Just riding the new world order these days I was pondering all that it has taken me to at least get employable again after I resigned from the sex church where I worked as a janitor to be honest I thought I was going to be there till I was an old man the situation was ideal I was left alone to do my thing most weeks but life had other plans for me however having to resign because an older chairman of the board started a bullying campaign in the gay church after I made a formal complaint about him sending me nude photos of his genitals and anus to my work email so the church decided that this fuck was too valuable for them to lose and I just kind of took my hat and bowed out I did not realize that i should have stayed and fought them all and kept my job but I had my sanity and my morals as a spiritual person to live with at the very least they taught me that I could work after being on a disability pension for so long and that I really loved the solitude and responsibility of being a late night janitor but to be honest there I was just a cleaner hahaha so in the year or so that I left I made it my goal to not be a regular old cleaner but to become an executive janitor that could possibly have the credentials to work in the legislature or a fancy hotel or condo or bank so shortly after I resigned I took a building service worker courses x2 for $660 each which is the provincial standard in my province for janitors then a sentence rang out in my head from the teacher of that course that 70% of janitorial is security hahaha it solidified in me that I was thinking about taking a short security course to boost my credentials only about $400 my future was not in security however but it did make me knowledgeable in the security services act of BC and citizens arrests and the use of force etc so now have those three paired with my GED and several doctorates and now in a few weeks I am attaining to do a two day seminar on becoming an executive housekeeper for higher end clientele which I already do as work through my seniors care app -I have been lessening my work in the hot months and may pick it up a bit when the weather turns a bit - then in sept will take a university level micro credential in Diversity equity and inclusion - I dunno why I signed up for it I just wanted to be inclusive and accommodating in my employment in the future and accepting and affirming hahaha then I am thinking into the next year or two about a set of courses to take further in emergency management and with the current state of affairs politically and with fires and the environment there will be a lot of work in that field hahaha they have an associates then a diploma then a bachelor If all goes well I will just take all three since I have tremendous amounts of grants and bursaries to take the courses I think the first year will be totally covered then the second year half covered and so on who knows same maybe for the last course I looked at and exhausted searching in things I was obviously talented in like graphics but found all of them (100%) to be diploma mills and scams so maybe keep it as a side hustle it just makes me think how much effort I have put into all this this year and how someone in the united states in a wasteland for fresh food and employment and liberal culture would be lacking the opportunities that I have found out here- literally a wasteland that is void of employment and proper education in something they are interested in and are not even passionate about seems most people in my debt show are between $80,000 upward of $300,000 in debt in student loans and can never pay them off see here they have zero interest and tons of bursaries and benefits and even paying off $10,000 worth is only a hundred or so a month its pretty awesome like something you can pay off within a few years if its not totally covered anyways - but I dont see myself employed full time unless I am forced 2 - so I am going at it a different route making careful calculated steps kind of seeing if I could get a part time job as an executive janitor while I take larger courses and just throw it all at skills since I battled addictions like smoking and gambling and 420 remains a work in progress -I have so much cash to work with so throwing $140 a month at a student loan repayment is not that tough hahaha my gig work has been teaching me a lot about people and the working life…I find I have to shake off a client from home cleaning after while they just start getting too strange but I am working on at least trying my best to keep clients that want to stay in that working relationship I just find some people to freak me out with their riddles or whatever and I just have to move on for my sanity just wealthy people that treat you like you are their scuz bucket its like ok loon time to move on lol I at least have made it an effort to try and keep the people that book me time and time again at least until they totally weird me out hahaha I have been in a. period of self isolation lately after a failed family visit that just imploded - for my own sanity I had to just go silent ban everyone and go quiet - I am not really that close with my family or reliant on them and just it was all getting out of hand I just could not take all the pressure and bowed out and you would think I would be sad or suffering but I have been thriving took on a gaming computer about $2400 worth and a few other items like a chest freezer and I have future goals of getting a lump sum for my disability so that will pay that off hahaha but if I get my federal disability it opens a lot of doors for scholastic endeavours and saving a shit ton of money on school and with my taxes while I work so that is great hahaha I have vowed to become 100% vegetarian again have one more week of meat left and its time…I am doing it out of loving kindness I see a lot of the problems in the world like donald trump and the economy and such can be attributed to the slaughter houses network and there is greater rumours online that a lot of the ground meats we have are actually human beings too i guess we would never know really I just have to get more nuts and tofu and stuff to eat so I dont waste away hahaha and I still eat cheese eggs and some milk but have never really got into bovines milks much seeing how addicted people around me are to drinking this super large species milk all day its like astounding much prefer almond or rice milk but having a chest freezer will allow me to stock up on bread and stock up on other stuff since my fridge freezer was so full with roomies so I was always scared to buy like 6 packs of perogies cause its like where would I put all of them hahahaha now I just want to sit inside my chest freezer all day with the heat hahaha they should put a warning on it do not sit in this thing all day you will ruin it you little bitch !! ok I wanted to do philosophical shit but my boring sex filled life is way more interesting and I know I share too much as a confessional blogger but it is what I am here to do and its proven to be very popular xoxo