don't hunt all day on the apps for a cock that develops into love or another alcoholic to pay your way like build relationships you have currently and one might evolve like don't be so thirsty for love you will settle for any creep cause they can trap you with them your whole life serving their sick energy needs and if you dont have relationships to foster then maybe its a sign you are here to learn independence - I honestly don't know why I searched for the one for so long it was literally 15 years of dicks in my face that led nowhere and I am not even sexual the past 22 years or so and don't like affection or being told what to do all day - I hate cooking and can survive off veggie meat sandwiches every day in a month lol same cat food cat chow same old day same old life lmao its like maybe I can make it on my own like its not all about love its your mealticket for the co dependent- like don't have someone fall in love with your 10 inch penis but have them admire your courage -intelligence and/or talent and if nobody recognizes that then go at it alone - be independent don't count on anyone to feed or house you endlessly even the prettiest boys get dumped on the street with a few trashbags