I have no words to describe how I feel -its a mixture of being one step or one person (a god’s) divine protection from hauling us off all to the camps.
got out of survival mode.... a lot of the donald trump stuff has me wanting to endlessly stock up on pancake mix so I can eat them all when the world collapses lol
But personally my life has been insane lately- getting geared up for winter and getting to a place of healing were I just want to be alone with my creativity and visiting cats…in fact my feline soup kitchen is going so well that I now have amassed an antifa army of radical leftists (2 felines- an older siamese and a younger tuxedo cat) to take over all of Saanich now. I guess I could take over all of saanich with these two but they would be fighting with each other all day so better to keep to ourselves but I have total loyalty hahaha
I did a reverse 360 on my debt rantings from the past year - like secret tweaking of my credit score has allowed me to accept the fact that debt is pretty much all of life so the better your relationship with debt hahah the better your credit score-I kind of waited for an opportunistic time to take on more debt when I felt a bit more accomplished and to be honest I have worked very hard on my computer since I got my all in one desktop I feel it has served me well and while she still has a few years left
I felt the need to reward myself with a lower to medium grade laptop- I chickened out on the low grade gaming laptop that was like $600 more -could not justify it all -since I dont really game much other than sL.
SO I waited until my score was higher than ever and jumped for a deep dive hahaha its just listening to my sequel with the ai jock twink reading it courtesy of google and I am like wow I am going to be so rich with this series it is by far the most phenomenal project I have ever come across and hard to believe the series is all mine. Its not just the computer voice but like the way he perfectly enunciates the entire novel in a dreamy way that only a cute young guy could do. its got the perfect mood, form, structure and eloquence of a book not influenced by mainstream literature which is something the world needs more of…so I jumped at the chance to bling out my dream house even more with a bunch of cool stuff and the payment is a reasonable $92 a month hahaha took on two more reasonable sized not too drastic credit cards and made plans to spend a few hundred on each and then pay another one down and use that for recurring shit- I am not gonna do the shit I did 10 years with debt and credit since I did not even know what my credit score was back then there was no way to check unless you were a bank.
I just came to the conclusion like wow I fucken work hard for my money cant really buy anything all at once and I listened to enough of the ramsey show to really drill into my skull this is a big fucken deal to have “creditors” bro -these new world order vice roy’s are extending credit to you and if you fuck it up they will squeeze your balls off hahaha but like the ramsey show seemed okay on a surface level but did not make a lot of sense when here you have a bald male wealth influencer with hundreds of millions of dollars that preaches against things like having a credit card (because he could not manage it) and to get rid of all debt and just pay for things like cash and he was very angry and opinionated on a lot of wealth subjects like the lottery but like the nutter had dozens of people calling into his show that had like 30+ credit cards so it was interesting to hear about how people struggle with debt etc just found that this multimillionaire was giving out unsound advice with money and very strange advice lol
I worked super hard since about June to finish my gallery in SL and its been challenging and long and tedious but I always imagine what I will feel like in 10 years when I start to make an income from what I did and also the feeling I have when I finally complete a project and can move onto other things…
but I could justify it all cause like I work hard on computers I should be okay in that department - one day I will be on a $130,000 rig but not today and not right now lmao so $700 laptop for you :)
the goofs must laugh at the unemployed religious guru applying for credit, its simple the blockchain has approved a lengthy revolving relationship with you so plz proceed.
some people I see out in the matrix are hobbling with their luggage and screaming at people and here I have just a wonderful life full of guidance and protection but only because I constantly beg for it -and it always wasnt this way.
life was not always this fair to me but oh well
and sometimes I think about the 1005 or so memories I have of the flashbacks I remember and things that just did not make a lot of sense to me…
just making my art has given me a few gifts - a photographic memory (also for men) hahaha and a certain confidence level in my artistic side
and its not like ego maniacal or perverted or anything like that like an obsession with twinks lol its more than that like I totally see myself as allowing guys that are gay or bi to have a very affirming view of themselves and their love of male beauty
which is a very good thing!
Recently I checked my lottery ticket and on two tickets won a total of $95 in one shot that was a good feeling the 2nd highest I have won on the big ones the first one I think was quite a few years ago won around $160 on lottomax and I was like holy cow but it really just showed me you could manifest all you seek and actually do this.
just quitting smoking and successfully quit slot machines over a decade ago showed me the incredible will power I do have and can use as needed
Techno has totally reprogrammed me lol
my veggie meat is like gone out of business and I was like well fuck what do I eat now cukes in bread or something or cut up tofu and eat it in bread and I was like ok have some fucken turkey or chicken in sandwich meat like you are permitted lol you did try- and while I am about 80% veggie these days its ok to kind of walk back on your choices a bit sometimes
oh the world is insane and everyone is so caught up in a huge spell but honestly I dont really ingest a lot of it like I read about it all but like I am not going to fight with an ai chatbot all day about the state of donald trumps ankles its like all bonkers
I am just so busy with my own life I dont need to send countless pounds of energy to him personally to achieve his death camps because it is happening only through my own brain at the moment and the thing is this whole super reality could be happening through a cats head and eyes or a twink in esquimalt or an older female in new york who knows but to an individual perception there is lots of psychotic ritual magic and dark greek life taking oath type magic taking place and it is all around us, implying and trapping our whole farm of mind
people are always like oh its his mental illness talking but that is always the trap they set for people like me, when there becomes a time when you are just on the mensa society train of thought and they really dont care about your mental illness at that point but also curious where you personally will lead the world next.
I always thought the world would be totally insane in the NWO never thought I would own the domain lol
I never even thought that there would be comforts to it hahaha like one thing out of place and a day later credit extended and a purchase agreement in place that is denied 90% of people lol
let it all be