Lately i have been searching for an ultraviolet colour outside of the normal spectrum of colours we are used to, to wrap myself in like a blanket !
Going down further the path of renunciation brings added confusion to me being somebody so entrenched in their own literal self sacrifice
It would seem that my criminality produced a self fulfilling prophecy of poverty, but in this i find my enlightenment. And i don’t look at it as such nor do i sit here and brag about my crimes while appearing like i got off scot free and mind you i guess the good ones never get caught and rightfully so i was caught once as an adult of approximately 5000 crimes but here i am in an ascended viewpoint ten years after the fact and able to say holy fuck what the hell happened back then, i mean nutz.
So i am able to be here in a stronger mind and able to forgive myself and there was times where i came dangerously close to learning the ultimate lessons and thankfully i have
It is tough to resist the programming code of my humanity and everything i have known as my humanity let alone address the illusions because who wants to be known as a criminal but that is beside the point
I am here to learn my lessons as are most and mine may be heavily concentrated because i am on my last incarnation here. This may mean something like my last human incarnation before an alien birth or simply ascending into the buddhic planes and beyond. Because it is known that i am not good at following rules and in part me wanting to do the opposite of what is directed to me proves that by my very nature my programmed existence or nature is illusion so technically my human self is illusions
But with how i see it , it is a monologue most days lol
I also inhabit a being of amazing intelligence and a being of exceptional insight and sight into the astral and unseen dimensions because without me witnessing what i need to see there is no recollection of that space or time in any singular consciousness that i am aware of.
So my church does not have a physical building and thankfully it doesn’t i feel in my path of almost homelessness, in my path of renunciation... i wouldn’t be able to upkeep a church anyway.
And my church may seem like a monologue and i may just be a blog somewhere on googles microchip , but at least i am offering a venue of expression for my being to be present and at least i offer an extension of the beauty of my soul eye inhabit.
At least i am able to offer an incursion into peoples lives by an omni presence. Something not many are afforded in life.
It is funny that usually the people that have the most issues with me, are the ones that have been handed everything and sit royally atop their stack of cash with their education in misery
Meanwhile I have nothing but i have everything i want emotionally, intelligence wise, and geared for constant ascension which to be is the very nature of wealth. I am wealthy, yet i have very little.
I will always be wealthier in spirit.
So yeah, while the average pick of the litter cultist dismisses my rants as delusions or paranoia or plain stupidity my words actually attract a few of the highest evolved and ascended souls and they are able to read and reread and go deeper into the blog up to months ago (which i encourage) and think to themselves what a fascinating person, and i admire him for his ability to overcome trauma and personal struggle. To be able to connect on a literary level as well is a surprising avenue for most because it is my belief that creation works in mysterious ways.
For my own history i have always looked at my life as being rather fortuitous and things are not always as they seem, (the opposite reality thing again lol)
And my reality is illusion so why further the illusion when i can work to develop the areas of my life that are void of illusions like the astral plane or my writing or my art. Many think because of my public domain history i don’t deserve happiness and in some ways i have attached to a literally ego mania and the objectification of such. But when you view your own life, its path and the struggles and causalities as a whole and figure out hey i am a distasteful person but when you realise you are the literal prince of distasteful people at least your elevated a tiny bit lol
So my common denominator exists with only a handful of people i choose to share my experiences with.
The rest are illusion and i could care less what the types that oppose me thinks of me, nor what their impressions of my energy and soul are worth in their minds.
I ask my guides to show me the way and what i get is a nice antelope
I arrived in a cruiseship and went in to gamble and everyone was watching a movie so i sat around while the light flashed in everybodies faces and i was swimming in the water and a ship was doing circles around the cruiseship and took us to shore
Next the antelope took me to a pizza place and was crushing on a guy and i was asking if he was gay and he was working with a girl there so i had to be discreet i asked him out and he seemed famished and then went to the front of the store where a guy was getting out of the taxi that was very drunk
Trying to impress the masses
When all i want to do is impress myself
And it doesn’t take much
Just simply a miracle
Of events
And causality
And when one speaks of enlightenment
No others can predict what will come out of an enlightened mouth
Simply spectrum for your new millennium soul.
Spectrum
- Shaun A. Delage
