I really struggle with my choices pre diagnosis of my mental illness - after I was gifted a complete diagnosis my life improved dramatically on medication and I worked to better myself - I struggle with a lot of the choices I made 30 years ago but also recognize I have grown into the reverend that I always wanted to be...a youthful elder that can assist others through suffering because the guru z3n8 has suffered a lot but I think i made the powers that be kind of go wtf? a few times growing up hahaha I was literally psychotic and I was helped along by my country and hospitals to work through it - A real success story !! i just kind of scowl at people that put down psychiatry and tell everyone to stop their meds etc it has all brought me so much comfort and stability and a really good life to embrace my mental illness and work to heal myself ....