i am slowly getting out into the world more on a daily basis about 3-4 times per week for a couple hours of work its been slow and steady but I just listen to some confidence and stress release affirmations while I am out have an anxiety pill hahaha and just try my best going into new places and homes and a large amount of trust in me to enter these peoples places I just focus on the cleaning and most people I find dont bite my head off or anything they are actually pretty nice and happy to get their home cleaned but it is hard with my complexities and social anxiety to sit on a crowded bus all across town but I have done it enough times its starting to be actually okay and I am not as crazed about it but I sometimes just start sweating due to heat so I pull out my magnetic fan and I am about good to go after the job is done and I am not going to a wealthy persons house somewhere else in town I kind of breathe a sigh of relief and try and find my way back home but the heat here is supposed to die down in a month and a half I just hate summers hahaha I am glad I did not waste another year never leaving my room and just doing art and blogging and stuff that does not get me anywhere but like I mean money wise so at least i can have a few paydays a month now and I really wanted that for the last year since I quit the church job due to a perversity there hahaha but like I kind of want to take on another job soon but it has to be right and yeah I have to keep in mind I am starting my studies soon for the next couple years so I already work already its a pretty cool care app and nothing but nice people with various injuries that cant or dont like to clean :) its a good path just cleaning some strangers toilet does not even phase me anymore like after doing the church for a few years i just know how a proper toilet should look for the comfort of the next person using it hahaha