you would think I am bored sitting in my room all day for 23 years lol bills are paid art to make things to tend to if I am super bored time to read some of the 5k books I have or meditate to techno or do contests or blog or go in SL or do my budget or my lottery budget or do some art maintenance or write some barron sex fantasies or chill and do nothing and listen to ambient sleep music its great I just love it but I am trying to get busier with work and volunteer stuff responsibilities and lessen addictions at least to the point where I am able to eat and afford one or two trying to manifest things and have come super far with gambling smoking and making a life for myself life is good it could get a lot worse but it also could get a lot better with a lot of hard work and compassion just even quitting smoking for 7 months is an act of mercy ahaha paying rent every month having a month off weed or being able to afford some fruit are some pretty awesome life steps I am fortunate to have a good life cause not everyone has this I pass by some souls that have lost it all -not going to take them under my wing they have their own issues to deal with and I am sad for them but I dont feel guilty I want to get to the point where I have a few toonies to give out if they need them and some better crow chow than cat food like cashews and croutons or something lol hahaha like its just the little things being thankful you have a meal tonight or a healthy sexuality or you are not slave to a toxic mate or several addictions