1) Derek the beautiful muscle hunk from washington state that I almost? killed myself for in a foreign country (suspected freemason apart of the 13 illuminati bloodlines) [Van duyn]
2) the artist shahee -we met on a corner in the gay area and then moved in together and split up a few times I rendered him homeless so he never forgets that and then we got news in papers the world was going to end so he introduced me to my next boyfriend whom we went with to alberta with in some strange concocted plan then when we got to craigs parents I left with patrick for a few days to drive around edmonton split up with shahee nevertheless the ride back was weird cause patrick insisted we take shahee back that should have been my major red flag so I found out shahee cheated on me with patrick before this event and then I lived with patrick for 8 years whom cheated on me with you guessed it shahee with the 21 inch cock lmao patrick showed me a pic of all his brothers with their dicks out too that should have been a warning flag in my onset I believed his family was trying to eat me and when I went to visit him a few years after we broke up and the cruises etc the family had put a freemason floor in his laundry section -I always suspected it was strange to be there but gave it the benefit of the doubt just everything he was telling me when I remained friends was mostly lies I was like wtf is this dude on but I was safe and well fed with him so I thank him but he wanted to render me homeless after I was hospitalized on the psych ward nice fucken heart prick-lived with "kitty" the best maine coon in the world -shahee/craig tried to program me to abuse young girls in an MK ultra scenario by tying in reading to anal sex then he "invited me to READ" to the children thinking I would fall victim to this I would have been blackmailed to be the next sai baba with them and under their control in gangstalking and masonic shit but I have never fell for attempts to program me I smoke too much weed for that and would never hurt anyone like that
3) patrick see above cohabitating with shahee forever more (suspected freemason)
4) Chuck moved to shawnigan after I met him on plenty of fish and lived there for 7.3 years with a misstivitz cat she died after under a year and chuck said I had to move out because I told him I was asexual then I moved out back to my moms and a few months later he was evicted and forced to move into a strip motel in Duncan for $4000 a month so I told him my mother had a suite to move into in her building that was around $1600 so he moved in then got a job as a handy man and then was trusted with stuff with the building my mom had a sort of breakdown or episode and she forced me to move out in the middle of winter on 20 min notice so I ended up at the psych ward twice and then decided to move in with chuck temporarily so chuck basically gave me unfair boundaries like I HAD to move out in 4 weeks or he was going to have me "removed" this fuck I lived with for 8 years totally moved in took over my life and then treated me this way I was the one that told him to go on a disability pension have the suite in the building and referred him for his job- and told him he should go into medical transcription he walked around nude flashing his microdick he really gets off on it or something and would go nudist boating with his straight friends so due to the unfair boundaries and stuff I was facing homelessness and had my job at the church and was going through a lot of stress so I decided to take off to iceland for asylum made it to vancouver and was like wtf am I doing so chuck had packed all my stuff and stored it in the 24 hours I left to van thinking I was gone so I moved in with him for another week or so then found my roomie and then moved to a new place after for him to treat me like that and my mother too in a group effort to bring me down was really too much thankfully I could be in the comfort of the christ at the church I worked at cause I have never dealt with anything that hurt like that ever some things came close but nothing like that I was ever expecting he said weird MK ultra shit to argue with me so he had reason to make me homeless like oh your penis is not that big it is the same size as mine when mine is clearly a normal size lmao I just grinned and like he said something to me that connected shahee in a conversational weirdness that just made me think maybe there is some weirdo controlling them all his mom is one of the leading experts in targeted individuals and when I met him i told him I was a presidential monarch slave and he was always totally trying to discredit that in me and my accounts which did not make sense he was not invested in me that much at the time he got super angry at me when I came back from vancouver on my way to iceland when I was the one that should have been angry at all this shit a totally delusional mentally fucked up fuck that causes chaos he got his best friend princess fired when she was the one that told him about the cabin in the lake he seriously fucks over people that have helped him once he is comfortable like I mean shit people kill themselves over he is an MMA trained fighter he swapped his family for mine and took over my life pretty intense eh? I am only speaking about this cause I am in a good place in my life now
totally fucked but they are all the reason I am single for awhile 1) asexual 2) discovering my independence 3) breaking out of narcissists abuse cycles 4) breaking out of co-dependence
almost all of them I was almost rendered homeless after each one
thank god I did not stay with any of them not really many gay asexuals around so I will just get fucking extraordinarily wealthy instead of entertaining some strange fucken dude all day lol
I suspect all my exes are replaced by other people at some point or supporting actors that look like them but that is another blogpost all together lol
now I am really making a life for myself really discovering a lot of healing and my own betrayal systems and a lot of the stuff that controls us and I am probably going to take a college program for two years in 2027 to get three degrees (from the same institute I did my security training through) that I can actually use workwise unlike my PhD in religion that does not have any employment prospects whatsoever and have been upgrading my employability with janitorial this year (building service worker courses + security act course) and after the lewd photos that were sent to my email by the chairman of the chuch I worked at and resigning all of a sudden I lost all that I achieved getting the job in the hasty resignation but I have been slowly and surely building up my employability in the past year or so so I feel confident in anything janitorial wise that I can always fall back on and I am due to start a DEI course in sept at UVIC for three terms and just finished a micro course at the same university -I have been volunteering at a local kitchen for about 8 months and have been doing my seniors care app since 2024 with a year or so break so I found out essentially I can work that is the important thing even while technically disabled
I have never wished ill or harm on anyone and its not up to me to seek revenge I just move on and leave all them in the past and just grow from it all its all I can do I just leave it up to karma to deal with them and I know some of this has to do with my own negative karma in samsara it just feels like I have had an immense amount to deal with is all but I am strong hahaha I solved my homelessness by getting a mad fresh room in a great house and will always have an emergency fund in case anything happens and a great career in cleaning now honestly people knock housekeepers and janitors but its something I really enjoy doing and have done it so much now its not even work I am not finished in my life I have goals for the next few months and next few years just going places its funny cause cleaning supports all my artistic stuff and I felt there was nothing for me workwise or could not work due to my disability just prefer introvert jobs hahaha I felt a lot of jobs require you to memorize insane amounts of useless shit that I could never really get in a way I think I have some sort of residual effects from the drugs in my teens but like being mostly nocturnal or erratic sleep really makes things in life hard just going to really wealthy peoples houses to clean them is super cool to see how people live all their art and maybe talk for a few moments I tend to just focus on the cleaning not politics or religion or sexualities and I dont care if you are jewish or muslim or a satanist I am just there to clean the house for 2 hours and make $50 nothing moar hahaha