This shit does affect my mental health and puts me into war or survival mode but I know I have very little to worry about in canada like so many safety mechanisms in place like society is so vulnerable to begin with just meds and shit alone but like I wonder how the constant barrage of fear and chaos affects people without the level of reasoning or medications I am on -I just remember that its ok to be a bit prepared and that I am susceptible to mind control and psychological operations and that I have things to pay for and debts to clear instead of getting 1000 bags of pancakes lol its just hard not to identify with the chaos of being a supposed american when you live so close to the border and hear 10,000 references a week or month of them constantly like the most ego maniacal state on the planet have to hear every aspect of them constantly-I am trying my best and maybe not stocking up on pancakes will be the wrong choice and like I just have to take care of a few smaller debts to be wholesome again budget wise and then maybe focus more on survival but it just seems right to lower my payments instead of getting 100,000 caramels to barter to people in the apocalypse lmao