I think I just need 1 out of 25 meals to be meat for me to be healthy and happy just to keep me motivated I am totally against the cruelty and stuff so maybe this is my abilities at work I recognize I kind of need to have a meat meal once and awhile and should not really torture myself over it its kind of way better than the middleground hahaah just eat meat socially I guess i just wont buy it or support the meat trade for the most part but will cave once and awhile so i dont die lol