I dunno what anyone would suggest with me? like therapy cant really do much or afford it medication on a few hahaha just with my past and history people would have ended up in different paths a lot of abuse and craziness I feel there is like a level where you are unretrievable but for some its a good way -i work to lessen my addictions and try and help others do a lot of art therapy and blog a lot of porn and have a super healthy sexuality despite that and happy on my own but -animals love me I am about 60 % operating capacity of a normal human being hahahaha just try my best I just wonder if it is hard for other people I know its hard for me and always has been I kind of hold onto an illusion that it will be easier with some fiat lol but will probably be 10x harder then lol just seems like a never ending war on personal sanity navigating this place and emotionally our own past with no therapy or help oh well art it is lol I just seem to be doing 90% better than most people in the United states these days it all just depends on your outlook I just figure people are like oh he needs to get back into the weed or get laid or something lol