so I came to a personal compromise with work just gonna work 6am -10am and get home before it gets hot then pick up all days when the weather is cooler and also list myself all night lol I figure there may be a nocturnal person that needs their whole house cleaned at some point hahaha its pretty cool my company I just was overheating at my last shift and had to travel 2 hrs there and back and only get paid for another 2 hours I worked i think i have to have a ton of clear personal boundaries like not travelling over an hour one way to work lol and if I feel like quitting my job I have to build coping skills like taking a 5 min breather or taking my emergency psych meds or just thinking about things for 5 min instead of quitting hahaha I really do enjoy the work and stuff and it seems to fit for now I just have to do it day by day now doing all this and making an effort is better than being broke as fuck like everyone else hahaha