To live in a place without meaning or purpose given,
even if it was given it would not be desired
To be in a thought-form of a being that would understand most others
would seem illustrious
Yet at every turn the interface would make you feel like your views don’t matter or don’t count
Or better yet, for it... that your ideas are illusion to it.
Completely knowing the path of the buddhas
and there are many
but not knowing it all to the fullest faculty of perceptive ability
would make one assume they cannot help others on their path
Some buddhas would not be able to direct others, some would be happy being silent – possibly helping somebody ten thousand miles away in the energy field
Others can lead the masses , many others would walk thru the streets unknowing of their own destiny but fully able to comprehend that of others.
To live in a society that is unloving, uncaring.... not very compassionate, leaning on hateful with a bit of ‘nice’ overtones here and there with simple reward systems in place to keep the people willingly able to forgive the actions of others
that so, continuously...... make the one go down a cycle of pain and solitude
Mind you life is easier for the extrovert since many can download thousands upon thousands of characters of code in a single night of drunken stumbling
Others, resist. And the Eye shines on their soul. Many have tried to live in complete solitude.
It is next to near impossible. The closest relations would then become the next target of the one
It is a funny concept considering that it is unfathomable for the one to perceive the closest relations karmic aCTIVITY future path, hurtful actions, actions and themes based in ignorance
The only choices left for somebody within the targetsphere of the earthbound curses is to simply nurture those around them
and make the best possible choices for themselves and those close to them
Not to try and protest about life or give into the many addictions available
Of course a spliff here and there or a glass of wine, is wonderful
Or a piece of chocolate or a rich meal or desert but when it runs your entire life and your being
It is time to change and be the path and not just walk it
Any beautiful person will allay the thought that their beauty is a curse
The attraction to the soul is unknown for those that don’t have the beautiful quality
Sometimes it is a sexual based attraction, other times it is the evil eye so to speak- people wondering why they were not made so beautiful and will do anything to stop it or live in its power for some time.
Then you have the people that work hard for their beauty – tirelessly working out or having facial surgery or only eating organics and then treat themselves simply as a sex toy or a tool
Of course the fascination for intellectual aspiration usually does not top the list of qualities to obtain so nobody of this type indulges in working out their mind.
Then on the other side of the spectrum you have the people that tirelessly work out the mind and fascinate themselves with authority and wealth and intellectual curiosities and forget about the body
Of course this formulae for distraction could apply to many types of twins in society
Of course for me to say this, i am 1000 years behind in the times since mystics or philosophers are long snuffed out.... and perhaps i don’t completely know my role in society as of yet
eye aim to be the hot godly type young looking guy that is uber smart with a killer body a completely enlightened balance of body mind and spirit and more mysterious qualities that only people that sit next to you know about.
I ask for my guides to take me away and i know it is brutal to ponder what i will witness
And perhaps i am the only one.
It is sad to think that i may be the only one to see this...
most cannot or don’t.want too they medicate themselves heavily or intoxicate the receptive centres so that they don’t see what it given to them.
I just want to progress and work through saving my shattered soul in every dimension i inhabit or have been thrown out of. Because i have witnessed too much.
What i get is a beautiful yellow and black fuzzy caterpillar
It is so comforting to have an insect like this because it is nice to hold onto and is comforting to be around the first place it takes me to is kind of strange i guess i was an intruder
I was in a huge house big and incredible
I just found myself wandering through it until i walked into a room and was surprised to find a bald man staring back at me and he started shouting
What are you doing in my house
Get out
I am calling the authorities
So i said i didn’t want trouble and that i was leaving
I saw two teen guys and a girl and asked them to help me find the way out of this place
Navigating the yards and rooms and the dads protective will, along with the video cameras
I finally made it out to the street
I hugged the kids and i moved on and said goodbye and thanked them for helping meh
I wandered side streets until i came to a busy small town city centre
I just didn’t like the look of this place it was like a gigantic chess set hundreds of people all around me placing themselves on courses and with duties and had a situational objectification of their self
It just creeped me out
I knew if i caught some transit device out of there i would make it out
I had to go on to bigger and better things
Somebody helps me finally after trying to stumble out a few words of my intention
She brings me to a store and i see somebody i knew a blonde boy that is super cute
He really likes me, which is hawt
He introduced me to three of his friends two boys and a girl
They show me around and want me to live with them
He is hot but he weirds me out personality wise
We go to his place and i wander around for a bit
Feeling awkward and not wanting to stay i grab my shoes and say quietly i am leaving
Nobody hears me so i go and leave my stuff
Trying to figure out how to leave this town
I wander around and see an arctic looking bus
Fantastic
Then my caterpillar was sitting next to me on the bus and we phased out of there
Walking thru a busy street scene slash city countless stores i wander into a metaphysical earth energy store i hate to say witch store because it is such a nasty title with many implications
I walked up to the case and asked to try on a ring
I picked one, that had a normal size ring but a huge beautiful stone on it amber like colour and amazing opulent design where the stone took up vision of most of the hand
I shyly say to the helper if i wear this ring my hands will not be able to operate due to so much power being harnessed on the stone
I settled on a sheet of paper with many many tiny tiny tarot cards that you simply punch out
I walked to a city park and was chilling out when two kids from the Netherlands asked me to buy cigarettes for them, one older teen guy about 17 and the other about 12 or so
We went and i charged them double for it ($20) considering the fine is like ten thousand haha
We went to a nearby drug store where the younger kid went missing and the older kid almost attacked security for not finding his brother
We all fanned out and found the kid asleep in a bin and i went to buy the smokes and spilt a girls coffee at the counter and went back to the park where i coughed up grass on people from the store
Not very nice or not very appealing but is my life and i enjoy it
Two urban chavs tried to rob me so i shouted i have nothing
Just knowing me i probably had a million dollar ruby in my shoe *wink*
The caterpillar took me to a pawn shop quickly
I guess i had to make some money
So i sold some hockey cards and a paper with a green dot on it just great
The guy gave me alot of cash and started doing kung fu moves with a GPS thing in his hands
I did let the door hit me on the ass as i walked out of der
The caterpillar snuggled up and told me that the next vision or placement would be difficult and that i would need alot of courage to see it
I wandered into an operating room
Medical establishment
I was looking at pictures of men on some computer consoles the lady at the counter told me that an asian guy (twink) on the far left console was incredibly hot to me and that i should look at him more
Feeling severely fucked up i looked around and saw doctors and nurses moving into the picture beyond the consoles there was a man laying down in an operating gown on a metal table
The one doctor was sticking his hand right into the guy via his back end and had his whole arm inside the body and i could see the guy on the tables eyes moving around as if he was fully conscious of what is happening and the lady at the desk said not to worry about what i am seeing because i have been there before then she appeared a bit shocked
Feeling horrified i ran out with tears streaming down my face having to remind myself people are paid heavily to live in this torturous medical world
I look and stare at awe at my second life skills for the graphic
I wander around able to lock on as an empathic
I sign my name with heavily pronounced calligraphic
My world around me is subconsciously pornographic
People take snapshots of my life ever so photographic
I see the world as being completely and 100% psychopathic
They bounce that title on me but i know deep down inside i am simply
Telepathic
I see his eyes ever so romantic
He sees me ever so stigmatic
He laughs at my more deeper quality of being nomadic
I smile at his flare for the dramatic
I find him completely cinematic
I know it will take some skill to find him, and not to mention, tactic
I know in the future the world will find our union problematic
But only to the system ;)
I would love to sail away with him on a voyage seemingly transatlantic
I only see our union as something that could best be described as intergalactic
- Shaun A. Delage