ॐ Virtual Church of Techno | TECHNO Ministry • Rave Religion • Anti-Mason + ANTI Police Brutality

I have realized after some time doing porn and blogs that most of the actual worlds attractions and spirituality are actually centered around male beauty whether its out in the open or hidden, so many closet case and gendered sex cults on earth and a lot of people may have wondered why or how I managed to turn down the ultimate treat they offered me in the form of sex money and power…I dont have all the answers but the whole thing just felt off and there was tons of stuff displaying in my environment that led me to believe that I was on the wrong path. I felt these people displaying themselves to me eat people and after I resisted I was locked up against my will under forcible confinement which was not therapy but punitive it all did not matter because shortly after I was able to go on a pension and live a life free of slavery but given lifelong stigmas that follow me around with the power structures like oh he cant be telling the truth he is full of delusions sort of deal but I dont care like my offerings on this and other blogs are creative presentations I dont pretend they are scripture or expect anyone to believe me its all just out there and I dont care what people think-honestly after you exist in a life like mine after some time you stop caring about the greater issues like what will people think if they found out about criminality or sex work or whatever and its so funny cause all that shit was like 27 years ago (supposedly) so its like our whole world is built on a punitive structure so get caught with a bunch of of weed and the freemasons will jail you in their gulags for 48 years but north of the border and that same amount you got caught with would be what an average british columbian smokes in a week lmao its all so fucked

I was so comfortable with my criminal life as a teen that I was brazen and pre medication and I came from some severe brutality abuse and trauma and I know it was not all my fault I was apart of severe satanic mind control and chaos a life of neglect and never mind that the dimension completely reset over that time rendering all memories and relations as complete lies and illusion so what are we left with? well an energy structure and a glimpse of another dimension and meeting countless people that have been lost and we are left with a world filled with brutality sex magic murders but something protects its people so at least there is that

a lot of my life started to turn around about a year ago energetically when I started to make better choices for myself like choosing fully a vegetarian diet I really struggled with it all for quite some time and releasing some of my major addictions like slot machines and herb and smoking and the addiction to complex foods which is like drugs in themselves but like if you are low income you should not have 17 addictions without addressing them

even to this day like 8 months after I quit then a few month break and 8 month prior to that as well I still get an almost daily 5x craving for nicotine specifically which I used to cover up by inhaling herb and yeah I still have the odd pack of pre rolls but like just because its legal does not mean you have to smoke all day every day for the rest of your life -someone on the russian news site comments said you will burn off all your lung tissue and when that is done its done you fucking die I was so oblivious to stuff like that and held fast that I will smoke it until I die but yeah all of it was not leading me anywhere and I felt I was here to help my addictions along not to mention a pseudo co dependency in others and a sophisticated sexuality its all a soup of satisfaction see people say oh you should be ashamed and withdrawn and addicted to meth because you angered some powerful people and showed your dick to them and stole from level 33 shriners and female sex cultists and even to this day I am haunted by them all in regular interactions but that does not stop me from reaching out because everyone has pasts and histories and most of the people judging me are by far 100x more demented and bizarre than I could have ever been just a throat filled with fat and judgement its like be with yourself loser you have disgraced yourself it not my job to judge you or punish you I am just working on my own shit right now so you have fun lol I have always been an advocate for the vulnerable and people that make a few or a thousand wrong choices because we have all been there -its just with a world with so much cruelty we kind of wonder where its all going and in this all is my enchanted little blog -animals love me, my art is plentiful -I have enough muscle twinks to post every day until the end of time and I can look at myself and smile like you have made it -you have battled all your demons and lived past them and beyond them you are gifted talented and alive you are fed making the right choices and helping others endlessly -you volunteer - you do gig work that really helps people you have a great home and surrounded by great people who care and you eat good food and have no worries you will be a matrix success story in the hunger games so let them growl and stare or look at you weird they are all miserable NPC’s that are just a rank wasp nest mating with each other and puking on each others genitals all day it all does not concern you just do ur work no matter what happens and try your best.

so my volunteer work has been going on for about two months I think maybe three I lost count so I go to a kitchen in my area of town not too far from where I work and detail it a bit and clean it up only takes about an hour or so then I have a week off and do it all again next week hahaha I really look forward to it cause if you can imagine cleaning to me is an addictive drug now that I replaced all my addictions with hahaha so somewhere when I did it at the church or in my gig work in 2024 It all felt lame and like a chore and not very fun but I have embraced it fully into my path and my meal ticket and nobody else is stepping up to it so I just will do it all day lol my gig work I have been doing for about a month and a half or so and its super challenging to go all over town on the bus and just wander into someones home and wander around it and clean it up hahaha its funny I sometimes wonder if I showed up at the wrong house or something but i try not to be too fearful

like I go through real human struggles that are not easy like the few days before I agonize about the work and going all over and cleaning someones tub while they stand there with their toes tapping and an angry look but like its not that bad and I realized nothing has to be perfect I am a human being sometimes I cant shave off their tubs but I try my best and if its not good enough they can hire me again to fix it hehehe but the people I meet are very very thankful and grateful because not many of them enjoy cleaning and a lot of them are really struggling with complex health issues that prevent them from doing the work I do the morning of the appointment I am like oh I will just ignore it and forget about it and quit my job lol and like I have to push myself to leave on time and plan everything and I just laugh on the bus like dude this is an easy $75 you are just dusting someones window blinds hahaha its all so funny how worked up we can get about stuff but once you branch out and smile and help others you see the small effect you make on their lives and nobody wants to get up at 6am to a 9am appt and hit snooze 21 times cause you need 2.5 more minutes of sleep I dunno how people do this all day every day haha I have just taken ajahn sumedhos advice and now operate as a witness to myself -just to observe the internal dialogue and make the best choices I can in the moment and after one shift I tend to lessen all my availablity to just two days but usually come around after a days rest hahaha

I hope to gain a bit more experience and a few more working references and gain a more predictable working life that is less day time and like I had before I only need to work two days a week with my pension but with the lunacy of the USA I am almost at the level mentally where I could work full time I would really struggle but the threat of homelessness hunger and failure including my meds and luxuries would be on the line so that like most people in society with families or life partners would almost be kicked in the butt to get out there and work -it has not been easy like going to school for a few days and getting up to volunteer and other things like social anxiety and stuff but I am on a regimen of good meds that help a lot like tremendously for all that not just my main issues but also the anxiety of facing the day and endless traffic and the weirdness of the matrix hahaha

it was not easy at all I made the right steps by taking a walk around the block at 3am in winter for a few weeks to prep me so school would not be such a shock and like everyone you see that is not an NPC could also be struggling with this all as much as you so smile at them and show them who sent you into this matrix :) shake what your momma cat gave you haha