So I moved places about 3 months ago and I changed my environment totally -I don't want to get into specifics cause it would sound like my manifesto lmao but like I moved into a well appointed place next door to my old place -while the old place was suitable it just became a bit unsafe and uncontrolled so the opportunity came up to move across a driveway which I am normally not really an opportunist but this seemed to all fall into place wonderfully they are right when they say change your environment and your whole outlook changes like I was stuck in survival mode in my last place worrying about winter etc and planning to camp in the forest if donald trump invaded which I probably would not last like 4 hours on my own like catching fish and cleaning my body in a lake etc living in a tent hahaha but um like moved and I was suddenly thrust into my lottery home for even cheaper than what I was paying in my old place with more tenancy rights so yeah I took it and I only had about a week or so and was shocked at how easily I could move and attain a damage deposit and it all worked out financially and stuff it was tough the first month cause I had very little to work with finances wise and just been settling in with new really awesome roomies its a dream come true...and I decided to call off a friendship to my other ex who was being accusatory and negative and always questioning my choices etc so I continued on in my narcissist shakeup and decided I cannot live with that anymore and took a couple weeks off facebook to see how I would feel and I was creative driven doing a lot and not thinking about what other people were trying to control me with now I have literally nobody in my life that is relative of a support network but I am way happier these days just the thought of xmas on my own finally with no commitments and no expectations with a catered turkey dinner seems appealing I just think they drill it into all of us we need family and friends to help with life when if you have the right environment and the right mindset as an introvert keeping up toxic relationships is really taxing and takes way more energy out of you that you can even imagine....like I cant get past the ruthless betrayal that some of my closest tried to pull this year (they parrot oh its in the past get over it) like um no doing a group effort to bring me down a few years ago was enough for me to really question actual family loyalty and come to terms with deep seated betrayal and I cannot tolerate people in my life that do not care about me personally -everyone I talked 2 about it seemed dismissive but this shit all really hurt me and even professionals were telling me its nothing keep going its like everyone in my life is just bent or something and making me think I am crazy for feeling hurt about all this shit when I would never even think of treating another person like that and I only had the best intentions in all circumstances which is unfortunate and lost my meaningful employment due to a toxic pervert and its like fuck no this free will shit stops here with me if I have to go at life alone it will be that way for my own sanity so fuck em all anywho I am too driven to be stressed out hahaha so its all good going into a really good fall and winter and a lot happier destined to just live with myself forever lmao and endless techno just been editing the sequel to zenophobic its called zenophobic reunited hehe its gonna be a few months to edit it in grammarly but going places its fucken great :)