into place and for those that know me in the early days will be able to say i know that guy
I dream of having a place like the foundry (warhols party space) where i can invite some people from my life to explore performance art
Maybe smoke a joint or two and smile and order prawns on ice lol
Nobody can begin to understand the amount of work i have actually done in the past oh say 6 years and it has been gradual and highly concentrated at times
I will work intensely on some projects and yet the final result can take years
I know for my book it will take the next few years to fine tune it to publishable quality. Hopefully by then i can actually *surprise* afford a super editor and afford to self publish
I never actually saw myself as an artist
This only happened within about the last year and a half but what got me on my virtual medium was my hacked store adverts that i did (i downloaded 5 torrent logo programs) and designed all the graphics for my store and now those programs are out of my perception and yet the residual aspect of the virtual business sticks with me to this day
I don’t even know how i do it sometimes and in a way this system of visual methodology has given me a sort of super ego rightfully so my super ego has since only progressed since my serious suicide attempt where i place myself on the level of a religious figure that has undergone the ultimate sacrifice for my own earthbound sins in the face of the luciferian sickos that patrol the earth
Why i wonder has divinity forgotten me? well it hasn’t ! I only need to look around at my current living conditions and my ultimate skill and talents and creativity my smile and my outlook to understand/innerstand that i am not forgotten and not cast aside
But it does take unmeasurable skill to do it all on your own an almost superhuman ability
I mean to be completely self directed and i do go thru times of regret and boredom and inherent ADHD where i cant focus on one thing for longer than an hour
But in a way it is good lol
Keeps me in a diverse spectrum of lovin stuff
I wish i had a more social life in a way but i have not found people in my own vicinity that i agree with that are on a path of ascension and i am okay with that because i have too much to do and program anyway
For the time being i do have some very close virtual pals and even some of my family is strictly virtual at this point. It kind of fills an empty void
I cant wait for the day i make my first art sale.....oh, that day has already come lol well i cant wait for the day i can withdraw $5000 from my art account (next goal)
Back to my captivation piece
Haha
I could be sued and jailed for offering this document in the public forum and more with the terrorism laws in place but i am not scared because the document is based in one simple causality....the TRUTH.
So it also defines my art movement to a degree and allows me to be a being and a venue of expression for those that cant express themselves
I guess in a way my life is always in danger but i am tall dark and handsome so i don’t think many would mess with meh and i have already stared death in the face so i am left here to walk off the cliff myself because i know i can glide and fly high and free and soar
Are you wif meh?
I ask my guides to show me the way and what i get is a satisfying surprise i get a nice lion it took me to a forest nest where i was caring for some baby furries for the mother of the furs. I was caring for a bunch of baby hamsters/ guinnae pig-hybrid aliens and one latched onto my finger and started biting and i had to shake it off and it took forever and i had to shake it to the ground it was biting so hard i almost lost my finger man .
Next the lion took me to an office building ...I walked around an expensive office and somebody said i could have a little bit of luxury in my life and somebody wanted to know about my art (a cop) and my life and i was talking about the intricate details about my life and threats and he agreed that there was a threat on me a bounty by the mero bloodline. To keep me poor at whatever costs necessary. Because if i came into alot of money i could really change the world.
Next the lion took me to a city where I was on a bus, i was behind somebody and i got some info about an apartment being available and the bus stopped and i walked into a super mall then a condo and i thought this is weird i am being setup and i walked back out and an asian guy said i will report you for break and enter and i said your messing with the wrong person because i could submit one document that proves i am programmed multiple hybrid and he got pretty scared and then i walked on and found some people playing cards with tarot cards and sat down and played a round.
Beauty is only something that is paradoxical to the viewpoint addressing beauty
One may see beauty in criminality
Others may see beauty in animalistic impulse
You may see beauty in a tongue action hot erotic kiss
They may see beauty in your head being cut off in the square
She may see beauty in your eyes as you cry about what you have seen
He may see beauty in a dogs face walking by him on the path to nowhere
Others may look at beauty as a paradoxical twist of fate but where is beauty but in the self.
- Shaun A. Delage
