I know I attract a lot of the evil eye -envy and jealousy and I dont say this lightly or via the ego people think oh he does not have to work that much or oh he has 11 blogs or a book or does art all day- oh what a special little butter cup but like none of my life was easy or the easy route my mental health struggles were legitimate and my own attempts to better myself were a by product of my childhood wish to become extraordinarily rich but if people put in the same work I did they would see that it all does not come easy right now I clean peoples toilets to make money hahaha its more honorable than sucking an older daddy off all day or letting them feel around inside my asshole butt like I am just trying to keep afloat and my head above water like everyone else a lot of my life makes me enemy #1 for someone that works 12 hours a day and like are like well must be nice - nice what to live around the poverty line forever? I just want to be a good person and I give every single being the benefit of the doubt and try my hardest with everyone but not a lot of people care about me I mean strangers ahahaha thanks lol but it sometimes feels like just me out here so I just try my best to be a good person through all I have been through the satanic ritual abuse and tons of adversity and anxiety and have discovered ways to heal myself which is great but I cant go around blessing everyone to like me lmao truth is eye work on myself most people i interact wif do not and it’s sad