Making my way into how the known world operates well 98% of the known world anyway i applied for a job today and i am confident that i could do the job to the best of my abilities
Alot of what has been holding me back is the torture of the system and it makes me wonder what other people are going through that are entrapped by the system as well
Being told i am relatively unemployable yet on the other end of the spectrum being told by a psychic i will have alot of power and authority makes one wonder
Of course all men aspire to have power and authority
But just going nowhere but my own artistic inclinations isn’t going to help me
I need to pay bills and i definitely need something to do
My last job was around year 2001 and the employment didn’t work out too well i was going through alot including massive amounts of drug use and experimentation and sex work as well along with my more criminal elements of my life adding to a quagmire of an unbelievable magnanimity of issues that arose
Being with my ex for 7 years almost 8 as well, i didn’t have to work so i focused on my second life business and tending to the needs of a feline maine coon
I hope i can repair my friendship with him, he means alot to me
Anyways i am now at a point where i can accept my slavery with pride and vigour
There is no honour in being poor, i don’t see myself as a failure, just unhappy being in the urban poor
I may see myself as a contributing member of the workforce and attain to get a more fulltime job but i am quite happy working the lower end of the spectrum with a low paying job a few nights a week and see where it takes me
The courage it took to get into the mindset was immense but i know once there i will feel thankful for having the courage and love for myself to look further into employment
I have fears like most do but all i can do is work on myself enough to be able to face them effectively
I feel i have almost zero issues to deal with in my life, if stuff comes up i can calmly assess the situation
There comes a time where you just need to change yourself and your surroundings and take a deep breath and be a man so to speak and step up
Kinda funny to put on my resume REV DR
LoL but at least is an ice breaker
In a world such as ours we see many avenues to go down
And where you will not tread there will be no doors opened for you
How do you know where to go if you don’t tread
Where will you go otherwise
I wonder about everyone about
Do they intrigue me, of course they do
Not only because i recognize the plethora of issues in my own life
I can only imagine what others are carrying around
Yet i relay some of my experiences and most aren’t
Willing to be as open or they don’t have as fascinating of a life
I ask my guides to come find me i get a nice bison
Took me into a room where i was looking at a ticket i had and everything on the ticket was mini but a more solar splendour and beams of light were coming from the ticket itself and mini solar rays flip it over and there was a small mini computer on it with push buttons i kept checking it to make sure its real and found i was amazed in a computer this size i was getting ready for a trip and looked around and the apartment was small sized futuristic and pretty cool in design
I had a science class to go to that the bison took me to next and there was a wat to copy orange tickets and a girl said i hit her and i said i didn’t i am a scientist saeonce so i ditched that class and went to the mens room where i fiercely jacked off some stud and sucked him off lol and then some people from his sports team came into the washroom and he vanished
Next i was sitting around talking about some mafia stud when i opened a book and it mentioned my male beasts blog
Then i was riding in a car with my ex and somebody made a citizens arrest for him for the power elite so i escaped but went home to discover a proposal letter however he got put in jail and i was devastated lol
Time to fly
Time to why
Time to try
Time to be high
Time to be sly
Time to eat rye
Time to sex a pie
Then sorta cry
I just wanna try
I don’t wanna lie
Just be an angel and tie my tie
- Shaun A. Delage
